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Understanding happiness

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Happiness is a state of mind, not a way of life or a destination that you'll reach one day. Bumps in the road of life are to be expected, and we cannot let them ruin our days. We often think that if a combination of factors would just fall into place THEN we would finally be happy. Satisfaction can only come from within, through truly accepting yourself, your life, and your circumstances. During this life you'll have many hard days--long work days, sleepless nights, worrying about the future, etc. This week, think about the joys of your life. Find creative ways to enjoy the little bumps in the road.

...This was in my email this morning and was just what I really needed to read today.

I had a horrible night of sleep last night, between dreaming about my son and college, to being half awake worrying about paying for college, I woke up feeling worried. Roger and I were talking last night before we went to bed about this situation, and about how we feel he doesn't appreciate, that he "expects" and I am worried about what it is going to mean to us. Whether little Rog will be living large at school and we'll be home scraping pennies together to to and get by, it's a dilemma that we haven't figured out yet. We plan on giving him a lot of financial responsibility in this venture, we just haven't figured it out yet.

Anyhow - I got up this morning and walked out to the kitchen and Roger had already been through the paper and WorWic had their last semester's Dean's List published today and Roger had made the list for the first time last semester.

Somehow through this - I have to keep thinking of the positive and not worrying so much about what this is going to do to us financially. I have always tried to live my life so I would have no regrets and I know that if my present attitude would rub off on my son so much that he decided that it wasn't going to work and he gave up his dream - then I would definately have regrets.

So today - I need to focus on being happy today. Not once we get this figured out, or once he graduates, or once I get to 205 or 199, I need to remember my blessings and be grateful and happy for what I have today.


Getting back on track

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Well - this would be entry #1 - maybe trying to sort through some emotions will help me get back on track.


I've always been a stress eater - it's been part of my escape. Trying to deal with stress created this person who numbed anxiety with calories. Being fit took time I didn't have. It took effort I evidently didn't feel was valuable enough.

But then I found it in myself to get the strength. I found this incredible group of women sharing the same journey - the support is amazing.

I did get off track. I weigh approximately 7 lbs. more than I did before I left for the cruise. And I've been back since the 1st of July. I have remained on vacation from the effort it takes to make progress.

What works for me is maintaining a gym schedule. Logging my food. Pre-planning my next day. Getting on the scale each morning. Drinking my water. That's pretty much it, not daunting at all.

I know it's worth it. I'm going to get myself going and get back to 205. That is my first goal. The next goal is 199.

I just have to stick to my schedule.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KATHY68 7/24/2007 8:29PM

    I know you have the strength to accomplish your goal. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for. :)
Gooo Leslie!!

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