Saturday, November 27, 2010
Tired, tired, tired, and cranky.
Long day: left my house at 9 am, and got home at 8 pm.
And my day wasn't spent at the mall, nor on personal diversions.
I'm tap dancing as fast as I can....
I've been told I spread myself tooo thin,
but that doesn't make for a 'thin' me.
I want to eat bad things... I guess that's a way of rebelling without
rebelling and acting out. But I won't eat bad things.
I've already tracked my food and drink for the day.
I made a cup of herbal tea. Drank it hot and plain.
Need to go to bed, and pray for perseverance.
Tomorrow is another day...
Taking a day for myself, to do fun things, things I like and enjoy
sounds like fun. But it ain't gonna happy.
Too many things need doing.
Sorry I'm so cranky.
I'm looking foward to tomorrow, maybe it'll be better.
No, I KNOW it will be better.
Friday, November 26, 2010
I love Thanksgiving, but tomorrow I must get up early and go back to work.
It's not like I work a conventional job; tomorrow the church roasts turkeys because its our turn to feed a meal to a local ministry for the mentally ill, the chronically ill, and those with addictions. This is wonderfully fulfilling, but its the planning and details that are demanding.
So... onward and upward. Time off is wonderful. To be able to sleep beyond 6 am, to be casual at home, and not be consumed with details. But I give thanks. I give thanks.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
This week I walked every single day;
of course, taking a week off work helped.
But as I walked this morning through my tiny, historic village
little things made me grateful:
Little birds flittered thru the branches of the bare trees.
Every home I passed revealed kitchen lights on, people preparing for the Big Day!
There was the sound of rifles from the Gun club, getting ready for deer season on Monday.
And when I arrived at my door, it started to snow, lovely and peaceful.
I've done well thse past months.
Why I am grateful:
I have a bed to sleep in every night, and a roof over my head.
I have clean water to drink, to cook, to wash, to clean.
My refridge is full of nutricious food.
My closet has lovely clothes and shoes I wear to my every-demanding, yet
ever rewarding work.
I have what I need; anything else is just frosting on the cake.
Thanksgiving dinner was just Dave and I this year, but it was okay.
I prepared cornish hens (baked with the fat removed),
and roasted brussels sprouts with carrots,
and homemade, low sugar cranberry sauce with apple.
And low sodium stuffing.
We did allow ourselves a glass of chardonnay.
How good it is to be alive, and grateful for all good things.
Last week my doctor was amazed at my progress:
I've lost 36 pounds since I started here at Spark in August;
my cholesterol was cut by half.
so many clothes I'd put away now fit me.
I am sleeping better; my skin is improved, and no more acid reflux.
I am grateful for all the little steps I've taken,
for all the tools that have helped me achieve these steps,
and for the future. But I'm still on my journey..
I am grateful. Thanks be to God.
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
Tuesday was like a Monday on a Tuesday..
a long, trying, difficult day. Too many people needs, too many things on my 'To Do' list
and not enough time for any of it.
I finally pulled into the driveway at 10 pm, made a tall glass of iced water,
put on my cool jammies, and logged on the record my eating for the day.
Oddly.. oddly.. I only logged in with about 749 calories.
and that was after a good breakfast, packing a healthy lunch with lots
of backup foods and beverages..
I was so busy, and so stressed.. that I forgot to eat!
Imagine that: forgetting to eat!
Never in my wildest dreams... would I ever.. forget to eat.
I was too tired.. I took 2 tylenol, crawled between the sheets, and fell out.
I was wide awake early..
that's happening many days since I joined Spark:
I wake up, bright and bushie tailed, and I'm HUNGRY!
So up and at 'em!
I'll get myself going, pack some nutricious foods,
and try to take some time to eat.
But it is a new day; maybe not so hectic.
I'm on my way.
Thanks for all for sharing your inspiring lives with me.
This journey is worth it.
Monday, August 02, 2010
tonight's walk wasn't so bad; my first days of walking were horrendous,
I was achey, creaky, puffing, and agonized.
Tonight.. was almost good.
I'm re-learning my pace, how use my arms, and whole body.
How to stretch and prepare for the walk.
I've learned to keep my head up, and see the lovely countryside,
and not stare at the road, and complaining.
And I'm enjoying my eating plan!
Now my husband wants to get in on it!
but I can't do it for him.. only he can do it for him.
So we shall see.
But I'm doing this for me,
for my health, and well being,
for my sense of self,
and for my future.
So far, so good.
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