Tuesday, October 04, 2011
On Oct 1 I made a re-commitment to myself and to losing weight. Let's face it, a 2 month plateau will either be your doing or your undoing and I really, really want it to be my doing.
So, Sat, Oct 1 was my daughters 13th birthday, she spent Friday night with a friend so she could pay 'child rates' one more time at the movies...and she wasn't coming home until early afternoon. I got up, got some water, and I got on my elliptical machine. This was my first am workout in well, an unknown amount of time. The day held a trip to Olive Garden, which I planned what I was going to eat and I stuck to it...and then, I took a brisk 3.5 mile walk with my son in just under 50 minutes (hey! that's brisk for me!) and I slept like a baby Sat night...two workouts will do that for you!
Sunday was a great day, and I got a good long, hard, interval elliptical workout on Sunday evening.
I have discovered that in the past months, as I've plateaud, I was not working hard at my workouts, I was 'going through the motions'. I was not creative, I didn't mix up my work out, I got on the elliptical and read my Kindle (ok, that's lazy)...I shied away from walking because I tend to blister my feet, and I did nothing different in my ST. Ok, let's face it. That was "mock exercise", I should only get half minutes on SP!
And my eating...though it was within calories the vast majority of the days, it was the same thing every day. See, I like ruts, I like to do the same thing every day. I have enough inconsistency and far too many surprises at work, I don't need surprise food, mystery meats or even a lot of variety. I really do like my berries and yogurt for breakfast and my good, consistent Winco chef salad with balsamic vinaigrette for lunch...see, I really like ruts! I'm trying to be better. I have these little turkey sausages for my breakfast with some fancy fitness bread now for breakfast and I have some artesian tortillas as an option...I'm trying really hard.
I think I'm hitting on some of my weaknesses...variety is not the spice of my life but I think variety and intensity of my workouts...these are what I need to do make a better me. I think I might even be excited to weigh on Sunday...we'll see.
Thank you SP friends. I really appreciated the comments on my early October blog.
Saturday, October 01, 2011
In July I'd lost 30 pounds. My daughter and I talked about me losing 30 more pounds by today, her 13th birthday, October 1. Well, I've spent the last 2+ months on a plateau, always weighing within 2-3 pounds of the weight I posted this morning which is a 29 pound loss. I've been frustrated, I've tried several changes though I htink my body is looking for a dramatic change to move weight again. Not ironically, I have always been able to lose 30 pounds, I've once been able to lose 40 pounds. Now to convince my body it hasn't lost anything, that 30 is the goal, let's do it again!!!
So. Changes. Goals for October:
Stay at the low end of my calorie range 5 days per week, no days going over my upper limit. That's "count" daracula by the way!
Saturdays I will work out in the morning - cardio 30+ minutes and then ST.
I will cardio 5 weekday evenings per week without fail.
I will not weight myself everyday as has become my bad habit, weigh on Sundays only.
Whew! I will break this plateau and lose another 30 pounds...one good choice, one goal at a time.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Pure and simple, I'm frustrated. I'm eating completely within my ranges, I'm doing cardio, I'm doing ST. I'm drinking my water, I'm not drinking alcohol. I've changed up my workouts...
I'm starting to think about trying some HCG to see if I can get the weight moving again.
I'm just plain and simple frustrated. I'm working too darn hard and living without too many foods that I love to just keep on and not losing. Frustrating!
Monday, September 05, 2011
So recently I hit my first really BIG bump in the road on this journey. I went AWOL, I was so completely MIA, I couldn't find myself!
Mid July came and I was doing well, I handled hubby's birthday and though I didn't eat great, I worked out a lot during our week of vacation but I got off track with SP, I was tracking food and fitness but I wasn't reading or blogging or visiting friends or commenting and my e-mails went completely out of control!
Then I had a birthday and made a few bad food choices and I got really busy with back to school with the kids and we had some very busy weekends that further bounced me out of my groove. Suddenly there was this new phrase that crept its way into my vocabulary...the phrase is "just this once" but guess what? My "just this once" was once a day! So, just this once I made a bad food choice and just this once I skipped a workout and then just this once I made another bad food choice...suddenly it was everyday.
As I'm typing this, I don't even know the order...I was making bad choices, stressing out, not feeling well, not working out well, using my "just this once card" every day (!), not sleeping well, not spending time on SP and I was out of control. Then company was coming, stress was mounting at work, house needed cleaning, food needed preparing, too many activities on school nights, more company and more bad choices and not sleeping well and "just this once" and not feeling well and not working out at all and you get the idea. I'd spiraled out of control!!!
So, reality check. I ruined my workout streak, I blew my calories completely some days but remained honest and recorded it all; the good the bad and the ugly. I have put on 5 pounds through this crazy time but, company is gone/done (thank God), I'm enjoying the residual clean of the house, the pantry and fridge are stocked with good foods (the kids finished the cheesecake, thankfully!), meals are planned, I went to work today to get some things done that were stressing me out, I had a great workout and I'm a good kinda tired.
So my dear SP friends who have checked in on me and wondered...I'm Ba-Ack!!!! I'm found, I feel good, I feel strong, I know what I need to do, I've learned about me and this body God gave me. I've renewed my commitment to me and SP and I know I'll see the successes I saw before. Thank you all for your love and acceptance and patience and encouragement.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
In my life before SP (I hate to call it BS, but that about sums it up, Before Spark) I would reach the end of myself often, about every other week. The end of me is not pretty...it's tired, sometimes sick, I have no energy, my mouth runs but has no filters, I have no patience, I am a tougher boss than normal, I'm not a very nice mom and my 'wife skills', well, there just aren't any. This was a weekly or bi-weekly occurrence before Spark. Now, it's been just about non-existent.
I've worked hard on SP since January. I really started my SP lifestyle before I found the site, I just didn't know it existed until the end of January but really January 2, 2011 I was dedicated to changing my life for the better; nutrition and working out was the plan. But then I found SP and honestly, it changed me more than I thought possible.
I find that I really can balance my life better than ever before. I am 30 pounds lighter, I'm stronger than I imagined, I've got better boundaries at work (finally I'm closer to 40 hours/week than 50 hours/week, finally!), I'm a better boss, I'm a better employee, I'm a better mom and a super-much-better wife, a better daughter. I have control over my attitudes, my mouth (whew!), I'm far more engaged in conversations, my faith has grown exponentially, and I love more deeply than I ever imagined, not just my family but my staff and friends.
So, today I reached the end of me...I'm tired, I'm discouraged, I've broken the filters that are supposed to be on my mouth (oops!), I've worked too many hours, I've gotten too little done. I AM DONE. Done, done in, done for, done, gone, the end of me...I'm holding on to my faith in God and the strength of my friends to pull me through. I have two work days left and I'm going on vacation on Saturday. This vacation is so needed, I must recharge, take care of me and come home at the end of the month strong...I'm very "at the end..."
Thank you SP Friends, for all of your support. For holding me up when I'm at the end of me...and holding my up in prayer...Blessings.
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