Monday, January 21, 2013
Things are going well for me. This is Day 19 No Binge / Purge. I have lost weight and "Stopped" crazy eating so many times.
So, what's different this time...
I am finally ready to tackle the "real" issues that cause me to over-eat.
Today is Day #1 with a new therapist. I am very excited, but I am also scared and nervous.
I hope you all have a great day!!!
Make it HAPPEN.
***I would add... Love your Spirit and Your Body***
Sunday, January 20, 2013
I had a very bad trigger last night... A Person. Wanted to eat. Did NOT eat. Had a piece of gum and put on some essential oils and went to bed. Yay! Me
Trying to Change-Mature-Create-Endlessly
I like this quote. It's a great way to think of change. All of us are trying to become "better" people. We don't like practicing our bad habits over and over.
What would I like to create Endlessly?
This speaks to my spirit not just my physical body. This time as I am trying to become healthier, I am definitely focusing more on my spirit than my physical body. I would like my physical body to be healthier but most of all, I want my spirit to be healthier.
Goal = Identify Feelings, Cope Properly (not with anger and F-Bombs), Forgive if needed, Mature and Carry-On.
*Use Proper Coping Skills* Ask God For Help...
Sadness - Cry, Journal Why, Take needed action, Let it go,
Anger - Deep Breathing, 1 F-Bomb in my mind then REALLY ask WHY and try to SOLVE... Don't just keep F-bombing and being angry at the wrong people.
Frustration - Hmmmmmm Fingers together... Be patient and figure out why. If I can solve it, then solve it. If I can't solve it, then deep-breathe, grow and mature from it and wait for it to pass, then move on.
I think these three feelings: Sadness, Anger, Frustration are the 3 hardest emotions for me to deal with and learn and grow from. They are my "change" that needs to happen.
Other feelings to think about:
One more quote:
Friday, January 18, 2013
For today's visualization, focus on the next small milestone you'd like to accomplish. Sometimes, thinking about the baby steps (the next five pounds) can be much more manageable than always focusing on the long-term outcome (reaching your goal weight). Remember this whenever your weight-loss journey seems overwhelming.
Obviously my daily, short-term, mid-range, and long term goals have everything to do with no binge-ing. But... I wanted to set 1 more short-term goal.
This has been interesting for me to think about. My goals have always revolved around my training, my next event, my fitness, etc...
I need to think about this. I am not sure my new goals have a way to be measured. I could keep a blog or a list. But... my goal is to focus on the daily-small-miracles. I used to do this, and I SAW them. Since I've been "sick" again it seems I've lost track of my daily small miracles.
So, friends and family... share with me your daily small miracles. Find one thing each day.
Yesterday, my small miracle. As I was walking out of my hair salon, a car had a window sticker that said:
I believe miracles happen too. Do you?
Thursday, January 17, 2013
I am so thankful for all the love and support my friends, family, co-workers, church friends, spark-friends, I am overwhelmed still by all the love and support. I truly wish I could see what you all saw in me a long time ago. But... so better NOW than Never.
I had debated about making Ben and Whitney videos of me so they had something (crazy thoughts) but now... I feel like I am really going to be ok and make it through this. Still one-day-at-a-time.
I was able to get a new therapist. I will start on Monday. He wants me to see him, a nutritionist, and my regular medical doctor. I am really looking forward to this and getting on with some healing.
Since Monday morning... my emotions have been mostly "in" check. I am feeling healthier and stronger. I added a little to my morning work-out today, and of course I obsessed about whether I was hungry / full. I usually have some carbs in the morning before I exercise. I didn't today, and I wondered if that's why I seemed "hungrier" all day. I still think it's in my crazy-head. So.... stupid and it really bothers me that I worry about it. But... duh... it's been only 15 days since really crazy eating.
I went and got my hair done tonight. Same old, same old... My hair-style really doesn't change much. I did add bangs a little while back. I mostly like them.
Overall... today was a pretty good day. I was so thankful for the texts and messages. They really do help me out a lot. Even random, silly texts and thoughts. I love that my brother still texts me his workouts and starts them out with Day 15 and reminds me how proud he is of me.
My children and school children are as sweet as ever. I reminded them we didn't have school on Monday and most of them moaned and wished we did have school (I have them brain-washed into thinking we are a pretty great class and that school is AWESOME).
Just feeling LOVED today. As it should always be right? I HOPE YOU are feeling LOVED too.
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Day 14 No binges
Lots of Support
Lots of Hugs
Lots of LOVE
New Book (from friend)
New Bracelet (from friend)
No Diet Coke
Lots of WATER
Some urges to mindlessly eat rather than "deal"
Husband's out of town
Come on... LIFE Is Good... this too shall pass.
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