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such an honor

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Words do not begin to describe the way i feel at this very moment.I am honored and deeply touched to have been made a sparkspeople motivator. When i woke up this morning i thought to myself today is going to be a great day, well i have only been awake for about 20 mins and it has gone from great to awesome. I got a message on my facebook and it was from my good friends mary and jo telling me there was a surprise on sparks people so come see. I thought surprise , what surprise so i hadnt even had a bite of my breakfast and i was logging in to my sparkspeople. I went to the message board and when i saw that i had been honored i thought to myself no way not me and when i loaded up my sparks page and saw that little motivation symbol i immediatley broke out sobbing. I couldt believe i was someone that people looked up to and someone who was viewed as a motivation. It reminded me of something that i was thinking about last night when i was waiting for the bus at the bus terminal. A very obese lady walked in and sat down and i immediatley felt sad for her. It wasnt that i was judging her for her weight problem but i said to my husband that i felt sad for her. I wished that some how i could share all the knowledge that i knew with even one person and perhaps make a difference in someone's life .Not necessarily that ladys but someones. I dont claim that i know everything there is to weight lose or that i hold some great secret but i do remember once upon a time i thought i could never lose the weight. So many people want to lose weight and feel the same thing that they cant ,but i now know i can lose the weight and i am losing the weight and one day i hope that i can pass on some of what i know to perhaps help someone else. So i guess what i am saying is i would like to be seen as a MOTIVATOR to help others reach thier goals and i have now achieved this and i couldnt be more thrilled. There are so many of you and if your reading this then you will that i am talking about you fine people that have been a true inspiration to me as well. I feel that alot of my success has been due to the fact that i have such an amazing support both here and at home and i thank everyone for your continue support.

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STEPHIE79 3/17/2009 12:53PM

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IM_HIS_PRINCESS 3/16/2009 1:00PM

    Congrats !!! You Deserve It!

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-LORI-B 3/15/2009 4:28PM

    What can I say that hasnt been said.. Congrats to a fantabulous lady Im happy to have in my life. You deserve this Lesley. Im happy for you.

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LOLAJO54 3/14/2009 9:35PM

    Lesley- what can I say.... that hasn't been said already. Just continue to look in that mirror and remind her of all the things that were before and are now and what will be in the future. A happy healthy young woman with knowledge to share and motivation to give. Keep up the great work.. and continue your journey. We will all be doing this journey together and be Divas all the way! Congratulations you deserve the honour.
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RAINBOWMF 3/14/2009 6:29PM

    You know you made me cry.
I remember that shy Girl who stopped in one day to
join in our everyday discussions. I remember right away thinking
how shy you seemed. A bud of a rose, ready to bloom.

Bloom you did! You are a beautiful rose holding your head up
to the wonderful sun! Marching to your own band!

You do and you will continue to motivate others. You, have gained knowledge,
health and strength from this journey, you feel great and you know you
are special, so you know you will pass this on to others.

Love you Special Lady!!

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JAZABEE 3/14/2009 5:45PM

    Lesley, you are an inspiration to us all, you showed us that anything is possible.
You so deserved being nominated Motivator...Congratulations!!!
ou are a beautiful sweet LADY ...I feel so honoured to know you...

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SHANSHE 3/14/2009 4:28PM

    Lesley, You ARE a fantastic and WONDERFUL person AND so deserve to be NAMED a motivator, because you truly ARE! You are to me each and every day! So thank sjust for being you!


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BARBARAROSE54 3/14/2009 3:56PM

    You know what I think of you girlfriend. And I can totally understand how you feel about wanting to be a motivation to others. When you get it, you get it and you want to share with others how you can do it. You did the hard work, you talk the talk, and walk the walk.

Love ya

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SASSYMOMMIE 3/14/2009 2:48PM

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Leslie I am super happy for yea and for all the countless sparkers yea have helped and continue to support. Also well deserved to yea for all the tremendous other yea will find a way to help in the future. Keep up the fantastic work!! It is greatly appreciated by all!!!

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KATHYBFIT 3/14/2009 12:44PM

    Lesley Hun, you truly deserve this honor! You are a great motivator to others for sure! You are so fantastic, and you are a winner! I'm proud to be one of your spark friends!
Hugs, Kathy

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CHRISJAKE 3/14/2009 10:58AM

    Leslie I have always thought you were a motivator. You have motivated me countless times. I am glad that Sparks has decided to give you this honor. You deserve it!



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BOUNCY2 3/14/2009 10:54AM

    Gee!! Lesley you made me cry!! You are a inspritaion toall of us. ..keep up the great job you are doing and one day you will cross the finsh line....and the journey you ae a winner....

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BEBRENDA 3/14/2009 8:48AM

    Lesley, You are an inspiring person and you deserve to officially be a motivator! It couldn't be given to a sweeter person. Take care! :) Bren emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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My journey to onderland

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

If you would have asked me almost 9 months ago where i saw my self being healthy wise you months from now i would have probably told you i would be a very unhealthy, obese person on my way downhill to living a very short life. I would have told you i was 310 pounds and gorwing at a steady rate. Never in a million years would i have guessed i would be where i am today. Words to not begin to desribe the incredible journey i have been on thus far. Over the past 8 1/2 months i have watched myself transform right before my own eyes and my body has gotten smaller, and although my body has otten smaller it has grown too. I may not have grown physically but mentally i have and i am not the same person i was 9 months ago. I am now a much m roe confident person and for once in my life i can say i like myself no i mean love myself. Today is a momentous day for meto stand on the scale and see the 100's again. I have not weighed in the 100's in almost 16 years. I have worked very hard to reach this milestone and couldnt be more happy to share it will all of you. All of you have played an important part in my journey and i thank you from the bottom of my heart. Each week i get one step closer to my goal but i always make sure to embrace this journey and to celebrate these moments along the way to reaching those goals.

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B-N-ME 5/15/2009 8:11AM

    Congratulations Lesley!
Seeing the results of the hard work makes it all worthwhile.
I bet you feel like a million bucks!
\Keep up the good work Yah!!

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RKJ1969 3/15/2009 7:41PM

    Congratulations! I hope to follow you to Onderland very soon!! emoticon

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BLONDIEGRL1 3/15/2009 4:23PM

    wow i finally got to read this and I 'M SOOOOOO PROUD OF YOU! I had tears in my eyes.
Thank you for not giving up on me even though i fell off the wagon for a while but I 'm finally trying really hard now. Thank you sooo much for the great inspiration that you always give me!
Talk to u soon

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*REVERSE*SKY* 3/13/2009 3:45PM

    Hi there !! I had to congratulate on your inspiring success! Wow! Awesome! You keep right on going! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LEMYNADE 3/12/2009 3:22PM

    That's awesome! I hope to be hitting that point one day too. Thanks for the inspiration!

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-LORI-B 3/11/2009 7:27PM

    Im so proud of you Lesley.. you have worked hard and it had been great watching you transform.

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RAINBOWMF 3/11/2009 7:16PM

    emoticon you have come along way!
Your road ahead will just get better.
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and doing it for YOU!!!!

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SHANSHE 3/11/2009 4:01PM

    Lesley. You truly ARE an inspiration to us all and I am so happy for you, so proud of you, so honored to KNOW you and be on this journey WITH you! I am thrilled to see that you have crossed into 100ville! I bet it feels amazing to be stanidng in your shoes right now and you SO deserve it!

Goooo Lesley, you are in a league all your own... you know what, I bet you have grown physically in some ways, you can walk farther and exercise longer, you can reach and bend and do all kinds of things you could not do before!

Keep going girl, say goodbye to the 200's and 300's forever! YAY!!! I just cannot convey my excitement for you, I imagine you are walkiing on clouds today!

Lots of love!

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MSCLVR123 3/11/2009 3:48PM

    You are such an amazing inspiration! I couldn't be more happy for you and proud of you for all of the wonderful things you have accomplished! Congrats!

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HEART4ADVENTURE 3/11/2009 2:52PM

    You know I've been your Rah Rah Cheerleader from the moment we became Buds! I'm glad you feel empowered to make change happen, and Can see the Beautiful you staring back in the Mirror.... you have worked so hard to gain control of your life... you are an inspiration!

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KATHYBFIT 3/11/2009 2:02PM

    Lesley, You are a wonderful inspiration to us all here at Sparks!
You are the essence of what it's all about,
how it should be, and how it can be!!!
Thank you for letting us be a part of your journey
to the new you!!!
I couldn't be happier or more proud of what you have accomplished
this last 9 months! Wow! Way to go girl!!!!!!!!!..........
Hugs and Smiles,

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LOLAJO54 3/11/2009 12:22PM

    ou have grown into a confident woman before our very eyes.. and now you are not only healthier happier but smaller--yeah for you! You are and inspiration and doing what you need to do to become healthy and stay healthy.. You realize that this is a lifetime journey and you have committed yourself to it for your sake and your families sake..
We here are so happy for you and so proud of you!
Keep inspiring and keep moving towards your goals and yes.. so important, celebrate each time you achieve one..
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BEBRENDA 3/11/2009 8:23AM

    Lesley, Your story is inspiring. Like I said on the message board, seeing you get into the 100's gives me hope too. I am very proud of you! emoticon emoticon emoticonTake care! :) Bren emoticon emoticon

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BARBARAROSE54 3/11/2009 7:20AM

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We are all so proud of you !

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6 Months already

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I cant believe it has been 6 months already since i became a sparks member and what an incredible 6 months it has been, I have met many wonderful people along the way but none as dear as the team members on my BLAHC team. You all have been such an inspiration and motivation to me and i feel truly blessed to have met you all. Although i started my journey before i became a sparks member it wasn't until i joined sparks and more so until i joined this team that i started noticing some things along the way. Not only was i changing in appearance but also mentally too. I feel i have come along way since that very day i joined this team and i have learned a great deal on this journey with you all. I have learned to how to laugh again and how to smile. I have learned that i am worth doing this for and i am worth loving myself. MAry i can never thank you enough for encouraging me and many others to take that first step at looking in that mirror for the first time. It took all of you to help me see all of my beauty not just on the outside but inside too. I feel like i have emerged from under that dark and gloomy place that i once sat feeling sorry for myself. I have done things i never would have done before. Heck a year ago i would have never went to the mall and exercised as people walked by. I would have never jumped in the froze lake. Heck i don't even think i could have pulled my over weight body out of the lake. I feel so incredible and i don't look too bad too. I know that i still have a long way to go but i am embrace this journey and trusting its process. I am living my life instead of just existing. I have accomplished many things along the way so far. I have lost 107 pounds , i have learned to live and put myself first for once, i have learned that its not always easy but if we persevere we can get through it specially with the help of great people like all of you. I look forward to continuing on my journey with all of you by my side.

Ok now on a side not another thing i would have NEVER did 6 months ago is this so to reward myself i was daring and got my belly button pierced. It didn't even hurt really. Some may say i am crazy but i feel free and am living my life to its fullest and i figure heck why not try new things lol.

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HEART4ADVENTURE 3/11/2009 2:53PM

    Ok, who's the Coolest of the Cool - LESLEY - that is so awesome to reward yourself with something Fun and SEXY!!! you deserve it!

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BANANIE41 2/27/2009 8:52PM

    Ok first of all - woooooohoooooon the belly button piercing! You deserved a reward and you did it!

Secondly...OMG have you come a long way and done so much in that six months. You've lost an amazing amount of weight and you have gained so much more self confidence and believing in you, it just makes me smile to read your posts. I remember this new girl coming to the board and so down on herself....that girl was Lesley and BOY she has grown so much in the last six months, it's almost like the weightloss is secondary - because I think you have gotten YOU back!

Don't ever lose your spirit, determination and kind heart.


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CHRISJAKE 2/26/2009 9:36PM

    WOOO HOOOOO!!! I've always wanted to get my belly button pierced. You are an amazing woman and an inspiration to many of us, especially me. You're constantly motivating me to do more. You are an amazing friend and mother and I'm glad I had the priviledge of getting to know you!!


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BOUNCY2 2/26/2009 8:37PM

    Lesley you wrote a beauiful post....and baby you have came along way!!Words can not say how proud i am of you....tatoo on the belly ring!!hu!! hew!! hew!! you are one brave frozen water......dareing one you are....what is your next reward? Please dont change you you are a beautiful person on the outside and most important the same on the inside...GO Lesley!!!!!!!!!!!!


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-LORI-B 2/26/2009 9:28AM

    Wow, you are becoming quite the daredevill. Frozen lakes, belly piercing.. whats next? lol
Im so happy for all you have accomplished so far and look forward to sharing in the rest of your journey. You are just beginning.. there's no telling where you will end up.
Thanks for sharing .. cant wait for the next 6 month's accomplishments.
HUgs, Lori

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LOLAJO54 2/25/2009 10:51PM

    emoticon with Sparks already! - emoticon Lesley-
You have changed-- you have become you right in front of us. - we love it and glad you are on this journey with us - and us with you.
keep learning and keep having your ah ha moments.- trust the process. and live in the present.
Great reward for you to give to yourself.... ouch though.. lol-
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SHANSHE 2/25/2009 10:48PM

    What a great reward and wow, you really have emerged. Kinda neat getting to know yourself isn't it???

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QUEENANNE1953 2/25/2009 10:44PM

    You are just so daring .. jumping in the frozen lake and now this .. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I love it.

I am so happy and proud of you. Keep up the great work.


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RAINBOWMF 2/25/2009 9:49PM

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emoticon to you I am glad you did something you wanted to do.

I love the new you. She emerged from with in and she just keeps
You Rock, my friend.

Your journey is an ongoing path and I am so happy to be on it
with you!!!

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Love Mary

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BARBARAROSE54 2/25/2009 7:18PM

    OMG Lesley, a belly button piercing, way to go !

You've had an awesome journey and have grown so much in that time, I have truly been blessed to have been part of this journey, as each week BLAHC members have cheered you on.

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It isn't always easy

Friday, February 13, 2009

For those of you who do not know but i am guessing most of you do, things haven't been easy for our family lately. Without going into great personal detail i wanted to share a little with you all . i am the proud mom of three children whom i love more then life itself. My oldest son has always been a difficult child as i have mentioned in previous posts and he has been diagnosed with bipolar. This has made for a very challenging life for us all. Currently due to different circumstances he has chosen to live on his own. This isn't always easy for a parent but sometimes we have no control over these things. My other son is 13 and he too has disabilities that require intervention. We just recently found out on tuesday i think that he has been excepted into the treatment program but for us it is bittersweet. You see he does so desperately needs this treatment but unfortunately there isn't the kind of treatment he needs here in our home town so we just found out that he will be going there and its about 10 hours away from us. It rips my heart out it feels like i am losing another child. Like i said he needs this specialty treatment so we are so happy he has this chance to get the help he needs but its the hardest thing to let your child go. So when i said i had to go to an appointment this is what it is in regards to. I feel like i have some how failed as a parent but i know this isn't the case but its still so hard. I am sharing this with you not so that you will judge but so that it may help me to talk about it and for you all to understand a little better why i have been feeling the way i have lately. I do so greatly appreciate all that you do for support and encouragement and i am glad that i have you all here for me. Thanks for listening.

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SHANSHE 2/23/2009 2:48AM

    Lesley, i am so sorry you have to endure this situation and sorry it took me so long to get to this blog, but you posted it the day after hubby went to hospitial, so anyway...

So far, my children have not left and I have not had to send any of them somewhere else, BUT, I can only imagine how hard it must be for you! My prayers are with you and I hope you are feeling some better.

I am here if you need anything.


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CASEYGIRL1982 2/17/2009 4:20PM

    Oh Lesley, here we are jabbering along on facebook and I had no idea this was going on. I'm so sorry I haven't paid attention to catch this blog!! You mean so much to me I hate to hear that your hurting. Hey if your gonna let me lean on you when things are going on, you can always lean back on me!!! Please!!! Don't hold things like that in.You have amazed me this past half year with your kindness and generosity and I know you love your children.I can't say I know what your going through because I don't,I can only imagine the heart ache your feeling but you are beautiful and strong and will pull through for your family and son!!

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BEACHWALKER86 2/16/2009 4:09PM

    There is no reason for you to feel like a failure. You are making sure your son gets what he needs and that makes you a GREAT parent. The fact that it is painful to you and you are doing it anyway is even more remarkable.
My heart goes out to you.

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-LORI-B 2/14/2009 2:20PM

    You are a strong woman Lesley. You will get thru this knowing that you son will be getting the help he needs so he can live the best life possible. Its always hard to let go, but we do what we have to for the betterment of our children. Dont ever doubt yourself. We all love you and will always be here for you. Hugs and prayers being sent to you with love. Hang in there.

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BARBARAROSE54 2/14/2009 8:19AM

    Everyone has pretty much said what I wanted to say, will continue to keep you and yours in my prayers.

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QUEENANNE1953 2/13/2009 11:25PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, dear Lesley. It is indeed sad that your son has to go so far away but if it means he will be getting treatment to help his condition then it will be well worth it. Good luck.

As for your older son, all you can do is be there when he needs you. You are a great mom and don't ever say otherwise.

We all love you and are truly glad you shared your story. God bless you.


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BOUNCY2 2/13/2009 11:05PM

    Sweetie, MY heart goes out to you!! I do know you are a great mom......and nothing is your fault..I hope and pray that it getts easier for you and your family...YOu have to do what you have to do for your family....and sweetie i know you kind and loving heart feels like it is breaking....and you will get through this . we are all here for you bring such delite to the board.....and alway here for all of us...always in my thougts and prayers.

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RAINBOWMF 2/13/2009 8:34PM

    My heart goes out to you, Lesley.
When I tell you I understand, believe me
I do.

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Love Mary

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JADEBUTTERFLY 2/13/2009 8:25PM

    Hi there we have not"met" yet so I am introducing myself I am jadebutterfly otherwise known as Roxanne or Roxy...My daughter has many mental problems such as ODD and depression and anxiety disorder I know that they are nothing like your boys but I do suffer with this and have tried many meds and councleing for her and it breaks my heart that she feels she is not "normal" and I say normal cuz she dont have many friends she isolates herself she would rather be with me or horses... She dont go out with her girlfriends on friday nights or even have a boyfriend she has this really nice guy that is interested in her but she does not feel the same way...I am always pushing her to do things with kids her own age and it is hard being a "outcast: she says kids dont understand her and that is the problem with her keeping friends....

She even used to be a "cutter" for awhile and I thought I was going to have to put her in a hospital there for awhile...She is better with that now but when stressed out she comes to me and says she needs to cut and we work on talking instead of cutting.... I have never really told anyone here about this but I feel like I can with you.... Kids are real hard to raise and with problems it is even harder.... So i feel where you are coming from... So if you ever want to chat with me spark mail me or e-mail me at

Maybe we can work through this together....take care

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CHRISJAKE 2/13/2009 8:24PM

    Oh Leslie my heart is also breaking for you. I can only imagine the pain and heartache you are going through. Your a GREAT mom and you are doing what's best for your family. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time.

That being said, I hope you continue to brighten us with your pressence on the board. You are an inspiration to me and I hope you always know that. You're a great friend and I hope things work out for your family.

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LOLAJO54 2/13/2009 7:14PM

    Lesley-my poor dear... my heart goes out to you.. be strong and know that this will be the best for your son- if he gets the expertise he needs. Will you be able to call him and talk to him or e-mail him to make sure he is okay?
You are a good mother -all you can do is love them and teach them right from wrong and they must go their own way.. hopefully this will all end with your young lad coming home to you and be healthy and happy again.. and the whole family will benifit and be happy too.
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Friday, January 02, 2009

I have DIVATUDE , how bout you? I got this shirt made to today. It will be a visual motivator to keep me striving for all my goals. I hope it will help keep you motivated too. We can all be divas with DIVATUDE.

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HEART4ADVENTURE 3/11/2009 2:56PM

    I was so excited the day you told me you got the shirt made, and to see a pic of you wearing it... you are the Diva-tude Rockin it out Looking Sassy and Fine, with the New You!!!

ok this is a Very late post, but I was reading through your other ones, and completely forgot that you had the t-shirt made, sorry we kind have lost touch a bit through the holidays, and I really haven't focused much on the team thread.


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RAINBOWMF 1/3/2009 4:48PM

    What a Girl!!!!!!!!
I am with you!!
You know I will need a shirt now.
Divatude all the way!

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LOLAJO54 1/2/2009 7:45PM

    Divatude!- Diva's all the way!- hugs Jo

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SHANSHE 1/2/2009 5:09PM

    Love the shirt, Les, it looks great!

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QUEENANNE1953 1/2/2009 3:18PM

    What can I say .. your shirt already says it all.

Hugs always

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    I have DIVATUDE also!!! Lets motivate each other u are doing a great job keep up the good work!!!

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BARBARAROSE54 1/2/2009 2:31PM

    I'm right there with you !

You look fantastic !

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MOTHER-NATURE 1/2/2009 1:00PM

Lesley I love your new shirt that you had made ...... keep up that great Divatude as it is going to get you to your goals !!!

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