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IS IT TOO LATE???

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Here i sit feeling very overweight and drained like someone has sucked the life right out of me. I'm not liking what is happening to me and I'm getting so scared. Lately i have been crying alot and as many of you know I'm stressed out with all the stuff from our upcoming move. I havent been crying as much about that as i have about how i look and how i feel. I Look in the mirror and all i see is ugliness. I see a fat girl in a warn out body that feels like i cant even move it any more. Before when i weighed this much i could get around , even though i was large mobility wasn't an issue. I'm sad to say i have gained all the weight i lost back and now I'm finding that i cant function my mobility has decreased alot and very quickly and I'm scared to death. I'm a very mobile and active person and usually even at this size before people had to tell me to slow down. Now I'm telling them to slow down. I cant breath and the slightest bit of motion makes me feel short of breath and like i might throw up. What is happening to me,i wonder did i let things get way out of hand, is it too late? how will i lose weight if i cant do much .On top of it Lately i havent been feeling well. I eat something and i bloated almost right away then i feel really tired and i feel nauseate most of the day. How do i get my spark back. Is it too late? If i cant exercise what can i do to get the weight off. I feel like someone has wiped my mind clean and I'm starting all over again not knowing what to do. I have the knowledge , i have the resources, i have support i just need the energy but how do i do that when i walk not even 5 mins and cant barley breath. Please any suggestions I'm open too. I sure hope i can do something soon before its really too late.

  
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ANDIMAT 5/9/2011 2:02PM

    No! It's not too late. Just do what you can and set very small goals for yourself. Have you had your blood tested for vitamin and mineral deficiencies? I was anemic for several years and had no idea, I was so exhausted I could barely move from my bed to my recliner in the mornings. Just a thought, but worth the check up if you need it. emoticon

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ANALYZETHIS1 4/2/2011 4:23PM

    As long as you never give up, it is never too late.

It starts in your mind. If you can walk 4 minutes, walk 4. Tomorrow, walk 5.

Cut out calories...sodas, juices, etc.

Start slowly.

"A year from now you will wish you had started today." = Karen Lamb

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-LORI-B 4/1/2011 4:53PM

    Lesly. I feel ya girl. Im the same way sometimes. All my friends can walk alot faster and move alot faster and I feel like I hold people up. I remember going to eat with the girls once and one was like common Lori.. I yelled back in the parking lot "I have short azz fat legs and I can only walk so fast.. dont wanna wait leave me here I dont give a crap"
This is my reality right now.. will it be forever.. NO. Do the best you can with what you have. I suggest going to the doctor and getting checked out. This could be an internal issue that can be worked on with some help.. You can do this.. we are here to help you
Love ya

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BARBARAROSE54 3/31/2011 10:06AM

    It's never too late. If you want validation of this, read some of the success stories here on Sparks, I know it's what keeps me going.

I know you can do it Lesley, I too think you need help for your depression and stress.

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BRITOMART 3/30/2011 8:57PM

    A large rock can be worn away to sand by single drops of water, over and over. It's not the big heroic gestures that get the job done; it's the little, repeated, tiny steps that make up a life's journey. Pick one small thing and embrace it. Go from there.

You can do this, but it is harder when you are depressed and stressed. So maybe the first small thing should be something in one of those directions.

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RAINBOWMF 3/30/2011 7:31PM

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LOLAJO54 3/30/2011 7:15PM

    Well as you know my thoughts I will reinteate it --how can you do anything for yourself when you are depressed which you clearly state..
You need to take care of your health that includes your state of mind.
Get to a doctor show him/her this and say I want help... get some counselling and if need be get on medication .You are not happy and ultimately can not take charge in your state.

When you have resloved this then you can start looking after your body.. You then can move it eat healthy while you are feeling better each day with the execise. It help with mild depression so putting the foot forward and just walk..walk...walk.. each day you will find an improvement.. Maybe the first walk will be 5 min. it is a strart -do not be discouraged keep moving.. Then start eating healthy --each day remove something bad for you and replace it with something healthy for you .... and drink that water.

Before all this though you have to believe you are worth it..and you have to want to be around for your husband daughter and grandson..
I say to you ARE YOU WORTH IT! -- you bet you are ...so take that first step and go get help...



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CHRISJAKE 3/30/2011 5:57PM

    First of all, BEAUTIFUL Spark page. Its stunning like you.

Ok you know that it is NEVER too late!!! NEVER NEVER NEVER!!! You kno that stress pays a part in weight gain as well and you are under a lot of stress. I kno you probably want a lot more answers but I dont have them all for you hun. Start out doing little things. Can you walk to the store instead of driving sometimes? (When you have to just get a few things) When you walk through your house, do walking lunges. When doing dishes or brushing your teeth, do squats. Before bed do a few wall push ups. It may not seem like a lot, but you need to ease back into things. Once this move is done, some stress will leave and may be you can work on your exercise a bit more.

I hope I gave you a few ideas that you can use. Please remember that you need to do things at YOUR pace, or else you will burn out. (Like I have done before)

We all kno you can do this. One step at a time.

LOVE YOU!!! HUGS!!!

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CARRKM 3/30/2011 4:12PM

  Like Angeredmonkey said - it is never too late. But, it does sound like you've got a lot going on physically and should probably see a doctor. You could have bigger issues going on than weight. Be strong, good luck and God bless you on your journey! emoticon

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ANGEREDMONKEY 3/30/2011 3:58PM

    It is never too late! Sometimes exercise isn't about going all out. Just remember, five minutes a day is better than none. Walk for as long as you can every day. Even if it is only five minutes. Soon you will find that you can walk for ten minutes then fifteen, without getting out of breath. Never make it all or nothing, that is just setting yourself up for failure. Make small goals - walk five minutes every day for a week, cut fifty calories a day from your diet. Then once you have achieved them up them a bit. You will get there!

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So Sad

Monday, February 14, 2011

As i sit here at my computer as the tears trickle down my cheek i think of a time that where i felt so much better then i do today.Im so sad right now and i feel so alone. I feel like everything around me is crumbling and i have no one to talk to anymore. I feel like saying to heck with it all and just not bother trying any more. I hate myself and what i have become. I know this is a dark blog and if you dont want to read it you just need to click off of it. Sometimes i think i should cancel my sparks and just give up. I Use to be happy and now i feel like a constitant disappoint to my friends, family and my spark buddies. I dont even know where i belong anymore and i have being fighting so long to find my place here and just dont know what it is.Things are hectic right now and i dont get here as much as like and wish i could more to you all but im having a hard time even giving to myself. Im sorry if i havent been there for you all when you needed me so i guess i shouldnt be surprised when others dont want to bother with me either. Guess i get what i give. Really i dont know if any of this even makes sense my head just feels jumble and as i sit here crying i cant even think straight. Where have i gone. I feel like im buried and if i dont start on a different path thats where im going to be buried 6 feet under. Sorry if this blog isnt inspirational or bright im just trying to Vent and help myself get thigns into prospective. As i said you dont need to read if you dont want just wanting you to know where my head is at right now. I guess its the whole valentines day i hate valentines day and i feel like im a loner again with no place to fit in anymore. Thanks to those who listen

  
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QUEENANNE1953 2/17/2011 4:25PM

    Lesley, my dear ...I am just getting chance to log on to Spark and read your Blog.

You cannot get out of this depressed state without professional help .. I hope you can sit and talk to someone about your feelings. We do miss you so much on the board and understand how difficult it is to post ... especially when you are feeling blue. Please just remember that we love you no matter what .. you should not apologize and you have not let any of us down .. in fact .. you better give us 10 pushup just for saying you are sorry ..lol.

You are in my thoughts and prayers dear ... I truly hope you can find some sort of balance in your life and get back to loving Lesley .. because you are worth it

{{Hugs}}
Anne

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BEACHWALKER86 2/15/2011 3:21PM

    I love Lori's suggestion - send an email or post a blog where you can easily see responses to your questions/concerns. That way, if you're not able to get back to our team for a while, you do not have to sort through all the posts to see what someone said to you. We think of you often and mention you regularly on our message board. You have not and will not ever let us down or disappoint us. Please find what you need to do for yourself to feel better. Moving is a very traumatizing event, but in addition you have been up and down emotionally anyway, so the combination is treacherous. If you need to see a doctor please do so. If you need a long talk with a good friend, seek one out. If you need a good long cry, pop in your favorite tear jerker and let it out! But please know that we are all here for you and care about you very much.
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-LORI-B 2/15/2011 11:21AM

    What can I say that hasnt been said.. not much. responses we get on the board tend to get lost along the way when we are unable for whatever reason to be there. If theres something you are having problems with and know you wont be able to get to board heres my sudden brilliant idea..lol Write on the board so we know whats up, but also copy the post to sparkmail and send it - this way we can reply to you there as well(gotta love the copy/paste thing lol) If its in your mail then when you have time to read you can get to it and possibly send to saved mail so you can go back when you are feeling blue and know that we all love you no matter what.. HUGS sweetie!!

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JAMESGIRLLL 2/15/2011 6:27AM

    hi Lesley,

sorry you are feeling so low.. i agree that you need to get to your doctors......

please get help and feel better...okay?

hugs,
jame
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LOLAJO54 2/14/2011 8:35PM

    Lesley love what Brito wrote to you

reread it hugs again

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CHRISJAKE 2/14/2011 8:34PM

    Leslie I have been there, I have felt how you feel. Dont apologize for feeling the way you do. Ever. May be now that you have gotten this out, we can help you more. You will ALWAYS br a part of our team, whether you post or dont. We love you and care about you and just want you to get back to when you were happy. But now that I kno all this LOOK OUT!!! I am going to be harrassing you ALL the time now!! HAHAHA

But seriously I love ya and just want you to be happy again. You kno how to reach me!!!

HUGS!!!


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LOLAJO54 2/14/2011 8:33PM

    Lesley I have said this many times... you do not disappoint us -if you think you do then it is in your mind cause you feel disappointment in yourself...
Like Mary said you need to make time for you... we can not help you or even just listen to you if you do not come and let us know what is going on ...Beyond that you must hang around to get your response from us --we answer you questions all the time but you do not get back to read them.... not your fault we understand as you are busy.... but please make time for you.

I still feel you need help and someone you can trust to talk to.. so please go to a doctor and ask for help and if he/she can not help you then ask them to send you to someone who can .

now again you do not dissappoint any of us we are human and are not perfect..so how could we expect perfection from you..

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may you soon see the rainbow in your life..



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BRITOMART 2/14/2011 8:22PM

    You're moving, right? That means everything is stirred up like a hurricane--feelings included. Don't give up...not on anything, yourself least of all.

Spend some time finding your center, the still-point within you, and just rest there for a bit. If you do that, you can see those things you can fix, & those you just have to roll with. AND you see that your friends still love you (lots); life is still beautiful; and you are a star in the heavens.

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BARBARAROSE54 2/14/2011 8:12PM

    I'm so sorry you are feeling this way, you really need to get help for your depressed state.

We are here, and always willing to listen. I've told you many times, just a spark mail away.

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RAINBOWMF 2/14/2011 8:09PM

    Sweetie it is like a big vicious circle
We are here for you, you are busy and can't come to the board.
You call out to us, we leave you messages, you never get to see them.
Lesley, we think of you everyday, we all know you are busy getting ready to move, you were busy with your job, you need to give your self a break. You need to know that no matter where you go or what you are doing, we miss you.
We want to help you, I know that happy Girl you talk about, she is still there with you.
Just talk to her tell her to come back, you miss her.

Lesley, you have to come to us, we can't go looking for you. If you leave the board
we will not be able to help you.

You have never let us down, you removed the weight for you, if there had been some way for us to stop you from gaining it back we would have done it--- but it is you
that needs to find out WHY you will not take time for Lesley!!!!

If you can not control your darkness, get to your Doctors, I beg you, please take care of Lesley.

Also know that you ARE Loved.. emoticon

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Feeling so OVERWHELMED

Monday, November 29, 2010

As many of you already know my husband has recently gone back to work after being off for over 6 months. I loved having him home as he would stay home and cook , clean, do laundry and help with appointments and my daughters activities. Now he isnt here and im feeling like im being spread so thinnly and pulled in every directions. Im so stressed and overwhelemd and just dont know were to begin. For me balance is already an issue so for me planning is very critical on my part to help make things run smoothly. My husband has been working 12-15 hours per day and because its retail this is the busist time of year so there is no letting up. So now i have to work 5 hours a day, take care of my daughter, cook,clean, do groceries and running around and all the activities and appointments myself and on top of it with no car. Throw in that its almost christmas and my sons birthday and i still have tonnes of shopping , baking and decorating to do i have no clue how i will do it all. Then to add more stress to it all we may be moving as early as january . When the move happens it will be out of town and my husband may need to go before us so then that will leave yet more responsibility as i will have to get a realtor to sell house, and continue to work and do all the above responsibilties. Our home has repairs that need to be done and this is stressing me out as well. I dont have the money to shell out right with christmas so close and then if we wait hubby will be gone and then who will do the repairs, hahah i dont know how to do those things and then where will i find the time. My mind goes non stop around in circles . Thank god i dont have to pack moving people will do that but i still have tonnes of stuff to go through and throw out . I need about 10 more of me. So i guess that leaves no time for me . I feel so alone and hubby isnt hear for me to talk to and when i have a few moments to chat with him he says im not being supportive. Uggggg see why im stressed anyways not sure if this makes any sense but just wanted to vent.

  
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-LORI-B 12/5/2010 3:43PM

    What can I say that hasnt been said. Holidays can cause alot of un needed stress. I do believe Mary has a point, even tho she is semi scrooged(Love ya Mary lol) Im pretty sure that the family will understand if the decorating isnt what it usually is and all the cookies and stuff arnt filling the house up with sweet smells.
One thing I do agree with 100% is that you need to make lists. Break it down to each area of the house. Work on 1 section ata time. .. If you make alot of smaller lists it wont seem as crazy as looking at the 100 other things that need to get done. Im sure there are some things hubby can do along with his job just like you have to do things along with your own job.
Here's a big one also.. ready? BREATHE BABY BREATHE!!!
HUGS N LOVE

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BARBARAROSE54 11/30/2010 6:00AM

    good vent Lesley. It reminded me of how I feel about my weight and how much I have to lose, just wayyyyy too overwhelming. So we know we need to break it down and not look at the overall picture, but take it one day at a time.

So guess this is what you are going to have to do to get through this. Of course Jo gave you some great advise also, please sit down and plan this with your husband so it's not all about you and what you have to do.

continue to come and blog, it will help.

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LOLAJO54 11/29/2010 9:37PM

    awww Lesley... you know what you need to do most of all...
sit down with husband and plan this all out together as a married couple --you are not alone..yes he is working maybe 15 hours a day but he needs to put family first too... you both need to work at these stressors together...

come and blog and let it out.. and read what the sparkers have written to you..

no time ----make lists
plan your time
cut down on activities for now

but mostly talk with hubby and work as a team



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JAZABEE 11/29/2010 6:52PM

    Lesley I would love to be there and give you firstly a big hug and a helping hand. I know to well what it is like having so much to do and not having wheels doesn't help. Try taking one day at a time, it can be overwhelming to many things on your plate but remember everything passes I had to go through this and I was a basket case my d/h was calm as a cucumber and he was right we got through it.
Don't worry about Christmas so much as long as your all together does it matter whether the house is decorated or not, believe me I would rather have bread and butter on the table only and have my family with me on Christmas day.
Please take a deep breath beautiful things will turn out fine.
Sometimes we worry to much I am the biggest worrier but I'm learning it's wasted energy emoticon

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RAINBOWMF 11/29/2010 4:42PM

    Oh,yes moving away is going to be tough, I guess it is all planned, there will be a move, for sure?

Leaving friends and family will not be an easy move.
You have always lived where you are, haven't you?

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NESSY759 11/29/2010 3:49PM

    awww tys mary those hugs sure made me smile. Im not so much stressed about the holidays they will come and go just as they always do its the days before and after and moving and leaving all my friends and family behind is scary too and there is just so much to do and i feel like im doing it alone. I know it will come into place but im not good with change and i hate not being able to plan or not knowing. Thank you for your kind words i know in alot of ways you know what its like to be me as you have travelled done some similar roads .

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RAINBOWMF 11/29/2010 3:44PM

    Vent away!!! You make since!

Lesley first off, time will pass if you are stressed out or not, so clam down and take each day as it comes. I know you have to make plans but sit down and do it quietly and write it all down.

List and check list! Do it! You will feel better.

So many people stress about Christmas, I feel sorry for all who do.
It is just one day out of the whole year and it causes so much stress and unhappiness.

ONE DAY!!!!! nuf said about that, you know how I feel.

So you really can't list the house yet because you are not sure if you are moving?
See I missed all this while I was gone on holidays for a month, so I am lost a little here.

You come and blog. there are so many here that can give you hugs and support, someone is going to say just the right thing and you are going to have that light bulb moment and Lesley will be her old self again!!!

You are a keeper Lesley and it is time for you to realise that!!!!!

Love & Many many huggie squeezes.

Mary

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where have i gone

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Everyday i seem to ask myself the same question. where have i gone? where is that girl that had such determintation and strength such motivation to succeed. I feel like i have disappeared and all i keep finding is this sad lonely face . I feel like im in a black hole yelling for someone to help me but no one can hear me. I have lost my zest for life and i want it back but its like someone has wiped my mind clean and i dont remember how to do it. Guess this is where im at. I went to the the doctors and it seems they dont have alot of help for me. Its always waiting waiting and more waiting. I have so much on my mind and i feel like i go in circles and i dont know how to sort it all out. Today i went on my sparks team page and it broke my heart when someone said they are use to me not being here. I feel like i disappoint them , i know i sure have disappointed me. Im the same fat girl i was when i came here . Fat and feeling ugly , hiding fro mthe cameras feel undeserving of love. I guess i am just being over whelmed of the changes with my husband being back to work, the added responsibilities i have with him being back to work and then the idea of maybe moving in januray or early in the new year and the stresses and worries (and there are many) as my life is very complicated has taken me and sucked me into the black hole. Anyways thank you for listening i know its not the kind of blog you always wnat to read but just want you to know how i am feeling. Im starting to feel better but its taking time .

  
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LOLAJO54 11/29/2010 9:28PM

    Lesley forgive me for taking so long to respond..
Stop beating yourself up .. you are beautiful no matter what?
Sometimes life throws us curve balls- worse sometimes we just are not equipped to handle these curves..
You must keep seeking a doctor who will help you --- and please try to talk to hubby about all this ... you need to share -glad you came and talked to us..
Hope all these comments have helped you in some way.

That girl is still there you have to search and think back to when - you were still having problems --and they were complicated then too... but you were still putting you first and taking care of you -losing weight and getting healthy - I remember you did it all.. handled the life's curves and still looked after you.
You can do it again... search ..it is there reach out and grab it..by putting YOU first.


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RAINBOWMF 11/29/2010 3:29PM

    This sounds like me when I was your age!
Lesley except for the moving part I have been to all the dark holes you are seeing. I lost a 12 year job because of it.

I know the medical system sucks now-- but it really doesn't matter, does it--- because as I found out, no one can help us but ourselves or time!!!

I have been losing the same 50 pounds for 40 years, never finding the secret to why I do it-- but like you, when I am on the winning end it is one lovely high--- but when I fall, I just keep going back wards!!! Tell I have to start from the bottom again. This time it is only 30 pounds but it is going to be hard work again

I want to see you happy again--- you say it is not the kind of stuff we like to read about--- I say, write Girl write
I believe it will help you.

I don't always blog
my hurt but I have two great and long time friends here on Spark, that I talk to and they kick my butt--- we all need to talk and get our HURT and UNHAPPINESS out!!!!

Hugs Hugs let me help you!!!!

Mary



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BEBRENDA 11/28/2010 5:07PM

    Lesley, emoticon emoticon emoticonTake care! :) Bren

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RAINBOWMF 11/24/2010 9:46PM

    I will re-read your blog to morrow, my eyes and mind just can't focus now.

Lesley even if you just blog everyday, it would help you.

Hugs Mary

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BRITOMART 11/24/2010 6:13PM

    Part of being human is having dark nights inside us...we ALL have them. Sometimes--like when the moon is gone from the sky at the dark time of its cycling--the night seems very dark indeed. The moon comes back. Light returns. Lesley, we love you. You can love you, too, even sad, even depressed.

I'm glad you are writing. That lets light in. I'm glad you are back with us, even occasionally.

Hold yourself tenderly. Love you.


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CHRISJAKE 11/24/2010 3:50PM

    HUGS LESLIE!!!!!!!!!

I wish I had the words to help you feel better but I dont. I wish I could pull you out of that black hole you are in and make you feel better.

Just kno that we are all here for you and always will be. Anything you need from us, you've got it!!


HUGS!!!

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BARBARAROSE54 11/24/2010 3:40PM

    I'm sorry the doctor feels there isn't much they can do for you. That is not true. If you are going through a depression there is help out there. Maybe you need another opinion.

Having gone through a depression what you are feeling is very real and it takes time to work through it. I will continue to pray for you, your size and weight has nothing to do with who you are. You are still a beautiful person, I only wish you would believe this.

You know I'm always here when you need me.

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JAMESGIRLLL 11/24/2010 2:43PM

    Lesley,

I am sorry you are down......I too have suffered from depression.....and its true...you don't feel like the same person......but you are still the same person.... motivation can be lost...but it can also be found......

you will find yours again.. it might be a different motivation than before...but you will find yours again....

hugs,
jamesgirl

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WINTER20101 11/24/2010 2:38PM

    Lesley, My heart goes out to you.. YOu are the same girl that came here and joined the board.. a beautiful, smart and wise lady.. YOu are just going through some tough times right now.. I wish i had some magic dust i could just dust on you and your problems would just go away.. that is what i called it when my kids were growing up..
I do know you will make it and later these problems will be worked out.. you are strong.. so dig into your strength.. dont let your situation bring you down any more.. think of the person you are..... cz you are still the person we love.. with problems or without.. we love you for who you are.. and to me you are Lesley..

There are always strength in numbers.. we all are here for you always.. sound off any time.. we are your sounding board.. so start to dig the woman you were and to me still are... she is waiting for you to acknowledge that she is still here and always has been.. I will pray for you.. and with our higher power you will be fine..

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BETHEPERFECTME 11/24/2010 2:32PM

    I feel the same way some days. I work two jobs and my boyfriend who I live with has work and school, so that that leaves me with the housework to do too. I look in the mirror and just want to cry! Where did that girl go who was a size 6? But then I realize she's still there, just hiding and needs some love to come back out. There's love here for you and we're all going through the same thing. I think it's good to see some negative blogs here. It shows you trust our community enough to share you're true feelings!

Things will get better. They always do in the end. ^_^

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2 years ago today

Saturday, August 21, 2010

As i sit back and reflect on this 2 year sparkversary i think about where i was 2 years ago today and where i am today. At first i felt disappointed because i felt like i have been wasting alot of valuable time. two years ago when i joined sparks i was in the same spot i was today.In fact i pretty much weighed just what i weigh today give or take a pound or two . I thought i should be at my weight lose goal by now and just maintaining my healthy new weight , but im not. Was the past two years a total waste. When i really sit long and hard and think about it, nope i dont think it is. Althought i may not be a different weight or even at my so called goal weight i have grown lol(no pun intended) This has been a journey of grand proportions. I have learned many new things along the journey and i have met alot of wonderful people so to say that the past two years have been a wasteful time i would say no it hasnt . I feel very blessed to have such a wonderful support here at sparks and when this journey seems tough or a journey thats not worth fighting for they are here to cheer me on and support me. I also sit and reflect on what my next year will be like as a sparks memember and i think looking back has helped me open my eyes even wider and ask myself that all important question, Where do i want to be next year on Aug.21st when i celebrate the 3rd sparkversary and folks let me tell you i want to be a completley different place then i am now, i may not be my goal weight but i want to me more healthy , have more balance in my life, be more at peace and i want to find that driving force i once had that will make me a success story . I want to be a motivation and support to others who may struggle and i want to spread the spark to anyone and eveyone that will listen. Obesity is killing our loved ones and if we re not careful we to can be a statistic and sparks buddies i dont wont to be one of the fatalities. So sparks buddies as i celebrate this all important day on my journey to the new me i will reflect on where i have been on this journey so far but i will focus more on where i want to be next year and its a very different place from where i am now. Thanks for sharing in this journey with me.

  
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BLONDIEGRL1 8/28/2010 10:20PM

    Wow, what a great blog! I'm so proud of u! You are on the right track and such a great inspiration to me... emoticon

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DAWNO64 8/24/2010 5:17PM

    Great attitude! It's not so much about numbers on a scale, it's about the changes we go through in our minds along the way.

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RAINBOWMF 8/21/2010 9:07PM

    What can I say, I have been with you through thick and thin
and back to thick!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon all we can do now is what we are doing, keep on keep'en on.
We can do it and we will do it.
I have read so many great blogs and added the links to them on our team to encourage each one of us and to show us all it can be done.
You yourself proved that with your grand weight loss.
Remember the big cold jump? Oh how I loved that video clip.

Lesley it has been an honor to get to know you and share in your journey. We are going to meet in person soon.

I still have what you asked me to bring you from Punta Cana.

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BEBRENDA 8/21/2010 8:36PM

    Lesley, I am happy to have shared this journey with you too! Our team is strong and we support and encourage each other and we have formed great friendships. We will meet our goals together! Happy 2 Year Sparks Anniversary! Take care! :) Your friend, Brenda emoticon

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B-N-ME 8/21/2010 8:32PM

    Good blog Lesley! I don't know you well, but I know you are still here...you are still on the journey-you know what you want and are going to reach your goals. Growing as a person has so much value, and in the end will be an asset in maintaining your goals. You are an encourager, and someone I see as being a positive force!
Wishing you every success in the next year!
Congratulations!

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BARBARAROSE54 8/21/2010 7:49PM

    this journey is a learning one and that is what you are doing !

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WINTER20101 8/21/2010 7:45PM

    Great Blog Lesley, I know with all my heart.. you will be all the things you want to be.. you have came a long way Baby.. just keep that in your mind always.. I know you can and will.. emoticon emoticon

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-LORI-B 8/21/2010 7:27PM

    The scale hasnt changed much for me since I started this journey either, but I know I have come a long way on a personal level. For what it's worth Im extreamly proud of you for not giving up along the way when things seemed pointless. I have no doubt that you will reach your goals.. one step at a time.
HAPPY SPARKAVERSARY dear Lesely!!


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BRITTVFAN 8/21/2010 6:23PM

    Congrats and keep up the good work.

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