just a day

Wednesday, May 02, 2012

This time last year I was laying litterally on my couch in New Orleans recovering from foot surgery. That was the fifth foot surgery and with each one the fear of complications grew. With this one there was a particular concern for infection and it was scary thinking I might lose my foot however the pain had grown so bad and the foot was so week that I really felt like i had no choice. I followed instructions to the letter for ten weeks and did not a thing but go to the restroom and back to the couch . this is only important in reflection to how far we have come.

Now fast forward to yesterday ... as i woke in the morning the foot was throbbing before it hit the floor but i kept pushing ... at noon i finally did my Leslie Sansone dvd 1 mile because i also had to do the biggest loser calorie knock out. one is low impact arobics the other is high impact ... after that i couldnt hardly walk so ice packs and meds here we come. Well I had told the grandsons that we would go outside when they got up from a nap.

So when they got up and saw the ice pack on my ankle my four year old grandson said you don't have to go outside mamaw you are hurt ... i said no we have to go out and play it will be alright. so back on with the Nikes and out we go ... No I didnt want to I wanted to curl up and cry but i went any way ... while outside we were running around playing and chasing bubbles. at one point a tear rolled down my face because i am not kidding it hurt pretty bad. my grandson when i went at sat the table says why do you run and play at mommy's no big people run with us ... i just sat there looking at this small face wondering what to tell him ... how to make him understand how important his play time was ... so i said ... well sweetie ... running and playing with is good for a lot of reasons. First it is fun ... i love the giggle from them it is contagious... second well that is a little more difficult but lets see ... You are helping me by running and playing ... helping me get healthier and fit... so we can play for many years ... he thought i minute and he said Well i like playing with you but well i need to rest you make me tired. He said last night ... can i help you get better tomorrow outside if it doesn't rain ? lol

this story is an accomplishment for me because a year ago i couldn't do any thing with out a cane or crutches near by ... I promised myself once i got off that couch i would do everything that i could to make me better and so far i can say with a clean conscious that I am.

  

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STOP-IT-KNOW 5/6/2012 12:37PM

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SFREY217 5/2/2012 8:09AM

Thank you for this inspirational story. I too have issues with my feet and some days it's hard to get out of bed, but I just push through and keep going too! Report Inappropriate Comment

Keep the never quit pledge going !!!

Sunday, April 29, 2012

I'm joining the "Never Quit Pledge" will you?

Taken from:
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I have added my name to the bottom of the list.

Never Quit Pledge

Saturday, April 28, 2012
Today, I promise I will not quit.
I pledge that no matter, how many ups and
downs I pass through,
I will continue on my journey.
I pledge to make a NEW START today,
and forgive myself for my past,
and to stop being so critical of myself.
I pledge to take control of myself,
To Stop making excuses,
And stop blaming other people or situations.
I pledge to treat myself as I would my Best
Friend,
Because that is who I am.
I pledge to stay in the race
and to be a WINNER!

signed: Leisa (Sunflowergal40)
04/26/12

Signed: Chris (chriskenandkids)
04/26/12

Signed: Linda (scoutmom715)
04/27/12

Signed: Nancy (tedybear2838)

(from Linda S. Jayne (Geminisue)

Signed: Vicki aka VICKI-B--56

Signed: JCDROLSHAGEN

Signed: NEWTINK ( DARLENE)
4/29/2012

Will you blog and post the Never Quit Pledge, today/soon?
Let's spread it through Sparks, so all can have the choice to commit!
Thanks!

  

Rae_Leigh22

Friday, April 27, 2012

In the quest to lose weight you meet some people who sound like just words and you think that they are rolling their eyes when you are not there well Rae is not one of those people at all. I met Rae here on sparkpeople. She has the most bubbly personality even though if you have read her blogs she has had a very eventful life. She is the first to ask how I am or how is it going. She reads my blogs and comments on my page. Rae is a friend that is engaged in my life and i hope that she feels that I am in hers. Although our weight and health goals are magnitudes apart we share the bond that we are changing our lives for the better. So thank you Rae girl for letting me be part of your successes and your failures and thank you so much for being a friend.

Rae is my who i chose to honor today. She is so much more than I can say in words. so if you read this and know her stop by and give her a pat on the back. If you have a friend that makes you smile or inspires even on them days when you would just assume not do any thing let them that they are special because today might be that day they need you. Have a great day Rae you are the

  

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I know that Rae thinks you can do this and so do I. Read "WHY WE GET FAT AND WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT" By Gary Taubes. He explains that it is the sugars/starches that spike our INSULIN and that makes us produce GHERLIN the "hunger hormone" in the stomach, so we crave more SUGAR/STARCHES. Very interesting book, and I got a copy from the library. Report Inappropriate Comment

The Quote

Monday, April 23, 2012

Have you ever heard something so profound it made you think how does that apply to me? " There is no price to high for owning one's self" this one line out of movie last night has been lurking in my brain all night. With society, family, and friends it seems that something always owns us. As an overweight person, I am looked at as if i need guidance from even complete strangers. Everyone has an oppion as to what I need to do and how fast i should do it. They all have ideas for anything from clothes, shoes, food and exercise. What they would tell someone how they would act and what they would do. i just smile and say I know when i really want to say Please leave it alone or trust I know what I am doing. In the world of being overweight people are full of advice and good intentions. I am over forty and think i know myself pretty well. I love myself enough that I started this process and for the first time ever am making great progress. So why do all these other people still own me. Truth be known it is because I allow them to. They turn my battle into their battle and it seems to take own a life of its own. So let me take a minute to tell everyone This battle with my weight is the most important battle in my life, I will lose it and find me again at all cost. I am worth any price that i must pay to get back into shape. So if i tell you that i cant deal with that issue right now then you should understand. if i say that i am buying a new exercise thing instead of giving you the extra money then remember all the times up till now that i have given up so you could have. I have to take time and money for me that is the only way i can make this work.

  

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The hardest step

Friday, April 20, 2012

Last fall I was involved in a TOPS group in LA ... While in this group I did what is called the 28 day meal plan. It is TOPS structured diet plan. One of the things that i had to do was keep a very detailed food journal and regular journal so i did this in one notebook. i found this book this week. I named it "The Truth Book ". So I have been reading over what I had written very enlightening. On day 4 of this notebook I make observations about myself. The first one is well I broke down my emotions as per how they related to food. Sweets for depression, the almighty chocolate for anxiety,deep southern cooking for comfort, eating out for happy not eating for sad. Wow that is sad to read that i really know what foods make each emotion better. I had so many feeling locked up inside that i could not get anything write with dieting or changing my life. At the end of the of day 4 i made a promise to myself to become emotionally naked through the 28 day plan. I worked hard to do this . Any one that knows me knows that was not easy as you would think it would be. I am a very emotional person. Emotions good or bad are felt to the bottom of my soul. I have always had them to the deepest part of me. Nothing is unemotional to me, there is a feeling attached to every thing. However that does not mean that i cant change some things.though becoming emotionally naked I learned that it was not really food that was making this better. I decided to change the habits and my goodness it was the hardest thing i ever did . When I am depressed I write or read something. reading helps to focus my mind on something besides the problem or food. Anxiety and anger i move I will go for a walk or find something that needs to be deep cleaned really anything that makes me exert a lot of emotion physically. The hardest one was dealing with the every day emotions of happy and sad because really in a day you can change emotions quickly this is where my support systems comes into play i talk a lot of what is going on. I have never liked feeling like i was a burden to anyone but sometimes it is just sharing not really a burden to them besides my support system of friends and family really encourage this of me. I am happy to say that after all these years I feel like i am in control of my emotions instead of them being my excuse. I give emotions the respect that they deserve because as i was told last night they are to intense in me to ignore them. However It was when i stopped burying or ignoring them and faced them is when they become a healthy part of my weight loss journey to a healthy me. Emotionally naked was the biggest step for me and the hardest to take but it was worth the work that it took.

  

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