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Do I Love Myself?

Monday, January 19, 2009

I've been trying to lose weight for -- oh, about 36 years now. That's when I met and married my wonderful husband.
Before that I had an exceptionally great figure -- and I flaunted it. I had lost respect for men in general, because it seemed no matter who they were, they'd stop and stare. And I enjoyed it!
Then I met my dear husband, and I realized that men can be wonderful and trustworthy and kind and good. And I was ashamed of who I had been previously.
I started putting on weight. I don't know if it was because of the good, settled life, or if it was because I ws ashamed of who I had been and didn't want to be that person anymore. And I tried to forget the past.
The other day when I was soul-searching, I realized that even though I had prayed for forgiveness (Yes, I'm a Christian) I had never forgiven myself. And until I gained personal forgiveness and learned to love myself, I would continue this bad behavior towards my own body -- that of punishing it with bad food, little exercise, and only nominal toiletry.
Forgiveness is my key! When I treat my body with the same respect I do other people, I will start changing my self-destructive behavior. And with this insight, I am starting it now. My body has never let me down unless I have hurt it. I know now it is a very choice gift to me, and I WILL start treating it with love and respect. It isn't my body's fault that I flaunted it! It is my emotional side that was at fault.
I pledge to myself, now, today, that I will treat it with love and respect, as it deserves. I'm glad I'm finally able to recognize that and forgive myself. It will change my life.

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MOMMADOT630 1/19/2009 6:12PM

    This revelation is going to make all the difference in your weight loss journey. Now that you have forgiven yourself, you can walk a new road to happiness and that peace that passeth all understanding. So happy for you Nina ~ your blog is well written and I think will help many SP friends that struggle with the same demons. Love and hugs, Dot

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I Can't Rest On My Laurels

Monday, January 12, 2009

On January 1st, I weighed 205 pounds. On January 12 I weigh 198.6 — down 6.4 lbs. I've done that before. Then I go eat to celebrate. And I un-do everything I had accomplished. I'm not going to do that this time! Food has served as a "reward" for me all my life. Well, this time weight loss is my reward. And I want more and more of that reward. I think I'm finally starting to figure out how that is done — and it is NOT by eating to celebrate. This time I'll celebrate by spending a little more time on my treadmill without thinking about all the work I "should be doing," and I'll take time to plan menus, not stand in front of the refrigerator nibbling on cheese while I try to decide what to fix for lunch. Then I'll see how much good I can do so I can celebrate again next week.

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DUBINJL 1/27/2009 3:45PM

    I'm rootin' for you, Nina. I know you can do it this time. Just keep thinking how great you're going to look in the picture on the jacket of your new book!!

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JEANSHEP2 1/13/2009 10:57AM

    Way to go, Nina! We can all benefit from what you have learned. I would dare to say that most of us overeat due to rewarding ourselves or trying to make up for what we feel is some lack in our life. It's called emotional eating, and I am one of those who is guilty.

I am pulling for you, and you will accomplish it. Just keep remembering how hard it was to lose that first initial weight.

God bless,

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MARYB73 1/13/2009 12:44AM

    Nina, I think I need you to "hold my hand." That is the great thing about this team, I can learn from someone else. I know that I have also "rewarded" myself by over-indulging. I think Today is over and done, I don't have to worry until next Monday. It just does not work that way, does it? My only accomplishment so far this year is I haven't gained. Thank you for posting this blog.

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New Year's Resolutions

Friday, January 02, 2009

You know what? I've made a New Year's resolution for several years now that I would "lose weight this year," and I usually put a number of pounds I wanted to lose. But I'm not going to do that this year. You know why? It's too vague and too easy to procrastinate. So-o--o-o my resolution this year is to learn to eat correctly: amount of food; type or food; time of day to eat; portion control; well, you get the picture. I am also going to resolve to start exercising regularly. I'll not put down "30 minutes a day" or that kind of a measuring stick. If I exercise AT ALL, it will be progress. And that's what I want. The weight loss will be a sidelight of these two resolutions.

Remember: "A goal is a star to guide you, not a stick to beat yourself with." emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LYNNEL38 1/4/2009 8:39AM

    You can do it! The whole team is here to support you in your efforts in 2009. All it takes is the desire to change - your habits, your routine, your menu AND your life. I feel so much healthier after losing weight and maintaining a fitness program - And if I can do it - so can everyone else!! Believe me!
Hugs, Lynne

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JEANSHEP2 1/3/2009 1:19AM

    Nina, girl, you can do it! Attitude is the first step. And you have written down a good attitude. Now just take it a day at a time, and be good to yourself.

We will get there together, and celebrate reaching our goals.


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What I Saw in the Mirror Today

Monday, November 24, 2008

As I stepped out of the shower this morning, I glanced in the mirror. There, hanging out in front of me was this big body with folds of skin in the front beneath a large abdomen and hips sticking out in the rear. My first reaction? "I hate this body!"

But you know what? I really love this body. It isn't a food magnet. It didn't scarf up a single bite against my will. Whatever its problems, I caused it—it didn't do a thing by itself. And this body walks wherever I ask it to, thinks for me and talks for me. It has two good arms and hands to handle work or hug a child, it has a heart that just never quits. It handles the food I put in it without complaining, even when I overload it.

I realized I need to treat it better. It is my friend! Would I abuse a friend? I don't think so! Would I deliberately make a friend sick at Thanksgiving? Then why do it to myself? Why not feed my friend enough to be comfortable and then not punish it with overload?

I'm glad I saw myself in the mirror this morning. It really made me stop and think!


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LYNNDAK 4/6/2010 3:55PM

    I loved this. It really puts nutrition into perspective. You are a smart lady and I am glad I got the opportunity to read your blog!!

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MOMMADOT630 11/24/2008 8:06PM

    Great blog Nina ~ you posted it in the right place. I am going to really give myself a once over tomorrow. I have been totally out of control the last couple of days. Maybe if I see myself as I really am today it will be an inspiration to stop and eat smaller portions. Thanks friend. Dot

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MARYB73 11/24/2008 4:57PM

    Nina, I really liked the way you expressed yourself with your blog. If you don't mind, I would like to share it with my daughter.
Mary B

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JEANSHEP2 11/24/2008 3:56PM

    Nina, beautifully worded - you can do this! We can all learn from "What You Saw in Your Mirror!"

Love you,

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GAARAMA 11/24/2008 12:46PM

    Hi Nina

How true thank you I can relate.

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Be What You Want To Be

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Hi Everyone. I've not been around for a few days, but I've gone back and read a lot of the posts. You know, we're all really in the same boat. We all respond to stressful issues by wanting to eat. And why not? We were programmed from birth. If we cried, we got a bottle. If we fussed, we got a bottle. If we had a bellyache, we got a bottle. As we got a little older, we got a sucker if we were a good girl (or boy) at the doctor's, the dentist's, or even at a friends house. Or a snack after school. Or a cupcake to keep us quiet while company was over.

As we got to our teen years, a date ALWAYS involved going out to the cafe or junk food joint to get a snack with our boyfriend/girlfriend. When we were in our courting years, dining out was the BIG event! And a show, with popcorn, candy, and a soda.

I could go on and on, but the point is, all our lives we have had food offered in response to every emotion — all emotions bring stress, be it good or bad.

I think now is a time in our lives when we really need to evaluate what is important to us, not rely on past responses. I, for one, have been "digging my grave with my spoon." I suspect I'm not the only one doing that. I really must evaluate if I want to live to eat or eat to live.

I am 73 years old — far older than most of you. But I, too, suffer from depression and am on anti-depression meds. I am diabetic. I hope most of you aren't yet, and I pray you don't become diabetic. I, too, am overweight, by about 70 pounds. You can see why it is so important for me to start re-evaluating what I am doing to myself!

Let's each take some very, very private time to think about — even write in our journals about — who we really are deep, deep inside; what we want to accomplish while we're here on earth; what is keeping us from it; what we can do about it.

I know, we get down and positive thoughts aren't even WANTED. But that's the time we really need to think. We are each individuals, different from any other, and no-one else has our composite experiences. We are unique! Let's be what we want to be, even if is hard. Even if it is an extreme challenge. Don't let circumstances or associates (family or otherwise) dictate who we are!

By the way, I weigh 202 pounds, but my figure is 36-24-36! It's just buried under a layer of fat right now! emoticon

Hey, guys, you are each special! Don't let anyone else, or hard circumstances, tell you otherwise! Be what you can and want to be!

Love, Nina

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PEBBLES45112000 11/25/2008 9:19PM

    I loved your blogs!!! Really inspired me and is so true. I haven't posted any blogs on my profile yet but I've been thinking about starting some on my page, maybe it will help me too. Thanks so much for sharing ! emoticon

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JDILLA 11/22/2008 7:54PM

    you are truly an inspiration! thanks so much for sharing this with us.. i know you can do it.. just like i know i can do it. i just need to start "digging".


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