Saturday, January 05, 2013
Two years ago I had a serious foot surgery during that recovery I was not allowed to do any exercise and consequently gained 35 pounds in ten weeks. Every thing was miserable during that time. I had reached an all time high weight and I was done . I hated the way felt, hated the way I looked basically hated everything about life. I felt like I was at a point where I had to do something or die. That fear drove me to research while sitting on the couch and to make a successful plan on how to do what I needed to do become the person I knew deep down I was.
In the past this was attacked weight loss as something I had to do . I would loose 10 or 15 pounds gain 5 pounds and decide it wasnt worth the effort because I wasnt going to do any good any way. I never set up a support system . Basically I doomed myself from the beginning . This time it wasnt something that was for the rest of the world, it was something for me. I push and push hard because it is something that I want . I want to be healthy . I want to be sexy. I want to be that grand mother that can easily play with the grand babies. I want to respect myself. I want look in the mirror and know that I did this. I am achieving every one of those goals. Not because someone said you need to do something, but because I woke and said you have no choice but take control back .
The bottom line is if you are doing this for anyone besides yourself you are asking for failure. You have to breath, sleep, eat this process . There will never be an end to this journey for me because i will never be able just not worry about my weight, it is a constant force to be reckoned with.