Sunday, August 21, 2011
Three years ago today i was merely surfing the web looking for a website to give me tips or ideas on different strength exercises to help guide me on my weight lose journey . Who would have known that what i would find would not only offer me tips and ideas but would provide me with the very foundation to build a new me and a new healthier way of life. That day 3 years ago it was like someone threw me a life raft that would help keep me to float on those days that were difficult ,it was a site that would truly be my lifesaver in every sense of the word. I have to start by Thanking Chris Downie for all of his hard work, dedication and wiliness to want to help someone like me and all the thousands of other people that would venture onto his website. You truly are an amazing man and i thank you for teaching me and so many others that WE CAN DO ThIS and for providing us with the tools and support we need to be successful. Next i want to thank all of my spark buddies, my friends here at home and my family for the continued love and support i wouldnt be were i am today without you. Each one of you enriches my life in many ways. The past 3 years have not always been perfect. It has had many difficult moments for me. Over the past 3 years i saw many changes i went from fat girl weighing in at 310 pounds right down to 186 lbs in less then a year. It was quite and accomplishment for me. However then our family went through some very stressful events and food became my friend. I lost my momentum and more weight piled back on. Before i knew it i was back to where i was and then some. Was it because sparkspeople wasn't successful for me? Absolutely not what it meant to me was although i had everything else i needed to be successful there was one thing missing. I hadn't gotten to the route of my weight lose issues. I needed to really figure out why i was overweight and once i was able to do that it opened up a new door. Sure before i exercised everyday, ate on track and drank my water, but one thing i didnt change was my way of thinking. I didnt Believe i was worthy of this journey and i had a hard time letting things go. Food was my best friend and was always there when i was down and needed someone or something to make me feel better. Two months ago today i started again. I was ready, i knew what needed to be done. I had to realize i am human and sometimes i wont be perfect. I learned not to beat myself up for one moment of weakness but to learn from it and move forward and not let it WEIGH me down. I learned to open up and reach out instead of running and hiding or turning to food when times got tough. I learned that to be successful it meant changing my attitude to a more positive one, knowing that i was worth the effort and that i was capable of doing anything if i set my mind to it . I simply started BELIEVING IN MYSELF and made myself a priority because I AM WORTH IT. I feel good about my journey this time like some sort of serene inner peace has come over me. I have a NEW attitude and its one that says I CAN WIN, I CAN DO IT. I have told myself each day is unique and brings different challenges but if i take one step at a time, one day at a time i will be successful. Losing weight and living a healthy lifestyle isnt just about calories in versus calories burned its about the right mental thinking too. Over the past 2 months i feel i have grown alot and learned that i can do alot more then i ever thought i could. It feels good to go out of my comfort zone, and anything is possible if you want it bad enough. Since getting back on track i have lost 22.8 pounds which is great but what i have gained is most important. I have gained the strength and courage to do anything. I know at this time next year i will be fitter, healthier, and stronger and in a place I'm happy to be in.