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Sad day today! 08-18-08

Monday, August 18, 2008

Sad to say but today Russ and I had to make the decision to put our sweet heart Beagle aka "our baby" Sammie down. We have been heart broken ever since. Russ and I are truly so sadden by this sudden thing. Sammie started becoming really weak, wouldn't eat or drink, he had a high fever, throwing up and just plan crappy so on Friday night aroung 5:30 when we got home. So we called the Vet "they were open thank God" and we took him immediately. We found out that he had liver disease. So Sat when we woke up he still wasn't feeling good. So we brought him back to the vets. They kept him over until today Monday. Today when I spoke with the Dr via phone she reported that Sammie had the worse day today and was getting worse and didn't look like he was going to improve. Russ and I ran over to the vets at 12:00 and stayed about 2 hours. We held him and he loved on us and we loved on him as long as we could and the best that he could. He was so weak and sick. Well we finally came to the decision to put him down. So we requested that it be done today. She said ok and agreed. I decided to see why he died and she did a procedure where it is almost like an autopsy but it is for dogs. She called me later in the day and left a message that Sammie had Gallbladder Cancer. It was spread all over and was affecting his liver. After we made the decision to put him down we were unsure if we should have. All I have to say is Thank God we did because after the Vet confirmed what is was I knew Russ and I did the right thing.


Daddy and I love you and we will miss you forever! You will always be apart of our hearts.

Your Mommy

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MRS*RADISH 2/8/2009 9:13AM

  I'm so sorry, Vanessa. I haven't seen this post until now. It brings tears to my eyes because I know how hard it must have been for you and Russ. About four years ago, I was faced with very similar circumstances with my pet [who had gastrointestinal cancer]...It was the hardest decision I've had to made in my life. I struggled with it,, and sometimes still do, but I know it was the best thing for my furry little friend who was like a child to me. It's become easier, and I can finally talk about him a little bit without crying, but your story brings me back to the terrible feeling of sadness and dispair I felt and still feel with his loss. My heart goes out to you, and I hope you and Russ have found comfort that you have saved Sammie from suffering any further and brought him peace.


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JUDYPOPPINS 8/20/2008 3:23PM

    My heart goes out to you and Russ today. It is so sad to lose one of our furbabies. And the decision is so hard to make, but rest assured you did the best for Sammie and he had the most wonderful life with you.


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STARLIGHT42 8/19/2008 8:57AM

    I am sorry to hear about Sammie - know you did the right thing, and try to remember all the wonderful adventures you all had together while he was on this earth with you both.

4 days ago I went thru the same with our beloved Shadow, and it is hard, I know. Wish you both the best at this time.

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WILD4STARS 8/19/2008 6:52AM

    Your blog brought tears to my eyes. It's been 4 years, but seems like yesterday when we had to do the same for our beloved pet. Know that you saved him from suffering, it was the responsible thing to do. Savor the good memories.


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LADY_DONKEY 8/19/2008 6:41AM

    I feel your pain. In January I had to put down my beloved Stinky because she wouldn't drink and was crying all the time. Turns out she had some kind of cancer all in her abdomen. I was with her the whole time. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I miss her terribly.

Time heals all wounds, I guess...


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ANTEEKER 8/19/2008 12:18AM

Take Care

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Life is everything YOU make of it!!!

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Food for thought!

Have you ever wondered why were you placed in certain situations and places. Have you ever thought wow I have been here before. Do you ever think about your future and where you want to be in 1 yr, 5 yrs, and so on. How many times has it crossed your mind that you never think about YOU! I ask these questions because I have asked myself these questions.

What I have found is in the past I never really knew who I was or what I wanted, but since going through some rough times I have slowly began to find the REAL VANESSA again. It seems funny to me that often we lose ourselves in everyone elses drama and then one day you wake up to find that you lost yourself.

The reason for this blog today is to make YOU realize if you have never asked yourself any of these questions maybe it is time. It is time to help yourself for once and become that person that you have been searching for. You know what you want, but you are the only one that can achieve your future goals.

Stop putting yourself on hold for others, this is not a selfish act. It is time to realize that you are important and you matter! You have to love yourself before you can possibly love anyone or anything. Time is forever changing and there you are still feeling sorry for yourself year after year. STOP IT! STOP IT NOW!

So you have a slip or a fall so what JUMP UP AND DUST YOUR SHOULDERS OFF LITERALLY!!! I mean it. If you slip and you will don't sweat it. The more you sweat it the more you are able to accept negative feelings for yourself! STOP THAT! You are better than that.

Don't give up on yourself you are the only one that is around you 24 hours a day. Don't look in the mirror and say YUCK! Look at the mirror and find something great about you! Smile at yourself you might feel silly in the beginning but who cares you are the only one there.

Lift yourself up, stop feeling pitty and sorry for yourself. You HAVE to start LIVING TODAY!!! Not look for life in others, most of the time others have sorrow, pain and other things going on in their lives.

Find motivation in something, do something that makes you happy. Take care of YOU! One day we will all be old that is true but really do you want to be old and SICK!!! I don't!!

Don't wait for tomorrow to make changes start TODAY! You have the power to make your life better. That is something no one can take away from you. Remember that!

Life is EVERYTHING YOU MAKE OF IT!!! Remember that.

So if you are someone that never finds good in things start because one day you will be alone and by yourself. No one likes to be around people that are negative! Keep your chin held high!

SMILE!!! A smile is the freest thing you can give away and if you look close enough you will usually get one returned to you.

Don't judge a person by the way he acts, looks, talks you never know if they are going through some though CRAP!

Life is not easy but if you feel great about yourself life isn't so bad.

You only have this life to live so don't waste it on negative people or things. If someone doesn't have anything nice to say smile and walk away. Don't get caught up in the negativeness they are putting off because then it will only bring you down.

Keep remembering that you are a great person no matter what others say. Remember the saying sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me. Keep repeating that if need be.

Search for the person smiling at you chances are they are searching for you!


Vanessa :)

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JUDYPOPPINS 7/13/2008 2:08PM

    Great blog, Nessa...and I love food that has NO calories!! Food for thought, indeed. I do try to re-examine my life quite often and when I'm in a funk, I usually can get out of it with some soul searching and planning.

You sound much like your old self. Way to go, Nessa.

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SHAMROCKY2K 7/12/2008 4:23PM

    WOW Vanessa.. I couldn't have said it better myself. So motivating! Nice to see you back on.. and that you are doing it for YOU!

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Today's Weigh in!

Friday, July 04, 2008

Today I weighed in and found out that I dropped another 5 lbs. I am now down 26 lbs, which as far as I am concerned is the size of our family's Thanksgiving Turkey! WOO HOO!!!

I am so proud. I also did my complete workout which consisted of 35 minutes on the Elliptical at my Gym.

I feel great!

Vanessa :)

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CMEEHERNANDEZ 7/11/2008 10:16PM


You're doing emoticon

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MRS*RADISH 7/7/2008 11:45AM

  I'm doing a little happy dance for you, Vanessa! Congrats!

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JUDYPOPPINS 7/6/2008 1:07AM

    emoticon are doing so well. You should be proud.

Your working out is really paying off!!


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VALOLOVE1975 7/4/2008 3:12PM

    Congrats! That's wonderful! emoticon

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Friday, March 07, 2008

Hi Everyone! I received this from my friend Linda! I was going to delete it but I decided to take a second and read it. Please don't delete this. Please read it. It is something that is so horrifing about the power of Insurance Companies regarding women getting a Mastectomy. Please take the time to go to the website that is provided and voice your opinion. This is something that needs to be done now! Please remember to pass this along to EVERYONE THAT YOU KNOW!

Thank you!

Vanessa Lovvorn

Please take the time to follow the link to this site:

"Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle."

From a nurse:

I'll never forget the look in my patients eyes when I had to tell them they had to go home with the drains, new exercises and no breast. I remember begging the Doctors to keep these women in
The hospital longer, only to hea r that they would, but their hands were tied by the insurance companies.

So there I sat with my patients, giving them the instructions they needed to take care of themselves, knowing full well they didn't grasp half of what I was saying, because the glazed, hopeless, frightened look spoke louder than the quiet 'Thank You they muttered.

A mastectomy is when a woman's breast is removed in order to
remove cancerous breast cells/tissue. If you know anyone who has had a Mastectomy, you may know that there is a lot of discomfort and pain afterwards. Insurance companies are trying to make mastectomies an outpatient procedure.

Let's give women the chance to recover properly in the hospital for 2 days after surgery.

It takes 2 seconds to do this and is very important .. Please take the time and do it really quick! Please send this to everyone in your address book. If there was ever a time when our voices and choices should be heard, this is one of those times.

If you're receiving this, it's because I think you will take the 30 seconds to go to vote on this issue and send it on to others.
You know who will do the same.

There's a bill called the Breast Cancer Patient Protection Act which will require Insurance Companies to cover a minimum 48-hour hospital stay for patients undergoing a mastectomy. It's about eliminating the 'drive-through mastectomy' where women are forced to go home just a few hours after surgery, against the wishes of their doctor, still groggy from anesthesia and sometimes with drainage tubes still attached.

Lifetime Television has put this bill on their Web page with a petition drive to show your support. Last year over half the House signed on.

PLEASE!! Sign the petition by clicking on the Web site below.

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KELLEY42 3/12/2008 8:37AM

    I am going to do this right now. Thanks for letting us know about this and how we can help.

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Finding a Purpose in Life!

Friday, December 07, 2007

It finally hit me at 4:30 this morning, it actually woke me up out of a deep sleep. I have to find a purpose. That's IT!!! Then I came here to sparkpeople and one of the e-mail's that sparkpeople sent me had those exact words. Why did you start and What's your purpose? Then I read this post by Architraz2181 and it all seemed to just gel.
Week of 12/06/2007

SUBJECT: Why did you start?

I began this journey after I met the man of my dreams and realized we're the same height, same size feet and hands but I weighed 100 pounds more than him. I realized I was way over weight and I didn't want to walk down an aisle someday looking like Jack Sprat and his wife.

I am now heading into my second year of my goal to lose 100 pounds and while I haven't gotten a ring, I have gotten new purposes.

After dropping 50 pounds in about 6 months, I was diagnosed with HPV a virus that can lead to cervical cancer. When I read up on it, I thought it mentioned healthy eating and exercise could slow the virus down and I attacked my goal with new vigor. I ate the fruits and vegetables, I drank my water, I stayed within calorie range. I started running regularly and doing yoga I ran two 5ks this year. I felt good - I had a purpose that was for me, not for what others thought I would look like. Running gave me new energy, piece of mind, strength, and confidence. I gained a few pounds but lost inches and trimmed up. I felt amazing and healthy.

Then I had a small procedure. The results were not what we hoped for. While my life isn't threatened yet, healthy eating didn't stop this virus from developing. Plus I couldn't run for a week afterwards and I hurt my foot when I did run, so I was out for about three weeks. My goal felt shattered and forgotten. I started drinking more and eating without thought. What did it matter. It couldn't save me. I gained 8 pounds that I had worked so hard to lose.

That was a little over a month ago. I've lost 3 pounds but gained new insight - much thanks to SparkPeople. Healthy eating and exercise might not save me from all diseases, it might make me beautiful for an undetermined event, but it definitely makes me feel better. It is something that I need to do because it is the right thing to do to live the life I want to lead. It doesn't need a reason per say, but my new purpose is life. I want to lead a life with understanding and focus, one where I will have the energy to make it through.

What's your purpose?

So what I decided when I sprung out of bed is that I am going to make something of myself. I am going to do something that is for a purpose. I am going to help not only myself but my community as well. I live in a Condo Association and what I came to realize this morning is that I hardly know any of my neighbors. The only time I see them is at meetings. So I thought and thought and I finally realized away to get to know them and do something for a purpose. I am going to start an exercise regime here at our Condo Assoication. We have a pool, we live in a great community to walk in day or night and we even can do stretching in the club house.

I think it is such a great idea. I can get my community involved to help me acheive losing weight and getting heatlhy. Sounds like a great idea to me.

My plan goes like this I am going to make a letter to all the units and invite them to come to the club house for a meeting. Then I am going to get a sign up sheet with names, addresses and phone numbers. Then I am going to set up a time and date at least 3 days a week to get together and exercise. For instance, one day we will go swimming, then the next time we meet we can stretch and do some light aerobics in the club house and then the next time we will walk the community. Not only can it help us but it can get us involved with others and make new friends. I just think it could be an excellent idea.

I really am excited because maybe this is my purpose to not only help me but to extend it to others and get others to participate. Sounds great to me.

Well I am off to start planning my new adventure.


Vanessa :)

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MOMMATAURUS 12/8/2007 1:01AM

    Vanessa, This sounds like such a wonderful purpose! And once you have the comraderie of the Condo Click maybe you could even start planning fundraisers or something to further involve your community. :) Either way I think it is a STEP in the right direction.

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