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It is not suppose to be easy !!!

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

In the morning I sit having my coffee reading articles or blogs or just writing. As of lately I find myself rolling my eyes more and more. Over the years people (family and friends) have had concerns over my weight for as far back as I can remember. With every new fad diet or surgical procedure that was introduced to society I had one of these well intention heart felt conversations over what i should be doing to lose this weight. Some of my favorites ... my mom when i was i guess 11 or 12 would fix me green beans and thin steaks for dinner she was convinced that this was the way to lose weight no carbs what so ever lol... i guess i was about 18 when i was introduced to the starvation diet ... less than six hundred calories a day ... in my twenties ... it was constant walking eat whatever you want but walk and walk and walk .... entering into the thirties it was the almighty Atkins diet ... really that one almost killed me ... This is when my doctor told me that I was hurting myself trying all this fad dieting ... you are what i call a healthy fat person ... imagine that really ... he said that i had to realize i would never be a size two and accept that.... By the mid thirties the surgery was coming in to play oh everyone thought i should jump on the gastric bypass ban wagon but to be honest I am petrified of any kinda surgery where they have to cut into my stomach, My mom died of colon cancer that had spread once they opened up her abdomen to remove the tumor ... so i have never realistically considered surgery, In the world that we live in we want everything right now right this minute instant gratification well guess what you don't always get what you want. I am so sick of looking at thin people telling me to take this pill, oh yea the sprinkle on the food now that one kills me lol I am tired of people promoting surgeries like gastric bypass, the lap band, some called POSE Really weight loss is not suppose to be easy, in my opinion if it were then it would not last think about it all the things in your life the ones that meant the most are the ones that you had to dig in fight for.I have figured out how i got to this size it was easy let me tell you .... it took a plate a fork little exercise and bad choices ... So now let me tell you how the weight is coming off one pound at a time ... a plate a fork regular exercise and better choices... Sounds simple huh well it isn't every day is a trial of wills but I do know one thing for sure for as hard as i am fighting to take this weight off at 41 years old I know that I have made the best choice for me. I know that some people must do something drastic as surgery to get their weight under control and i am not making light of their battle ... i am just saying that it should be an option but not the only option because in the end even if you get the surgery ... you still have to do the same thing as me you will just have more heath issues to do while you do it. There are no miracle weight loss things I am sorry but you cant eat what you want to and you do have to exercise to have true weight loss. So the best way is start figuring out how to live with real food and exercise so that you will only have to do the really hard part once. You will eventually have to live without diet aids and learn how to maintain with out the help of that foreign stuff if not are you really healthy in the end.

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STOP-IT-KNOW 4/29/2012 5:55PM

    emoticon you are strong. emoticon

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JIBBIE49 4/28/2012 10:17AM

    Often many grossly obese people have their stomach and intestines so stretched out that having the surgery is a great help in getting back to a normal size, so it can work for many people. One doctor on "60 Minutes" who did the surgery said many people have a stomach that can hold 80 ounces, which is FIVE POUNDS of food, and he said that they binge eat. (Of course, they told him that they ate almost nothing.) But, he said that that stomach of itself wouldn't "shrink" back down, so the surgery helped restore it to a normal size.
I think your decision NOT to have surgery is all yours, so I agree it was right for you. the problem is STRESS and most people don't stay with weight loss because they have some STRESS come along and they go back to eating SUGAR/STARCHES. I have found Dr. Atkins to be very helpful in what he researched and wrote, even though you say the diet didn't work for you. He says no one ever binges on a dozen boiled eggs, as protein just doesn't give the "bang" that a chocolate cake does for a person who wants to binge. I found "A New Diet Revolution" to be a helpful book to read, but then I'm 62 and have Metabolic Syndrome/Insulin Resistance and I don't lose weight on a "standard" diet.

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WINTERHARTT 4/18/2012 4:31PM

    emoticon Way to go for saying that! I completely agree with you. I even get co-workers making suggestions, which annoys the crazy out of me. I've been in the hospital 3 times because of fad diets. I've given up more times then I have fingers and toes. You are so very right. There is no such thing as miracle weight loss pills, diets, shakes, surgeries or anything else they can think up to get money! It's all about becoming healthy. I still struggle when I see the amount of calories I'm eating. It's been crammed into my head for so long, "Eat less, workout more" is the only way you will lose the weight. The best decision I made was seeing my acupuncturist/Chinese medicine practitioner. I was desperate and tired of doctors telling me there was nothing wrong. It took him 1/2 hour listening to me to know exactly what was wrong. I had sucralose poisoning and was malnourished. Wow...fat and malnourished?! I listened to him, got off the sucralose & all artificial sweeteners, additives etc. and I started eating more. That constituted a lot more veggies! lol I'm steadily losing weight and my energy levels are skyrocketing. BUT, I'm still working hard at it. I exercise a lot and every pound I lose I see as a victory!

emoticon We can do this!!!!

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CINDYSDAY 4/18/2012 9:38AM

    You are doing great! emoticon

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HELLO_HURRICANE 4/18/2012 8:00AM

    I am proud of you. Take the weight off slow and steady. Fad diets do end up just hurting you in the long run.

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AZMOMXTWO 4/18/2012 7:54AM

  you hit it right all the fad diets did for me was make a bad problem worse I am also scared to have bypass surgery and things like that I feel that I didn't get fat over night and I will not loose it over night so my best bet is to keep tracking my food and exercise eat healthy and exercise

good luck I know you can do it

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Offended !!!!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

This morning I was doing what has become my normal as of lately reading on Sparkpeople in one of the blogs I found a linc to the following the story
ld_bridge_woman_who_wants_to.html. This is a story about a woman who wants to weigh a thousand pounds emoticon I couldnt believe what i was reading. She was being offered money to appear on shows like Dr. Phil, something on the O network and so on. Honestly I felt nausious as read the story. I along with most of the people know the importance of a healthy diet and exercise, and here is this woman that is making a mockery of all that we believe. She is up to 605 pounds at the time of the article and eating something like 12,000 calories a day. Omg can you imagine what the esteem level must be to do that to yourself. I was astounded by the whole thing, however to learn that she makes money by videoing herself doing chores in very little clothing for this other website called when i clicked that linc i literally began to cry for these poor women. When i saw them it was like watching the world laughing at them. Then I was pissed because these women have a forum that speaks for all larger women. And since I am in that group well I think they need help. Sexuality doesnt come from wearing a thong or a teddy sexuallity comes from how you portray yourself to the world. Maybe we should stop looking for sexuality and start looking for pure beauty in the world. I have never said i was an ugly person I just said i was no size three. I learned a long time ago that i was a beautiful, intelligent classy lady. I have never been referred to as a woman well honestly because my daddy said that the term was something less than lady like. I was raised to have the up most respect for myself and others as well. I was called one time a BBW ( big Beautiful Woman) and well that person learned real quick that I do consider that a compliment at all. I strive equallity and i have never heard a skinny lady referred to as a sbw (skinny Beautiful woman). My weight does not define nor should it be in any defination of me. Ladies come on please for the love of god find the respect for yourself not to be used in this manner. there is not much that has to do with being fat that makes me want to go hide because well i strive to change that fact everyday however what i saw and read this morning made me wanted to go hide under the covers for a long time. There are plenty of ladies that very appealing as a larger size lady and there are plenty of unappealing skinny people all i am saying is that i am not sure that the internet should be used to show the world all of your business. This blog was not meant to offend anyone it was just to vent off my frustration for women of any size needing to be admired or made to feel worthy that they allow themselves to be used in the manner that these ladies are allowing. Shame on them and i hope that they dont lose to much of themselves that they cant fix this problem in the long run and have a truly healthy and happy life. emoticon

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IMAREADER 4/16/2012 11:38AM

    I always like to believe that if a person is an adult that they can be any size that they want to be and it's their business alone. However, when people have very low self-esteem or have emotional problems, then scenarios like the one you described are not acceptable. I also have a problem with people who get themselves into this type of life and others end up paying for their healthcare. (Which is why I tend to yell at the TV when I catch shows like 'half ton man' and the like.)

I certainly need to lose weight, but I'm totally aware of the health problems that I have and those that are looming on the horizon if I don't do something now. I also do not put blame on others or expect others to 'take care of me'.

Thanks for posting this information.

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FRIDA11 4/15/2012 3:00PM

    It seems to me to be suicide
And PAID suicide.
I wonder whether people also are paid to drink themselves to death in alcohol?
I have known 3 men who drank themselves to death - it took some years. They did not get money for it. Else ways it is the same stuff.

This girl will also need some years before the goal is fulfilled = eating herself to death. Good idea to put the article in Spark people. Do we want to become like her or do we want to keep being alert in keeping a healthy lifestyle? emoticon emoticon

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ASRMOM 4/15/2012 1:58PM

    I agree with what you have said. How sad.
I once watch "SuperSize Me". I hope the person with these "goals" is able to see the light and fix the damage done.

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THEEXERCISER 4/15/2012 11:07AM

    I truly agree with you about sexuality. And as far as the that woman on the Dr. Phil show goes it just shows you that some people will do anything to become rich and famous.


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The Truth

Friday, April 13, 2012

This week I have been visiting my brother at his house. Last night he asked me " can i ask you something without you being offended ?" I answered sure ... he said you are always looking at recipes or reading articles on food Do you think of food all the time? I told him of course not and pointed out that the article i was reading was on what to eat before and after a workout. This made me think do i always think of food? well I guess the answer would be yes to that question.In changing my life i have to be mindful all the time of what i am eating how much i am eating. I have to find a version of a food or recipe that I will eat, how it is going to be prepared , is it something that every one in the house will eat and if not then i have to figure out what i will have to fix them to eat. This morning i watched a video blog of a gentleman that faced his fear of the gym earlier in the week and then that lead me to thinking some more. So the truth is I think I am constantly thinking of food because i am afraid of failure I must lose this weight at all cost. So yea it is usually on my mind but not that I am hungry but to make sure that i equip myself well enough to make through the bad moments. This is very conscious choice that i made to change my life however to change my life i am having to change my life all parts of it not just one or two things. The other thing is that i have never understood food and its make up and how it affects the body.... So one thing is that i have been learning more about food as a nutrient to fuel a healthy me , not a comfort to make me feel better than worst again. It is like therapy almost me on one end of the couch and the food on the other end. Food is like the bad boyfriend that you cant get rid of ... he is bad for you so you have to retrain yourself to believe that he can be good with your help. Ok so i know this made no sense what so ever but i had to get it all out of brain lol. have a great day

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JCDROLSHAGEN 4/20/2012 9:57PM

    Yes, it made sense to me. What you are doing is educating yourself as to the best way to get healthy. Nutrients are important and the correct amounts are important. So keep on reading. emoticon

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BE_FREE 4/13/2012 11:43PM

    Love this because I think about food too literally almost all the time! I feel like it's kind of taken over my mind. Instead of food to keep me living, it's like living for food! Ugh yea I do love food. I am with you though 100% we have to prepare things so everyone will eat it too constantly watching the intake etc.

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RAE_LEIGH22 4/13/2012 9:34PM

    It did make sense! I get it, trust me! Thanks for always being so awesome.

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The day after

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Yesterday was a rough day for me.. Not sure what happened but emotionally I bottomed out and really didn't want to do anything or see any one. As a person that suffers from heightened stress and depression some days are just like that. I spent four hours sitting and crying and really cant figure out why i was just that is what was happening. The relaxation methods didn't ease the stress so i went to bed feeling like crap. This morning when I got up i washed my face looked in the mirror and said you have two choices tink you can either walk or crawl. i made my coffee as usual and i had this one thought in my head that said just go back to bed and sleep this off.. I got up at this point and said NO i will not give in to this feeling I am going to have a better day if it kills me. I cleaned up the house mopping and vacuuming ... then i fixed me a good breakfast got dressed and decided to leave the house ... I went to the walking track and did an hour walk. half way through a tear rolled down my cheek and walked harder and faster until the tears were not in my mind. every time i felt down today I moved. I can not and will not give into all the anxiety. this morning i read an article here on SP about rewarding yourself ... i kept reminding myself that i needed and was stronger than the anxiety, stress and depression. Today was hard but it was much better than yesterday. Made some phone calls and fixed some of the stress that was going on. pushed myself to stay mobile instead of laying in a dark room because well frankly i am so much more than a dark room. I know this blog doesn't make any sense but it is my way of saying if you want to past the I can not do it in this world then well that has to start with you. I took the lessons that i have been learning and applied them to try to get me mentally right so as not to sabotage myself. Oh and yea I love me enough to fight for the good days and kiss the bad ones good bye. emoticon emoticon


the end of a very stressful weekend

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Today is the beginning of a new week on Spark people however it is the end of a very stressful and emotional week for me personally. I dont think i did terrible i just know i didnt do great either. For the first time I had to cook for a group including small children, this was compounded with the emotions that were going crazy inside of me. Sometimes I wish i was one of those people that could just say please grow up and let things go. Maybe one day i will be. I want to be happy I just dont know why happiness has to come at the cost of others. I am not sure where I am going with this entry except to say that my sugar cravings were worst because i was apparently trying to make to many people happy at one time. I need them to understand that I am no wonder woman I am just one person that wants everyone to be happy and safe. I just dont know how to tell them that the added stress of the holidays and attitudes is not helping my weight loss program. I really need all of them on my side ... this all gives new meaning to what I heard one time " if you are not part of the solution then you must be part of the problem". I wonder will they ever find the sacrificing love to help me in this journey I am on. emoticon


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