Wednesday, January 15, 2014
So much for the positive self talk. Anyway, I am having a problem these days. Life is different for me than it has been in many years. I am post residency (thank all that is Holy!). I am working in a real job. I am married. I have a step daughter. Life is good. Great even. But it is different.
Finding time to workout has been a challenge. I choose not to workout after work. I get out of work at variable times and it is often late. I am tired and hungry. I choose to have dinner with my family and spend time with them. I don't want to cut into family time. Weekends are busy these days as well and I rarely manage a workout. I have found that the best time for me to workout is in the mornings. I get up at 5:30 AM and that gives me time for about a 30 or 45 minute work out before it is time to get the family up and moving. We have a small gym in our apartment complex. It is small but more than sufficient for my needs. I can go there and get in about 30-35 minutes on the treadmill plus some stretching. Or I can stay home and do 1 to 2 strength or cardio SP video.
Here is my dilema. I HATE going to the gym! I hate going out in the cold and the dark even for the 3 minute walk it takes to get to the gym. I dread it! I am nervous walking in the parking lot of our complex alone in the dark when most of the buildings are still dark. It scares me. We live in a safe neighborhood and a safe complex. But still, it makes me nervous. I don't like it. I am nervous the whole time. Looking over my shoulder. Obviously, I make it to the gym just fine. Usually there is one or two people there which makes me feel better. I work out. By the time I am walking back it is light and people are up and moving. No problem.
I know that I need to do cardio. I know that I burn more calories on the treadmill than I do working out at home doing strength training or whatever. I know I need to do it. But I don't want to. I would MUCH rather stay home and do a 1 or 2 videos, drink coffee, pet the cat, and have a few more minutes of time to myself.
Today I wimped out this morning going to the gym and did a video at home. I got out of my conference early and had time to go to the gym this afternoon. And I did. 30 mins on the treadmill. Done.
SO am I just being lazy? I don't really want to work out so I use my fear not to workout. Am I being silly to be afraid of the dark?
Can I find a way to work out at home that is as effective as 30 minutes on the treadmill and save myself the scary walk in the dark?