Monday, January 14, 2013
I'm still reeling from last night, not because the tablet is history and Eric is upset, but because I let myself raise my voice to my children over something so stupid. It's like I set there with words pouring out of my mouth, the whole time thinking 'WHAT ARE YOU DOING, YOU IDIOT? DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF????" I feel so ineffective as a parent, wife, daughter, or friend. It's as if the only person I'm really good at taking care of is me, and the only reason I'm good at that is because I have incredibly low expectations and standards.
Despite my "blues" I have to push and get some things done today. I need to get some work done on the church cookbook -- at least 20 recipes keyed today. I have to get my car in the shop, although it's a little out of my hands right now because I'm waiting to hear from the mechanic that he can get the car in. My niece has moved her wedding up (once again) and I'd like to do something to help her get ready for this weekend, and my mom insists on a bridal shower Saturday so I'll have to get some planning done toward that end.
I did eat a decent breakfast this a.m. (any breakfast is a plus) and I've already drank 1/2 of my daily water requirement. I rented a workout video to do today so need to get on that in the next couple of hours. I want to do some reading as well, just to take some time for myself and lose my mind in positive stories that touch my soul.
I suppose if I'm to accomplish anything, I need to start with getting up from my laptop. I hope everyone is had a brighter weekend than I did 'cause right now I'm looking back into a very dark hole. It's not the way I like to spend my life but it's where I am right now.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
When the alarm went off at 4:30am, I was not happy! I had stayed up past midnight and my body does not function well on 4 1/2 hrs sleep! Unfortunately, there wasn't really away around getting up. My oldest had to be in Shelbyville at 6:00am and I still had to press his dress clothes for competition.
My hubby gave me a soothing massage to get me motivated and it felt FABULOUS, although I admit it almost made me want to stay in bed even more! I thought about asking him to drop William off since he is used to being out and about at such ridiculous hours (he has to be at work at 4 am) but I felt a little guilty since he was up even later than I was and he had provided me with such a nice wake-up.
We got up and made sure everything was ready, had breakfast, then ran into town and actually got there about 10 minutes early. After I dropped him off, I had to gas up my car so I stopped at the Circle K/Subway and picked up a little extra breakfast too (Honeynut Cheerios just isn't enough to hold me!). I'm very proud to say that I resisted the urge to pick up a fountain coke even though they were only 79 cents and I could have used the caffeine since my butt was totally dragging from so little sleep!
Back home by 6:30a, I immediately headed back to bed. I am thankful for the extra 3 hours sleep I was able to get, but it just doesn't feel the same when you get two short sleeps instead of one long one!
Now, with a little more rest under my belt, I've already done two video workouts (22 minutes total) and will do some treadmill time after lunch. I'm considering whole wheat pasta and meat sauce with a side of green beans and a slice of garlic bread. YUM!!!
Hope everyone is having a blessed weekend! Take care and
Friday, January 11, 2013
Sometimes you just feel like you've done everything wrong. Today is one of those days.
I wasted most of my day messing around on the computer, not being productive on it mind you, just goofing around on Facebook and such. I didn't get much done around the house even though the weather was actuallly nice enough for me to have done quite a bit. I ate horribly and didn't track most of what I did eat. I skipped my workout all together.
Now, on top of everything else, it's 11:30p and I'm sitting here instead of sleeping soundly even though I know full well that I have to be up around 4:30 or 5am to get my son motivated for his BPA Competition in Haggerstown tomorrow.
On a bright note (and this has nothing to do with anything I personally did right, but it actually does make me happy), me niece called and is moving her wedding day up to the end of this month. Her fiance has a sister in the Peace Corp and she will be going out of the country as of 2/01 so they decided to do it while she is home. WOW! We've got 2 weeks to finish putting together her wedding! Fortunately we don't have to plan a reception as they are going to go ahead and have the reception in May as originally planned and just have an intimate family ceremony right now. She'll be a beautiful bride for sure!
Thursday, January 10, 2013
I've done really well today. I know a lot of the food choices weren't terrific but I stayed within my target range on every category except fiber.
I'm very proud of my accomplishments, particularly because I managed to eat out at lunch (Subway Chipolte Chicken & Cheese) without killing my numbers. Unfortunately, I'm sitting here wishing I had a little "wiggle room" so I could enjoy a Fiber One fudge brownie or even a glass of milk but I know I'll be unhappy when the totals adjust. I think I'm going to just go to bed so I stop thinking about eating.
Did have a great day at the Pregnancy Care Center, but had a problem with my car on the way home. May have to put it in the shop tomorrow. Really praying the bill isn't too bad :(
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