Monday, November 29, 2010
As many of you already know my husband has recently gone back to work after being off for over 6 months. I loved having him home as he would stay home and cook , clean, do laundry and help with appointments and my daughters activities. Now he isnt here and im feeling like im being spread so thinnly and pulled in every directions. Im so stressed and overwhelemd and just dont know were to begin. For me balance is already an issue so for me planning is very critical on my part to help make things run smoothly. My husband has been working 12-15 hours per day and because its retail this is the busist time of year so there is no letting up. So now i have to work 5 hours a day, take care of my daughter, cook,clean, do groceries and running around and all the activities and appointments myself and on top of it with no car. Throw in that its almost christmas and my sons birthday and i still have tonnes of shopping , baking and decorating to do i have no clue how i will do it all. Then to add more stress to it all we may be moving as early as january . When the move happens it will be out of town and my husband may need to go before us so then that will leave yet more responsibility as i will have to get a realtor to sell house, and continue to work and do all the above responsibilties. Our home has repairs that need to be done and this is stressing me out as well. I dont have the money to shell out right with christmas so close and then if we wait hubby will be gone and then who will do the repairs, hahah i dont know how to do those things and then where will i find the time. My mind goes non stop around in circles . Thank god i dont have to pack moving people will do that but i still have tonnes of stuff to go through and throw out . I need about 10 more of me. So i guess that leaves no time for me . I feel so alone and hubby isnt hear for me to talk to and when i have a few moments to chat with him he says im not being supportive. Uggggg see why im stressed anyways not sure if this makes any sense but just wanted to vent.