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Friday, April 27, 2012

In the quest to lose weight you meet some people who sound like just words and you think that they are rolling their eyes when you are not there well Rae is not one of those people at all. I met Rae here on sparkpeople. She has the most bubbly personality even though if you have read her blogs she has had a very eventful life. She is the first to ask how I am or how is it going. She reads my blogs and comments on my page. Rae is a friend that is engaged in my life and i hope that she feels that I am in hers. Although our weight and health goals are magnitudes apart we share the bond that we are changing our lives for the better. So thank you Rae girl for letting me be part of your successes and your failures and thank you so much for being a friend.

Rae is my who i chose to honor today. She is so much more than I can say in words. so if you read this and know her stop by and give her a pat on the back. If you have a friend that makes you smile or inspires even on them days when you would just assume not do any thing let them that they are special because today might be that day they need you. Have a great day Rae you are the emoticon

  
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THEFLORIDAFAIRY 5/5/2012 10:18AM

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JIBBIE49 4/28/2012 10:07AM

    emoticonI know that Rae thinks you can do this and so do I.

Read "WHY WE GET FAT AND WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT" By Gary Taubes. He explains that it is the sugars/starches that spike our INSULIN and that makes us produce GHERLIN the "hunger hormone" in the stomach, so we crave more SUGAR/STARCHES. Very interesting book, and I got a copy from the library.

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The Quote

Monday, April 23, 2012

Have you ever heard something so profound it made you think how does that apply to me? " There is no price to high for owning one's self" this one line out of movie last night has been lurking in my brain all night. With society, family, and friends it seems that something always owns us. As an overweight person, I am looked at as if i need guidance from even complete strangers. Everyone has an oppion as to what I need to do and how fast i should do it. They all have ideas for anything from clothes, shoes, food and exercise. What they would tell someone how they would act and what they would do. i just smile and say I know when i really want to say Please leave it alone or trust I know what I am doing. In the world of being overweight people are full of advice and good intentions. I am over forty and think i know myself pretty well. I love myself enough that I started this process and for the first time ever am making great progress. So why do all these other people still own me. Truth be known it is because I allow them to. They turn my battle into their battle and it seems to take own a life of its own. So let me take a minute to tell everyone This battle with my weight is the most important battle in my life, I will lose it and find me again at all cost. I am worth any price that i must pay to get back into shape. So if i tell you that i cant deal with that issue right now then you should understand. if i say that i am buying a new exercise thing instead of giving you the extra money then remember all the times up till now that i have given up so you could have. I have to take time and money for me that is the only way i can make this work.

  
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STOP-IT-KNOW 4/29/2012 5:51PM

    good for you. emoticon

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JIBBIE49 4/28/2012 10:08AM

    emoticonDONE GIRLS ROCK.

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The hardest step

Friday, April 20, 2012

Last fall I was involved in a TOPS group in LA ... While in this group I did what is called the 28 day meal plan. It is TOPS structured diet plan. One of the things that i had to do was keep a very detailed food journal and regular journal so i did this in one notebook. i found this book this week. I named it "The Truth Book ". So I have been reading over what I had written very enlightening. On day 4 of this notebook I make observations about myself. The first one is well I broke down my emotions as per how they related to food. Sweets for depression, the almighty chocolate for anxiety,deep southern cooking for comfort, eating out for happy not eating for sad. Wow that is sad to read that i really know what foods make each emotion better. I had so many feeling locked up inside that i could not get anything write with dieting or changing my life. At the end of the of day 4 i made a promise to myself to become emotionally naked through the 28 day plan. I worked hard to do this . Any one that knows me knows that was not easy as you would think it would be. I am a very emotional person. Emotions good or bad are felt to the bottom of my soul. I have always had them to the deepest part of me. Nothing is unemotional to me, there is a feeling attached to every thing. However that does not mean that i cant change some things.though becoming emotionally naked I learned that it was not really food that was making this better. I decided to change the habits and my goodness it was the hardest thing i ever did . When I am depressed I write or read something. reading helps to focus my mind on something besides the problem or food. Anxiety and anger i move I will go for a walk or find something that needs to be deep cleaned really anything that makes me exert a lot of emotion physically. The hardest one was dealing with the every day emotions of happy and sad because really in a day you can change emotions quickly this is where my support systems comes into play i talk a lot of what is going on. I have never liked feeling like i was a burden to anyone but sometimes it is just sharing not really a burden to them besides my support system of friends and family really encourage this of me. I am happy to say that after all these years I feel like i am in control of my emotions instead of them being my excuse. I give emotions the respect that they deserve because as i was told last night they are to intense in me to ignore them. However It was when i stopped burying or ignoring them and faced them is when they become a healthy part of my weight loss journey to a healthy me. Emotionally naked was the biggest step for me and the hardest to take but it was worth the work that it took.

  
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It is not suppose to be easy !!!

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

In the morning I sit having my coffee reading articles or blogs or just writing. As of lately I find myself rolling my eyes more and more. Over the years people (family and friends) have had concerns over my weight for as far back as I can remember. With every new fad diet or surgical procedure that was introduced to society I had one of these well intention heart felt conversations over what i should be doing to lose this weight. Some of my favorites ... my mom when i was i guess 11 or 12 would fix me green beans and thin steaks for dinner she was convinced that this was the way to lose weight no carbs what so ever lol... i guess i was about 18 when i was introduced to the starvation diet ... less than six hundred calories a day ... in my twenties ... it was constant walking eat whatever you want but walk and walk and walk .... entering into the thirties it was the almighty Atkins diet ... really that one almost killed me ... This is when my doctor told me that I was hurting myself trying all this fad dieting ... you are what i call a healthy fat person ... imagine that really ... he said that i had to realize i would never be a size two and accept that.... By the mid thirties the surgery was coming in to play oh everyone thought i should jump on the gastric bypass ban wagon but to be honest I am petrified of any kinda surgery where they have to cut into my stomach, My mom died of colon cancer that had spread once they opened up her abdomen to remove the tumor ... so i have never realistically considered surgery, In the world that we live in we want everything right now right this minute instant gratification well guess what you don't always get what you want. I am so sick of looking at thin people telling me to take this pill, oh yea the sprinkle on the food now that one kills me lol I am tired of people promoting surgeries like gastric bypass, the lap band, some called POSE Really weight loss is not suppose to be easy, in my opinion if it were then it would not last think about it all the things in your life the ones that meant the most are the ones that you had to dig in fight for.I have figured out how i got to this size it was easy let me tell you .... it took a plate a fork little exercise and bad choices ... So now let me tell you how the weight is coming off one pound at a time ... a plate a fork regular exercise and better choices... Sounds simple huh well it isn't every day is a trial of wills but I do know one thing for sure for as hard as i am fighting to take this weight off at 41 years old I know that I have made the best choice for me. I know that some people must do something drastic as surgery to get their weight under control and i am not making light of their battle ... i am just saying that it should be an option but not the only option because in the end even if you get the surgery ... you still have to do the same thing as me you will just have more heath issues to do while you do it. There are no miracle weight loss things I am sorry but you cant eat what you want to and you do have to exercise to have true weight loss. So the best way is start figuring out how to live with real food and exercise so that you will only have to do the really hard part once. You will eventually have to live without diet aids and learn how to maintain with out the help of that foreign stuff if not are you really healthy in the end.

  
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STOP-IT-KNOW 4/29/2012 5:55PM

    emoticon you are strong. emoticon

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JIBBIE49 4/28/2012 10:17AM

    Often many grossly obese people have their stomach and intestines so stretched out that having the surgery is a great help in getting back to a normal size, so it can work for many people. One doctor on "60 Minutes" who did the surgery said many people have a stomach that can hold 80 ounces, which is FIVE POUNDS of food, and he said that they binge eat. (Of course, they told him that they ate almost nothing.) But, he said that that stomach of itself wouldn't "shrink" back down, so the surgery helped restore it to a normal size.
I think your decision NOT to have surgery is all yours, so I agree it was right for you. the problem is STRESS and most people don't stay with weight loss because they have some STRESS come along and they go back to eating SUGAR/STARCHES. I have found Dr. Atkins to be very helpful in what he researched and wrote, even though you say the diet didn't work for you. He says no one ever binges on a dozen boiled eggs, as protein just doesn't give the "bang" that a chocolate cake does for a person who wants to binge. I found "A New Diet Revolution" to be a helpful book to read, but then I'm 62 and have Metabolic Syndrome/Insulin Resistance and I don't lose weight on a "standard" diet.

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WINTERHARTT 4/18/2012 4:31PM

    emoticon Way to go for saying that! I completely agree with you. I even get co-workers making suggestions, which annoys the crazy out of me. I've been in the hospital 3 times because of fad diets. I've given up more times then I have fingers and toes. You are so very right. There is no such thing as miracle weight loss pills, diets, shakes, surgeries or anything else they can think up to get money! It's all about becoming healthy. I still struggle when I see the amount of calories I'm eating. It's been crammed into my head for so long, "Eat less, workout more" is the only way you will lose the weight. The best decision I made was seeing my acupuncturist/Chinese medicine practitioner. I was desperate and tired of doctors telling me there was nothing wrong. It took him 1/2 hour listening to me to know exactly what was wrong. I had sucralose poisoning and was malnourished. Wow...fat and malnourished?! I listened to him, got off the sucralose & all artificial sweeteners, additives etc. and I started eating more. That constituted a lot more veggies! lol I'm steadily losing weight and my energy levels are skyrocketing. BUT, I'm still working hard at it. I exercise a lot and every pound I lose I see as a victory!

emoticon We can do this!!!!

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CINDYSDAY 4/18/2012 9:38AM

    You are doing great! emoticon

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HELLO_HURRICANE 4/18/2012 8:00AM

    I am proud of you. Take the weight off slow and steady. Fad diets do end up just hurting you in the long run.

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AZMOMXTWO 4/18/2012 7:54AM

  you hit it right all the fad diets did for me was make a bad problem worse I am also scared to have bypass surgery and things like that I feel that I didn't get fat over night and I will not loose it over night so my best bet is to keep tracking my food and exercise eat healthy and exercise

good luck I know you can do it

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Offended !!!!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

This morning I was doing what has become my normal as of lately reading on Sparkpeople in one of the blogs I found a linc to the following the story http://www.nj.com/news/index.ssf/2010/03/o
ld_bridge_woman_who_wants_to.html. This is a story about a woman who wants to weigh a thousand pounds emoticon I couldnt believe what i was reading. She was being offered money to appear on shows like Dr. Phil, something on the O network and so on. Honestly I felt nausious as read the story. I along with most of the people know the importance of a healthy diet and exercise, and here is this woman that is making a mockery of all that we believe. She is up to 605 pounds at the time of the article and eating something like 12,000 calories a day. Omg can you imagine what the esteem level must be to do that to yourself. I was astounded by the whole thing, however to learn that she makes money by videoing herself doing chores in very little clothing for this other website called supersizedbombshells.com when i clicked that linc i literally began to cry for these poor women. When i saw them it was like watching the world laughing at them. Then I was pissed because these women have a forum that speaks for all larger women. And since I am in that group well I think they need help. Sexuality doesnt come from wearing a thong or a teddy sexuallity comes from how you portray yourself to the world. Maybe we should stop looking for sexuality and start looking for pure beauty in the world. I have never said i was an ugly person I just said i was no size three. I learned a long time ago that i was a beautiful, intelligent classy lady. I have never been referred to as a woman well honestly because my daddy said that the term was something less than lady like. I was raised to have the up most respect for myself and others as well. I was called one time a BBW ( big Beautiful Woman) and well that person learned real quick that I do consider that a compliment at all. I strive equallity and i have never heard a skinny lady referred to as a sbw (skinny Beautiful woman). My weight does not define nor should it be in any defination of me. Ladies come on please for the love of god find the respect for yourself not to be used in this manner. there is not much that has to do with being fat that makes me want to go hide because well i strive to change that fact everyday however what i saw and read this morning made me wanted to go hide under the covers for a long time. There are plenty of ladies that very appealing as a larger size lady and there are plenty of unappealing skinny people all i am saying is that i am not sure that the internet should be used to show the world all of your business. This blog was not meant to offend anyone it was just to vent off my frustration for women of any size needing to be admired or made to feel worthy that they allow themselves to be used in the manner that these ladies are allowing. Shame on them and i hope that they dont lose to much of themselves that they cant fix this problem in the long run and have a truly healthy and happy life. emoticon

  
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IMAREADER 4/16/2012 11:38AM

    I always like to believe that if a person is an adult that they can be any size that they want to be and it's their business alone. However, when people have very low self-esteem or have emotional problems, then scenarios like the one you described are not acceptable. I also have a problem with people who get themselves into this type of life and others end up paying for their healthcare. (Which is why I tend to yell at the TV when I catch shows like 'half ton man' and the like.)

I certainly need to lose weight, but I'm totally aware of the health problems that I have and those that are looming on the horizon if I don't do something now. I also do not put blame on others or expect others to 'take care of me'.

Thanks for posting this information.

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FRIDA11 4/15/2012 3:00PM

    It seems to me to be suicide
And PAID suicide.
I wonder whether people also are paid to drink themselves to death in alcohol?
I have known 3 men who drank themselves to death - it took some years. They did not get money for it. Else ways it is the same stuff.

This girl will also need some years before the goal is fulfilled = eating herself to death. Good idea to put the article in Spark people. Do we want to become like her or do we want to keep being alert in keeping a healthy lifestyle? emoticon emoticon

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ASRMOM 4/15/2012 1:58PM

    I agree with what you have said. How sad.
I once watch "SuperSize Me". I hope the person with these "goals" is able to see the light and fix the damage done.

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THEEXERCISER 4/15/2012 11:07AM

    I truly agree with you about sexuality. And as far as the that woman on the Dr. Phil show goes it just shows you that some people will do anything to become rich and famous.

Carrie

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