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Somebody should have to suffer for this besides me!!!

Sunday, December 01, 2013

I hope that the twit or twits who are responsible for the fact that women's clothing is not univerisal in size be sentenced to a life of trying on clothes. Oh wait that seems to be my fate and the fate of every female.

I wear size 16 pants not happy about that but it is what it is. So I went shopping for another pair or two. After having tried on more than a dozen size 16 pants from different companies I am so depressed. One pair fit, sort of. This is nuts that sizes can vary so much from company to company. Even from year to year. If you buy second hand clothes like I do older clothes use the same numbers but a 16 from today is not the same as a 16 from 5 years ago.

Why can't women's clothes be like guys? Where a 36x36 is exactly that. Even in bras where they do use inches for size I was told at one store that their 36" bra ran small. What the **$&#^^??? 36" is 36" how can it be small?

I suppose it is way to late in the day to ever change things but it stinks. It can be so depressing to try on clothes do to this. I wear 16 pants every day for work so now why can't I find a pair that fits? Have I stretched all of mine in to submission? I even tried on 16w pair and they didn't go around my middle. I didn't eat that much for thanksgiving.

I wish I knew how to sew and make clothes because then I could get things to fit.

Someday I hope our daughters rise up in revolution and tell these @@#@@ clothes manufacturers they aren't going to put up with it any more. Clothes shopping should not make you cry. And when they are done with that I hope they give a couple of those egotiscal male designers a mamogram on their privates. Bet that would get researchers to come up with a better way, but that is a blog for another day.

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DIANE7786 12/1/2013 6:25PM

    Be careful what you ask for! My understanding is every manufacturers uses slightly different measurements. A single manufacturer often makes each style of pants in the line with slightly different measurements. The reason is they want to accommodate women of similar sizes but different shapes. Some size 16's have proportionately small waists and large hips or the opposite, longer and shorter rises and leg lengths.

That's not all! Take 3-4 pants of the same brand, size and style to the dressing room. They are often wildly different measurements! Patterns are cut with what looks like cookie cutters. The top fabric pulls down over the pile so it's a little bigger, the middle is about right and the bottom is small. Years ago the top and bottom cuts went to less expensive stores, but apparently not any more.

When I find pants that fit, I buy several pairs. It's likely that style will be discontinued the next season!

Many people have their clothes altered. I haven't had good luck with that.

Don't blame it on men! There are a lot of female clothing designers.

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I can still run.

Sunday, July 07, 2013

Today was the day I had marked as the restart of my running career. I have pretty much given up on it like most of my fitness/healthy routine. But after my moment of enlightenment on top of the bluff (doesn't that sound better than puking up my lunch LOL!!) I knew I had to get back at it.

I was up and ready to go by 8:30am. Unfortunately being a champion procrastinator it was 9:30am before I started. But outside I went which in itself is a big deal. I have not been outside to do much of any thing for a month. It was hot and humid so I only went 1.65 miles. But after walking a good chunk of it I did my first run interval. I went one block and I didn't pass out or throw up or blow out my knee. My body remembered how to run. After a few more blocks of walking I did run interval #2. Again survived. As I hit the home stretch I did a longer 2+ block run. That one was tough. The mental gremlins came back to tell me how this was stupid, waste of time, I could stop anytime. But I kept on because I am stronger than I think at time.

I am so happy that I did this. Running is a challenge that I have never quite mastered but I am going to do it this time. So if you have been thinking about trying it look up the Couch to 5k program on the internet. I have found this to be a great way to get back in to running.

I am happy that some of my baby steps back to healthy living were done at jogging speed. LOL!!!

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GOEGIRL 7/7/2013 12:31PM

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Good for you, Nera!

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Truth comes calling!!!!

Thursday, July 04, 2013

Okay as usual if you have sensitive nature or delicate stomach you might want to skip this blog!!!!!!

I am the master at lying to myself. I have gained back all the weight I lost but I was still telling myself that I was still healthier than I use to be. That I still retained some fitness and endurance. Well let me tell you the truth hit me with quite a bit of force today. Do you know when you can't lie to yourself anymore? Well when you are standing on the top of a large hill(around here we call them Bluffs-850 feet up) and you puke. Yup that is right puked my guts out right on top of the bluff in front of my son and husband. At least they were the only ones there since there were several dozen people hiking around.

Yes there were contributing factors. We ate right before we started hiking up. It was warm with no breeze. But this path wasn't even all that vertical but by the time we got to the end we had to climb stairs to get to the look out. I barely made it to the top when whoosh there went lunch. I did this bluff climb last year and made it with out puking. I wish I could say it was just the circumstances that caused it but it is now time to stop lying. I am out of shape, condition, endurance what ever you want to call it. Riding an exercise bike twice a week for 15 minutes or so is not doing anything for me. There is a pile of barf that proves that point.

To get back down the bluff we went down the "easy" path. But we had to go straight up for 100 feet to get to that path. As soon as I started walking up the hill my stomach really started lurching again. For awhile I wasn't sure how I was going to get down the bluff. Luckily once the path started going down then I was okay.

So reality has struck and I am not the slightly less than lean but still a mean fighting machine anymore. I am a delusional overweight and unhealthy specimen who needs to stop with the lies and the rationalizations. Time to fight my way back on to the path of healthy living. I want to be able to climb and jump around rocks with my 19 year old son. I don't want to end up on my butt sliding down a hill because I didn't have the muscle strength in my legs to hold myself up. (The hubby has that on video, thanks honey!!!) But more importantly I don't want to live like this anymore. Toxic food in, sugar blues, irritability and just generally feeling like junk.

I will face the truth, I will make changes. I did it once and with this website I will do it again. I will not have puked in vain!!!!!!!

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GOEGIRL 7/4/2013 7:02PM

    Best Spark quote ever: "I will not have puked in vain!"

I am inspired by your story. I am deep in denial myself but *almost* ready to come out and join you.

Go Nera!! You can do it!!

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RUNNINGWILD 7/4/2013 5:17PM

    Aw, I have tears in my eyes. Reality bites hard, doesn't it. (nice of your hubby to capture your moments on video) emoticon
You got this! Get spunky!!

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I rejoined a gym - really and on the first day!!!!

Monday, July 02, 2012

I rejoined a gym because I miss having a pool. I found a place I could join for $10 a month. On the first day I almost left again. Look at my pictures of myself on my page. Is there some hidden message there that I can't see. Something that says to people talk to me when I am naked in the dressing room. Please stop!!!!! Unless you are trying to tell me I am on fire there is nothing you need to tell me that can't wait until I have my clothes on. Or you have your clothes on. My momma taught me to look at the person talking to me. She never covered naked chatters at the gym.

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HANAHSCLOUDY 7/4/2012 7:47PM

    Lol Gold dust...Telephone booth?

That feels creepy, when I have peeps in the changing area, I just go to the stall and change...because I'm weird lol.

Cheap Rate tho!

Have a in the pool.

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GOLDDUSTTWIN 7/3/2012 8:59AM

    Glad you can cool off in the pool!
Do they have a closed changing area like Lifetime has? Or wait! Superman used a telephone booth, what about the handicap stall? I know what you mean though...I change as quickly as possible, my hernia is my business!IMHO

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GOEGIRL 7/3/2012 12:27AM

    Look them in the EYES. (And, just for the record, it's WAY more awkward on the farm than in the locker room. *Ask me how I know*)

Have fun in the pool!

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RUNNINGWILD 7/2/2012 9:42PM

    You should swap stories with Jenny... she witnessed a naked woman doing the "happy baby" yoga pose in the dressing room.. There ain't enough mind bleach on the planet for that one.

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    some people are so rude. Glad you found a place for only $10 a month I guess i better look in to a place for me. I never thought some gyms would be afordable even to me.
keep up the good work emoticon

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Time to stop lying to myself

Saturday, June 09, 2012

Okay I realized a few things this early morning and I am going to share them with you lucky people.

I stepped on the scale for the first time in 5 months. Yes it has been that long. I always had an excuse for not doing it but I was just lying to myself. The scale tells the truth and the truth is I have gained 6 pounds. Yup I have gained a pound a month. I am only 12 pounds below where I started this whole sparks journey.

You may be asking how could such a gal who has it so all put together come to such a crossroads? Because I have been lying to myself.

Line # 1
I don't need to exercise as much any more. I am running now and that is burning up tons of calories so off days I can sit on my butt. Reality is I run like twice a week for less than 2 miles at a pace that no one would call blistering. In fact when I ran past a group of young kids I heard one say to his friend is she running or walking?

I can eat more treats because I am working out so much harder. Reality is I can not eat a donut or a pastry for breakfast everyday. I can not eat "power bars" every day for snack when they have more calories and sugar than most candy bars. My work outs often don't even leave me sweaty. I am burning zilch for calories.

I can spend less time on Sparks and still stay motivated. Reality using my computer time to play facebook games is making my butt much bigger. I have lost my motiviation. I put it somewhere with my pride in acomplishing new physical challenges. My healthy outlook and postive outlook is probably in the same place. I better check under the bed. That is where I usually throw things I don't know what to do with.

I just spent the morning reviewing some old blogs. Some I had even forgotten I had written. I had some good advice and really need to listen to it. I have let life, family and friends push me around some and it is time I pushed back. I can't believe I haven't written a blog in over a year. Man some of my old ones left me laughing out loud. I guess my sense of humour is hiding under the bed too.

What can I do? Well first and foremost I am getting off the guilt train. Yup I screwed up in the last few months. Yup that was a tough number to see this morning. However numbers go down as well as up and it is time I remember that. It is time to remember I am funny and creative. At my work they think I am weird because of all the (what they think are) odd things I know. What can I say. I have a 4 year liberal arts degree so I know lots of things that are only useful if you play lots of trivia. ( Not saying a liberal arts degree is bad but if you do what I did and don't focus on any one area it pretty much is useless.) I also read alot. I always have and will until my eyes drop out of my head. Fiction, biographies, weird books on odd moments in history or odd facts about famous people I have done them all. And I need to stop apologizing for that fact. I have a coworker who is amazed I read more than one book a month. Really I can't believe you can only read one. Never read a biography on Henry the 8th? What is wrong with you? You don't know what the Volstad Act is? Did you grow up in a cave?

I need to remember my own words that I reaquantied myself with this morning.
Beating yourself up doesn't count as cardio. And I am a freight train. ( to explain that last one you have to read the blog. it will take too long here) I have a ton of great qualities and if the friends I have can't see them or look past my bad ones then I need to move on. My biggest fault is I can be very negative and I have one friend who points that out constantly. I now no longer call her to share any news because I am sure to hear in every conversation "you are being so negative. I want to hear something positive now." My response is (at least in my head) okay I am postive you are being an a***hole right now. Do people think I am that unaware that I don't realize I am a debbie downer? Do they think pointing it out ALL THE TIME will help?

I need to remember I am worth fighting for. Fighting the daily battle of good food choices and exercising even when I don't want to. I am worthy of supportive friends and family. I am worthy of having my qualties good and bad on display to the world. I am worth being who I am.

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HANAHSCLOUDY 6/25/2012 12:06PM

    Awesome blog!! Great self talk!

Just being honest with ourselves can move mountains Girl Friend!!

Have a great wonderful day, and look forward to our first adventure!!


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GOLDDUSTTWIN 6/18/2012 8:44AM

    emoticon nice blog, good stay dry today and work out inside!
Me too! lightning has a way of clearing the pool! emoticon

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KIMMARIE11 6/10/2012 11:30AM

    I subscribe to your blog and when I checked my email this morning, there this one was at just the right time. Thank you for posting and putting all this out there. There are probably thousands of people who are where you are right now and we all needed this wake up call.

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DREBENEZER 6/9/2012 8:55PM

    The fight goes on...and you can do it!!

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BOBBYD31 6/9/2012 8:46PM

    it is good to admit it and move on from there. you know what we all do it!

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MIAMIA7 6/9/2012 8:46PM

    Great blog Nera and great advice! For you and all of us. Way to go on the reality check. We all falter every once in a while but getting back to it means we are learning to live healthy..forever.

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CASSIOEPIA 6/9/2012 8:35PM

    Woo woo (train sound). Time to get back on track. I love the honesty and real-ness that you have found (likely was under the bed).

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RUNNINGWILD 6/9/2012 2:46PM

    Nera, I think we all tell ourselves these same three lies when we start seeing signs of success.
Good luck getting your freight train back on track!

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