Monday, January 27, 2014
Okay, so here's the epiphany (this is a heady one - just so you're forewarned':
A week ago, I woke up, feeling nauseous. Like, feeling like I'd need to head to the head asap at about any minute. No fever, no headache. Tired. Exhausted, actually. I called into work. I had a quiet day at home. I napped. I wasn't hungry at all, not that I felt like I could keep anything down. Tea. I drank tea or warm water all day. I knew my body was trying to tell me something.
Yell me something, is more like it. "Don't feed me crapola. You know what I'm talking about. Stop with the sugar. And what's up with the cookies and crackers and chips? Why are you stuffing me so full? And you're not drinking enough water. I'm dying of thirst. Haven't you noticed that you don't have to pee that much? I'm freakin' dehydrated here. How do you expect me to do my job when I'm starving for wholesome food and dying of thirst?"
Slowly over a couple of days the nausea subsided. I gradually regained my interest in eating, and opted for only whole foods, whole grains in moderation. Fennel tea. Lots of water.
Then I went to a regional training session for work, and bumped into W. We were talking about different approaches to healthfulness and he told me about this guy he met who was really into Ayurveda. This thousands of years old practice suggests that there is only one thing wrong with humans. We humans think there are many things wrong with us, but this practitioner insists there is one. Stubbornness. And it is stubbornness, this resistance to acknowledging truth and changing behavior accordingly, that creates any other troubles we may have. Physically, mentally, what have you. And the more you focus on wanting to do something a certain way, forcing a solution that doesn't fit, or wishing that a situation was different, the more stuck you can become. Entrenched. Dis-eased. Unhappy. And your body will fight you.
So let go of your stubbornness. Find a different way. Embrace the knowledge you know that works. Stop trying to wish things weren't as they are. Look for a different solution. Point your canoe downstream.
Do not misinterpret that to mean that you should give in. Uh uh. No sirree. It means that you have to accept - really accept - wisdom. Listen for your own wisdom in addition to the suggestions of others. Honor yourself and your body. Treat it with all the respect it deserves. Feed it right. Things will start to shift.
Thursday, January 09, 2014
Committed to aerobic workouts 6 days a week. That's going fine.
Eating? Yes, very much thank you. That will come in time.....
Thursday, January 09, 2014
I went to the gym today, expecting to do some boring machine. There was a kickboxing class warming up. I haven't taken a group class in a very very long time. And kickboxing even longer. I got an encouraging "join us!" wave from the instructor.
I plucked off my earbuds and join them.
Jumpin' around fool. It was hilarious. And more fun that I expected to have at the gym today.
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Could be a Country song title. You'd think I'd be wiser than that!!
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
What's happened since August?
A lot of personal change, great visits with family and friends.
AND I gained back 10 of the 25 pounds I lost. Hard won pounds. Pound I though I'd never lose, and then was so grateful, gleeful, pleased and proud to have lost. Pounds I swore I'd never let creep back on, no less pile back on. Pounds that are weighing me down, making my pants fit more tightly, blobbing around my waist when I sit down, leave me wanting to peel my clothes off as soon as I get home so I can get into something comfortable. Pounds that I think about more times during the day than I care to admit. But I'm going to admit it. And I'm making the changes I need to change.
I continue to go to Weight Watchers meetings, even though I'm above my 2 pound leeway for Lifetime. So, yes, I'm paying. Literally (as well as figuratively). I was speaking with one of my WW pals last week, the two of us lamenting about recent gains. I heard myself say out loud "Yeah, I'm still over goal, and I paid again this week. I just don't know why the scale isn't moving." She threw out a couple of suggestions: tracking, measuring portions, paying attention to mindless eating. Huh. Aren't I already doing that? Uh, NO.
Ding ding ding. So, I DO know why the scale is moving....in the wrong direction. I had an early and exciting start to the cycling season. Kicked off a bunch of miles and rides and felt strong. Followed that up with a crazy hiking season, finishing off the last of the 48 4000 footers in NH. And then? *insert crazy squealing car brakes sound here* I pretty much stopped my activity. And, I let the unhealthy eating habits creep back in. And....well...suck it up Girlfriend. You DO know how you got here.
Whatcha gonna do about it besides bellyache and give myself bellyaches? Huh??
I spent some time looking for engaged Spark communities to participate in. I found a post from the Veneto group I'm a member of, and re-engaged with that material. I'm re-commiting to WW fresh - like a brand new member. And I've exercised for at least 30 minutes 4 days this week.
More details to follow.....
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