Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Today I have placed myself back on Stage One. I entered my actual current weight, which is 395 pounds. I reset my goals and due to the health rule Spark has of only being able to lose two pounds per week, my new goal date is December 31, 2008. I'm going to do my best to get to my goal weight of 195 before then, but then again, I pretty much coasted through 2006 and that could happen again. But it isn't going to happen in 2007.
I tracked my breakfast already. I didn't do too badly but then again, I guess I could have survived on one packet of Weight Control oatmeal instead of two. I get 2020-2370 calories per day though, and I always wake up hungry no matter what, so I indulged. Excuse or reality, I dunno. *shrugging*
I have my 32 ounce bottle of water by my side and will drink it throughout the day. The one glitch I'm going to have until I settle into an eating schedule on those days is going to be when I work the overnight shifts at work. That's going to happen at least twice a week and some weeks maybe more. I do have to eat some type of protein mid-shift or I get too tired. That much I've already figured out. I've also found that I have to avoid anything that will spike my blood sugar and then cause it to crash, which also makes me tired. I'm guessing my best bet is going to be a nice salad with a bit of cheese and meat on it for the protein. The other option would be to eat my breakfast meal in the wee hours but we'll see how it goes.
I am resolved to get back to the art of taking care of me again. Mandi is a big girl (and getting bigger ... hee hee) and Tim can take care of himself to a point. His depression has been pretty bad lately but he won't see anyone about it. He is very stubborn. I could make myself gain all my weight back but I'm not going to. If he won't take care of himself, that's on him. I'll do what I can to support and encourage him but his health is up to him. That's taken me a long time to figure out but it's how it is!
I was going to wait until January to get back at it but that's just plain silly. It isn't who I am and I'm not going to do it. Today IS the first day of the rest of my life and I'm grabbing it and running with it. Got my Spark goals set and I'm moving forward. No more waiting until another day. Today is THE day!