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a bit better

Friday, May 23, 2008

i think i am finally kicking this flu. last weekend i had to wear a surgical mask to do the 3 wedding cakes i felt so lousy. didnt lose a thing though. i was all set to go back on ww core this week and i dont know WHAT happened.
I have 3 large cakes this weekend too..but nONE for monday so MAYBE i can have a day off FINALLY!!! and get BACK ON TRACK!!!

  
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BABIE_JANE 5/28/2008 11:52AM

    I am sorry you have been under the weather. It's great you are feeling better and I hope you continue to improve quickly.

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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 5/24/2008 7:03PM

    I'm glad that you're starting to feel better. Having to still work when you're down is absolutely the pits. I'm so impressed that you were able to turn out such awesome cakes when you weren't feeling well! Thanks for emailing me the pictures...I want to come to your bakery!

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CATIATM 5/24/2008 9:58AM

    You amaze me. I'm sorry you're feeling unwell and still working so hard. I wish I could send you something to make it ok!

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L*I*T*A* 5/24/2008 12:19AM

    hoping you get the day off.................you probably need more rest if you ARE getting over the cold...........take care of yourself there is only one of you....................wishing you well................have a great memorial day weekend....................blessing
s and hugs..............lita

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GAMMA47 5/24/2008 12:08AM

    well that sounds like a plan!! hope you get the day to get yourself on track and be able to lose for the week!! I'm pulling for you, I know you can do it!!
So glad you are getting over the flu. do you have the bakery only to work during the summer, or are there other programs that you do with the schools over the summer?? Good Luck on getting back on track, let me know if you need any support, or a listening ear!!

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new week

Monday, May 12, 2008

ok so i wasnt so good this week. but i stayed almost the same so now i'm back on track and looking for a great week! i have THREE wedding cakes for fri/sat and a graduation cake..servings totalling almost 1000. alot of work and a cold to beet so i have to wear a mask to bake. I got home from school today headed right for the bakery and made a bazillion flowers to dry for the friday night wedding cake. i'm headed to bed..have to teach pre-K thru second grade reading tomorrow..and special ed middle school on weds. then i took thurs and fri off from school to get all these cakes done!!

  
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GAMMA47 5/13/2008 8:37PM

    Hey girl! sorry to hear you are sick. With the weather so fickle, alot of people are getting sick. Flu, colds, and bronchilitus. Try to stay warm and off your feet once the cakes are made!! You are such a busy person. Glad to heaar you are still on track. Hang in there and Hope you get to feeling better soon. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PAMIJANE 5/13/2008 6:57PM

    I hope you feel better soon Holly. Make yourself some good homemade chicken soup...that always helps me.

Luvs, Pami

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PUKIHI 5/13/2008 1:10PM

    Hi Holly,
I know what you mean about that cold. I have one too. I woke up with some man's voice one day last week. I just can not get over them like I used to. But, hang in there... About, that job! I really commend you. That would be about the hardest job to lose weight with and you are doing it. Don't worry about the speed it comes off. We're not in the Indianapolis 500! Just on a sliding scale. As long as it comes off! WooHoo!

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CATIATM 5/13/2008 10:42AM

    Wow! Busy! Stressed! Hang in there!

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BOOKMARK 5/13/2008 7:55AM

    You do not need to worry, you do not have time to eat! emoticon
I have been bad too. I designated Mother's Day as start again day.
I have to have something to remind me so I can think "since [that day, whatever it is; birthday, Christmas, etc] I have lost or I have eaten, or heaven forbid, I have gained--a point of reference.

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JUSTJUDEATTUDE 5/12/2008 11:56PM

    Hi Holly, I sure hope you neat that cold. That drains you, I know. Take cre and get some rest as well. I bet your cakes will be doe on time and will be beautiful. Have a great day. Jude

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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 5/12/2008 9:35PM

    Dumb cold...it better go away soon or I'll be sending my ninjas out after it. emoticon (ok, not a ninja, but the closest thing they had!)

But I love what you told me about the cakes earlier. We should totally keep track of what happens to the people. emoticon

Busy week for you, but be sure to take some time for yourself (if that actually exists anymore for us. Does it?)



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i'm back

Saturday, April 26, 2008

ok here goes. Its been a very difficult month. I've been depressed and discouraged and about to throw in the towel on all this. I can barely walk with the knee pain--I went to a different surgeon who did an MRI and found that i was right..the meniscus in my other knee is torn. For anyone who has had that? You can feel my pain.
So..i went back weds to the guy...who now says he wont do anything because..you guessed it..i'm too fat. I was fatter than this when they did the other one...i think the guy is scared of me..scared i'll croak or something. he sees my meds and thinks i'm at deaths door. So whats he tell me to do? dont walk. i said uhhh sorry but i have to work. he says then get a walker. THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!! PERIOD!!!
so. on thursday i went on ww core plan. on my own. no meetings..cant afford them. I had the book from when i got the at home program. i've been on it 2 days and lost 8 pounds. go figure.

I keep saying..why cant i lose? i'm eating right? i think i figured it out. I baked all day thurs and on the last one i just automatically went to lick the spatula. i caught myself..but i had to FIGHT. so obviously i'm doing that without knowing. yesterday it was the buttercream. today i had an order for fudge. It was like i cut off my arm not inhaling the scraps.

sooo....i need support. i'm doing my best to stick to this. the only thing i miss is bread. After week one i will use my 35 anytime points to have a slice here and there. even not having butter isnt bothering me. I'm gonna have to learn to like whole wheat pasta...i've been eating the barilla whole grain but this is specific on WHOLE WHEAT. so whole wheat it is.

so thats it. i cant exercise much...cant use the darn leg but i'm getting on the bike when i can and doing crunches and wall pushups and weights. I wish i could lose 8 pounds EVERY 2 days i'd be done in less than 2 weeks!!!

ok i'm done. thanks for bearing with me!

  
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GRAMMABENJI 5/12/2008 9:09PM

    hi there found you thru another spark friend. i too have fallen off the train and trying desperately to get back on. together we can get up and go forward. what do you say. lets do it!!!

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EMMASMART 5/10/2008 6:13PM

    Hey there! I think it's time for a second opinion. I am so glad that you are losing again because of this man. Go ahead and get thinner. It will help your achy knee. Also if you can do abductor muscle exercises to improve the musculature above and below the knew. Good muscles help a lot. And get a new guy for your next knee. This guy is too negative. You deserve better.

Emma

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JUSTJUDEATTUDE 5/8/2008 8:29PM

    Hi Holly, I have not posted as much on the boards. I have had a realy rough year so far. I am trying to get back on track as well. I am so sorry your Dr. is "afraid" to touch you. It mmakes me so mad that Dr.'s want to blame every thing we have wrong on our weight. Could be that the problem we have wrong has also caused the weight problem sometimes s well. I hope you get back to feeling better. Hope you have a great day. In His Grip, Jude

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THE_FRINK 5/1/2008 9:04AM

    Holly, figuring out the spoon licking thing was a really big deal. It's amazing how those calories add up when you don't realize you're doing it.

You can do this, I know you can! emoticon

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GAMMA47 4/30/2008 8:07PM

    I kind of had an idea you were down in the dumps, just didn't know for sure. so sorry you are having a horrible time. You are letting your "inner voice" steer you in the wrong direction. You are a great person, special friend, strong leader, and a hard worker. I believe that you will bounce back from all of this, now and then our brain takes a dive, and it takes a while to get back on track. Hang in there, you are a survivor!! You are doing all that you possibly can, and you will get to your goal!! emoticon

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BOOKMARK 4/30/2008 2:15PM

    I sometimes just take doctors with a equivalent of "with a grain of salt." Often their "smarts" seem to be all book-smarts and no realistic smarts.

Keep on keepin' on Holly you can do it, I can do it, we all can do it.
Believe in yourself.

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BABYGURL26 4/28/2008 1:30AM

    awwwwwwwwwww i am sorry to hear Holly but yea it sounds like you need a second opinion cause that doctor sounds like a idiot because i know what you are going through i just had it done like a year ago on my left leg so i know what pain you are going through and i am slowly loosing the weight but the weight shouldn't be a issue with you getting the surgery and if the pain was gone then you would be loosing weight cause you would want to exercise more and everything like i am doing now.....i haven't taken any pain meds for like almost 2 months now i feel great and i am not drugged up and i am working more now about to go back to Target for a while to get more money cause they cut me off my benifits......hang in there i will keep you in my prayers....hugs Dodie emoticon

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PUKIHI 4/27/2008 12:52AM

    Oh, Holly

I'm sorry just doesn't seem like enough. I agree that DR is a fat head! What a cop out. He should have at least referred you. He broke his hippo-what-ever oath. "Do no harm!"

I LOVE bread too. I know what you mean. I LOVE bread. But, I live without it. I don't have to be around it as much as you do. Your temptations seem so overwhelming!!! What strength you have. What inner conviction. What overwhelming odds! And look at you! WOW! I am so very amazed at you. Aren't you! Hang in there with us! You have already done the hard part. You are mad! Good for you. Now full steam ahead. Nothing can stand in your way now. And when this steam passes you will have accomplished so very much you will feel great! (I gotta look that core plan up. Love to be THERE with you! )

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KIMCATUS 4/26/2008 6:01PM

    Oh Holly, I'm so sorry about your pain and your frustrations! I wish I could come over there and give you a big hug!

Can you get another opinion? That doctor sounds like an idiot!!

I wish I had some super motivating words, but all I can say is you can do this I know you can! We're here to support you when you need it and celebrate with you when you have success...an you will!! I know this and I believe in you! Please hang in there...

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_KARA_ 4/26/2008 5:36PM

    Welcome back, Holly! Good for you for taking control and looking for the moments in your day (licking the spatula) that might be holding you back. That's why the journey is supposed to be slow and steady, so that you make the self-discoveries necessary to make the healthy changes that keep the weight off for a lifetime. You're worth it!

Kara

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SHINYSILVRVOLVO 4/26/2008 4:15PM

    Hey Holly, you're what's keeping me going on the WW thing! I keep telling myself, nope, gotta do better because Holly is doing better!! So I know you can do it.

As far as the doc goes, that just plain stinks. There's got to be someone who can help! Good for you for sticking with it, and knowing that you're going to be okay at the end. You'll walk back in there and be like, "hey Doctor Don't Walk, check this out." And then you can do a little dance or something. emoticon

Anyway, I'm here for ya!!

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CATIATM 4/26/2008 4:11PM

    Holly, I'm so sorry. With my own medical problems, I really get the frustration. I also understand how much the pain saps energy, gets you down, and makes everything seem harder. I really hope the WW plan works. If you're not getting the results you want, let me know: I have a suggestion for something that will work. (But it's draconian, so if WW works, stick with it.)

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L*I*T*A* 4/26/2008 3:54PM

    hi ...............am so sorry you are in such pain..............i know the pain well..................i would find another dr ASAP...............just because you are overweight does not mean you are not physically in shape????...........well on the positive side he was able to confirm a torn meniscus...............a lot of times on the mri the torn meniscus doesn't even show up,so glad it showed up...........they would not do and mri on me............at least i had the surgery............you must get and somehow find another ortho dr............
congratulations on the 8 pound loss.............way to go...............you are on the right track.........keeping you in my prayers..............have a great weekend...................blessings and hugs................lita

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hello

Saturday, April 05, 2008

ok the tooth is alot better..i just have NO sugar and it stays mostly pain free.
as for the weight.thats NOT doing so well, even though i had only one small piece of birthday cakes and kept the rest of my portions correct.
I just cut up a raft of veggies for a stir fry tonite..found a $2 pork tenderloin to put in it too, so that takes care of the usual saturday is a kinda day off so go hog wild problem. besides..i dont get ANY days off this week as i have bakery orders so i did the prep while the cakes were baking for today.
Tomorrow i head for the "big city" of plattsburg to get bulk groceries and baking stuff.
anyhow..thats my week....hope yours was good!!
Holly

  
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BABYGURL26 4/10/2008 12:31AM

    i am glad your tooth is better i know your pain i had to go through alot when i had problems with my teeth...i had to have 2 rootcanals cause the fillings came out of the teeth so for 10 months i had to eat with my front teeth and eat things that were liquid....well i am glad your tooth is better...hugs Dodie

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GAMMA47 4/8/2008 9:14PM

    so glad to hear your tooth is doing better. by you being busy, I'm sure that will detour well and you'll show a loss!! I have confidence in you girl!! Hope you have a much calmer week, c-ya!!

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BOOKMARK 4/8/2008 8:14AM

    Toothaches and earaches are unbearable pains. I always classified them as the worst pains to deal with (without med attention) until I experienced gout. Now my list has 3.

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CATIATM 4/5/2008 10:42PM

    I'm glad the tooth is feeling better. What a nightmare? How long until it's all fixed?

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THE_FRINK 4/5/2008 8:51PM

    Keep at it, Holly and you're sure to see results! Glad the tooth is better -- I'll feel better when you can get it fixed. I'm sure you will, too!

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KIMCATUS 4/5/2008 4:50PM

    Glad to hear your tooth is doing better...nothing worse than a bad toothache! :( Hey hang in there...sounds like the stirfry will be good to help you get back on track! And a small piece of birthday cake is fine...don't beat yourself up over that! Hope you have a great weekend!

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L*I*T*A* 4/5/2008 3:47PM

    so glad your tooth is better...................about the weight i left you a poem that helps me................hope it helps you too..........

I wish I may, I wish I might

Lose one-half or a pound tonight.

If I happen to stay the same,

I'll be happy I did not gain.

IF the scale goes the wrong way,

I'll brush myself off and say, That's okay--

Soon I'll come back a little thinner.

Because I have the power to be a winner.


have a great weekend..............blessings and hugs............lita

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argh!

Monday, March 24, 2008

ok so i got a couple days kind of off finally. the first i relaxed. the second i spent cleaning and baking orders, as well as the third. Yesterday I had family here all day..i couldnt eat badly as i have a tooth giving me trouble. I get on the scale this morning and i GAINED a pound. ARGH ARGH ARGH!!! WHY cant i be normal???

  
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BOOKMARK 3/31/2008 12:25PM

    You are normal!!
Murphy's Law attacks us all!

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GAMMA47 3/28/2008 11:20PM

    Sorry for your bad tooth. You are staying on track and it will show don't you worry your extraordinary normal head. You have been doing awesome with your goals, 1 lb could be from anything, it will go away!! Get that tooth looked at, sometimes when we don't feel good, it throws our body out of whack. Hang in there, I know you'll be fine.

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WILDREDHEAD 3/28/2008 12:39PM

  You can't be normal because you are EXTRAORDINARY - that's why! It will happen - you are amazing!


OOPS! Got click-happy there! But the above bears repeating anyway!

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WILDREDHEAD 3/28/2008 12:39PM

  You can't be normal because you are EXTRAORDINARY - that's why! It will happen - you are amazing!


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PUKIHI 3/26/2008 6:34AM

    Ditto to everyone else. Cheers to you for hanging in there. Giving up is so easy. So very easy. But, so very unrewarding and self defeating. Cheers to you for the courage you show to go on. Warm thoughts and hugs to you.

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L*I*T*A* 3/25/2008 1:53AM

    tomorrow is a new day.................
here is a little poem for you......

There is inside you
all of the potential to be whatever
you want to be
all of the energy to do whatever
you want to do.

Imagine yourself as you would like to be,
doing what you want to do,
and each day, take one step
towards your dream.

And though at times it may seem too
difficult to continue,
hold on to your dream.


One morning you will awake to find
that you are the person
you dreamed of
doing what you wanted to do
simply because you had the courage
to believe in your potential
and to hold on to your dream.

have a great week.............
blessings and hugs..............lita

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CATIATM 3/24/2008 1:21PM

    Muscle. From all that cleaning. I bet your bottom is on it's way to being as high and firm as a 12-year old boy's! ;-p

Seriously, don't give up! Hormones, stress levels, poor sleep. You just don't know. But in th elong run, you're getting there, and that's the important part.

((hugs))

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MIRACLE1971 3/24/2008 9:38AM

    normalcy is overrated!!! why be normal when you are already extraordinary? keep working at it hun we are all gonna lose the weight and be better for it... slower is better even if its a off day where you gain 1 lbs.. hugs you know we are here for you.

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