Tuesday, August 19, 2014
I'm to the point where getting dress for a hike causes an outfit crises. Not happy with how my shorts fit, my shirts fit, or how my thighs rub together. Or the lumpy bumpiness of them either.
The cycle usually starts the afternoon or evening beforehand. Committed like all get out for the next decisions to be good ones. For me to finally break the bad cycle that I've been in of overeating. More times than not, it's healthy choices....just too much of those healthy choices. Or falling down the trap of chocolate, or cheese, or....something that racks up the calories quickly.
The next morning I wake up. Motiviated. A new day! New choices! I choose healthy for breakfast. Drink plenty of water. Enjoy the healthy food I brought to work for lunch and snack. Then....somewhere after 3pm.....through dinner.....after dinner.....
It. All. Falls. Apart. I've tried to say "which will feel better - losting the weight, or eating this (fill in the blank) right now?" And it's like my mind gets turned off....until I'm done stuffing myself. And then, I feel more relaxed. And focused. And like - what the HECK did I just do to myself? And I'm ready to commit all over again.
How do I get myself out of this trap? I was successful with Weight Watchers to lose weight I thought that I'd never be able to lose again...but then I let it all creep (jump?) back on me. And I've tried going back to meetings. I've tried to threaten to myself to stop paying the monthly pass if I'm not going to make an effort ($$ down the drain hole).
It's like I need a brain tape transplant or something.
Anyone out there have any suggestions to get me jump started and focused for - well, heck, I'd settle for staying focused for a week at this point!
I've fallen on the wrong side of the wagon and I can't seem to jump back on....