Day 11 daily blog

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Today was a very very very stressful day more so then any day i have had latley. I feel like i am going to burst and i feel like my heart is racing and i cant breath right might be an anxiety attack man i just cant think something really has to give. My mind is so consumed with confusion over what i should do for my grandson and what is the best for him. I dont mean to be a downer but its very difficult for me well all of us. I did get some exercise in but other then that it was a terrible day. I feel so disappointed but i know i can over come this we are strong. Our anniversary was sweet and my husband wrote the most beautiful letter to me so i am blessed. Please dont give up on me i will be ok just keep us in your thoughts. Anyways enough babbling i need to drink my water and try to get some sleep my head hurts and i just cant think anymore for today.

  

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-LORI-B 7/25/2009 11:53AM

Sending you love and prayers that everything works out for everyone. Love ya, Lori Report Inappropriate Comment

SHANSHE 7/24/2009 10:00PM

Lesley, I just caught up on your blogs and bless your heart! I will be praying for you and hope that things get better. Please do not stop coming by or writing your blogs! Hugs, Shan Report Inappropriate Comment

CHRISJAKE 7/24/2009 1:11PM

Oh girl!!!! HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS!!!!!!!!!! I hope that things get resolved and that everything starts to look up soon....Glad that you're hubby wrote such a nice thing for you. That's always nice!! I will be thinking of you and your family and praying for you guys!! Hang in there!!!! Chantelle Report Inappropriate Comment

BOUNCY2 7/24/2009 2:24AM

Prayers and more Bouncy Report Inappropriate Comment

LOLAJO54 7/23/2009 10:50PM

Lesley my thoughts are with you...do you have a minister or some very very close (trustworthy) family member or friend you can hash things over with..talking always helps.. but you must trust the person.. then they can just listen othe then that Mary is right BLOG but if you need to do a private one under planner.. then journal.. it might help you.. We are here Jo Report Inappropriate Comment

RAINBOWMF 7/23/2009 10:13PM

I will be thinking of you , I send you caring thoughts and you can talk all you want in your own blog it really helps. Luv Mary Report Inappropriate Comment

BARBARAROSE54 7/23/2009 9:48PM

Sending hugs and prayers your way . Report Inappropriate Comment

Day 9 daily blog

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

today was a pretty good day and i got lots of physical activity in. In did 1 hr walking and 30 mins on the recumbent bike at the y. I drank 12 ( thats right 12) glasses of water maybe a little too much but i was sweating up a storm today so i am sure it was ok and burnign thsoe cals. My eating was pretty good i ate healthy but i may have gone a little over not intentionally but it was on healthy stuff and i did do lots of cardio so i am sure its ok not to mention it was by much either . Tomorrow is court and then working at my other job so may be a little stressful. Also my 15 year wedding anniversary so we may have a small treat but its weigh day and thats when i would allow for that anyways and i will work it into my calories too. Felling good about this week with blogging and like i said before it does help me. Anyways i really need to get some sleep.

  

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LOLAJO54 7/22/2009 7:55PM

Hi again Lesley.. great job again! There should be a good weight loss this week.. YOu are moving it! Jo Report Inappropriate Comment

NATURALSOAPGIRL 7/22/2009 4:03PM

Good for you, girl! Going strong - keep it up! And showing that team spirit - love it!!!! Orange Tigers Rock!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

-LORI-B 7/22/2009 2:53PM

Happy anniversary sweetie. Keep it up, you are doing so awesome Report Inappropriate Comment

BARBARAROSE54 7/22/2009 8:34AM

You are doing awesome Lesley, keep up the great job..... BTW... I think you mentioned an anniversary.... so Happy Anniversary to you Sweetie ! Report Inappropriate Comment

RAINBOWMF 7/21/2009 11:26PM

nice day Lesley. You are going to be rocking that little extra weight you gained right off! You had an awesome day. Mary Report Inappropriate Comment

Day 9 daily blog

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

today was a pretty good day and i got lots of physical activity in. In did 1 hr walking and 30 mins on the recumbent bike at the y. I drank 12 ( thats right 12) glasses of water maybe a little too much but i was sweating up a storm today so i am sure it was ok and burnign thsoe cals. My eating was pretty good i ate healthy but i may have gone a little over not intentionally but it was on healthy stuff and i did do lots of cardio so i am sure its ok not to mention it was by much either . Tomorrow is court and then working at my other job so may be a little stressful. Also my 15 year wedding anniversary so we may have a small treat but its weigh day and thats when i would allow for that anyways and i will work it into my calories too. Felling good about this week with blogging and like i said before it does help me. Anyways i really need to get some sleep.

  

day 8 daily blog

Monday, July 20, 2009

well all in all today was a good day. I was however stressed out and tired due to the lack of sleep last night but i stayed on track with calories, water exercise so thats great. Many of you may know that I have a grandson due with in the next month. our sons situation is a very complicated one and since him and his girlfriend are both very young they have decided to put him in care for about a year. This saddens me as i want to be able to have a relationship with my grandson but i understand there reasons and support whatever they decide. My husband and i have given this alot of thought and think that perhaps we should try and take him till they are ready, trouble is our lives our alos very complicated mostly due to my sons life and this may not be appropriate or even approved by the CAS. We want michael to go to a place where he can be with family, get the best care possible and be loved. Its not fair that he is born into all this mess and it breaks my heart to even think about it. This is why i have been so stressed. Add court proceedings to the pile and it makes for one heck of a crazy life . On a good note though i have managed to make it through yet another day with my sanity in check and staying on track to boot so that i am celebrating. I guess sometimes we have to take the good with the bad and although times are tough i have a great family who loves and supports me and wonderful husband and great friends both at home and on here so that makes me feel pretty blessed. Anyways enough babbling for now as i need to get some beauty sleep tomorrow will be a new day with new challenges and obstacles to overcome but i am doing this one day at a time .

  

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NESSY759 7/21/2009 9:52PM

thanks everyone for your comments and support. i think we can have visits maybe once a week or something but as i said we are going to talk to them about us being that family and we will foster him till they are able to so thanks again for your support. Report Inappropriate Comment

SASSYMOMMIE 7/21/2009 6:13PM

Lesley I will say extra prayer for yea and your family and know that God will help yea in this emotional and troubled time. So happy to see yea sharing your burden with us so we can help support yea in anyway that we can. Just hiding it away will eat yea up more. Your inspiring me!! Hope your Tuesday is better than Monday! Report Inappropriate Comment

BARBARAROSE54 7/21/2009 5:30PM

This is a sad situation and I feel your pain. Prayers going out that the baby will be with a loving family. You are doing great under all this stress. So proud of you. Report Inappropriate Comment

LOLAJO54 7/21/2009 5:16PM

Lesley -- this is a sad situation..but you are a strong person with a great husband so as a family you will get through this... Can you go for visitations or have the wee one on your days off? Glad you had a great day on program and only wish you many more days of being good to you. You deserve only the best.. Jo Report Inappropriate Comment

-LORI-B 7/21/2009 12:39AM

awww Les.. heartbreaking situation.. I hope that the baby can go to a family member. Hope it works out for you and everyone involved. Happy you are working to turn to the positive rather than floating to the negative. Hugs, LORI Report Inappropriate Comment

RAINBOWMF 7/20/2009 11:17PM

Lesley, my heart aches for you. I am so happy you are writing these blogs to help you. It is so much better then hiding away and stressing on your own. We will all be here for you and try our best to support you in any way you need. Proud of you for having a good day! Mary Report Inappropriate Comment

Day 7 daily blog

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Well today was a busy busy busy day so busy that my day was right off. Not only with my eating but just in general. what i mean by that is i didnt eat breakfast till late then didnt get dinner till 8 pm and somehow i lost lunch in there. I havent done that in over a year. We were busy today ripping out the floorign in our room and gettign it ready for laminate floorign and painting and wow i dont think i will have a crazy day like that any time soon. Also did get to bed till late last ight so i wasnt feeling the greatest. I did however burn a bizzillion calories as all i did was go up and down the stairs non stop so i guess thats the plus side of it all. Anyways tomorrow is Monday and the start of a new week with great things.

  

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LOLAJO54 7/20/2009 11:39AM

lots of going up and down the stairs --great.. Drank lots of water- right? When you did eat was it healthy or fast foods? just wondering.. Today back to schedule right? YOU CAN DO THIS! Look at how far you have come! Jo Report Inappropriate Comment

SHANSHE 7/19/2009 11:42PM

Sounds like it was not a bad day, all in all, just extremely busy! Hugs, Shan Report Inappropriate Comment

RAINBOWMF 7/19/2009 10:45PM

Know all about that kind of busy. We get going and then no eating ,I bet you are going to sleep to night. Here's to Monday, week end over! Hugs Mary Report Inappropriate Comment