Tuesday, October 07, 2014
My lovely lady lumps are sore!!! I am pretty sure my a$$ is trying to detach from my hamstrings. I have been working my bum off these past two weeks and now my cheeks feel like concrete. I would ask my hubby for a butt massage, but he is a man, and he reads "butt massage" as an invitation to get down. No, I need these bootay cramps rubbed out.
Sunday I made up my own little master mix to get me warmed up before I did strength training. I did 5 sets of the series: 15 squats, 5 burpees, 15 pushups, and 15 iceskaters. I might add that my arms are sore too but the backside has been brutalized. After the warmup, I did the hip machines and then the hamstring curls. All gluteus maximus this Sunday. But I think the workouts earlier in the week, Insanity on Tuesday, walking on Wednesday, Zumba Thursday, Nike Trainer Friday, and wrestling on Saturday, is what really started the achy feelings I have been having. Tonight I am scheduled to go to Insanity AND my friend wants to meet to go walking. I don't know that I will make it through an hour of Insanity tonight so I decided to do 30 minutes of class and then meet my friend for our 3.5 mile walk. Tomorrow, my other friend wants me to go to Zumba with her. I am certain that by Thursday, I am going to be walking down the hall and my butt cheeks will just collapse in on themselves.
Aside from being sore, I am so PROUD of myself! I committed to myself that I would track my food six days a week, no matter what. I have not fallen off yet! It is actually interesting because I have become facinated with the macro-nutrients. I use My Fitness Pal and it is so easy to pay attention to that stuff and it is starting to help me decide my meals. For instance, this morning I logged my breakfast, lunch and snacks before work. I then looked at the macro-nutrients page and seen that I needed more fiber and protein. I am also a little short on carbs. I decided I would have grilled steak tacos for dinner. I am going to get some whole wheat tortillas, grill some marinated skirt steak, I am making a cilantro lime aoli out of Greek yogurt, add salsa, romaine lettuce and a sprinkle of cheese. I am going to have rice and black beans on the side. I am super excited about dinner.
Back to bums. I have begun drinking prune juice. I have never had the most mobile colon and I am sure a lot of that has to do with my diet. Recently I found that just drinking 4 oz of prune juice can really help regulate the situation and it is high in protein and fiber.
But anywho, I am going to get out of here. Before I go, I want to share this thought with you:
Every life change begins with a decision. You have to DECIDE you are going to be successful at this healthy lifestyle, and you must make that decision every single day. You cannot live your life today based on the choices you made in the past. You must live for the FUTURE you want. That is why everyday I wake up, I reaffirm my commitment to this lifestyle by deciding to take my multi-vitamin, pack my meal and track it.
Thursday, October 02, 2014
This is a fairly simple question and there are two ways you could answer it. One, is you could identify the "WHY" behind your health journey. For some it may be diabetes, for others it could be dreams of motherhood, and then there are those who want to be amazing athletes. We all have to have a "WHY" and I want to know what yours is.
The second way to answer that question is what are those things you have learned along the way that help you maintain or kickstart a weightloss? These are tips and tricks that you keep in your back pocket when you have had a bad weekend of binge eating and you need to regain control. THIS IS WHAT I NEED TO HEAR TODAY. It is not that I am already falling off the wagon. Quite contrary, I am feeling really good about my diet and exercise this past week. I want to be prepared with words of wisdom when times get tough. Thank you in advance for your AWESOME feedback!!!
Wednesday, October 01, 2014
What in the sam hell is going on? How did yo-yo dieting, back-sliding, Spanx-wearing, little (figuratively) old me get voted Motivator of the Day???? I thought you had to CRUSH IT consistently, and run half-marathons, and track your food to be one of those people. Turns out, you just have to be honest about the fact that you have been struggling desperately to get back to the SHERO that ran races twice a month, and who hungered for the most intense workout, and who had COLLAR BONES!! Who knew those things could disappear so fast??
Truthfully folks, I needed this. Such a small gesture means so much. My fitness life has been a struggle, for so many reasons. I won't make excuses. While some of it was hormonal, most of it was Hand-to-Mouth disease. I couldn't stop putting my damn hand to my mouth, and unfortunately for me, my hand was never empty. I stopped running races. I didn't really do much exercise, honestly. I would walk with a neighbor a couple of times a week but it wasn't hard. I wasn't pushing myself.
Because I was hormonal, and my belly was full of carbs, and I wasn't breaking a sweat, I got mean. I got moody. I was down on myself and abrasive to my husband. My downfall didn't take much time - it was a matter of a 7 weeks. In 7 weeks I gained 12 pounds. Prior to that, I had gained 18 over 10 months. I like to call that my "LOVE" weight. As a newlywed, as soon as I shed that designer wedding gown, I relaxed. But I didn't relax long enough to lose myself completely. No, that all happened over a matter of 7 weeks. Then I was blessed with the most atrocious wake up call a former fluffy girl can get: I saw a photo of myself. It was taken when I wasn't looking, before I had the chance to "find my light" and suck in my cheekbones and stomach. It was the REAL me and I did NOT like what I saw.
But that picture was a blessing. It told me that I was at a crossroads. I was EXACTLY in the middle of my highest and my lowest weight. Destiny was giving me an option. Either throw up my hands and go back to the unhappy, unhealthy girl of my past, or check myself and go back to the strong, confident woman that I had created twelve short months ago. I stared that picture down and decided I liked my second option.
This past week I have logged my food and worked out consistently. I have drank my water. I have reached out for support AND RECEIVED IT, and I have prayed. I realize that this battle is so much more than food and exercise. There is something going on inside of me and until I figure out what that thing is, I will forever be at odds with my weight.
I am excited for this journey to become FUN again, because really, it can be fun. Last night my husband and I went to an INSANITY class. WOW!!! I was the biggest person in there but dammit I WAS A BEAST!!! I gave that instructor everything I had and I felt so proud of myself!!! After class he caught up with me and shook my hand and told me how great I did. We spoke for a little while and it was so good to see in his eyes that he believes in me. There is an athlete in this big girl and she is ready to tear it up!!!!
Wednesday, August 06, 2014
So much has happened in the four months since I last blogged! Actually, there has been no major THING that pulled me out of the Spark stratosphere, my heart just wasn't in it. My heart actually wasn't in a lot of things. My life felt BLAH. Of course we all know that when life starts to feel that way, we tend to pacify our feelings with food. I did that, a little, I guess. I never had a binge in those 4 months, I wasn't sneaking cookies or cakes. Honestly, my food habits weren't as bad as I would have expected them to be. What was bad was my energy, my enthusiasm, and my exercise habits. So I decided to see a hypnotherapist.
I know it may sound wacka-doo but hypnotherapy turned my energy and enthusiasm for life completely around. I didn't know what to really expect. My first appointment with Kim was very similar to regular therapy with the exception that she focused on when and what I was eating in response to various emotional episodes I was having. We talked about my family. She asked me how our relationships were. We talked about what my workday looked like. When I would speak of something, if she noticed my demeanor changing while discussing, she would stop me there and we would try to figure out what foods I was eating or snacking on immediately following those moments. Were my snacks crunchy? Soft? Could I remember the exact taste? She would ask me to describe the flavor. What was happening to the rest of my body? She was asking me all of these things BEFORE she hypnotized me. Kim was able to assess that the reason for my depressed state was because I was not being intellectually challenged at work and my naturally creative spirit needed a creative outlet, otherwise I was turning to food. She then asked me what would I like my relationship to food to be like. She asked me about the colors of the foods I most often indulged in. Then she hypnotized me. Surprisingly, I am VERY EASILY hypnotized. During hypnosis she provided positive reinforcement. She told me I would beging to crave and seek out brightly colored foods . She also spoke into my consciousness that I would find ways to be active at least 5 times a week.
After the session, I felt so refreshed, focused and ALIVE. It was like all the heavy stuff that was weighing me down had somehow been erased. I was in good spirits! Kim's studio also offers hyp-yoga. This is where you go through 70 minutes of yoga instruction and then they perform hypnosis at the end to reset your energy and reinforce positive thoughts. It is the way I feel after each class. I am sure you are probably imagining hypnosis being some crazy scenario of us acting like apes or unknowingly humping a stranger's leg. It's not like that. We actually don't move at all. It is like being in a deep sleep but your subconscious mind is fully awake. Doctors say that 20 min of hypnosis is like getting 8 hours of sleep in terms of energy and focus. And through these hyp-yoga classes, I have fallen in LOVE with yoga. Going to these classes have helped me forgive myself for not perfecting this weightloss thing. It has helped me appreciate the body I have because the body I have is STRONG and FLEXIBLE. It made me come to grips that while I may never be thin, that won't make me any less of a wife and mother. Do I want to lose more weight? Absolutely. But I am not shooting for a major weight loss any longer. I just want to look cute in my yoga pants!
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