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Ready to pull out my hair and then.......

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Upset and frustrated because I've tried everything I can think of to solve a problem, and nothing has worked. Aside from gagging her or smothering her what's next? That's how exasperated I am with her!


I could slap her silly with a dead cold emoticon but it's highly unlikely it'd knock any common sense into her!

The tension and stress at my work place is so heavy right now I'm ready to take it roll it up in a ball and throw it right back in the face of the person who's causing it.
Have you ever had a boss or supervisor who you couldn't please no matter how you tried or what you did?
Well I`ve got one and I`ve already confronted her with her negativity and it hasn`t done any good. Well it helped for about 24 hours. It doesn`t matter how well I do my job she finds something to bitch about. Pardon my `french`but there`s no other word for it!
These five days she has had off have been blissful yet still stressful because I`ve been dreading her return and reactions,.
I CLEANED that entire building in five days pitched and tossed got rid of garbage, reorganized spit polished every room swept and scrubbed floors upstairs and down and windows You name it i did it and her first words when she walked through the door yesterday....
This place stinks! Yeah of cleaners and disinfectant you ungrateful wench! You know what... I walked out on her. I just turned around and walked out the door. She was blathering on about whatever and I just walked out, went to my car and went home.
I left her standing in the entrance with her mouth hanging open. Looked good on her.
So today when I go in for my four hours I'm going to take care of the two rooms that are occupied and that's it. Nothing more nothing less. See how she likes them apples.

But ya know after all the bullya I can come here and get a lift.
Yesterday I logged on and went directly to my e-mails and there in my inbox was
LIGHTHEARTED65 leaving this message on my sparkpage!
Hi! I find myself looking forward to your inspiring messages, even the grueling exercises, lol. I must have been in a cave the last couple of years. I am so glad a friend finally let me in on spark people. I have neglected myself for a long time . I am excited to get healthy again and am already finding that I have more energy. Thank you so much for the motivating messages! I will be looking forward to tomorrow

And LOVESWEET sending me a goodie with this note:
I am giving you this relaxation music because you have in so many ways, taught me how to like myself. You have been with me through some very difficult times, you have always made me feel like I counted. It is people like you that make me want to be a better person to others. Thank you for being there when "I" really needed you. I have just received word that the Judge has already signed off on the probate, if all goes well I will be able to move on to Texas by the end of June or the first part of July. I will continue to be with sparks. Have yourself a Blessed day!

And it made everything alright again.


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COOLMAMA11 6/16/2011 7:01PM

    Lordie set your standards so high, and then *they* come to expect that and more from you..I would just have a heart to heart with this person, and ask exactly what your duties are, I used to work like you, my employers sure got their money's worth and more, but like you they keep trying to get more from you...pays off in the end though, got a nice raise, and a little more respect after my talk lol! I worked for a family run Floral business.

Hugs Elaine emoticon

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VMASSEY2 6/15/2011 1:00PM

    Working on a serene atmosphere here. I cleaned out the freezer yesterday, changing the beds today and going through some things to get rid of. You really are a true inspiration. This is about the only team I really participate in. Thank you for being here.

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PROT358 6/14/2011 11:21PM

    Maybe reflect on the situation tomorrow morning when you are (probably) a little more clear-headed/logical. Have you tried be direct with her about the problem and what you think she should do differently? Hope you figure it out!

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I SO Need to do this!;RETREAT!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Going on retreat is a time to cocoon so that we may emerge ready to return to our lives with a new perspective.

Occasionally, we need to pause - and step away from the hustle and bustle of modern life. One way to do this is to get away from our daily life and go on retreat. Far more than a vacation, a retreat offers us time to ourselves to rest, heal, reflect, and renew our spirit. It is a time to cocoon so that we may emerge renewed, refreshed, and ready to return to our everyday lives with a new perspective. A retreat gives us time for uninterrupted meditation so that we may go deep within and spend time with ourselves.

A retreat may offer quiet, solitude, and sometimes even silence. Retreats often take place in humble dwellings with simple fare so that our senses may be reawakened to the beauty of unadorned tastes and the sights and sounds of nature. When we spend days in contemplation, we can more easily hear our heart when it speaks to us. We also are able to really listen when a bird sings, deeply breathe in the smell of flowers, grass, or earth, and delight in a soft breeze blowing on our cheek. When we go on retreat we have time to connect to the sacred geometry of a labyrinth, discover epiphanies through asanas, or take a long, reflective walk through the woods where we can give each step our full attention.

Without the pull of deadlines, relationships, the Internet, or other media, we give ourselves time to go deep into our own solitude where we can fully reflect on our joys, sorrows, and fears, owning and releasing them as needed. We may even come to know and understand our life path more deeply. Hopefully, when we return home, we can take a little bit of this time alone back with us and create the space for deep reflection on a daily basis. We also may come back to our life renewed and ready to take on the world. The beauty of going on retreat is that no matter where you go or how long you stay, you’ll always meet yourself when you get there


Sharing your Fears

Monday, June 13, 2011

No matter how brave, strong, or levelheaded we are, sometimes we all get scared.

Life can take us on a roller coaster ride full of highs and lows and twists and turns. Even for those of us who enjoy unexpected thrills, it’s frightening to suddenly find ourselves heading for a deep plunge. Yet, it happens to all of us. At these moments, it is important to remember that you are not alone in your experiences. No matter how brave, strong, or levelheaded we are, sometimes, we all get scared.

Our fears may revolve around our physical safety, particularly if we are not feeling well, living under difficult circumstances, or doing work that exposes us to hazardous conditions. Or, we may be experiencing financial woes that are causing us to be fearful about making ends meet. We may also fear the loss of a loved one who is sick, or we may be scared of never finding someone special to spend our life with. We may be scared to start at a new school, begin a different job, move to a new town, or meet new people. Whatever our fears are, they are valid, and we do not need to feel ashamed or embarrassed that we are, at times, afraid.

It may be comforting to know that everyone gets scared, and it is perfectly OK. Sometimes just acknowledging our fears is enough to make us feel better. And while it sometimes takes a lot more to ease our mind, we can console ourselves with the knowledge that life can be scary at times. Giving ourselves permission to be scared lets us move through our fears so we can let it go. It also makes it alright to share our fears with others. Sharing our apprehensions with other people can make our fears less overwhelming because we are not letting them grow inside of us as pent up emotions. Sharing our fears also can lighten our burden because we are not carrying our worries all by ourselves. Remember that you are not alone.

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PETITFLOUR 6/14/2011 3:40AM

    You are so right. internalising anxiety is one of the worst triggers to well being. It makes it almost impossible to conduct a normal joyful life.

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VMASSEY2 6/13/2011 4:18PM

    A good Blog. I absolutely agree whole heartedly. You have to share with others. Sometimes they are afraid also and don't realize that they are not alone.

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Forging A Chain

Saturday, June 11, 2011

When you endeavor to help others, your actions may have an impact that is greater than you might ever imagine. The support and assistance you provide can become the inspiration that compels the people around you to adopt a similarly helpful attitude. These individuals may first question your motives, and your answers can do much to encourage goodwill among all those who inhabit your environment. When you are honest with regard to your deeper intentions, others will likely see that an accommodating spirit and generous attitude can be easily integrated into everyday living.

We can do our part to support by simply offering others the gift of our generous and selfless assistance whenever opportunities to do so arise. It is easy to overlook such opportunities as we are taught to respect self-reliance above many other virtues. However, a chain of support must begin with a single link, and each of us is equipped to serve as that link. We need only help one person to inspire those who bear witness to our actions to be similarly accommodating in the future. If others ask us about our choice to lend others our assistance, we can then share our reasons with them and perhaps influence them to adopt a parallel philosophy in their own lives. When you support others in their endeavor, you can be sure that someone will find inspiration in your actions.

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VMASSEY2 6/12/2011 5:45PM

    And you are the start in the chain for me. I don't know what I would have done before finding this team. Thank you for the encouragement.

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None of us are meant to hide

Friday, June 10, 2011

When we hide and try to be invisible and unseen by all we are only really hiding from ourselves.

At times, weve all wanted to crawl under a rock and hide away from the world. We may have preferred to be invisible rather than let other people see us or notice that we exist. This desire not to be seen often happens when we are feeling very hurt, angry, or simply weary of the world. And while we may console ourselves with the defense that we are shy, an introvert, or a loner, we may actually be hiding.

When we hide and make believe that we are invisible, we can think that we no one sees us even though, truthfully, we are only really hiding from ourselves. And while we may try to live life as inconspicuously as possible, we only succeed in becoming more conspicuous because people cant help but notice that we are trying to hide our light. None of us are meant to hide; each one of us radiates a unique brilliance that is meant to illuminate the world. When we try to dim our light, we diminish the natural radiance of the Universe, and we deprive the people around us of the unique gifts and talents that we are here to share.

Stepping out of the wings and letting your light shine is actually a way to serve the planet. We each have a responsibility to contribute to our community, and we do this when we let ourselves be seen. It doesnt do anyone any good when we try to hide. We are all beings of light and we are here to light the way for each other. When we let ourselves shine, we become a bright mirror that others can see their own reflected brilliance through, and they cant help but want to shine also. Shine your light out into the world, bless those around you by sharing your gifts, and watch the universe glow.

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TJBLEEKER 6/10/2011 10:39AM

    That was great! I find myself shying away from the world (and cameras in particular) when I am feeling down on myself. I am really just hiding from myself and not facing the fact that I'm making bad choices.

You also made me think about the fact that when I do that, and focus solely on my weight or what I ate that day - it colors my whole world and makes my interactions with others much less than they could be.

Thank you for sharing!

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PETITFLOUR 6/10/2011 4:03AM

    That's a great inspiration to overcome shyness.

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SUNSET24 6/10/2011 12:54AM

    wow that was DEEP, thank you for sharing, hugssssssssssssssssss

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