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my ping pong ball ( graphic pics)

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

Most who know me know i am preparing for another surgery on my foot. So I wanted pictures of this thing and I thought well hmm i blog about it all the time so why not post this ugly thing on here lol .. I have never said i had cute feet ... this is more a reminder to myself than anything.

The mass is the size of a ping pong ball inside my foot. It is said that if it is not removed it will invade my ankle making walking almost impossible .. I am waiting for the surgery date because there is a heel spur and i want them to remove it at the same time so i dont have to have another surgery .. So here is the pics ...








Welcome to my own personal hell ...

  
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CTUPTON 9/6/2012 11:59AM

    We all will be rooting for you to be back to normal and heal (ha! ha! ) quickly.

Really, I am sorry you are going through this! Feel better soon! Chris

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LULUBELLE65 9/6/2012 4:11AM

    Oh gosh, that looks like it hurts! I hope they can get you up and moving soon!

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 9/6/2012 1:51AM

    That looks awfully painful and uncomfortable! Good luck with Sx and I hope everything goes as planned!
P.S. Good seeing you on here again! I'll be around more since I am finally mostly unpacked and ready to take on the important duty of taking care of myself!

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BECKYI39 9/5/2012 4:50PM

    I hope you can get in for surgery soon and that all goes well.

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KBRADFORD88 9/5/2012 4:46PM

    Oh. I am so sorry. I hope they can get you in fast and this will help your pain. Wishing you the best.

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ALLCHRISSY 9/5/2012 3:43PM

    Holy Ping-Pong Ball, Batman! I hope the surgery is successful! WOW!

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DANILYNNG 9/5/2012 3:10PM

    Praying that the surgery can get everything fixed up and you'll be back up in no time! emoticon

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LINDA7668 9/4/2012 9:20PM

    That just looks painful. I hope the surgery brings you relief.

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Rock it Food blog days 1 and 2

Tuesday, September 04, 2012

Week 10 of the Rock it / sparklers Challenge is to do a food blog for 5 out of 7 days this week. I started on Labor day and please remember we are just getting back from an evacuation . I have tried to make healthy choices though.

9/3 Breakfast
Strawberries / Bananas
cottage cheese
Plum amazings


9/3 Lunch
turkey sandwhich ( 1 slice honey smoked, cheese, fat free cheese on a foldit bun)
Special k chips ... sour cream and onion


9/3 Dinner
Grilled chicken tender strips .. marinated in Garlic onion hot wing powder
Cowboy baked beans ... 1/2 cup ( beans with ground beef)
1/2 mac and cheese : made with smart taste pasta and rague cheese sauce


9/4 Breakfast
bacon/cheese/egg mug ... 1/2 cup egg substitute, 2 slices turkey bacon and laughing cow cheese wedge ...
cup of fresh fruit ... cantaloupe, honey dew, strawberries and blueberries


9/4 lunch
Chicken and cheese Quesadilla
Black beans with sour cream .. 1/2 cup


9/4 Dinner
Chicken wrap ( shredded chicken, shredded cheese, mayo sweet onion lite dressing with spinach)
black beans and sourcream ( 1/2 cup)


Snack 9/4
Stawberries/bananas on shortcake with ready whip


So there you have it ... be gentle lol I dont think it was that bad ...

  
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KBRADFORD88 9/5/2012 4:48PM

    Ya know I was actually thinking this didn;t look like much food. Are you eating all your calories. I was just curious. I loooooove black beans. I hope you have a lot of success on your challenge. I am looking forward to help with mine.

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IRONBLOSSOM 9/5/2012 11:35AM

    That sounds good, actually! I also like the idea of black beans with sour cream, I'm trying to get more beans into my diet, I need the fiber and protein.

Have a great week!

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KSCRAP363 9/5/2012 9:38AM

    I never thought of doing the black beans with sour cream...I might have to give that a try!!!

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To much

Sunday, August 26, 2012

Friday I had an MRI and a doctor visit. There is a mass in the bottom of my right foot that is the size of a ping pong ball. They have to operate and remove it . They dont know what the mass is till it is removed so there might be more surgeries needed at a pathology report.

Right now I am in New Orleans, LA I also have a home on the coast of MS. There is a storm that doesnt look good. My husband just back from out of town is complacent about everything and already doing the usual drinking. I am so emotionally spent right now. I am not sure what to do and then you top everything else off my emotional eating has showed its ugly head. The stress of everything is really to much to bare today. I have tried walking and water and swimming and nothing is helping. Lost doesnt come close to this feeling right now. The thought of staying in New Orleans scares me to death the thought of loosing our home in MS is horrific and living with someone whose answer is to drink is gut wrenching. The thought of loosing my foot is breathtaking. Sorry I am just trying to make it through this day

  
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PURPLEPEONY 9/2/2012 11:47PM

    emoticon emoticon Praying for you & your situation emoticon emoticon

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JULIAOAK 8/31/2012 5:05AM

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CSRSTAR 8/27/2012 6:10PM

    emoticon It's ok to vent, thats what blogs are for. So glad you can come here and have a voice. Sorry to hear about everything going on, but just remember the one thing you can do during a "storm" is protect yourself. I.e. stick with your healthy choices, rest and exercise, have "me" time. :)

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XPHOENIX 8/27/2012 5:40PM

    Oh no babe :( I'm so sorry to hear about this. I will say a lot of prayers for you and hope that everything is ok. Try not to eat your feelings! My goodness... the hurricane, your foot, everything... too much at once. God doesn't give you more than you can handle, doll. Remember that, ok? Don't over do it on any level with trying too hard for fitness or over-eating. Every negative thing you do to yourself you will have to pay for or fix later... you know? Try to think positively. I know it seems tough but its worth it. Deep breaths.. and the Serenity Prayer. XOXO

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KBRADFORD88 8/27/2012 7:21AM

    When trouble swells like that it is really hard to breathe and get perspective. But think about one thing you did differently here. You asked for help and you listed what was going on.
1. Be kind to yourself. This is a lot to process.
2. Don;t worry about stuff that might happen. Worry about was is.
3. Just keep moving.
4. Think hard about counseling or a meeting to help with living with someone who drinks. There are great groups and you mentioning it means it bothers you more than maybe you are letting on.
I got four bad news in 2 weeks a few weeks ago and it is going to matter. We just have to be able to see hope and possibility. That is my prayer for you. emoticon emoticon

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DANILYNNG 8/26/2012 7:06PM

    Oh, sweetie!! emoticon emoticon

First, just breathe. Deeply, slowly. Just breathe. Second, GET OUT OF THE KITCHEN!! Sorry, babe, didn't mean to yell at you, but still... get out of there! Third, please, don't worry yourself sick. Yes, you have a problem with your foot - that doesn't mean you'll lose it! Do NOT borrow trouble, there's plenty to go 'round. emoticon We have no control over the storm, so sadly, all you can do there is make your preparations as best you can. Lastly, smack your husband upside the head and tell him his happy butt needs to become a whole lot more supportive in a hot hurry!!

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TEAM-ERIC 8/26/2012 5:05PM

    OMG...you are dealing with a lot! I know it's easy to get down with all that on your plate. I bet you feel it's all spinning out of control and there is little you can do, right now. I've been there and I'm still dealing with many things. I hope you among all those clouds, you see at least a sliver of sunshine coming through. Just know you're not alone and if you need to vent feel free to PM me. I offer no advice or judgements. Just a ear....

Diana

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SHRINK_U 8/26/2012 4:23PM

    HUGGSSS.. Thinking of you. I am so sorry about all that is going on.

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Saving Life

Sunday, August 19, 2012

I have had a fear for many years of seat belts. The fear of being trapped in them because as a fat bodied person they are never comfortable. For me they are tight and cutting. I know what they are designed to but honestly felt like the would hurt me more than they help me. I could see my car off the side of bridge and being trapped in this thing not being able to escape it. So for years I just have simply not wore one. That was my easy fix just dont wear it . I could deal without so i did. This morning my husband and I were traveling back to New Orleans from Pascagoula MS. I am an awful passenger just saying. On the horizon it is raining and the cars are traveling so fast past us even though we are going 70 mph. For the first time in a really long time I think what if. With the roads so wet and we hydroplaned twice I made the choice that I was going to put on my trap. I am putting on the thing i hate most in the vehicle and the next hour is going to be hell and painful. So I reach and I pull it across me and I latch it. And guess what . I have lost enough weight that it is very comfortable. It doesnt feel like I cant breath I dont even know that it is there . If you have never had these feelings please dont judge me because I have . When you are 366 pounds everything is a thought every thing is a chore. And the further away 366 pounds you get the more amazing every thing feels. Things that other people get to do and never have a passing thought means so much. So another first for me today. I got to ride feeling safe and secure.

  
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PURPLEPEONY 9/3/2012 12:24AM

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JULIAOAK 8/23/2012 3:37AM

    brilliant!! emoticon emoticon

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SHRINK_U 8/20/2012 4:41PM

    AN AWESOME NSV!!! Yay :)

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BECKYI39 8/20/2012 10:43AM

    So glad that you have reached the spot where you are comfortable in the seat belt. I love the fact that you are open and honest with your feelings. You never know how you may help someone with the same issues and feelings.


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THINNYGINNY 8/19/2012 11:56PM

    YES!!!! Glad you are comfortable and safe!!

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JENNNY135 8/19/2012 9:45PM

    That's awesome news!!!!

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TERRY1038 8/19/2012 8:16PM

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NILLAPEPSI 8/19/2012 8:12PM

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NANCYPAT1 8/19/2012 8:10PM

    AMEN - Congratulations on making that life-saving discovery. Some people might not recognize the importance of your new-found measuring tool, but I topped the scales just about where you described your starting place - I KNOW that some of the simplest, most MINOR to others, things are really amazing milestones. Again, I am so happy to hear you can now wear that lifesaving device in comfort and not put yourself at such risk. Do you think that NOW, maybe you are WORTH it or was it always JUST about the comfort? For me it would have probably been a little of both - I know I have been pretty uncomfortable wearing the seat belts, but I also know that I have not always thought I was worth worrying about either.

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CHANGING-TURTLE 8/19/2012 8:08PM

    Alright!!!! emoticon emoticon

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Freeze the world !!

Saturday, August 18, 2012

* Freeze *

This morning I weighed and I made it to 79 pounds gone ...For a moment I thought "Freeze the world". 287 pounds that is the lowest I have weighed in like 15 years. "Freeze the world" Hold the moment, Feel the accomplishment, Respect the pain and tears to get right here to the moment in time. 21 % of where I started " freeze the world" ... Dont breath just let this moment hang in the air.
Remember how good this feels and how good never doing this again will feel. All I can say is thank you to my body for hanging through this journey and Thank you to all the amazing people in this process. I know That I am emotional mess but at least i am a smaller emotional mess .

  
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PURPLEPEONY 9/3/2012 12:25AM

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SHRINK_U 8/20/2012 3:52PM

    So happy for you :)

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IRONBLOSSOM 8/19/2012 10:58PM

    Awesome!! Great job!

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THINNYGINNY 8/19/2012 6:31PM

    SO PROUD OF YOU!!!! Just the beginning!!!

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JENNNY135 8/18/2012 6:47PM

    So happy for you, awesome job.

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DANILYNNG 8/18/2012 4:50PM

    So very proud of you!

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GINNABOOTS 8/18/2012 4:18PM

    Fantastic! Congratulations on your weight loss & lifestyle change.

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TONYVAND1 8/18/2012 4:07PM

  emoticon emoticon Keep up the good work.

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