Tuesday, August 05, 2014
So a few weeks ago… I was feeling quite terrible! I had stayed about the same one week, then gained, then lost what I gained but not much more and just really felt like I was going anywhere. Towards the end of last week I had time to stop and go over my numbers from the last couple months… and it just goes to show how important tracking stuff is b/c as it turned out, I have made tons of progress!
I am still very mad at myself. VERY!!!! 4 short months ago I was right around 180… wellllll somewhere between the 2nd week of March and the end of May… I gained 48 lbs! I stepped on the scale at the end of May, saw 228.8 and thought, um, you’ve got to be kidding me… this isn’t even humanly possible is it!?! Ohhhh… it sure was. For about a week I kinda did things half azz… I’d do really well one day and then have an awful day, then do okay, blah blah blah. A little over a week of this routine and I think I went from 228.8 to 228.6.
With a new month, came a new attitude. A friend jumped on board with me and since June 1st it has been non-stop. The first week of complete dedication yielded excellent results.. which we all know when you first jump on board a new routine, that’s to be expected. Still, I was psyched to go from 228 to 218.
Not sure why it felt so slow for a while after that… the next I recorded was 213.8, then 211, then 208, then 207.8, then 204.8… week by week, it’s seemed a lil slow, but to look back last week… being able to say in 2 months I lost almost 25 lbs. That’s awesome!
This morning I was 201.4 and am really pushing for another 1.5 the next couple days. I want to be back in ONEDERLAND sooooo badly. I do still have a long ways to go…. 21 more lbs til my March 2014 weight, 36 more lbs til I reach my all time low of around 165 and 50 – 55 lbs til I’m in magic final goal range… but I believe more than ever… not only that I can, but that I will do it!
More than any number on that stupid scale though… is how I look and how I feel. I see all these amazingly inspiring photos of fitness models and gorgeous female weightlifting and bikini competitors… Do I spend time each day reading what they do and admiring there pictures? Heck yeah! Do I actually believe I will look like any of them? Um, no buuut what I can do is imagine my body. I know what kind of frame, what body type, what muscle lies under all this fat… I can look at an inspirational pic and say yeah!! Like that!!! Only, calves a lil bigger, legs a tad shorter, lil bit more muscular on the shoulder… sweet.. I am gonna looking AMAZING! And every day I feel closer and closer to the picture of the fit me that I am soon going to be! ;-D