Friday, November 14, 2014
Yesterday morning I woke to the honor of being a leader in the spotlight for the 5% challenge. I would like to say thank you to everyone for all your well wishes , thoughts and spark goodies. What very few know is that yesterday I also I had a scope done of my upper GI for stomach issues. Nothing serious was found but it was still a scary procedure to me . I hate when they have to put me to sleep or do anything that concerns my stomach. It was great to have all of you along with me even if you didnt know you were there.
I have been teetering lately with fitness and nutrition. This is not a road or a process it is life and as if everything else in life it suffers from time to time. Some days you wake up and the universe clicks and everything is great and on other days you just wished the universe would tell you it all will work out. But still I get up and try very hard to be on the positive side of life and look at what i have done not what else has to be done.
The funny thing about being overweight and going to any doctor they have the answer from the second they look at you. Nurses and doctors a like see you as a *sigh* fat person. Yesterday as i lay there after the scope the lady explained to me how loosing weight would help so much along with various other issues that needed to be addressed. Blah blah blah. . I thought to myself really if it were only that simple loose another 10 pounds hell loose another 50 pounds and you will feel great. Reality is that is true and false.
Reality is that the more weight you loose the more health you get. You do feel better even when you feel bad. You get a certain belief system going on that things are not as bad as they seem and you have more strength to battle the little things. You gain an understanding of your body and learn how to understand what it is telling you.
However, at least for me you gain a keen understanding of my body. I know there is something just not right and I also know that something has nothing to do with my weight. I have watched as my body went from a blob to have form. I have documented all the changes or NSV as they are called. But I have also noticed other things that dont make it into the blog. Some of it might be getting older some of it might be anxiety some it can be from overdoing but I also know that a doctor is going to address the changes and give me a reason for them.
I have come a long way each step has been carefully designed and executed. It is important that you learn to listen to your body and your mind in the process of changing your life because then and only then are you empowered beyond words .
Thank you all again for your support and encouragement, I am not done and i will find a way to loose the rest of the weight i need but till then I will just stay positive in the power of friends and sparks.