Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Here's some irony for you. I joined SP this past January determined to get healthy. This would entail losing about 60 lbs. to have a normal BMI instead of the obese number I started with. Along the way I started eating healthier, cooking new recipes, working out. My DD & I are extremely close; she knew what I was doing and was very encouraging and proud of my progress. I counted calories on SP. She thought that was kind of cool so she joined SparkTeen and began to do the same. She, unlike me, had never had food issues nor had she ever been anything but slim and toned. She was always active, not one to sit on the couch watching tv like her potato mom.
So here we are, 10 months later. I'm in the normal BMI range finally. I'm about 4 lbs. from goal. Eating healthy & working out have become a regular routine. But I notice that DD is looking a little too thin. She used to have a bust which seems to have disappeared. I ask her to weigh herself & she's 99 lbs. when 2 months before she'd been a healthy 112.
Holy sh**! I've seen her eating but then I realize it's egg whites and plates of vegetables. We'd go to get frozen yogurt & she just gets samples instead of the big cup she used to fill. The next week she's 96.2 lbs. Obviously there's a big problem and we need help. I take DD to an eating disorder facility for an assessment and she is anorexic. Today she started an intensive 3 day a week outpatient program.
I still have some food issues. I grew up with many and wanted to spare my DD that. But has my journey to a healthier me lead to an unhealthier her? I feel very guilty that I could be responsible for DD developing an eating disorder. It's like being in the Twilight Zone. Now I cook 2 versions of foods, a low cal/low fat version for me & my mother and then I sneak ingredients in for a high cal/high fat version for DD.
DD knows and admits that she has a problem which is a big step. Many with eating disorders deny they need and refuse to get help. DD wants to get better but is really struggling because that means she'll have to gain weight.
Prayers and positive thoughts sent our way would be deeply appreciated. DD is such a wonderful, sweet, loving girl and I feel terrible that she's suffering. I know that we'll get through it (and on the bright side I told her she has her college essay topic!) It's just going to be tough for a while. She needs me by her side a lot which is why I haven't been able to Spark as much as I'd like to. And it's breaking my heart that I could have caused this.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
8 1/2 months ago I was basically a couch potato. See scary before photos below!
4 days after joining SP
The thought of running a 5k wasn't anywhere in my head, body, neighborhood. Thankfully I found SP and got off my big fat a** and started going to the gym. Didn't get on the treadmill though as I didn't like it.
Made some friends here on SP and started seeing what they were doing. Got "sparked" when MOM2PIPER invited me to do a 5k. Me? I don't think so! But why not? She was running 5ks, TERESA159 was running and I saw other friends getting excited about 5ks. SP has great 5k training programs (previously blogged about this so won't bore you by repeating myself.)
8 days ago I ran my 1st 5k on the treadmill as the culmination of the 5k Rookie Running Program. I couldn't believe that I was able to do it. I did 2 more last week. I had planned to do my 1st 5k race on Oct. 1 but when I found out there was one 10 minutes from my house, I couldn't pass up the chance.
I'd only run on the treadmill at the gym so 2 nights ago I went for a run with DD outside in my community. What a difference! It was so much harder! I did about 1.5 miles (maybe?) and really started to worry -- how was I going to be able to do a 5k today?
I decided I'd do my best, which is all we can really do, and I'd be happy as long as I finished even if I had to walk part of it. Well not only was I able to run the entire thing, I beat my best treadmill time by 7 minutes! I thought I'd be much slower but maybe it was having all those people running with me (okay, way ahead of me LOL) but I was able to keep going without having to walk. My time was 38:41.5 and I was 6th out of the group of 50-59 year old women (perhaps there were only 6, I don't know!)
Here are photos to mark my 1st race. DD was kind enough to get up extra early and run with me.
Before the race
Running off those pounds!
I made it!
As you can see, it was really emotional for me.
My parents came to cheer me on. Can't believe my dad just turned 80 two weeks ago!
My goal is to eventually look like this:
My lovely and lovable DD, Skye.
So here's the moral of the story, push yourself because you'll be surprised at what you're capable of. And that's the biggest NSV of all!
Sunday, September 18, 2011
The Fall 5% Challenge starts on Saturday, September 24, less than a week away. We have pre-challenge assignments and this is the 3rd. I redid my sparkpage to get ready and reflect what I want to accomplish in the Challenge. Also, I'm the Motivation Leader for the Teddy Bear team so I want to be able to help others do well in the Challenge.
Today's assignment is to list all the reasons you want to lose weight. I've been on SP for 8 1/2 months and have already lost 47 lbs. I have 14 more or so to lose. If I'm able to lose the 5% that will be 7 lbs. or half of what I have left to get to goal. However, my focus is to get in shape and be really fit rather than to weigh a particular amount.
What do you want to change? I want to continue to eat healthy and workout a lot. I'd like to resist temptations a bit more often. I want to be able to wear the size 4/6 clothes in my closet from when I was at goal at WW's 8 years ago.
How do you want to look? I want to look awesome and firm, in great shape.
How do you want to feel? I want to feel strong and healthy.
What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? I just finished the 5k Your Way Rookie Running Program (which I highly recommend) and did a 5k on the treadmill. I want to be able to comfortably run "real" 5ks (my 1st one is on the morning this Fall Challenge starts, a 5k for Hunger). Then I want to work up to 10ks, a half marathon and finally a full marathon (this is in time, not in the 8 weeks of this Challenge LOL!)
And list all the OTHER things that you want to change! I want to stay in calorie range 90% of the time and push myself to exercise for at least 30 minutes for all 56 days of this Challenge.
Friday, September 16, 2011
The thought that I'd ever think about running a 5k, or train for a 5k, much less actually run a 5k was unimaginable to me. MOM2PIPER had been doing it and invited me to do one but I didn't. I saw TERESA159 running and KRISTI2661 running and other Sparkies who weighed more than me. Could I do this? Was it possible?
Well thanks to SP and its great training programs, I ran my 1st 5k today! I started the 5k Your Way Rookie Running Program on July 16th to coincide with starting the Summer 5% Challenge. The program was 8 weeks long (it took me almost 9 weeks) but it works! The 1st week entailed walking for 4 minutes and then running for 1 minute for 20 minutes. Each week the intervals changed with the walking getting shorter and the running longer culminating in Week 8 where I walked for 1 minute and ran for 4 minutes for 40 minutes.
In spite of successfully completing each week, I was very very nervous today about running a whole 5k. I know there are many who had felt the same way before they attempted it. I had been running only on the treadmill as I live in south Florida and it's way too hot to run outside. I was going at 4.5 usually. To get through the 5k I decided to start at 4.0 because it's not important how fast you go, but that you're able to finish.
At 47 minutes, 32 seconds I crossed the 3.1 mile marker and raised my arms in triumph. I HAD DONE IT!!!! Me, a complete couch potato 8 1/2 months ago, was able to easily complete the 5k without having to take any walking breaks. In fact I felt so good & so strong that I upped the speed to 4.2 for part of the time and ended up running 4 miles in an hour.
Now I know that I CAN DO ANYTHING!!!! And believe me, if I can do it, ANYONE can!! So put aside your trepidations and sign up for one of the SparkPeople 5k Your Way Programs. You will be so glad that you did.
I am, as always, deeply appreciative of everyone who cheered me on and encouraged me. It meant so much and was very helpful. Next Saturday I plan to do the 5k Run for Hunger, my 1st 5k with other people. I know I'll be able to finish!
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