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Today I started back at Weight Watchers!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Well today was my first day back to weight watchers. I finally took the plunge and started back at weight watchers. I just can't do "just" this. I LOVE sparkpeople.com but I need more support. Of course I got weighed in and I am now pass my highest weight ever by 2 lbs. I am now 341 lbs!!! OHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! What have I done to myself. Well now is the time that I must mUST MUST lose this weight once and for all!!!

Vanessa :)

  
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SLAYINGDRAGONS 10/27/2007 3:41PM

    Absolutely! The more support, the better, in my opinion! I have found a LOT of help by reading ALL the articles on SparkPeople, esp in regard to setting goals and focusing on Healthy Lifestyle choices. Seems like Coach Dean and I have a lot in common! For me, the key to sticking with it is persistence, too. Have a great weekend and new week!

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Sad News today!

Monday, October 15, 2007

Today I learned that my brother in law has passed away. He has been sick for awhile but we didn't think he would go so quickly. I am just happy that Russ got to go and see him yesterday for most of the day. He will definitely be missed. REST IN PEACE Jimmy! Love Always, Vanessa

  
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RITZYPAWZ 10/24/2007 1:24PM

    My condolences. God bless you guys right now.

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SLAYINGDRAGONS 10/15/2007 1:49PM

    What sad news. Im so sorry.

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*BAUBO* 10/15/2007 1:34PM

    I'm sorry for your families loss. It's definetly good that Russ got to spend the day with him yesterday. Those will be cherished moments for sure. Remember Russ will need some extra attention for a bit, I'm sure you won't mind extra hugs though. Take care ~ Heather

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Life after surgery and my wake up call!!!

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Well I had a reality check from the Anesthesia Dr that was going to put me under Anesthesia. He said that because I am so morbid obese that it would be very "risky" to put me under Anesthesia. So after further investigation they decided that the best way to do my DNC would be to give me a Spinal Epdermial. Which is what they do when someone has a C-section. I have never had a baby so I never felt what it was like. Two words- Crazy and scary. It was such an unbelievable feeling to not be able to feel my legs or my midsection down to my toes.

Hearing the Anesthesia Dr utter the words "Morbid Obese" mixed with the words "risky" and even "death" have now scared me to the point of losing my weight once and for all. He said because I am morbidly obese by going under Anesthesia I can increase the risk for a Heart Attack, Stroke and even death. Well what great words to tell someone when they are heading for surgery. But they have to warn you. So I was blessed to have another Anesthesia Dr come and talk to me and he actually took over my case and he said that they would not be putting me through Anesthesia because of it being too risky for me. Instead I would get a spinal eperdimal. Thank God! I was awake through the DNC and it was over within 11 minutes.

My lesson learned I am getting this weight off! It is very dangerous to be 335 lbs and I have learned that if anything happens while I am this weight I have a greater chance of having complications. That is just crazy. Right now as I am living I am a healthy human being but one day I may not be so lucky. Especially as I age. So with all this knowledge that I am now fully aware of I will be finding and keeping my motivation until I get all of this weight off. Then once it is off I am going to maintain my weight loss. Until then I will make my goal 5 lbs at a time. I definitely want to live a long and healthy life. I have a long time ahead and I refuse to ever hear that I am MORBID OBESE AGAIN!!!

Thank God the surgery went well and I am doing so great. I feel great and my news so far is that I don't have fibroids or polups. Now the next step is to find out what the biopsy results are. My Gyno Dr is excellent and he made me feel very comfortable through out this whole process and he did a great job and so did the hospital staff. I am very grateful and I am even going to write to the hospital about how wonderful their staff is. The people that worked with me from the beginning to the end were wonderful. Thank God!

Vanessa :)

  
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HAVEDONEIT 10/26/2007 11:54PM

    Vanessa .. always remember you are a special young lady reguardless of size . It is to your best interest to lose weight and you will but to me you being you is very important ..You will lose slow but sure .. just keep the positive going and when somedays it is harder than other read some of the different posts .. different topic and different teams .. some are so funny and some are so inspirational .. just keep your sweet way going for us and you will mRuthake it with all of us .. have a great week-end at keep smileing .. we are winners and a tough team is hard to beat ..

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*BAUBO* 10/15/2007 1:32PM

    Vanessa, I am glad that things went well. It is weird to not be able to feel your lower pieces at all. I had an epidural for my c-section with Skylar last year. Very odd feeling for sure. The doctor touched my forehead with a damp cloth and then touched my stomach with the same cloth asking if I could feel it, very odd to know they were touching you and not be able to feel it. It's scary to get a big wake up call like that but maybe for the best. Gives you that extra bit of motivation to get this thing going. I wish you the best of luck and remember that I am right here beside you fighting the same battle. ~ Heather

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MOMMYBEARTO3 10/15/2007 8:14AM

    Wow, scary experience. Thankfully it all worked out well. Hopefully the biopsy report will also be good news.

Now get to work girl! You can do this! Baby steps, remember! It won't be easy and it won't be fun, but you are worth it! You can do this! Good luck to you!

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PJFUNNYBUNNY61 10/14/2007 3:42PM

  Hi Nessa

I can't wait until I don't have to hear Morbidly Obese again too. I'm glad you're doing something about this while you're still young. I'm 46 (not old - lol) but the weight does take a toll on your body. I started at 285 and I've lost 25 lbs. so far, but when I first went on the treadmill 15 minutes almost killed me. So, yes, take it slow. It's amazing how quickly your body will forgive you and get stronger and stronger. Good luck. And check out our team, Don't let the scale rule your life.

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NESSA79 10/14/2007 8:20AM

    Wow Jen, Thanks for your encourging and awesome words. That was some powerful and positive stuff. I am going to take your advice and really take one step at a time. But I am kind of glad that the Anesthesia Dr woke me up to the reality of what I have been denying the whole time. It is a serious wake up call but I think it's the one that I have needed to give me the final push to healthiness. Thank God! I am actually a healthy person but the future could be bad for me. All is good now but if I keep doing what I have been I am risky my life. I won't let food play that role anymore I have to look at it like this food will be used to nurish me not to comfort me. I can't use food to eat away my sadness, sarrow and stress. I just have to look at like I said I have to use food for nurishment only! Thanks for your support.

Vanessa :)

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MOMMATAURUS 10/14/2007 4:11AM

    Vanessa,

Congrats on successful surgery! Take it one day at a time. One step at a time. You don't need to jump around waving your arms in the air to start off. Ease into it. Do your fast break and start slow just walking mailbox to mailbox. You are an incredibly inspirational person. Don't let that doc's words dictate who you are. You are so much more than that! It's time to step out of your protective armour and show the world the amazing person who hides inside!

Hugs,
Jen

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A new beginning for me starting 10-8-07

Sunday, October 07, 2007


Tomorrow I am starting from scratch. What ever I have done in the past with trying to lose weight is now considered history. I will definitely not beat myself up about the not so good choices I made. I am definitely ready to start refocusing on taking care of myself again. I have been on my meds for depression for almost a month already. I am going to the dr's on Tues for a check up so I will be talking to her about how exhausted I have been. I actually think it could be from the medication but I am not sure. At least I don't have the big gray rain cloud over my head. I am actually feeling good I am just constantly exhausted.

Well that is all for now.

Vanessa :)

  
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CMEEHERNANDEZ 10/9/2007 5:39PM

    Just remember to take baby steps. Focus on changing one or two bad habits into good ones and after a few weeks and you feel you have them under control, ADD some more.

You can do it!

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MOMMATAURUS 10/9/2007 1:48PM

    Vanessa,

Hugs for dealing with depression and running a positivity team at the same time! If you can do that, you can do anything. Have faith in yourself! And, take it one day at a time!!!!

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*BAUBO* 10/8/2007 9:38PM

    Vanessa, You rock!!! I am proud of you for starting from scratch. I know that you've had a rough time of it all and I am proud of you for sticking to your guns!!!! ~ Heather

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*BAUBO* 10/8/2007 9:38PM

    Vanessa, You rock!!! I am proud of you for starting from scratch. I know that you've had a rough time of it all and I am proud of you for sticking to your guns!!!! ~ Heather

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SEXYCOOL* 10/8/2007 11:40AM

    HA-PEEEE NEW YEAR!!! at least it amounts to the same thing...loving the wonderful outlook and wishing you the best...you ARE a success story waiting to be told...miracles and blessings...

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SLAYINGDRAGONS 10/8/2007 11:13AM

    Yes! Go for it girl! Glad youre focusing and hope you find answers! Heres to this new week!

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I think I can I think I can! Baby steps to a better me!

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Well I believe that I can do this. Just like the picture that I have for our team Positive Sparkers which is called We are new everyday. I totally believe that statement. Everyday we are new and everyday we have choices. I am really happy that I have been able to seek the help I need to get my life back on track. I am really looking forward to the "up" days. I know each day will get better I have faith and I believe that they will. I know I can be the best I can be I just have to find me...

Vanessa :)

  
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SLAYINGDRAGONS 9/19/2007 6:51PM

    Yes!! Baby steps are vital to this SparkJourney. Im taking them too. Hope you have a great vacation. Well be looking forward to your return.

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*BAUBO* 9/16/2007 2:33PM

    I totally agree. We are new everyday. The trick is to use each day to it's best potential. I would have to retitle that to I know I can, I know I can because Vanessa, I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!

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LOUISEJACK 9/16/2007 8:27AM

    Just remember how you feel, how positive, so when it starts to wain a little, just remember now. What you think is what you feel, so keep thinking happy and looking forward to life. Keep it up and you will get wherever you want.

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