Wednesday, January 11, 2012
As i turned 41 last year I realized that I had lost me from the inside out. So along with trying to lose weight i am trying to find me again. I use to laugh when people would say that and here i am now trying to do the same. My life became solely about my family: what they liked what they felt and what the disliked. I became them in essence always putting me to the back shelf. Seems odd to think of that when you are trying to change your weight but as a heavy person I became like so many that I have wondered about. You have a small group of heavy people that well look the role of a fat person, I am sorry that is not meant to offend. what I mean is that there is nothing extodinary about them except their weight. The clothes are always bagging, they slouch, never make eye contact, the look as though they just want to blend into the world and be forgotten. That is what I became ... that person that it seems the world just looks through and never sees. I know that I am so much more than that ... When I take the time i am very pretty and i know that I am very intelligent. Believe me I have been told all my life that i have a great personality and a sense of humor to die for. So along with the other things that i am doing to loose weight I am also attacking some of the other issues that I have. After i work out and shower ... I dress even if I dont have any where to go. that sounds bad let me explain. No baggie gym shorts and tanks, I do my hair and even put on light make up and where the clothes that i should clothes that fit properly. If I dont make me feel better about me and take that extra time then the rest of the world will not either.