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The mirror and the scale are not always a true reflection

Friday, September 19, 2014

I have difficulty understanding and knowing what size I really am. The scale says I'm 162 pounds which is up from 155 I was earlier this year. Most times when I look in the mirror the reflection staring back at me is still the 180+ pound person I was 4 years ago.

I am constantly thinking I'm larger than I am. Yesterday I was subbing on my fiance's softball team and the athletic capri's I was wearing kept falling down whenever I was running. I just bought them back in July. They are size large. I was telling one of the girls that I was having trouble running because of this and she's like "You need to go a size down." I looked and they are size large. So that means I need a medium? I've never worn mediums when it comes to pants. I haven't lost any weight either according to the scale.

It's so weird to me that I recently bought a size 10 pair of pants. Yet I still wear my size 12s or 13s on a regular basis even though they are big on me. It's like I can't wrap my head around the fact that my body indeed is getting smaller. Logically, I understand that the scale can be higher if I'm lifting weights and building muscle and it's just being redistributed. I know the science behind it but it's hard to remember.

I look in the mirror and I don't see a smaller person. The only thing that sometimes helps is pictures. However, it's all relative as well. I met Jewel Staite from Firefly last weekend at Fan Boy Expo and she is SO TINY that I felt like I looked HUGE next to her. Yet there was another photo from that weekend and I thought "My face looks so thin here! There's no double chin!" It's just weird how we feel about ourselves and it's not always what other people see.

I really really wish I could truly see myself from another persons perspective. Just for a day.

Here's the photos of me from this past weekend.

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HMBROWN1 9/19/2014 8:40AM

    Great photos! You look awesome!

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Non-Scale Victory update, and wedding updates

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

There has been a lot going on lately. The scale has been pretty evil. It was 162 yesterday but I'm not letting it get me down. I spent a long weekend in Florida and ate out for every single meal for 4 days and also am due for TOM so I'm trying to ignore the scale and what it says.

I got in a really good lower body workout last week Tuesday. It was so good that I was walking funny and sore all the way through Friday night! Unfortunately since I was out of town I didn't have a chance to exercise. We did walk around a lot and I also swam in the ocean and in a pool but it wasn't vigorous exercise. Since I've been back Monday/Tuesday I haven't had a chance to go to the gym but I plan to go today.

Not only do I plan to go to the gym today, I have a plan for AT the gym. Intervals on treadmill for 30 minutes. Then back, biceps and maybe even some triceps for 30 minutes. Tomorrow I'm thinking 30 day Shred after work and then I'm subbing on my fiance's softball team so that be a little workout there too.

Anyway, so my non-scale victory. We were at Sam's Club last night and we wandered through the clothing section. I've never bought clothes from there but they had these black stretchy dress pants with really cute back pockets for only $16. Downside, no dressing room and no size 12s. I'm sort of in between sizes right now. I have a pair of 10s and 11s that fit but are pretty tight but 12s and 13s (yes, I buy both womens and juniors) fit and sometimes are more comfortable. I bought the 10s because I figured they are stretchy. I got home and they are an AWESOME fit. I think if they did have 12s they would have been too big. So the scale may be up but my body must be doing okay.

Now wedding stuff. It's almost all planned! There really is very little left to do which is good considering it's only 25 days away.

Since it's a destination wedding some stuff had to wait until close to it. With our trip last weekend we got the most important thing, marriage license! We also picked out a cake (chocolate peanut butter sheet cake from Publix). Since it's just a basic cake, I found a cute cake topper on Etsy that says "You're my favorite" which is something we say to each other all the time.

Our reception dinner venue is also FINALLY picked out! We went to one place and hated the food and realized the 2nd on the list was by the same owners. We searched and found another and LOVED it. It's called The Pub Waterfront and we'll have a little private deck right on the intercoastal area. They can do limited menu or have everyone order off the menu since we only have 20 of us.

Hair appointments have been booked for myself and my maid of honor. I am still flip flopping on exactly how I want my hair but that's okay. I'll decide the day of. Now I just have to double check that my fiance has ordered his shirt that he plans to wear!

Oh and gift for my parents has been purchased. A 3 picture opening photo frame. I'm going to put their wedding photo in one slot, a photo from my brothers wedding in another and leave the last one empty so we can put ours in there.

Lastly, bachelorette party is coming together. I wasn't going to have one but then my cousins wife decided to throw one. It was a bit of a hassle because I wanted low key, Painting with a Twist (wine and painting is so fun) but no private parties were open so we did an open class only half the girls were able to sign up before it sold out. However we decided to go to a bar after. I hope it's fun, I'm not a big 'bar/clubbin' type of gal.

If you're still reading this, thanks!


Leg day, I have a love/hate relationship with you

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Monday was a successful day in that I did 40 minutes on the elliptical at home. I should have gone to the gym but just didn't feel like it. I went home and chilled for a little bit and then forced myself to workout and I'm glad I did.

Tuesday I made it to the gym. I need to remember that I do love it when I'm there. The hardest part for me isn't the workout, it's actually GOING to the gym. Getting my butt there. Yesterday I did 2 miles on the treadmill. The first mile I did intervals of walking and jogging and did a mile in 14 minutes. The second mile took me 15 minutes because I walked the whole thing. My left foot has been bothering me off and on for months and jogging seems to bring the pain back.

I then focused on lower body/leg day. I did 100 pounds on the laying leg press. I think that's the most I've done on that. Then I did 80 pounds on the calf raise machine. I moved onto weighted squats on what I think is a Smith Machine or a Squat Rack, I'm not sure what the name of it is. Anyway I had 50 pounds on the bar and squatted. That was a bit rough. I could only do 8 reps per set instead of my usual 12 reps. Then I went and grabbed a 50 lb barbell (heaviest one available at that time at Planet Fitness) and did stiff leg deadlifts.

I should have done lunges but by then my legs were jelly and I hate lunges. I know I can't skip lunges all the time but this time I did. Next time I'll focus on those and the donkey kick machine.

Sitting in my chair at work or on the toilet is rough today! That's a good sign.

Today the plan is to do the arch trainer or elliptical at the gym for 20 minutes and then focus on back and biceps.


Back to Spark, I hope

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

I seem to have fallen off the gung ho wagon of losing weight and sparking and logging into my fitness pal. Usually summer time I lose weight because I'm so active. I've been active but I honestly haven't lost weight. I will admit, I've been happy and enjoying life and splurging. Fact of the matter is, I've been splurging too much. This past weekend all I did was eat out at restaurants. Not only is that bad for my waist, it's bad for my wallet! Sometimes it's hard to avoid, friends were in town, they wanted to grab dinner together. I did have salad but I had an unhealthy salad drowning in ranch, cheese, bacon and eggs. Delicious but probably more calories than if I had just had a small steak and baked potato.

I also haven't been daily weighing which is a good and a bad thing. It's good because I've been less stressed about my weight but it's bad because weight creeps up then! I was 164 today. 164!!! That is TERRIBLE! At one point last winter I was down to 155. I've gained 9 pounds!!

A part of me believes some of it may be muscle weight because when I do work out, I make sure to do strength training with heavy weights but if I'm being honest I have only been going to the gym once or twice a week. I KNOW I didn't gain 9 pounds of muscle. I do have two pairs of pants that are a size smaller but I bought those a few weeks ago and they are a little snug now.

So it's time to get back to sparking, back to logging my food, back to stricter eating and working out. The wedding is in 39 days and thankfully my dress still fits but I would like it to be a little looser. I know I can't lose a ton of weight by then but I would REALLY like to be below 160. That sounds very do-able.

I have to work late today so going to the gym may not work out but no matter what I'm going to do 30 day Shred. It's 25 minutes. If I can't make time for that, then I have a problem. I'm going to try to force myself to do at least 25 minutes of activity every single day from here on out. Hopefully I can still get to the gym and do my good hour long workouts a couple times a week.

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Work week meal/exercise plan

Monday, August 25, 2014

Even though I didn't stick to last weeks plan exactly, I liked having it written out here and sort of planned out in my head so I know what to do eating/workout wise. If it's in writing in a blog, I'm more apt to stick to it.

Monday - Breakfast - Yogurt, hard boiled egg
Lunch - Caesar Salad from Meijer
Snack before gym - 5 almonds
Snack after gym - Spinach and pineapple smoothie
Dinner- home made hamburger, green beans, baked potato
Workout - Gym - Treadmill 30 min, intervals of walking/jogging, lower body 30 minutes.
Tuesday - Breakfast - yogurt
Lunch - ham and cheese omelet, 1/2 hashbrowns, no toast
Dinner - Possibly out with friend - If at home - chicken noodle soup
Workout - Gym - Elliptical 20 minutes, back and biceps 30 minutes
Wednesday - Breakfast - yogurt, 5 almonds
Lunch - 2 hard boiled eggs on whole wheat sandwich thin, red grapes
Dinner - ham sandwich on whole wheat with mustard, carrots and green beans
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Workout - Walk at home weather permitting, chest/shoulder/abs at home
Thursday - Breakfast - yogurt, 5 almonds
Lunch - same as Wednesday
Snack -Blueberry and strawberry smoothie
Dinner - Out to eat - Grilled chicken sandwich, 1 light beer
Rest day - Focus on house/yard work
Friday - Breakfast - yogurt, almonds
Lunch - Same as Wednesday and Thursday
Dinner - Not sure yet, must consult fiance
Workout - Gym - Treadmill 30 minutes, leg day again

My main goal right now is to not focus on the scale. I've been a lot better not getting on the scale. I want to just focus on toning up a bit. My wedding dress is getting hemmed right now and fits everywhere else for the most part. If I drop 5-7 pounds by the wedding I'd be ecstatic but I don't want to kill myself trying to lose 20 pounds and then have my dress be too big. Plus i don't want that stress.

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  Keep up the good work!!

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