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Puppies help

Monday, November 17, 2014

Last week was a horrible week. I felt depressed, fat, and just overall horrible all week. I didn't know why and I still don't know why other than just hormones and feeling blah.

What I know does help is puppies! Saturday my husband and I were out at a few stores and we were about to drive past the mall and he said "Do you want to go play with puppies?" I cut over two lanes and was like heck yeah! So we went to the pet store and spent about 20 minutes playing with a cute boxer puppy.

Unfortunately due to his allergies, we cannot have a dog. He would have to take allergy pills every day and even those don't help him 100%. I grew up with dogs and never imagined a life without a dog so dating/marrying him meant giving that up. I really miss having a dog so when I get bummed out we go and spend a little bit of time with them. It really helped my mood. When my mom is in town she has the dog I previously owned and had to give up to them when he moved in. She's been in Florida for the past couple of months though so I've been very dog deprived. The boxer puppy helped. There honestly needs to be a place with dogs for depressed people to visit to just cheer them up.

Now that I'm feeling a bit back to normal I'm happy to report that the scale was at 160 on Sunday morning which is a tad lower than where it had been. I didn't workout at all last week due to my funk but I have plans to go to the gym today. It looks like we are going to do a 5k in December so I have 4 weeks to try to get back into running. I know I won't be able to run the full 3 miles but I want to push myself more than I have before. We're running with people who have done half marathons and are in much better shape. I don't want to slow them down or make them wait too long for me to finish the race if they go ahead.

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JESSIWEWA 11/17/2014 6:22PM

    Puppies are the best! Don't worry about slowing down your friends; I did a race with a group of much more experienced runners, and they said they really enjoyed the team aspect of it (even though they would have finished more quickly without me). You'll do great! emoticon

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FEISTYLIZARD 11/17/2014 1:40PM

    Puppies! We love to visit our local SPCA and walk the doggies around. We don't have the space or the time for a dog right now so that's always a tonne of fun. I don't know what is available in your area but there must be a shelter where you can walk the dogs! Good exercise and it's good for the soul. I might suggest it to the bf when he gets home. :D

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BRAINYBLONDE5 11/17/2014 11:47AM

  PUPPY THERAPY! emoticon

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MOMMY445 11/17/2014 11:05AM

    sounds like a great plan! have a wonderful day!

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Struggling this week

Friday, November 14, 2014

Yesterday I posted how off I felt. I hadn't been hungry the past two days and wasn't eating much. I also wasn't doing much. I went to work and then went home and watched TV. I didn't workout and I didn't even rake leaves like I should have.

Wednesday I burst into tears for no reason in the evening and now today I've just wanted to cry all day. I had some carrots for lunch because I wasn't hungry and then I got angry for not being able to have anything warm and filling for lunch and just said F it and left the office and got Thai food. I came back and ate the entire thing at my desk and then felt sick and threw it up.

I do not know what's going on with me. I am the first to admit this is not normal. I don't have an eating disorder but I worry about this. I KNOW I have to eat. I know starving myself and binging and purging won't help me lose weight. I know it's terrible on my body.

I am more scared about how emotional I am. I don't know why but I am short tempered with everyone and just don't want to do anything. I know these are classic signs of depression but I'm not sure why. Is it the winter blues? Post wedding excitement blues?

I've been depressed in the past. I've been on medication and I'm in therapy. We recently talked how I'm doing better so this is just confusing to me. Why am I so overwhelmed this week with obsessive thoughts about food and just hating most people?

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ALOOGOBI 11/14/2014 2:03PM

    You might just be coming down with something. I had a virus a month or so ago where I felt just off for a couple of weeks, felt nauseous around food sometimes, other time I felt dizzy with hunger but nothing looked right to me, everything tasted off... it was really frustrating! I felt terrible emotionally as well, everything seemed so sad and dreary. I drank a lot of water and tea and slept as much as I possibly could.

Go see your doctor if it persists, and take it easy!!

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Feeling a bit off

Thursday, November 13, 2014

I've been feeling a bit off the past couple of days. I'm not sure how else to describe it other than off and not quite normal. I don't feel sick and I don't feel depressed, I just feel off.

Tuesday night into Wednesday I was up from 2:45-4am just because I couldn't sleep. This put me very tired on Wednesday so that's a large part of why I felt off. My eye has also been bothering me. I pretty much went through the motions at work and skipped the gym and just went home and laid in bed and watched Son's of Anarchy and Supernatural.

My husband came home and we were discussing dinner and I didn't really want to eat. I was hungry but not hungry. Nothing sounded good. We decided on brinner (breakfast for dinner). I made him scrambled eggs and chocolate chip pancakes. I didn't have any of that and ended up just having one egg and a whole wheat sandwich thin. While cooking dinner I got this overwhelming urge to cry. I held it together and once we were done he hugged me and said "Are you okay? Are you just tired or is something else going on?" I started crying. It's probably hormones and lack of sleep but it's weird. I haven't cried or felt blah for no reason in a long time.

I felt better after crying and we went to Target to just browse and then we watched Gotham together and I went to bed early. I got more sleep last night so I do feel less emotional. I tracked my food yesterday and realized I only hate 731 calories! I usually eat 1200-1500.

I still feel weird with food. My stomach tells me I'm hungry but nothing sounds good.

This is abnormal for me. I'm an eater. I love food. When I'm sick, I still like to eat. When I'm happy or depressed I eat. I don't know why nothing sounds good right now.

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FEISTYLIZARD 11/13/2014 9:24AM

    See if it persists a few more days, then go see a doctor? It could be hormonal, or it could be a manifestation of stress or anxiety or even depression of a different sort? Anyways, feel better. If you don't feel like eating anything just eat soup and some freggies. That's what I do. :)

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FORZACHANDMATT 11/13/2014 9:14AM

    Maybe you're coming down with something? I have blah days too

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Holiday Hustle

Monday, November 10, 2014

Anyone who knows me, knows that I dislike winter and the cold and I'm more of a heat and summer girl. Yet for some reason I'm considering doing a 5k an hour away from my house in December! I'm pretty sure I'm losing my marbles.

It's called the Holiday Hustle and it's in Dexter, Michigan. It's in December so I'm expecting it to be in about the 30s. I'm the girl who wears a hoodie when it's 75 degrees out so I very well may freeze.

Why am I doing it? Well a couple of reasons. I'm trying hard to get back on track and I think this gives me a good motivation. It'll be so cold, I'm hoping I'll want to finish the race quicker so I'll run more than walk. Plus the t-shirt is pretty cool and I'm super excited for Christmas this year.

The cool thing about the race is it's on a Saturday evening so I think we'll be running through areas with Christmas lights so it should be fun.

So I'm seriously considering it! My gym bag is packed and I plan to start jogging more on the treadmill and I'll have to force myself some days to run outside in the cold too to get use to it.

I'm also just super excited for Christmas this year. I want to go all out decorating and may even have a small Christmas party with friends in early December. My husband's birthday is Dec. 4th so the following Saturday may be a good weekend to do a bday/Christmas party.

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FEISTYLIZARD 11/10/2014 9:39AM

    That sounds like one heck of a motivator! You should totally do it, it sounds like a blast. :D

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JADED_CHICK19 11/10/2014 9:27AM

    I am super excited for Christmas this year and even the snow oddly enough. I don't like summer and heat but I don't like it as cold as it was last year! I don't mind snow though. You should totally sign up for that race! It sounds so fun and the Christmas lights sold me!

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End of the years goals

Thursday, November 06, 2014

We are down to less than two months left of 2014. At this moment in time, I am on track to end the year higher in weight than when I started the year. This is not the way the scale should be going.

I have posted multiple blogs about struggling to get back on track and you know what? Posting a blog complaining doesn't make the weight fall off! emoticon

It's time to get pro-active. No more excuses. I went out and bought new earphones for the gym because as silly as it sounds, not having a pair (last ones broke) was my excuse to not workout. I really struggle without music. Here are my goals:

1. Break out of the 160s by the end of the year. I will be happy with 159.9 at this point.
2. Go to the gym at least twice during the work week
3. Do some sort of activity on the weekends whether it's gym, bundling up and going for a walk, workout dvd, or Just Dance on the Xbox.
4. Limit alcohol to 1 beer on Thursdays for friend night out and 2 glasses of wine on Friday. No other days drinking!
5. Go back to tracking food with MyfitnessPal

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FEISTYLIZARD 11/6/2014 11:18AM

    You can do it! Great goals. :D

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BRAINYBLONDE5 11/6/2014 9:36AM

  woohoo these are awesome goals! you can TOTALLY do it!!! emoticon

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DAVISM6 11/6/2014 8:45AM

    We are rooting for you! emoticon

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