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The end of the 2012 .. streak , numbers and thoughts ...

Sunday, December 30, 2012

So here we are at the end of 2012, where are we ? Well for me i think I am on a good track if the numbers say anything . Today when i put in my ipod info into I realized that since June I have walked 195 miles . Not shabby considering every step I make is in pain. I do it for the belief that maybe one day my feet wont hurt all the time. Even though they hurt I make myself get up and do it all over again tomorrow. Why because if I dont one day I will not be able to walk on them at all.

I set out before surgery to make it to 100 pounds gone by 1/1/13 well I blew that one with a few weeks of emotions . But on the upside ... 12 weeks on the couch and I didnt gain because of the surgery . I battled through that time and didnt gain 35 pounds like last year . I have learned that if you want to then you will and i am very proud of myself for coming through all of that with no noticeable weight gain. When i hit emotional bottom three weeks ago yes fell back to the food . It didnt make me feel better at all but it couldnt make me feel worst either. On Dec. 26th I got up and said you know what stop think walk ... and that seems to be helping .

So with the sparklers we have to measurements an over all number that is composed by taking an adding up the chest, waist, thigh, bicep , hips and calves .. Now remember through October and November I was on the couch ... but I have managed to loose 32 over all inches since Oct. proving yet again if you want it you will get it.

Back a few weeks ago I set a streak to do 60 minutes of fitness a day .. that was the week before I hit rock bottom emotionally so I havent kept that streak going .. I have now set a fitness streak of 15 miles a week ... that is more doable to me I believe ... It will help me physically and mentally and emotionally. Walking is my salvation where my emotions are concerned that is what i replaced emotional eating with and it is what i will go back to now to help me get back where I need to be.


another off the bucket list !!

Monday, December 17, 2012

Saturday evening our friend Barry received 4 tickets to the Saints game against Tampa Bay. I shocked everyone when I said I want to go. I am not crazy about crowds and well they know that my foot is really bad with stairs and walking right now. But since I am leaving next month I might not have the chance again . The tickets were awesome seats on the 20 yard line the 29th row ( free but valued at 190 dollars a piece , that is some gift.

We had to park almost 2 miles away and walk to the dome .. but on the way we visited at the bud light tailgate party of the day lol

finally you can see the dome in view .. it looks huge and it is .. and let me tell you New Orleans is know for noise and tailgateing and why now it is the big easy right?

Although I didnt get close to it .. the biggest party is at champion square . this is wear they pay Amish to the golden boy who made them champions Drew Breeze .

Of course we get there in enough time to see some of the pregame warm ups ... They are intense about the warm up and they should be 60 minutes of putting your body through a game has got to be tough .

Tampa bay should have warmed up better .. Just saying

The joint starts really coming alive when it is time for them to come out for the game . During this time there was a moment of reflection in observance of all that lost their life on Friday at Sandy Brook ( suck a tragedy but not for here and now, but my prayers are with them always)

For all our faults as a nation there is still no greater place to be in the world ..

I have a lot more pics but these are the ones that i will always remember.

Barry, Brian and me .. we had a blast but i still hate pics of me.

To be honest there were a couple of NSV in the day well that sweet lol . Sitting in a regular seat with plenty of room to move in. Being able to maneuver down the isle with ease like everyone else does and takes for granted. Feeling comfortable enough in my own skin that I actually enjoyed the game very much . Funny how losing 90 lbs can do that for you .. So I wonder what it will be when I loose the rest of it ? If you are always sitting on the sideline because of you weight then it is time to do something and enjoy your life to the fullest .

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JULIAOAK 12/21/2012 9:40AM

    looks like you had a great time! emoticon

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SNUZSUZ 12/18/2012 10:04PM

    Great pics and looks like great fun!

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LJR4HEALTH 12/18/2012 7:44PM

    Oh it looks like you had a lot of fun

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THINNYGINNY 12/17/2012 4:06PM

    So glad you enjoyed yourself - it is so nice to hear you say you are comfortable in your own body!! It makes a huge difference everyday when your first thought is not about how others will look at you... Hope you have a wonderful holiday!!

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DANILYNNG 12/17/2012 2:27PM

    So glad that you had a good time!

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JUSTYNA7 12/17/2012 1:17PM

    Wonderful blog! Good for you for trying something outisde your comfort zone and what a great feeling to BE ABLE TO DO IT! Plus sometimes it is about other people and enjoying things they love with them.

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The next step in Me

Monday, December 10, 2012

I have been putting this blog off for some time now . For 42 years I have done all that expected of me to the point of sacrificing myself for the benefit of others. I never knew how losing the weight would change me. How my search for better health would impact decisions. I never thought about my own happiness and what I wanted . I started the change of life with one thought in mind just be change so you can live . Never would I have believed that so many things were involved in living.

It all started with exercising . And no I didnt like it one bit; however, I knew that it was a necessity. The path that led me down was unbelievable to me. As my body got physically stronger , I became emotionally and mentally stronger. About week 5 of laying on my couch recovering from surgery I had a realization that well frankly was something I never thought I would find . I missed walking . I missed the emotional release of the track. I missed the mental reprieve that it gave. I missed the clarity of things after a good walk. I had done the unthinkable I had changed my emotional eating to emotional exercise. Now this blog will get a little emotional but no worries I am good actually better than I have been in a while . For me I took the changes to heart, there is never going to be an end just a next step . And I think I have to make some changes to insure that I am doing what is best for me .

I have been fighting a decision for a while now . Hoping that some things would change and well they arent. I so dearly dislike living in New Orleans. The apartment is void of color and life. I have mentioned before about my husbands drinking issues. These issues are not better by any means. I really feel like here I am just existing not living ... I want to live again . I want to wake up and just be happy . So I have decided to move back home in January with or with out my husband . Brian is a good man dont get me wrong . I love him dearly but right now he is a little lost. The decision although sad really has to be . See through sparks I found out that well sometimes it really does have to be about me .. This place New Orleans is destroying us with resentment and anger . The financial worries , the constant drinking and the void of anything meaningful has taken a toll. My home is in Mississippi. I love my wide open yard with my willows ( Abigail, Isabella and Boreguard) . I love seeing my grand children on the week end running into people I know in the store . Visiting my mother's grave on a weekly basis . I love my Alabama red kitchen and Marigold yellow living room . I miss the wide openness of my home . The confinement here has finally became more than I can bare . I am at peace with my decision however it turns out. I am not good alone but alone in Mississippi has got to be better than sitting here missing it everyday. This is just another step in becoming the me I want to be .

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DANILYNNG 12/14/2012 4:13PM

    Wishing you love and peace in Mississippi!

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LJR4HEALTH 12/11/2012 6:52PM

    emoticon Darlene

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KBRADFORD88 12/10/2012 8:28PM

    Wow Tink. I will be praying for you as you push ahead in this journey. Being with a man who cannot control his drinking is not safe. I want you to be safe. best wishes and hugs

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Sore but good

Monday, December 03, 2012

So today is day four and well tonight I am a bit sore .. but not my foot well it is but not from working out. I wake up this morning and it is house cleaning day . That is serious work really. sweeping, scrubbing, mopping and vacuuming. Oh and dont for get Laundry . For 2 hours I busted tail getting the apartment clean and it sparkled really . Nothing like a clean house to get your mind straight.

On the 12 days of Christmas fitness .. today was Planks to be specific 2x 1 minute planks .. Ok so I have a few days to actually get this right. Even doing the modified one showed me I need lots of work on some things .. I did 2 at 20 seconds now how sad is that but that is 20 seconds longer than I thought I would . So I am above the game in my head. My body is still recovering so no sense in beating myself up . the whole reason I started the 100 days was to get back my strength and well i knew it wouldnt be in 4 days .

I am not hurting just sore like you would be if you had just upped your routine. That is the gauge if it hurts and mean pain then I stop . I read today that where you stop is exhaustion but for it is sheer pain during that is a great place right there to stop . But nothing i have been doing has been hurting during .. my shoulders are a little more pained tonight than usual but i believe it should be expected. Besides my arms are looking as good as my legs .. it feels so good to just see the rewards of the work so quickly ..

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JSELLINGTON 12/8/2012 4:27PM

    A friend used to tell me that pain is good for you, it lets you know that you are alive. Whatever was my comment then and still is. However, I would like to modify that statement....pain is good for you when you are working out, it let's you know if you are doing it right. If it is the OMG I think I broke something pain, STOP!!!!!!! and if it is the Man, my muscles hurt then you are on the right track! emoticon

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SNUZSUZ 12/5/2012 4:15PM

    Great blog!

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    Sometimes pain is good. I love feeling sore (not hurting)after a workout because I then can say I worked out really hard. Good job on the planks. 20 seconds is tough!! You will be at a minute in no time!! emoticon

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Ahh yes

Sunday, December 02, 2012

Today is day three of 100 days of 60 minutes of fitness. Now I wont tell you that I get up raring to go in the morning but I am trying here to get back to some kind of normal routine. What I really want to do is walk pound the pavement *sigh but that is not possible right now.

So I get up this morning and well my foot says lets just skip today and try again tomorrow. But No we didnt do that. The foot is lazy but irregardless it must stretch and work it is going to get better . The work out is not to terrible .

Routine ( 3x 10 reps each )
Dumbbell side bends
Standing twist
Squats with dumbbells
Calf raises
a form of lying abduction
30 cross body toe touches

3 minutes of walking in place with chest pump ( a resistant band under the arm pits that you pull out and pull back as you walk)

30 minutes on the cardio fit

Last night as I was redoing my spark page for Christmas ( looks most awesome to me) I found this thing called the 12 days of Christmas fitness .

So today I did 100 modified jumping jacks ... my foot will not take the regular ones and no I didnt even try .. trust me I know ....

The first thing that really sent me into panic mode during recovery was about week 2 I lost my muscle tone .. I was smaller but flabby . I dont mean to offend anyone but well it is my blog .. I have this fear of becoming some hanging fat to my knees ... with whiskers everywhere ... not sure what caused it but it scares the hell out of me ... So I try to tone my muscles a lot so as not to have the hanging problems. Well let me tell you it wasnt as bad as I thought .. After 3 days everything is tightening right back up .. I dont mind being big as long as I can see the changes and boy can I .. another reason that I know the changes are real ... because as I walk i look down at my legs and say Ahh Yesss ..

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CHERYLANDERICA 12/2/2012 11:16PM

    First of all, your page does look mighty festive!! :)

I like the 12 days of Christmas thing and might have to try it. Good job with the jumping jacks...modified or not, you did good!

I have a fear of the hanging skin as well. I look at my arms and think if I just get them really strong then they wont sag. But I am not sure how well that will work for my belly. :( After 2 kids and a lifetime of obesity I feel like it is destined to saggy. I hope not though.

Keep being amazing!!

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DOLLFACEDX 12/2/2012 9:47PM

    does feel good to see the feet, doesn't it emoticon

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