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Taking one for Team "Self Discipline"

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

So this is how it goes. I love challenges they make my personal process so much easier. It is the working toward a goal. I try to meet all these challenges with in the confines of my personal program. Sometimes there are part of challenges that well just dont fit and I respectfully say sorry can't do that. So times there are things I just will not do. Last week on this particular we were suppose to pick out a video to do for the week out of a list of spark exercise programs well I push to the limit with my own program and so I didnt participate in that section of the challenge.

So when this weeks challenge rolled around I said well I need to help all I can to make up points for the team. There was a Bonus challenge that was a) read an article on yoga and b) do this short 14 minute Yogo video. So I pre watched it and said alright On Tuesday after Cardio I will do this.

Ok look I am not a tiny person. I, in my living room attempted this video. So some of the standing exercises with the breathing was great really felt wonderful. However so of the other poses well for me they were like playing a game of twister without the colors. I swear at certain points my but was laughing at me. I know I was very thankful that not even my husband was home to see this. I attempted all their poses and to follow the program. How did I do well not worth a darn but i can say the best medicine is laughter and I have had a belly full of that this morning. So I got relaxation but in a whole different form. So I took one for the team, And the thought of my tail in the " dog " pose will have me laughing for days to come I am sure. Ok so this is to make someone else laugh. I give you permission to laugh because look up at the left and see my picture and then picture that doing yoga. Have a great day everyone!!!

  
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CITYZOZO 6/20/2012 12:28PM

    VERY FUN BLOG.. way to go! yoga is soooo good for flexibility!

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SHRINK_U 6/19/2012 4:49PM

    Love it!! I actually talked my 6'4" 400 lb husband into doing a yoga dvd with me once... You should have seen us. We laughed the whole time.

I am so glad that you took one for the team!

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JOANG13 6/19/2012 4:08PM

    Between tight hamstrings, a big butt and a big belly - yoga just hasn't been kind to me or is it that I haven't been kind to yoga???? Anyway, good job for trying something new! emoticon

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KATYDID412 6/19/2012 11:58AM

    Was that the Skinnygirl one? (I haven't really been keeping up with the challenge this week, yet.) If so, I hear you -- I tried it last week. I love the *idea* of doing yoga, but so far my minimal attempts at actually doing it have been laughable! So glad I'm not the only one.

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WINTERHARTT 6/19/2012 11:46AM

    OMGOSH! Too funny! I had the pleasure of attempting yoga with the kids in the house. So not good! I never did get through the entire thing because the were trying to do it with me and we were laughing way too hard! There are some things that a person of our size just should not attempt doing....yoga is one of those!! LOL

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OREOSMILE 6/19/2012 10:25AM

    heh! you got a chuckle out of me!

I always find my belly gets in the way of such things - looking forward to when I'm not carrying around all the bulk and can do such things with ease and grace!

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Assignment #3, Pre challenge for Summer 5% challenge

Monday, June 18, 2012

Why do I want loose weight? How do I want to look and / or feel?

Like every addict will tell you, you have to hit rock bottom, to have no where to go but up. The past decade has been filled with more stress and heartache than one person should have to endure. The death of my parents, the mental issues slash unusual addictions of my sons, Hurricane Katrina, Marital issues and then list really could just go on and on however I wont go into details about all of it, all of this played a part in rock bottom for me. In 2010 I was told I had to now walk with a cane after my right ankle started giving out on me causing me to fall repeatedly. This was rock bottom for me. I had now become one of those " fat" people who was so big I couldn't hold myself up. I was sent to see another doctor to see if he could help take away some of the pain. It was decided that i had to move to a lower level apartment because after surgery at my "weight" I would not be able to go up and down the two flights of stairs. Because my body was losing the ability to fight even small infection I was told if I got an infection I would more than likely lose my foot. I wanted to die but I was a coward and could not just get over with. The surgery was done and as I laid on the couch day after day thinking I came up with this thought " If i am to big a coward to kill myself, Could I be courageous enough to live again." So started the battle. So why do I want to lose weight? Well simply put because I want to live more than I want to die. How do I want to feel? Complete, healthy and happy. Through my weight loss I have attacked a lot of issues that I didn't want to deal with, however having dealt with them it has definitely aided in the process. How do I want to look? Well I want to look the way I feel happy and healthy. However for me personally I want to take away my doctors go to when ever i hurt or something isn't right there favorite answer is well I hate to tell but if you would lose weight it would be so much better. So Lets see if that is true. I am right now 67 pounds lighter than when i started 11 months ago and my foot still hurts just like it did at the start. But I don't let it stop me I just keep thinking well maybe another 10 pounds and it will stop hurting so much.

  
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LOVEANANIMAL 6/18/2012 10:53PM

    Very proud of you for losing 67 pounds! Keep fighting the good fight!!!

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OREOSMILE 6/18/2012 7:37PM

    wow! that is one powerful post! thanks for sharing

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SHRINK_U 6/18/2012 4:01PM

    67 pounds lighter!! You are a fighter!

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ELLEJAY7 6/18/2012 3:23PM

    Determination! You've got it girl! I think it's terrible that for us Big Girls, every medical condition we face gets blamed at least partially on weight. I know weight is a big factor, but the weight blame makes you end up blaming yourself for everything and becomes a vicious circle! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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TERRIPAL1 6/18/2012 2:40PM

    Way to go! All good reasons you can and will do it look how far you've come!I'm on the challenge too! emoticon

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The other side of 300

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

You wake up one morning and realize that you have lied to yourself. You are not just fat, you are not just obese no you are what they call morbidly obese. Every muscle in your body is tired even though you just woke up. The mere fact that you have to crawl up of that couch onto those two crutches to go to the rest and be out of breath when you get there is almost to much to handle. I spent a lot of time on that couch out of necessity not want. over ten weeks I put on another 30 pounds as I recovered from major foot surgery. My body hated me then for sure. Lying on the couch I decided that when I got off that couch I would do everything in my power not to go back to that couch under those circumstances. Being overweight was a habit it was safe it was easy and hard all in one. Now by no means am I at the end of my journey. However I have come a long way to get to this point right here right now.

There have been days when i threw up my hands and said I cant do this. There have been days when I thought about crawling just so the pain would stop for a moment. There have been days when I felt completely alone and isolated. But there have also been days when I felt like I just concurred the world. There have been moments of laughter that well others say why are you laughing and I would just simply say you wouldnt understand. The point is that through blood, sweat and tears I did it. I moved mountains when all the odds told me I couldnt. When people said I dont know why you keep going.


I have made it to number 1 : 299 pounds


This is an awesome number. For the better part of 10 years now I have been over 300 pounds. June the 25th is my birthday and for the first time in a decade I will not weigh 300 pounds. I know it is just one pound under but it is not one pound over that is for sure. There are other stats that are impressive to me. This process has been over the last eleven months.

My Stats:
When I started my BMI was 54.2 it is now 44.2. I have lost a grand total of 67.4 pounds. I have gone at least one size in most everything.
Back in October 2011 I took measurements now i am not sure those were right to start with but they are the only ones I have to go by

OCTOBER 2011 JUNE 2010
ARMS 17 17
WAIST 53 46.9
HIPS I couldnt measure with my tape Now they are dead on 60 inches
thigh 30.6 29.5




I started this process alone However along the way I found people or should I say people found me that have listened to me whine, moan, joke and cry. As I fought to get to 299. For those people I will be forever in your debt. I know this all may be not much for every one to celebrate but for me it is like the best thing in the world. Thank all of you that are family, friends and fellow sparkers for helping me get here. Now come on the journey now starts to get 266.

  
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COOKIE_AT_51 6/22/2012 8:48AM

    Woot :) Keep Sparkin' ... you are doing wonderful things for yourself! emoticon

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KNIT1PURL2LOSE3 6/18/2012 12:23PM

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Keep it up!!!

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JCDROLSHAGEN 6/17/2012 11:06PM

    Congratulations!

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KATYDID412 6/16/2012 9:54AM

    That's a huge accomplishment, and you're doing great! Keep the momentum going.

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ALDNJPD1 6/15/2012 8:44AM

    emoticon I am SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! You are emoticon!!!!
Keep up the great work my friend!!!!

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MELLYBEANS0919 6/15/2012 12:34AM

  Congrats!! You are doing it!

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LULUBELLE65 6/14/2012 11:36PM

    299 is awesome! What a great birthday gift to yourself! emoticon

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XPHOENIX 6/14/2012 9:40PM

    AMAZING!!!! Never say "Just one pound"!! That is 3,500 calories that you burned or didn't eat and it still counts! You are out of the 300's! I'm so proud of you! I started off at 349.. and we are proving this CAN be done! You're so awesome! When I get to 269, I'm at my halfway mark. That should be next month or so! SO freakin' exciting! Glad to have you on this journey with me! XOXO

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IMAREADER 6/14/2012 10:23AM

    Awesome! I know you can keep up the good work!

Go Newtink!

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KATIEBACH 6/14/2012 8:59AM

    way to go emoticon

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LOVEANANIMAL 6/14/2012 12:26AM

    I am so very proud of you!!!! Very proud!

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AVANDREA_ 6/13/2012 6:50PM

    Way to go!!!

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SARAHSTARTSOVER 6/13/2012 6:19PM

    Congratulations! I remember when I hit that magic 299 number. Its thrilling, what's even better is the knowledge that you won't be going back. Congrats again! Keep going!

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SHRINK_U 6/13/2012 5:50PM

    Congratulations! So happy for you!

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WINTERHARTT 6/13/2012 2:43PM

    emoticon You are so amazingly awesome!!!!!!! Congratulations on making the 2's! Keep going my friend!!! I"m glad to be on this journey with you!

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AANGEL3 6/13/2012 2:33PM

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 6/13/2012 1:44PM

    WOOOO! So awesome!

That is exactly what this journey is about. Working steadily, and just taking it one day and pound at a time.
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PLAYBLUES22 6/13/2012 1:00PM

    Sweetie, you brought tears to my eyes. You have every right to celebrate and shout from the highest roof top, Proud is what I am feeling for you right now and I know this is not the end of your beautiful journey

Your friend ....not on on Sparks but in spirit also

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Weight loss vision statement

Thursday, June 07, 2012

As part of a Challenge for one of my teams the bonus was to write a weight loss vision statement. I try to accomplish all goals put up before me. This one was especially difficult for me so I am putting it here so i can have an easier record for me to find.

A Weight loss vision statement 2012
Where do I want to be in a year? For me this process has gone far past weight loss. I want to be still addicted to the feeling of accomplishment that I get from the changes that I have made in my life. To continue to grow and learn how to be a better person. Hopefully the wounds and scars of years past have diminished enough that they are not a substantial part of my life.

Everyday begins with exercise both physically and mentally. I do not work so I am not sure how employment fits into my plan. I know everyday will be filled with family.

Installed in me from birth are core beliefs, values and emotions. I just can not say that I have ever applied certain aspects to me personally. Through this process I have started to applying some to myself. Courage to be able to say " I need help." Strength to say no and no you cant treat me badly.Honor the choices that made for myself. Commitment to my plan. Love myself as much as I love the other people in my life.

Learning everyday is a key to my success, Never quitting even through pain, Exploring new places, new food and fitness keeps this process interesting. Research leads to a better understanding of myself through my journaling and tracking.

So there you have my weight loss vision statement. I am not sure at all that this is what it is suppose to be. For me next year is to far away just like the overall goals is. So I have to stick with one day at a time. I will leave you with one closing thought ... " To thy own self be true."

How to write a weight loss vision statement

www.sparkpeople.com/resource/wellnes
s_articles.asp?id=695

  
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TEACHINKIDS2 6/14/2012 3:37PM

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SIMPLY-VICKI 6/10/2012 4:30PM

  You've given me something to think about myself. Thank you.

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MSCARCHICK 6/8/2012 1:37PM

    That's a great idea. My husband just had to write one for his admittance into Grad School so we might sit down and do one for our weight loss!

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WELLREDHEAD 6/7/2012 10:13PM

    Very good! I feel the same about the process being about so much more than weight loss. emoticon

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have a voice please

Thursday, June 07, 2012

Earlier this week there was a "shopping incident". I was offended and humiliated by a staff member at a local sporting goods store while searching for some new workout clothes. What actually occurred is not the important thing. The realization that he might be right that is important. As a heavier bodied person I loath shopping. I do not have the personalities for the extremes that are out there ... I am really cool with solid colors. I have the right to shop any where that is open to the public irregardless of my body'ssize. However I feel that any store open to the pubic has the responsibility to cater at least in part to every person. I push hard to lose weight and get healthy and as my body changes my clothes have to change with it. So yes when I wanted to buy comfortable new clothes solely for working out I went to a fitness place. Look I have nothing against Walmart however that should not be my only option. As you can tell this really bothers me because it has been five days sense it happened and I am still on the subject in my brain.

If the mass of this country is overweight, obese or morbidly obese then why are the big names not supporting our country's weight loss efforts. Why is I can only have a pair a Nike shorts when i reach a certain size. It is alright for me to spend a hundred dollars on a pair of their shoes but not 20 dollars on a pair of their shorts or tanks. To quote them "just do it " well I have been just doing it. However they chose to ignore my needs . We all need to feel empowered, sexy,beautiful and just like everyone I want what everyone else has. I don't look at a Nike commercial and say I want to be that sexy model I say i want what she is wearing. My point here is they should cater to the mass and not just to the minority. Proper attire is my necessity not my luxury. and look with as much weight as i have to lose I will need to change out my work out attire about every three to six months imagine all the money they are losing out on lol. If you cant support me when i am this size why would i buy that line when i get fit.

I took it upon myself to email every large name athletic company i could think of and advise them that they are leaving out a huge amount of the population. I am not someone that is going to be pushed under a rock till I get fit. However i am just one voice. If you have been shopping or watched a TV commercial or saw a picture in a magazine and said I wish i could wear that, then please find a moment and have a voice to these companies. Just ask why not why cant you make a line clothes that fits people as they try to get fit and change their lives.

Ok so now i am stepping off my soap box. thank you for reading this.

  
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XPHOENIX 6/7/2012 10:35PM

    GOOD FOR YOU BABE!! I love this! We could start a Facebook group about this... I would help you, if you like. That could get our voices heard. I have noticed this before also. I almost always buy my things at Walmart because I LOVE Danskin pants and other sports outfits they have but it would be nice if I had the money and they had it available for me to buy higher end things. So proud of you! This is just awesome! Sorry they suck and you weren't able to buy what you wanted, but I love that you DID something about it instead of just taking it. You, my Done Sister, are awesome!! XOXOXOXO

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SKYRUNHER 6/7/2012 2:58PM

    Good for you! I will have to follow your example!

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ACCT1908 6/7/2012 2:42PM

    I agree with you! I'm tired of wearing old t-shirts and cheap leggins to work out in. I want some cute Nike apparel. Now I'm mad!!! Kudos to you for addressing the issue!

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