Saturday, June 02, 2012
My brain is racing this morning.. Firing off in every direction. So I am going to use this blog to clean out the attic and see if I can get it stop. There will be several issues here so don't get alarmed I don't bite.
Back at the beginning of May my oldest son "C" moved back in at home because his divorce got ugly quickly. I am very proud of the man he has become although if he had listened to me I could have saved him a lot of heartache and frustration. Him living at home as adult is lets just say challenging. When he moved back in He weighed 290 pounds last night when he weighed he was 258 .. you are thinking this is wonderful and yes it is if he can keep it up. He has sensible eating habits when he goes to work and then in evening all goes to hell per say. Just remember he also 21 years old. But at least he does have the knowledge to know how to make sensible choices so he is already miles above where I started.
My youngest son "J" who is 20, followed the exact path of his brother. He got married this past year to a girl you can say really is his soul mate. Now those two are pure volatile electricity. After not speaking to me for lets see 4 months ( yes i am as hard-headed as he is) I get this frantic phone call that his wife is pregnant. Really I have to do this again for the love of God didn't you learn anything however damage done and now we have to move forward. He is frantic because reality bites sometimes. Look sex is a wonderful thing Making love is even better but as with everything else there are consequences that must paid. So now it is important to get a job and further your education. This wonderful woman that you are married is now on your tail about all the things that I warned you about and now you expect me to make everything peachy well guess what I can't do it. YOU MUST DO IT. I know it sucks when your parents say to you " what you are doing right now will impact your future" I know this because my parents said it to me ( another big surprise I didn't listen either ). So welcome to adult hood where everything your parents said eventually comes back to bite you. Oh and yea just so there is no misunderstanding I am waiting for the " you were right mom". So the big bad ugly world is going to make you look for a job and it will not just give you one because you believe you are entitled. Yep here you go, you wanted to be grown so now you got it what you think of it ? Wonderful isn't it!!! But I do love you and I am sure everything will be fine.
After a rather in depth conversation with a friend this morning about HIV I feel the need to drag out my soap box and preach a little. Having a family member with HIV yes gets you nothing more than the rest of the world except more knowledge. If there is one thing I can tell you from 42 years on this earth one piece of advice that I can give you it is this . " Knowledge is empowering" the more you know the less you fear. Embrace it love it and be free from normal fears. Don't wait for the world to give it to you. Don't let ignorance rule you. In today's world there are plenty of scary things but you can overcome most of them if you just obtain knowledge of them. Don't get mad because someone exposed a child through an innocent act to the HIV virus.. Get mad because up till that point the parents never spoke of it. The threat was there all the time and if they had knowledge the fear would not be so bad.
To say this week has been trying is a huge understatement, but then all my weeks are like that. I think that is life just this week it gave me headache that my meds are not taking away. We deal with family, marital, financial and this all mighty weight loss on a daily basis just well sometimes you really do just want that Milkshake to see if it gets better even though you know it will not. So i guess the only thing to do is pull up your smaller ( LOL) big girl panties and carry on.
Ok just in case you have not gotten enough of my sarcasm this morning here is one more (lol) . I read a blog this morning " I have a beef" by one of my friends on here. On now that is funny at its best. She is ticked because of the wording "lost weight" and she is exactly right about it also ... but this makes me think of a statement that was made while on my little trip last week. I went out sporting the bathing suit and all the sudden this women squeeched ( irritating sound) "omg you look great, what in the hell have you been doing?" Really you want me to sum up the last year of my life. I said well I have been sitting on the couch eating bonbons . She said I must try that I said instead ( handed her card) try this. The card reads "sparkpeople.com" it works better. I don't know if she has or not but hey if tries the bonbons she will need the "spark".
Food Blog 6/1 . thankfully this part of the Sass group is ending. I am not sure exactly why but all the pictures of food make me feel guilty. Honestly it is like when i go to a buffet and everyone stares at me.. I think omg i am eating to much again. Irrational at its best.
Thomas light english muffin, sausage gravy ( healthier gravy Hungry girl recipe) cantaloupe and watermelon again
PB&J sandwich, banana and a few mini apple cinnamon rice cakes( instead of potato chips)
2 slices Dominoes pizza .... there is no picture of that from me I think we all know that was not a good choice. Believe me after nearly no fat I have paid the price with a restless night and nausea ..
Thanks for visiting my attic I hope it doesn't do to much damage to you ... Have a wonderful day !!!
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