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1/8/13 Day 8 : workout routine

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

My workout routine really depends on my mobility with my foot . I walk every day without fail. Any where from 2 to 4 miles ... Walking is my emotional release and has helped me deal with emotional eating ... I now know I will never run or jog but i am good with that as long as I can walk . I also have a neck exerciser that I use every day ... On Monday, wed and Friday I do strength training .. that consists of the following

3 sets of 10 reps each ....
Modified pushups
chest flys
bicep curls
Toe touches
various resistance band exercisers

Right now I am in the process of packing up our apartment and cleaning for the move back to Mississippi permanently . So that is also being counted as exercise.
I have PT on Wed and that is a whole other workout.

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COOKIE_AT_51 1/9/2013 9:50AM

    Hope everything went well at the doc's ... be careful moving boxes around emoticon

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1/7/13 Day 7: Support System

Monday, January 07, 2013

The actual question today was do your parents know you are trying to loose weight? Do they care? I lost my in Sept of 01 and my dad in April of 02. Yes that is right 8 months apart. If they were still with me they would know and oh yes they would care. When I started this in 2010 I quickly found out that I couldnt do this alone. I didnt want to repeat the same mistakes so a support system was needed.

Meet Randy ... he has been my Peter Pan for all 42 years of my life ..

Randy is one of the main reasons that I started this because I got so tired of him telling me of every new surgery that was going to make me smaller and save my life. He is my oldest brother. God gave me him as a brother because he knew that I needed the best in my life and he is it. Randy has Aids but made the choice last January to do work out and see if he could help his own heath issue. He has lost some 40 pounds on his own journey. He is a true hero to battle everyday like he does is amazing.

Then there is Carolyn Cook .... She is the girly girl that I can tell anything to ... and believe me she hears more than she ever wanted to I promise.

I met Carolyn in New Orleans almost 4 years ago which is funny being as we actually live like 15 minutes away from each other in MS. As far as motivators go she is a great one because you cant help but feel good around her. If she has bad days I sure havent seen them ..

Chris now he is my heart ... My oldest son. He has been through so much but he found his way into fitness and has lost some 90 pounds since January 2011 . After being estranged for years from me .. when he came back into my life he just became my best friend. We talk all the time and it is usually about diet and exercise. He calls to ask did you walk today ? knowing is story makes mine so bearable sometimes .

Since I am so far away from him lol i get these types of pictures from him ... look mom I have muscles ... you have to love the internet right ...

There are so many here on spark people that I cant begin to name them all . But this has became my support system. Every person in my life real or online in some way impacts this journey and many cant be named for a variety of reasons . But they are none less important . I would love to name a couple of others but to protect the innocent I better leave it at this lol.

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COOKIE_AT_51 1/7/2013 9:59AM

    That is wonderful that you have a great support system. I am not going to tell my mom anything until I see her this summer. Then she will SEE the results emoticon
I love the fact that your son is on board with you. My oldest actually started Crossfit today, he needs to lose weight too. So we are supportive of each other.

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ANGHARAD3 1/7/2013 8:03AM

  I think my mother would care and maybe my father but they are so involved in their own health problems now. I think getting fit would be very motivational for my daughter and my sisters.

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1/6/13 Day 6 : Do you Binge eat ?

Sunday, January 06, 2013

I had to seriously think on this one. Do I binge eat ?

Binge eating is episodes of uncontrollable eating . As a fat bodied person most think I do this type of thing all the time after all that is how we get fat right. Well no that is not how I became a fat bodied person. I was taught early in life to control my emotions with food. I had the world greatest mother really. She believed that food could fix anything, it really is just a shame that she never realized that her way of fixing things was actually causing the problem. She never realized that there is really no comfort in food and it took me years to realize that it wasnt the food that brought me comfort. It was her need to make it better that brought comfort. Her dotting over me was made things better but that always came with a food attached. Do I binge eat ? hmm after a lot of thought on this question I think I have come up with the answer.

No I dont binge eat . Actually what happens is I have bouts of depression and anxiety . When these happen I stop eating all together ( i know the horror right a fat bodied person who doesnt eat ) . What happens is I wont eat till my system crashes and then I will eat some sugar thing like a candy bar or honey bun to bring it back up . Then i am alright for a while then another crash and the cycle repeats .. So then my body thinks I am starving it and it stores up all the bad stuff. Then I see the pounds creeping back up and feel guilty and so the process repeats again till finally I decide to do the right thing again .. I have gone days without eating and then eat as few as 100 calories . which is why I am a fat bodied person, your body needs a realm of things to survive and when you dont give it what it needs then your body will take what it has to survive. So do yourself a favor stop think and eat properly that is the most important key to success ..

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CUINPARADISE 1/6/2013 11:15PM

    Binge eating is a difficult issue for many people...Including me. I started a new focus program for myself today; I'm focusing on portion control and eating three meanls plus two snacks every day. Today was my first day and it was a challenge, but I shall pervail!!! Good luck to you...I know you can overcome your obstacle too!

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01/5/13 Day 5: Why are you doing this ?

Saturday, January 05, 2013

Two years ago I had a serious foot surgery during that recovery I was not allowed to do any exercise and consequently gained 35 pounds in ten weeks. Every thing was miserable during that time. I had reached an all time high weight and I was done . I hated the way felt, hated the way I looked basically hated everything about life. I felt like I was at a point where I had to do something or die. That fear drove me to research while sitting on the couch and to make a successful plan on how to do what I needed to do become the person I knew deep down I was.

In the past this was attacked weight loss as something I had to do . I would loose 10 or 15 pounds gain 5 pounds and decide it wasnt worth the effort because I wasnt going to do any good any way. I never set up a support system . Basically I doomed myself from the beginning . This time it wasnt something that was for the rest of the world, it was something for me. I push and push hard because it is something that I want . I want to be healthy . I want to be sexy. I want to be that grand mother that can easily play with the grand babies. I want to respect myself. I want look in the mirror and know that I did this. I am achieving every one of those goals. Not because someone said you need to do something, but because I woke and said you have no choice but take control back .

The bottom line is if you are doing this for anyone besides yourself you are asking for failure. You have to breath, sleep, eat this process . There will never be an end to this journey for me because i will never be able just not worry about my weight, it is a constant force to be reckoned with.

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LJR4HEALTH 1/6/2013 6:03PM

    Great post you are so correct this has to be done for ourselves and no one else Every time I did it for other I always failed this time its all about me and I'm having more success

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TEMPEST272002 1/6/2013 1:53PM

    Love your determination! You might like one of my favourite motivational quotes:

“Risk! Risk anything! Care no more for the opinions of others, for those voices. Do the hardest thing on earth for you. Act for yourself. Face the truth.” Katherine Mansfield.

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JUSTYNA7 1/6/2013 9:47AM

    I find it is easier to say "no" to bad foods when I remember other members of my teams saying "no" when they don't feel like it. I find it is easier to say "yes" to start exercising knowing there are other members of my teams saying "yes" when they don't feel like it. No excuses! Just do it, for YOU. You can and this is a great motivating blog! Every positive self love decision helps you towards your goal.

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1/4/13 Day 4 : Greatest Fear

Friday, January 04, 2013

When you undertake something as large as I have the fears are by the magnitudes. The end number is so large that I cant think about that number . It is hard to believe that it is possible to loose that much weight and sometimes I tremble at the thought of it. But I have done already what so many cant or wont do.

Fear of not being able to sustain the loss once I hit maintenance stage . I am not sure I have this battle in me again so I have to keep it off and keep moving. The moving is the big thing for me. I have fought through now 5 surgeries on my feet and have been threatened with three of them of loosing my right foot. I fight to be able to walk and never take that for granted. There is always that possibility of being without my foot but I have come to terms with it and if it ever happens then i will just learn to walk a different way. But I have no intention of ever going back where I came from again . I can take the pain in my foot, I do every day but I can take being obese for the rest of my life.

How do I get up and do this again tomorrow .. That fear of being that poor little fat girl forever .. In my head there is a person that when I dont want to do this tomorrow because it is going to hurt they are on the ground pounding their fist saying come on you can do it .. take one more step .. that one step leads to a less pain and hopefully at the end of this walk of a lifetime i will be able to walk and not have pain with every step but if i do then so be it ... If it is going to hurt any way then I might as well make the best pain I can.

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JUSTYNA7 1/6/2013 9:51AM

    My "journal" has been painful the past couple of days. It's hard giving up that little girl inside that is so afraid. But I keep looking at her as the adult I am today and assuring her that someone loves her (me) unconditionally. Someone told me that FEAR stands for "Flick Everything And Run". Well I choose to be Fearless today and do it anyways. I will deal with my fears as I go. The self talk starts today that I am worth this and I can do it!

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NGCHILD 1/4/2013 12:46PM

    All you can do is take one day at a time, one step at a time.

Hugs to you!!


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