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Day 3 daily blog

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Well another day is done and gone. Over all it wasnt a bad day. Water was in check , exercise is done just need to do some wall pushups then i will be done and eating wasnt overly bad. Needed to get in a little more fruits and veggies today and sodium was a little high but tomorrow is a new day and i can work on that. Had a good weigh in down 3.6 pounds which was great and i am happy to say i managed to get some strength in this week too. The week to follow i am going to try and increase the amount of strength i do as this is somethign that has been more difficult for me. Well its gettign late i need to get to bed so enough for now i need to do my wall pushups first. Thanks to all of you for your conitnued support.

  
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LOLAJO54 7/16/2009 7:30PM

    Lesley--- great job... another day with improvement and thoughts for you to improve yet again...
Keep it up--sounds like Casey can give you some good advise.. I do strength everyday too just different parts of the bod... just stuff Sparks has here..easy..
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HEART4ADVENTURE 7/16/2009 10:22AM

    That is so great... sounds like your back on track! and feeling great... Cute new Profile pic by the way.

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BARBARAROSE54 7/16/2009 7:32AM

    Another great day for you, keep it going !

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SHANSHE 7/16/2009 3:13AM

    I am so proud of you Lesley! You are doing a great job and I have wondered about biking being strength as well...
Shan

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CASEYGIRL1982 7/15/2009 11:11PM

    I'm so proud of you 3.6 miles is awesome!! I think people over think Strength girl it's really not that hard to get in go look at my strength minutes!! Got resistance bands? Hand weights? Really catch me when you can I'll try to help you figure out something I do strength almost everday! Love ya!

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RAINBOWMF 7/15/2009 11:00PM

    Lesley, I think when you get out there riding that bike you get strength and cadio in.
Now I am no expert but it takes a lot of work to ride a bike.

Burn Baby Burn!!!!! You are rocking it Girl!!!

Hugs Mary

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Day 2 daily blog

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Today was another good day. I made alot of healthy choices. HAd my 5 fruits and veggies , sodium was on check and 8 glasses of h2o was had. For exercise i did 1 mile LS , walked 30 mins outside , did 75 crunches and did a 10 min ab video on sparks so all in all it was a great healthy day. Another important thing to also report today was the fact that i got through another temptation. When i went to the coffee shop this morning for my coffee a friend was there and when they went to get there coffee they decided to get themselves and me a treat. It was a giant cinnimon bun covered in a thick layer of icing. I politly delcined and told them it didnt fit into my nutritional plan today. I took a picture of it as i wanted it to be a reminder to me of how well i did with the temptation. I also took the time to look up the calories of that cinnimon bun and it tipped in at a whopping 470 calories. Wow just think of all lthe food i could have in its place. Anyways tomorrow is weigh day and normally i have a small treat on weigh day. I may or may not have that treat. I do however feel that whatever the choice i make it will fit into my calories and i will follow up with a great workout.

  
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NATURALSOAPGIRL 7/15/2009 9:10PM

    You're doing awesome, Lesley! I have to tell you though, depending on where you were - many times something that seems like it would be so YUMMY ends up not being that yummy and then they aren't calories that you say, "it was high in calories, but it was so worth it" - instead you end up saying, "it was okay, but not worth all those calories". So, you avoided that all together! Great job!

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CASEYGIRL1982 7/15/2009 8:51PM

    Girl I saw the pic before reading and started drooling! haha but of course read the calories and like you thought no way!! I love ya throw it away no one in your house needs it or keep it to remind yourself how strong you are until it grows mold or frostbite if it's in the freezer!!

Keep up the Daily blogs girl!

I know I'm gonna need to duck soon because your gonna fly past me on the scale soon!! No worries girl you getta movin! I'm cheering you on all the way!

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REALLYFATPERSON 7/15/2009 7:48AM

    Lesley, Eat one if you really can't live without it. Then like going to confessional........ do a work out to burn all of the calories off. LOL it is easier to skip it. Good job though I am doing a nasty place for me today. My coworker wants 2 egg McMuffins this AM.... I am leaving my BEC bisquit behind for some poor person who either doesn't want to be in shape or wants all those calories for me I don't have the time or energy to burn off those calories today. Water and a high fiber pop tart for me.

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SHANSHE 7/15/2009 12:23AM

    WOO HOO Lesley, you are rocking it girlfriend!
Shan

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BARBARAROSE54 7/14/2009 11:14PM

    Good job Lesley ! Great way of looking at it and yes there are ooodles of food you could eat in place of that bun that are so healthy and good for you.

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NESSY759 7/14/2009 11:02PM

    Mary nope he didnt eat it . The cinnimon bun is in my freezer. Not sure what will happen to it.

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JEEP_GIRL 7/14/2009 10:58PM

    Way to go, passing that up! Great job!
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RAINBOWMF 7/14/2009 10:40PM

    Ahhhh Lesley, what a great day. I am so proud of you.
One question,, Did your friend eat the extra cinnamon bun? LOL!

Day two done!

Hugs Mary

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Day 1 daily blog

Monday, July 13, 2009

so today is the first day for my daily blog and i am happy to say that day went well. I got up early and got a small work out in before heading to work. It wasnt easy for me to get out of bed i wont lie but the fact is i did it. After work my daughter and i went for a long bike ride so got my cardio in for the day. I stayed on track today with my calories and i got 10 plus glasses of h20 in. Water hasnt been an issue for some 300 plus days and even when i struggled i never letthat fall by the way side. It was a little hard when my daughter had her treat of doritos and i so wanted some but i am happy to say i fought the temptation and came out on top. even did a little strength today for my extra challenge. If you only knew how i am beaming that i got through a day and stayed on track.

  
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CASEYGIRL1982 7/14/2009 2:27PM

    Great idea to blog day by day Les!!
That's right, one day at a time getting back on track and before you know it it'll feel like everyday stuff again! eating right and exercising!

Come on I know for a fact you can catch right back up to me and probably wiz by me on the scale.. keep it up Girl I know you want this as bad as I do!!And all of us here at Sparks are cheering you on! We love ya!

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SUZYBGOOD 7/14/2009 1:01PM

    Keep on going! This sounds so cliche but one day at a time. emoticon

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-LORI-B 7/14/2009 1:05AM

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-LORI-B 7/14/2009 1:00AM

    emoticon happy for you.. keep it up

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SHANSHE 7/14/2009 12:59AM

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So proud of you Lesley! I know it is hard, but you are doing it, one day down, another one to go, one day at a time!

Shan

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BARBARAROSE54 7/13/2009 10:53PM

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LOLAJO54 7/13/2009 10:32PM

    emoticon great job Lesley back on track -love it.. we are in this to win!! Yes we are..
Great blog!
Keep up the great workouts..
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QUEENANNE1953 7/13/2009 10:14PM

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RAINBOWMF 7/13/2009 9:08PM

    Congrats on day 1.
You are going to do just fine.
You had a great day. Baby steps. emoticon

Mary

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CHRISJAKE 7/13/2009 9:05PM

    GOOD JOB GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>
WOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hugs....Chantelle

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Time to face the music

Sunday, July 12, 2009

As all of you may know i have been struggling for a period of time. For the most part i could maintain my weight or have minimal weight gain. I didn't want to face the scale after my last trip as i knew i wasn't going to be good as i had eaten not so good , hadn't exercised a whole lot and then there was Pms on top of that. Anyways for whatever the reason i knew i had gained i could just tell. The more i thought about it the more it depressed me and my first instinct was to run and hide. I avoided all of you because i didn't want to be a disappointment to you all and i know was disappointed in myself too. Well today i weighed in and just as i expected it wasn't pretty . I feel ashamed that i let myself get back this way and i was afraid to come back and face all of you and i think mostly myself as coming here and telling you all makes it that much more real. The past two years i have struggled with my life and some days i feel like i have no control over anything and that's not a great feeling. Today i made that all important decision to not give up to take BACK the control that i have lost and get back on my feet. I am NOT finished what i set out to do and i WILL NOT accept defeat. I will preserve and come out on top. I know i may have distances myself and i need to learn to reach out instead of running away. I know this will take time but i do know that i deserve this and i am worth it. I just hope you will all stand by me. I need you all you have all become an important part of me and i do apologize if i haven't been what i should have been for this team. Anyways today when you read this you will see the change in my ticker. Its not pretty but one thing i can tell you is this, it wont stay that number for long, it wont be going up , it will be going back down and i am going to out me first again the way i should be. Thanks for listening.

  
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QUEENANNE1953 7/13/2009 10:30PM

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You will never disappointment me .. you have done an amazing job .. not many people can accomplish removing 100+ pounds. You are a great inspiration to our team and I'm glad you are back on track and taking care of you.
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Good luck and God bless.

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REALLYFATPERSON 7/13/2009 8:23PM

    Les, I am giving you the same lecture they all gave me. Quit being so hard on yourself. That's what friends are for the good times and the bad ones. If we were only here for the good ones we really wouldn't be friends. Don't go MIA again. We are here. If we were all perfect we wouldn't be human.

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CASEYGIRL1982 7/13/2009 11:38AM

    Les, I read all these caring words from our Spark friends and feel so thankful that we have a place like this to go to..you are one of the main people I think of when I'm feeling down and need to stay strong! You are in no way a let down to any of us we all love you! And worry about you! You know I'm always here if you need me!! What are you doing girl you speed pass me on the scale and now want me to catch up so we can start again even!! Hahaha! Is that what's happening here? Well come on girl take my hand as we've done before and let's do this!!

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SUZYBGOOD 7/13/2009 10:25AM

    Nothing new to add to what has been said, but know that we are all here for you. Sparkpeople and the teams and the challenges are really just the spark of our life to get us each motivated. The team is just your personal support. In this journey there are times when you can say, this is all about me. We love you and you are beautiful.

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NATURALSOAPGIRL 7/13/2009 4:06AM

    I don't know that there's a whole lot I could say to add to these encouraging words from loving friends. In your case there is one thing I DO know - YOU DO NOT NEED TO FEEL ASHAMED. You have not hurt your SP friends - they care about you no matter what. And by allowing yourself to feel shame and disappointment you are only prolonging that sense of defeat. When we mess up we need to forgive ourselves ASAP. Tell yourself what you did wrong, take steps to avoid this destructive behavior and MOVE ON!!! Don't be so hard on yourself - learn to love that woman in the mirror. It's hard, but I guarantee you - it's worth it!!!

Forgive.

Forgiv
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Forgive.

Are you ready to forgive yourself and leave the past in the past?

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-LORI-B 7/13/2009 1:03AM

    Lesley.. do you know how many times I have gained weight here?? How many times I have tried to hide from everyone?? When I try to hide, it only becomes worse. I find myuself slipping further away. Strangly enough even tho Im not dropping the weight like others have been, noone has written me off.
I tell you this because I ahve been where you are and trust me when I tell you, hiding doesnt work.. never has... never will. Waste of time my dear friend.

You are a beloved and needed part of this team. Go back and read your past blogs and remember where you were and how far you have come. Ok so you had a set back.. You are still alot further forward then you are behind. Unless you suddenly become some kind of murderer or something like that, you could never be an embarassment or a dissapointment.

Proud of you for standing u and facing this head on. We will do this together.
((((((Lesley))))))) Love ya gf

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SHANSHE 7/12/2009 11:36PM

    Lesley,
What a beautiful person you are inside and out and I am so proud of you! You are a STRONG woman Lesley and you have done well and will continue to do so, we have have stumbling blocks in our paths from time to time.

I am here for you anytime you need anything!
Hugs,
Shan

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RAINBOWMF 7/12/2009 11:10PM

    You have had good advice from your friends.
Everyone of us at one time or other has been where you are
with weight up or down, we know, we care.

Doing this blog is the best step you could take now you have to listen to everyone . You have learned so much and we all know you are ready to get back to Lesley, you want to feel the Divatude, you want the Girl that ran and jumped in that cold water and let it be shown all over the TV stations, yes you do!!

I totally agree with Vickie, look at how far you have come, not how far you have to go. You are so close to your goal! How sweet is that?

You have come back at a good time because some of us have gained and we have all banned together to work hard and make the journey together.

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PRESENTTIME 7/12/2009 9:09PM

    Leslie,
I am proud of you for sticking with your weight loss journey. We all have our ups and downs. Let go of what is in the past and live in the present moment. The present moment is where you have the ability to change. The trick is when you get back on the horse move forward and donít look back with regret. Notice what you have learned about yourself. Be kind to yourself. You can do it. Hang in there we are here for support.


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LOLAJO54 7/12/2009 7:38PM

    Lesley Lesley Lesley..
ho can we say this so you get it?.... YOU ARE NOT A DISAPPOINTMENTTO US!
We have all been there done that...what about me I never left or backed off the board but I gained 7 lbs.. I know now what I did wrong and you do too..so get back at it like you said..it is for you and you alone..Like Vickie said -- you are 3/4 to goal... let's get the last 1/4 done.
You can do this --- get to posting get to participating in challenges team goals and the chats/discussions..you will soon be back on the healthy journey and you'll think no sweat --I can do this ..Yes you can..
Listen to Barb..
I'm here too!

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MOTHER-NATURE 7/12/2009 7:35PM

    Lesley emoticon emoticon I think that blogging your feelings each day will really help .. we are all here for you my friend

Hugs

Niki

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NESSY759 7/12/2009 7:02PM

    thank you so much for all your kind words i am tryingto choke back the tears i think i just lost control of the situation and didnt know how to get it back and my biggest fear was to face it . All my life i have felt like a disappointment and i hate to disappoint people that i thought i would be better off alone how could i have been so wrong i do need you all and know that i have acknowledge this i can change it. Like our good friend Doctor phil says"we cant change what we dont acknowledge. I already feel lighter just by taking the weight off my shoulders. Thansk again for standing by me no matter what. You all rock.

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HEART4ADVENTURE 7/12/2009 6:36PM

    Lesley, that's the great thing about coming here, you find that you are not alone in our journey. Sometimes we are our own worse enemy and facing failure and hard to see the victory's in how far we have come. Looking at your ticker, I see positive that you are only 54lb from Goal!! you have made it like 3/4 of the way to your goal since you started your journey!! By having the accountability of reaching out and posting this blog is the first step to you getting back on track! Hugs..

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BARBARAROSE54 7/12/2009 6:34PM

    I've been waiting all day to read this Leslie.

First of all thank you for being honest with you and with us. That's the first step in turning this all around, acknowledgement.

2nd.... we would never ever be disappointed in you, and you shouldn't be disappointed in you. After all you are human, however you need to take everything you have learned at Sparks and put it back into use. You know how you lost your weight, and you need to continue to do those things. It's when we stop doing it that our old habits come back and before we know it we are back on the road to weight gain.

3rd.... we are your support and we need you as much as you need us. Please don't run and hide cause we just worry about you.

As Chantelle said.... I am here any time you need my help....

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CHRISJAKE 7/12/2009 6:24PM

    Oh Leslie you almost had me in tears!!! I know EXACTLY how you feel, as I think most of us here do. I know its hard not to distance yourself from us because you feel ashamed or dissappointed, but please stick around when you need support or help. We will do everything we can to help you in this journey, Let us know how we can help and we will do it.

A daily goodie, a listening ear, a positive thing to hear....whatever you need, just ask....

I hope that you will lean on us when you need to. You can do this. I know you can!!!

HUGS!!!

Chante
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Struggling

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Well i am here barley but i am here no the less. I know i have been Mia action and this is not my intention but i have to tell ya that thigns for me latley have been difficult. I have very little motivation and all the thigns i love to do seem like such and effort for me latley. Its so hard for me to even haul my butt out of bed much less do anythign else. I struggle to exercise, i struggle to do pretty much anything. Each day i tell my self tomorrow but when tomorrow arrives i feel that same dull energy level and i feel like i have been filled with a bunch of cement weighing me down. I try to stay on course with eating and for the most part i do fine eating but then there are days that i struggle and it not easy. Latley i feel so overwhelmed. I want to be that happy girl and i want to do the things i lvoe but i feel so tired that all i want to do is sleep. Its effecting me in every way. Most days i would rather not work or do anything. I havent logged my food in days and i feel like i am falling and i dont want to. I have worked so hard and dont want to go back to that person i once was. For the msot part i am holding my own with the weight but i dont want to just maintain i am here to lsoe weight and i know if i could get back some motivation i could get that scale moving and not just standing still. I sit here and get so mad at myself and say what is wrong with you and tell myselfto snap out of this and stop being stupid but why am i still sitting here feeling down and depressed. I think i am justing being hit with a bad bout of depression and i feel so out of control with my feeligns and stuff. Like i said i am holding my own with the weight but i feel if i dont get a hold of this soon it will start to undo all the good i have done. My husband worries about me and then he gets down and then that inturn stresses me out. I dont mean to be going on but i know that you all will be fine with this as you all care about me and i do appreciate this. I dont mean to push away from you all really i dont but i even try to distance myself from those here too. I know i may have to speak to my docotr and some meds, but thats like a catch 22 too as the side affects are bothersome to me as well but i know i need to do something. Anyways thanks for listening. I am open to suggestions but please no bashing.

  
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-LORI-B 7/1/2009 6:21PM

    Oh Lesley.. I read what everyone wrote so far and there's almost nothing I can say except that I love you and let you know you always have an open ear and open arms. Go find out what is causing this for you and work thru it. I know with me I had gotten to the place you are now so many times.. but until I slowly started to believe in myself again, I wasnt able to move forward. Now Im going to play catch up and have the kind of success you and some of the others have had. You are beautiful inside and out.. Dont ever forget that.
I also agree you should go back and read some old blogs.. It will help alot.
(((((Lesley)))))) Lori

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SASSYMOMMIE 7/1/2009 4:03PM

    Oh Lesley we would never bash yea. Your being so Raw and honest in this blog brought a tear to my eye. These are feeling that all of us get. This is a physical, mental and spiritual life changes we going through. When one is affected they all are affected, so one we are hurting or suffering in one we hurt and suffer in them all.

I also agree with yea and your other friends, go see the doctor cause again depression is something we all go through but sometimes we have to override our pride and ask for assistance. I do hope yea take all of our advise on this and go talk to the doctor cause he/she could prescrib med's, talking to a therapist/counselor, our they can prescrib a day off. They can tell yea and your job that your excused for the day or so...I know when I had my bad break my doctor had me off for 4 days. Mental Healthy days and I went to a counselor to help me through but I also got on here (sparkpeople) and blogged I went to the gym and hit the mat and even put on the gloves and did some punching bag. After about 2 weeks I worked my way through it with out the med's but if I had not that was my next course of action. Sometimes to get through the depression we have to be guided till we see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Yea also do not have to apologize to us. We all understand that life is like weight loss...it too can be a struggle so no need to apologize for what yea can not foresee or control. Just know that we are here for yea, even thought yea not on daily maybe once or twice a week...just let us know what and how yea feeling so we can be your MOTIVATION & SUPPORT!! That is what we are all here for to hold eachother up when we are not able to do it ourselves.

Luv yea girlie and here is my hand and my shoulders for yea to lean up until yea are able to go at it, never alone, Never!!

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CASEYGIRL1982 7/1/2009 2:47PM

    Lesley I love you!!
And miss you!!
I think it's time we have a talk I know our last one we both were feeling down and didn't really help each other feel any better..
I've been working on picking myself back up and have been thinking of you!! I want you right there with me!!We met on the BLAHC team last July and right away felt like we were so much alike!
I want you to see a doctor pick yourself back up and get moving!!
Maybe talking to someone will help or taking something mild to help with the depression ( make sure to tell them not to give you anything that's gonna make you feel high or drugged!!)

We can do this girl!! We did not get this far to stop now!! Let's go! let's move it!!! You are amazing and beautiful and I know you wanna keep your body healthy!! Take my hand girl!!

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MOTHER-NATURE 7/1/2009 7:05AM

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Niki

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SHANSHE 6/30/2009 8:45PM

    Hey Lesley dear, I TOTALLY know what you are going through and I struggle with these feelings sometimes even while ON medication! :) I agree with Anne, it rarely goes away on its own and that is not to say that medication is needed, it could be that you just need someone to talk to and vent to without being worried about bringing them down, etc...

Our health is more than weight or nutrition, etc... our health is a combination of mental, spiritual and physical health, etc... When we lack in one area, it pulls us down in other areas. I think you are right on about talking to your doctor, but I also know that when you are depressed, you don't even feel like calling, making an appointment or even getting cleaned up to GO to the appointment, etc...

It could be hormonal, it could be life stuff you are going through, etc... I would hope that the doctor would do a complete physical before simply prescribing meds, in fact, if you can make yourself insist on it, then by all means, ask for a physical to rule out any physical conditions that could be causing your depression.

We are here for you Lesley, thanks for blogging and letting us know that you need our love and support.

Hugs,
Shan

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RAINBOWMF 6/30/2009 6:17PM

    There is nothing I can add to what your other friends have wrote.
I believe most of us have been where you are. We know what you are saying and feeling.
No, judgment from any of your friends, concern and hugs is all.

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BARBARAROSE54 6/30/2009 5:06PM

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Oh how familiar this all sounds. My first advise is see your doctor and let him decide if you are depressed. Having gone through one you'll need your doctor to help you through it. If you need meds please listen, if you can go for councilling please go.

If it is not a depression, maybe there is something going on in your body with your thyroid or iron etc. There could be any number of things that are off balance, so once again, you need your doctor's help.

If you go this route and its' not of these, then we need to help you get back in the game and make yourself feel like you are worth the effort.

And I also believe that staying the same at this point in your weight loss is still a good thing, maybe your body is just catching up with all the weight you have lost and is slowing things down. I've heard of this in other losers. And if you get down on yourself, this negativity can make you feel worthless. Keep praising yourself on the journey you have been on, and celebrate the new you.

I believe in you, our whole team believes in you. We are all hear to help you Lesley.

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HEART4ADVENTURE 6/30/2009 4:28PM

    oh ps... go back and look over some of your blogs/journals this may ignite a spark when you read stuff you wrote while on fire...

as for depression, for me it comes it goes and is more hormonal imbalance or emotional, not clinical, so you may have to find something that works for you. For me it's just a matter of snapping myself out of it. Good luck and hugs

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QUEENANNE1953 6/30/2009 3:57PM

    First of all, no bashing, no judging on our BLAHC team ..... I thought you knew that by now.

Lesley, you have lost so much weight .. a whole person ... your body is not going to willingly give up any more weight .. so for the weeks that you stay the same ... this is good .. ..it really is. Just be sure you consume ENOUGH 'good' calories to fuel your body staying within your calorie range especially on the days when you just can't do that workout ..

Depression cannot and will not go away by itself. So I agree with you .. seeking professional help is your best option .. seems you already know about the meds so be sure to discuss with the doctor that you do not want to hinder in any way your weight removal achievements .. you've done such a wonderful job. And of course, medication is not always the answer but if it is, you would definitely weigh the pros and cons of their side.

It is impossible for us to figure out just why you are so depressed .. you might not even be able to pinpoint it yourself .. but we do know you have a lot going on in your life. We are here for you, Les, but also understand feeling the way you do it must be hard to do just about anything. Let alone post on the board on a daily basis. The economic downturn, the housing situation and credit card crunch is getting everyone down .. let's hope things improve soon.

Blogging is one sure way to get things off your chest, Lesley ..I'm so glad you did it today. And it lets your board family know what is going. We do love and care about you so if you continue to blog from time to time then we can show our support, encourage you, try our best to motivate and just be here to listen to you.

Hugs and more to you my dear .. I hope you can work things out.

Anne
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HEART4ADVENTURE 6/30/2009 3:14PM

    Wow, thanks for being so honest and raw, and you know what, I felt like the words I read where taken right out of my mouth, sometimes I am not honest with myself, and I have been feeling exactly the way you are... barely get myself to work, legs feel like tree trunks, i had a 6 day gap of no workouts, been maintaining for 3 weeks not losing, and everytime I say I'll go to the gym tonight, I don't. anyhow this isn't about me, but wanted to let you know... your not alone.

Sometimes we have to pamper ourselves through the down times and be gently loving to ourselves to take a step back and say, Ok I've come this far, I know what I am capable of doing, but right now my body is reacting and wanting/needing down time, so as long as you know it is not a forever spot, like just allow yourself a few days a week even to re-group but make sure you do rest , or maybe to light activity to keep the momentum going so you don't beat yourself up. But the bottom line is sometimes our bodies are screaming at us knowing what it needs best, and not always what our Mind is telling us we need, like we carry guilt if we slip up on eating, or miss workouts.. then that guilt adds to the stress. The best advice I can give is to remember to celebrate how far you have come, and get that 'good feeling back', sometimes if our slump goes too long we need to break through it and just push ourselfs even if I have a half ass workout I at least know I got myself to the gym.

Hugs...

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LOLAJO54 6/30/2009 3:11PM

    Lesley hon we are here for you I am here for you...
It is very hard when you are depressed.. Yes you do need to go to the doctor to confirm you are depressed (You have every right to be my dear you are dealing with a lot!)
If you get on some meds then discuss this with your doc about your weight loss program and how this med might hinder or burden you with your journey... I think after a few weeks they will actually help.. Your spirit will be up so you will want to jump back into the exercise.. eating healthy as always and coming to the board to post ,,,so we can encourage you along.
I have dealt with depression and it is not good to let this continue so please go to your doc and see what he/she can do to help you.. Also see if you can have a bi-weekly visit with he/she for a chat.. we are always here too.. NO JUDGEMENT we are here to help not judge ..We all have been in somewhat the same predicament at one time or another..for some reason or other.
Stay strong and get to the doc..
Love you my friend you have done awesome and we will not let you slide down that slippery slope to the past!


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