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Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I realize more and more each and everyday that I like "routines" and that I use my auto~pilot often.

Unfortunately, my auto pilot says, "Food, Food, Candy, Diet Coke, Bread, Food, Food, Food."

It's very hard and seems sometimes impossible some days to RE~program my auto pilot.

That doesn't mean I haven't stopped trying. There is ALWAYS hope right? How could we live if we didn't have hope. Hope is a strong word. A word I appreciate more and more each day.

Interestingly enough, I am thinking of Faith, Hope, and Charity not in a religious way but in a way towards my eating habits and my auto~pilot.

I have to have faith in myself that I can overcome my terrible auto~pilot habits. I must RE~PROGRAM my entire system.

My auto~pilot is so hard wired that even when I think I've changed it... BOOM! I revert back to food, candy, food, diet coke.

Each time I fail I must learn from the little mistakes I've made and make a plan to overcome it.

I can NOT believe how hard it has been for me to re~program my EATING habits. It just seems that it shouldn't be THIS difficult.

Finally, I must have charity. Reach out to others. Let them help me. Be honest and open. Even willing to be vulnerable and embarrassed. I DO feel embarrassed by my eating behaviors and habits.

I do have Faith and Hope that once and for all I can Re~Program my auto pilot to make HEALTHY choices :)


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LORENVER 6/22/2011 5:19PM

    Auto pilot can be great but only if it is set to the best choices. You can do it!

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KELLIEH04 6/22/2011 9:28AM

    First of all please don't beat yourself up. There are no failures in your weight loss journey, there is just new ways of discovery. I'll share with you a little tip that I like to use that is very powerful. Most of us go the the sweets and junk food because of emotional eating. From this we learn how powerful our emotions are and have on what we eat. All of our emotions and habits lye in our unconscious mind. All the will power in the world is not going to keep us from the emotional eating. We may be able to stop it for a little while but eventually we will break down because our conscious mind can't stop the behavior. First figure out what emotion is causing you to go after the junk food. Are you bored? Are you sad? Are you stressed, ect? Then once you've targeted the emotion then think of other ways you can satisfy that emotion. If you are bored, you might want to get outside and enjoy the outdoors, if you are sad you might want to give a loved one a call. If you recognize the need and then train your mind to find new ways to fill your needs that will help you to break the junk food cycle. Good luck! You can do this! You are worth the time to make these changes! We are all behind you cheering you on!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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55WALKER 6/21/2011 2:07PM

    A little over a year ago I was systematically going from food to food to food all day. It has been a pleasure getting over that after so many decades. Hope ETL serves this purpose for you too.

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AMZY68 6/21/2011 1:38PM

    I hate to admit it but I have autopilot binge eating sessions when I'm stressed or tired. It is hard to change habits but we can do it!

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REEKU731 6/21/2011 11:16AM

    You can totally re-program your Auto-Pilot! Its a pain, but you are always able to build new habits! We are here to cheer you on the entire time!!!

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    You can do it!!

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BASBONBON 6/21/2011 10:24AM

    You acknowledge your downfall so you will do fine re-programming. Just be patient with yourself. Baby steps.

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Elizabeth Smart

Monday, June 20, 2011

So... today I went to a funeral with my husband. It was for an incredible woman and a very touching funeral. I sometimes leave funerals thinking... I am a terrible mother LoL!!!

I watched part of the 2nd episode of finding Sarah Ferguson. Interesting. The question I pondered today was from Suze (I think) About do you include people in your life that really care about YOU and your family? Don't worry or include the ones that are disrespectful or really don't care about you.

So, lately I've just been thinking about a lot of DEEP life questions.

A few weeks ago, the David Mitchell (Elizabeth Smart) trial ended. I live in Salt Lake and it's on the news frequently. I remember seeing Elizabeth on T.V. after the trial and truly how resilient she seemed and looked. I was so happy for her that she was able to go on a mission for the LDS church also. I truly think those are incredible accomplishments. My daughter and I have talked about Elizabeth and what she's overcome a few times. My daughter attends the same school as Elizabeth's brother, and she says people say some really terrible things at times.

So, back to today... My husband and I attended a funeral for one of his current teacher's mother. The Smart's son was in this teachers class and knows the family. So, they were at the funeral today.

We get in line to pay our respects to this teacher and her mother and the Smart's are in line right behind us. My husband knows Ed and Lois through their youngest son. HE is DARLING! Such a cute kid. So, Ed began talking to my husband and Lois was talking to me. I didn't realize that both of their sons are my kids exact ages and will be attending the same schools. I talk to William Smart the youngest. What a sweet, nice kid.

They were very kind and I was happy to meet them. Somehow in the conversation Lois said her daughters would be coming in a little later.

Well, My husband and I go in and sit down and the Smart's end up sitting right in front of us. Elizabeth and her sister came in a little later and sat right directly in front of me. It was interesting to see people staring at what seemed like me, but they were staring at Elizabeth. They are beautiful women.

I can NOT imagine what the Smart family has been through, but I am so blown away by how they seem to carry themselves and what a great family they seem to be. I was shocked that they really had a conversation with me too. They have to endure many criticisms and harsh comments also. I just can't imagine.

So... anyway today was an interesting day. It took my mind off of ME for awhile. LOL!!!

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SUNNYH99 6/21/2011 10:41AM

    Thank you for sharing this experience. I have seen Elizabeth on TV and she seems so poised and together. Having a loving family and the faith they share must help. Maybe having some sort of context to put that horror in makes it possible to hold oneself together in the face of insanity. I send my respect and best wishes their way.

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NANCYBFULLER 6/21/2011 8:47AM

    It would be so easy to go into hiding, after having the public sucrutize you like that. What a shining example they are to all of us. Thanks for sharing

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WILD4STARS 6/21/2011 6:53AM

    They seem like a wonderful family. Why can't people just let them be? Harsh comments and criticism? They were victims, they didn't do anything. So sad that they have to endure such stuff.

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LILIVW 6/20/2011 6:52PM

    What an enormous amount of faith a person/family must have to experience something so horrible and yet not only survive but thrive. Thanks for sharing. I have wondered about her after watching her disappearance and subsequent escape from that horrible man.

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NOTHIN2IT 6/20/2011 6:49PM

    Thank you for sharing your story. I have always thought that they must be incredible people (especially Elizabeth) to have gone through something so awful and survived like they have. It's nice to hear that from someone who has met them!

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PICKIE98 6/20/2011 4:29PM

    People who live in glass houses... faith is probably what kept the whole family sane and whole through all of those tormenting years...

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RUNTRILAUGH 6/20/2011 4:22PM

    That would be interesting....

You know you can't judge a family by one member, but its hard not to sometimes... And people really like to judge! (although they shouldn't)

Glad it went well, and it seems like they are doing well.

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Sarah Ferguson

Friday, June 17, 2011

The show... Finding Sarah...

How do you see yourself?

Does it matter what others think of you?

What is the meaning of life?

Do you love yourself?

Can you honestly say, I have a crush on me?

What's holding you back?

Do you believe what others think / say about you?

Why do you have financial problems?

Seriously??? These are some hard core questions.

I found it interesting that Oprah said to Sarah, "I was where you are now at age 23?" I felt so badly for Sarah that age 50+ she is where Oprah was more than 25 years earlier. What a waste of 25 years? Yes or NO???

Sometimes I feel so ahead of the game and have self confidence. But... I am fascinated by how quickly and easily I can LOSE that. Ugggg... WTF???

I realize I need a much STRONGER support group and I MUST reach out to them. Regardless of what others "THINK" of us all the time. We NEED others to help us live a happy healthy life.

So many questions to ponder....

I think I'll go golfing. LoL!

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PICKIE98 6/20/2011 4:36PM

    First of all, Sarah is SO much richer than Oprah ever was.. she has the support of her family, beautiful daughters, people who know and love her for HER, not for her $$ or what "she appears to be in public".. Sarah is the real deal, not walking around with a publicist's story of what her real life was..

Money is not happiness and these two women are the alpha and omega on that one,,
Oprah shows people what she wants them to believe, Sarah, warts and all, is out there, with her face hanging out, but she is real..

Sarah has the common sense of a child when it comes to money and making informed , mature decisions, but SHE does not lie about her past, or her life as it is today.. For that, I am proud of her, embarrassed for Oprah..
When O gets older and is all alone, maybe she will learn this lesson....

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SALEX52 6/18/2011 12:22PM

    Interesting questions. I"ll have to check out the show.

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FITQUIZ 6/17/2011 5:48PM

    I am with you on having a good support system. I notice when I surround myself with positive people life is so much better.

Keep those negative people out, yes even if they are family. That is my hardest challenge because most of my family is negative. It's ok, I have to do what is best for me sometimes.

And you know I do got a lil crush on myself, heheheee..... emoticon

Have fun golfing!!! emoticon

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AMYSTRONG 6/17/2011 4:33PM

    I loved that episode of Finding Sarah and look forward to watching more. I feel really bad for Fergie to have such a train wreck for past. Hopefully she'll pull herself together and enjoy the rest of her life with her head held high. It's sad because at that stage in the game folks should be getting ready to enjoy what they've worked for their whole life.

I'm glad you wrote these questions out.

You're doing great girl and I love your love for life. Life has its ups and downs and as long as keep plugging along you'll do great!


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JENNSWIMS 6/17/2011 1:32PM

    Wow, those are some serious questions that deserve a lot of thought. Thanks for sharing.

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Food Timer...

Thursday, June 16, 2011


I just want to elaborate on my food / timer idea.

I am a CONSTANT snacker. I think I am hungry, but for the most part I am BORED or Food just sounds good (because it IS good) but... I am NOT hungry.

So... Bring into play the TIMER.

The past few days, I have been planning my meals and this has worked for ME :) Just an idea:

Wake up 6:00-630 = Coffee
Run / Bike 7:00-8:00 = 8-16 oz. water

Breakfast 8:30 = Oatmeal / Banana / V-8

10:00-11:00 Pool to Relax and swim 2000-3000 Meters

12:30 - 1:00 Lunch = Turkey Sandwich or Smart Ones TV dinner / Green Beans / Apple or Yogurt


I am NOT hungry after lunch, but I frequently start SNACKING So... I set the timer when needed to remind me I really don't NEED to eat until 3:00-3:30. If I want / need something I can Drink Water or a V-8. For me.... if I start eating "real" food, it's a recipe for binging or continuous snacking all afternoon.

So at 3:00-3:30 I eat a snack (small meal)... My husband made this delicious Salsa mix with corn, Pinto Beans, and Diced Tomatoes with green peppers. I eat this with carrots or a small salad with a little bit of Zesty Italian dressing. I also have a fruit like banana / apple / applesauce and a yogurt.

5:30 - 7:00 I've been going WALKING YAYAYAYYAY!!! It's been the perfect time. I drink about 8 oz water with possibly another V-8 about 5:00.

7:30 DINNER... Chicken Kabob with pineapple, green peppers, onions. Side of Brown Rice or a side salad. Fruit watermelon. Dessert = Rootbeer Popscicle :)

8:30-9:00 If I need a bedtime snack... Popcorn or Yogurt or Another Popsicle or 2 :)

10:00-10:30 Bed

Timer Recap = I MOSTLY just need the timer between 1:00-3:00 and 3:30-5:15 These are the hardest times for me. It has helped SOOOOOO much to get out and walk at about 5:30 and so fun to do it with a fun group of girls.


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DEBRABUF 6/19/2011 4:42PM

    What kind of timer are you talking about. I think that might work for me after dinner when I think I want more perhaps set a timer for 10 minutes and see if the urge passes..mmm..might work..thanks for sharing.

I gave up snacking in between meals as I then have to struggle with continued eating breakfast is between 8-9, lunch 12-1, dinner 6-7, bed usually around 9. I can only deal with the binge monster a couple times a day :)

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AMYSTRONG 6/16/2011 5:52PM

    I would suggest finding something to occupy your mind and hands between the times you tend to reach for extra snacks. However your schedule is pretty packed, you need a break in the day so you don't burnout. Perhaps a hobby where you're using your hands?

Me being a constant snacker too I haven't found a fix for it yet. I am an evening snacker when I play on-line which is bad, bad.


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SIMABON31 6/16/2011 2:09PM

    Sounds like a great schedule! Hope it works for you! I may have to try the timer thing, too. I'm an afternoon snacker as well!

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Not Sure

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Not sure why I have been hesitant to blog lately... My mind is spinning as usual.

So in a nutshell:

WW weigh in last Sunday = Down 3.8 pounds (1st week)

Outdoor Swimming in the 50 Meter Pool = 3 days in a row this week.

Running = Ran with my husband on Sunday and Tuesday. Walking group Tuesday and going for a run this evening with Spark Buddy Amy.

Food = Back to Old Plan with Weight Watchers

Food Plan = I like the OA idea of 3 meals nothing in between... kind of. My rule is 3 meals 2 snacks with only V-8 and water in between.

I KNOW I have to develop new eating habits for LIFE. I keep trying temporary fixes for food that do NOT work. I am ready to tell people that I am ALLERGIC to candy, but I don't think they'll believe me.

So, I've been setting the timer on the oven to go off when it's time for a meal or a snack. SO FUNNY! I feel silly about it, but it has been working. If I MUST have something... I drink a V-8 which is remarkably filling and satisfying especially with Propel Water or Plain Water.

I am already feeling much better again.

My other goal this week is to allow myself to sit and READ... My goal is to read 50 pages of my book a day. I am reading The Help... I LOVE IT!!!

So... Yippee for getting off to a great summer!!! I should change this blog entry to YIPPEE For Summer! I feel much better after writing this.


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NETTYBREAD 6/16/2011 11:23AM


Thank you everyone for all your comments :) I seriously can't believe how much better I felt after posting it. YAY!!!

I love the Pavlov comment. LoL...

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RUNTRILAUGH 6/16/2011 11:17AM

    There ya go! Sounds like a good plan!

And hmmm a timer - pretty smart!

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AMYSTRONG 6/16/2011 12:01AM

    I feel like I'm kicking the summer off to a great start. I chuckled at your candy allergy comment, I don't think they would believe me either. I say no matter how silly something may feel, it it works, go for it!


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PORTO44 6/15/2011 10:19PM

    "The Help" is a great book! Congrats on creating a plan AND making time for yourself!

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DRPOOH63 6/15/2011 10:17PM

    I have to start with that I love your background it is great.

Sounds like you have a great plan. I love the idea of the timer although then I think you might get a pavlov's dog thing going waiting for the buzz!! emoticon

And the Help is a great book enjoy.

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SPINTOWIN 6/15/2011 8:58PM

    Great job on all you wonderful accomplishments this week! And for telling us about then so we can cheer you along.

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CRYSBROWN1 6/15/2011 7:36PM

    Yipee for summer is right! You plan sounds great & hey, do what works, if setting a timer helps then go with it!

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BRUIN2 6/15/2011 6:02PM


You know, I have celiac disease, so I can't have any gluten...and there is gluten in A LOT of candy, so I don't eat anything unless I can read the package...which is very rarely in a work setting...

You are rocking the workouts!!!

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ERPARA 6/15/2011 4:44PM

    You'll work it all out - sounds like you're doing the right thing moving it all around until you find the right balance for you!

Yippee for summer is right!!

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SLEAUXRUNNER 6/15/2011 4:43PM

    I like Yippee for summer better! lol

Glad blogging made you feel better :D

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