Sunday, April 18, 2010
It's Sunday night and I felt like writing a blog. LOL. I love my days off! Monday comes to quick. Since Josh left I've gone from 234 to 232. He's been gone about two full weeks so I'm back to my usual slow weight loss. It's a loss I will take.
I've checked out my scale to see if I've had progress on WW since last Tuesday. Scale so far says I'm down 1.5 which is fantastic! I'd love to lose that consistently every week. I know there's no way I can control something like that but it seems like a reasonable goal that has a good chance of being achieveable if I keep to the program.
I've got about two months of work left. GAH! Then it's time for a new job! I hope these next two months don't drag. I'm so ready to move on to something else. I still am no closer to figuring where my career is going to go. Part-time work will be the next step.
Is kind of scary to think about the fact that I've spent all this time and money doing something I don't even like. This current job does not completely define all I've gone to school for. I chose the administrative track though in higher education. Administrative is behind a desk in an office for a large percentage of time. I chose this field because I wanted to help students. How I help students seems to be decided by the senior staff of universities, which kind of takes away from alot of creative freedoms of middle management. At first I wanted to advise students but I spent more time calling students with bad grades, demanding they come to the office to ask them why they're failing.
I personally don't think that's any of the administrative staff's business. If a student fails and doesn't want to share, then that's their personal choice. If they don't seek help, then we shouldn't demand helping them. We're supposed to help them and not parent them. When in that previous job, my performance began to go down. By the end of the internship, my boss criticized my dress (tshirt and jeans LOL) my performance and demanded I either find another field or seek counseling. LOL
That's not even what I'm doing now. What I'm doing in my current job sucks even worse!! LOL. I hate selling something or forcing something on someone when they aren't really sure. I hate pushy sales people as it is. Why would I want to do it? I do it right now and that seemed to be the main motivator behind all my administrative positions on campus! All about the Benjamens!
I've spent a little bit of time today writing a list of things I like, don't like, want, don't want. Things that I do when I'm not at work. Things I could see myself enjoying on the job.
I'm rambling but I feel this affects my weight loss indirectly. It's stressful to deal with. I feel consumed by it sometimes. I wish I had an answer.
I do have a question.
To anyone that reads this.....Have you ever chosen one career, only to go back and do something completely opposite. Am I crazy or is this normal? Did it work out for you?