Wednesday, December 31, 2008
As 2008 comes to an end and 2009 begins , I too sit back and reflect on what this means to me. I have always hated New Years Eve, not sure why, maybe because past years this day has been filled with disappointment or maybe it's the fact that i dreaded another year of misery and disappointment. For so many years i felt sad and depressed. I would look in the mirror and i hate what i saw, a sad girl who was seriously obese who would bury herself with food to help overcome her sadness. Sure i hated looking this way, sure i wanted to lose weight but i couldn't. I couldn't give up that comfort my friend food. Then one day this summer something happened something sparked inside me and and i decided this wasn't who i wanted to be anymore , i decided it was time to find the new me and take back control. From that day on i have never looked back. I slowly started to exercise and tracking my food in a little notebook. Gradually cutting back portions and then the junk. Then something happened the weight started falling off. Each week i stepped on the scale and saw it moving downwards it made me more determined to keep going. Then when i was about 28 pounds down i found sparks. A site i found accidently , which now i dont think it was accidently i think someone else had there hand in it but from that day on my life has been forever changed. The inspiation and motivation i get from sparks is amazing and has contributed greatly to my success. I now exercise everyday for a minimum of 45 miutes a day, drink 8 glasses of water and log all of my food. I also owe alot of thanks to Jo and mary for keeping us challenged on the BLAHC and all of my team mates for your kindness and support. I have been rediscovery a whole NEW ME and i can say for the first time that i love me. Thanks to Mary for encouraging us to look in that mirror and for teaching us to love what we see in the mirror. So far i have lost 85 pounds and i feel incredible. This New Years Eve is Different i have alot to celebrate and alot to look forward to , as i journey into the New Year and on this journey to dicovering the NEW ME.