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Doctor visit

Monday, August 05, 2013

So back in March right as the yearbook deadline approached (I'm the newspaper/yearbook advisor as well as librarian/computer teacher) I came down with a really bad case of bronchitis. It knocked me off my feet completely for three days, then the fourth day I was somewhat alive again and on the fifth day I managed to go back to work. Why am I talking about that episode? Well... ever since then I have never felt 100% well. There are some days I feel almost at 80% - especially if I'm really busy and active - but that's about as good as it gets. Constant fatigue, insomnia, bouts of dizziness/light headed, periodic nausea (only the feeling of it - never the completion ... though sometimes I'd prefer it to go through completion!,) muscle aches when I haven't done anything strenuous, etc., etc. I saw my doctor at the beginning of June for my thyroid checkup (I have underactive thyroid) and told her what I was experiencing. Of course, in May I had accidentally gotten a months worth of generic synthroid, so wasn't sure if that had something to do with it. She suggested that I use the brand name for a few months and see if that helped - if it didn't, to see her.

So all of June and July nothing changed (in fact the bouts of nausea became more frequent.) So I went to see her again this morning. Back in June I'd been checked for anemia and a few other things, with no results. Today she suggested that maybe the bronchitis was actually mono, and/or that I might have chronic fatigue syndrome. She tested me for the Epstein Bar Virus, as well as retesting my thyroid.

All I know is that it takes everything in me to function some days, and with it getting closer to school starting up again, I am worried. Normally I would have already spent 30+ hours working in the media center or twice that surfing the net for new ideas/websites, etc. I've barely managed maybe 10 hrs combined.

She asked me how much exercise I'm getting, and I told her -somewhere around 40 - 70 minutes at least three times a week, usually closer to five times. I was told to try to increase it to every day. Ugh. Oh yeah, on the little slip I get every time with my checkout papers it tells me - don't add salt to your food (I don't ever!) - eat more fruits (more than 5 or 6 servings??) - make half your plate veggies (okay , could do better on that ...) This little paper goes with me due to my obese range and also the last couple times I visited the doctor, my blood pressure was pretty high (although when they checked it ten minutes later it was in the normal range. Go figure.)

Yeah, so this weekend I ate a pizza. Otherwise I ate pretty healthfully. But that darn pizza made the scale go up 1 1/2 lbs at the doctor's office. I'd really hate to think about what the scale would be doing if I wasn't getting my walks in most days of the week...

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CHRISTASP 8/6/2013 2:07AM

    Sorry to hear you're dealing with these symptoms. Sounds like you have some very good habits.

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Starting Again

Friday, July 26, 2013

Tonight I was watching the latest episode of Extreme Makeover; weight loss edition. Extreme irony is that while watching it, I was eating a pint of ice cream and drinking out of a 20 oz Cherry Pepsi bottle.... I've watched every episode of the three seasons so far, and every time I do, I feel a conviction that I need to do more and do better. Sometimes I do it, but most times it doesn't last beyond the 30 minutes or so after watching.

Last summer after my dad died I managed to lose 20lbs through healthier eating and running. I somehow managed to keep that 20lbs off through Christmas. Then ... it started coming back. I have not regained all of it yet (all but 5 or 6 lbs of it depending on the day.) All through the past year I have maintained a walking habit - at least 30 - 45 minutes three or four times a week. Just walking though doesn't help much if you are at the same time consuming gargantuan amounts of calories in the form of Little Debbie's, ice cream, soda, Hershey Nuggets, etc., etc. It barely keeps up with it.

In my fridge I have the foods that can help me eat more healthfully. It's just a matter of actually eating them. It's a matter of throwing out the junkfood I have in the house right now and pouring out the soda (which I've already done - at least two bottles. have one to go.) It's a matter of NOT buying the junkfood to bring into the house.

It's also a matter of changing habits and mindset. Like I was telling my bf recently .. on my way to go see him (a 16 hr one way drive ...) I stopped at Walmart to pick up a couple things. Without even thinking about what I was doing, I had picked up a box of Little Debbie's to take on the road. That was along with the mini-blizzard I got from my favorite ice cream joint - DQ. I was staying at a hotel that night, and felt sick after eating the blizzard. The next morning I left the box of Little Debbie's in the dresser.

That was kind of a victory, but then again while I was visiting my bf I kept buying candy bars that I hid in my purse to eat when he wasn't around ... and having so many fast food places so convenient (where I live, I'm 30+ miles from any fast food place) I went way overboard .. and hid the evidence as much as possible. One night he came back unexpectedly from work, and I was sitting on the couch after having just gotten back from a 4 mile walk in the local park and stopping at the store ... there next to me on the couch was a box of french chocolate mints. I was SO embarrassed.

I want desperately to stop doing this to myself. I'm not hurting anyone but myself when I binge on junk like this. When I do this kind of thing, I'm only defeating myself and making all the exercise I do manage to do pointless. So I see the numbers not going down, or worse going up, and I don't want to exercise.

I have someone in my life right now who loves me just as I am. He knows my flaws and my weaknesses and still thinks I'm attractive and awesome. Now I just need to get myself to believe it for myself.

Both my bf and I really want to have a child. My weight and our ages are big factors against that ever happening. If this is something I want enough, then it is time for me to get over myself and stop doing things that only defeat what I want - that only sabotage my dreams.

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NEWDAYNEWWAY75 8/5/2013 8:51PM

    Thanks Ooola. I think I recognize you from the No-s forums. I have a fairly long journal thread there, though haven't updated it in a couple years or so I think. Reinhardt definitely has the right idea and when I was following it, it worked okay for me. Once I got off the path though for a long period, I just haven't been able to get myself back on it. (My name over there is different. I changed my username on SP because I'd without thinking it through put my username in another blog I keep to refer people here .. and realized too late that it made it too easy for my other blog to NOT be as anonymous as I'd like.)

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OOLALA53 8/5/2013 8:22PM

    Actually, your walking is doing you a lot of good even if you aren't losing weight. Heavy people who exercise regularly have better health prospects than thin people who don't.

However, you really owe it to yourself to find a way to commit to moderate eating. It doesn't have to happen all at once. In fact, statistically, it doesn't happen that way, so you might as well plan for weaning yourself off rather than trying to change everything at once.

I was a big binger. I actually ate pretty good meals, but I also ate tons of candy, cookies, cookie dough, frosting, etc. I read diet books and munched on brownie batter! I wondered if I could ever live without overeating them, but I started using the No S Diet over three years ago and have changed my habits. I still binged the first two years but so much less than before that it was a huge improvment and things have gotten better and better. I accepted that it was a long term process and that helped me keep going even through some tough times. I realized after a time that it was a really good mix for someone with an eating disorder. It provides structure most days of the week and a chance to learn free choice on other days.

Even if you don't use it, I want you to know that you can reduce your overeating considerably. Sometimes we make it much worse by wanting to be too good too soon. Don't try to go on some strict diet. If you decide to count calories, give yourself at least a few days a week of generous limits. Try not to be concerned with losing weight but with learning to eat LESS junky processed foods and more fresh, wholesome food OVER TIME. And to do more eating of complete meals and less snacking and random eating. You will feel so much better, but it takes a long time to get good at it. You said yourself you don't have as much time left. Start now on better eating!

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SMILES4383 7/29/2013 8:25AM

    YOU CAN DO THIS.......

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CHRISTASP 7/26/2013 11:58AM

    emoticon My heart is going out to you. I can relate to much of what you said. I see that like me, you're both a member of the Eat to Live team and Living Binge free. I'm doing my best to find my own combination of 'guidelines' that will help me deal better with food. I'll add you as a friend and will be following your blogs.

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5 Mile Long Run!!! A New Laura Record

Saturday, July 18, 2009

This morning I completed my first Long Run with the running club. I had to miss last weeks due to another appointment. So, I did my first Long Run of 5 miles! Previously, the longest I'd
ever ran was 3.1 miles on pavement, and 3.5 miles on a treadmill.

I wasn't sure if I'd be able to do it or not, but even with some monstrous hills (well... they felt monstrous to me anyway) I managed to make it all the way. I finished in just under 1 hr 28 minutes. The weather was nearly perfect for the run this morning - a cool 75 degrees and a nice breeze. The sun didn't even really hit us till the last half mile or so.

For next week I need to be better prepared with some ice bottles for a nice cold bath when I get home. I also need to get something to stop the bathtub drain. :) Next week we do 5 miles again, and now I know that I can do it!

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NEWDAYNEWWAY75 7/18/2009 2:47PM

    Thanks everyone!

CEGE210 - I agree - running is a great thing to be able to do, and shouldn't be taken for granted.

KWAICHANGJIM - Yes, I've done a number of 5k races. They are a lot of fun! Now I guess I'll be ready to do 10k and 15k races!! November 1 I'll be doing a half-marathon.

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WILD4STARS 7/18/2009 12:25PM

    Congratulations on a great run. Keep up the good work and Happy Sparking,

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CEGE210 7/18/2009 11:58AM

    I used to love to run I'm trying to build back the muscles in my legs to get back to where i can run. Don't anyone take running for granted you might not be able to do it one day. Keep up the good work everyone and Do a little running it really is great for the soul. emoticon

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KWAICHANGJIM 7/18/2009 11:34AM

    You go girl!!! Five miles is a great distance. Do you run any races? They are like the icing on the cake. Lots of excitement.

I run and I love it. My mind just wanders and it is personal time.

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Dallas Running Club - Signed up for half-marathon!!!!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

I'd been thinking about joining the Dallas Running Club for awhile. I ended up not joining because I thought I might be moving to California. Well ... obviously, I am still here in Texas. :D

So today I decided that I would go ahead and join the DRC. I noticed that they have a 23 week program to train for the November half-marathon -- and that the only requirement for starting it is being able to run/walk 3 - 4 miles. Well , I can run/walk 3 miles in about 43 minutes, so I decided to sign up for the training program in the 14-16 minute pace group.

The first meeting is July 8, and the first training run is July 13. Wow! Wow! Wow!

I hope I'm not the only one in that pace group. It would be nice to get to know some other people in the area who are at a similar pace as me.

I also signed up for the 4th of July 5k run, which is free for DRC members. I had planned on waiting until the end of July to reenter 5k races, but I think I'll do okay. I've got two weeks to get ready!

I need to get new running shoes. I will get a 15% discount coupon for a local running store in the mail through the DRC - so I'm going to wait till I get that and then pick up some new shoes.

So, my running schedule will be Monday, Wednesday, Saturday, and then later on probably add in Friday or Sunday too.

I really hope 23 weeks will be enough to get me ready to go a full 13+ miles at once! Right now doing 3 miles at one time seems like a big accomplishment.

One thing I will have to do is definitely watch my eating/nutrition. Need to cut out the junk food!

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WILD4STARS 6/23/2009 9:20AM

    23 weeks is a long time, you'll do it. I KNOW you'll do it.
Happy Sparking, Vikki

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    Congrats! That is an awesome achievement. You are well on your way to where you want to be,

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Accepted to Grad School!!!!

Friday, June 12, 2009

Today I got an email letting me know I had been accepted to grad school, starting with the second summer session!!!! I am ecstatic! I am itching to sign up for my first class and get started!

Library, here I come!

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    Congratulations, that is awesome!

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DECKEREC 6/12/2009 9:53PM

    emoticonCONGRATULATIONS Laura! That's great news!

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