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My Nine Year Anniversary- Getty Villa

Sunday, August 05, 2012

So yesterday my husband surprised me by choosing to go to the Getty Villa in Malibu. We had already been at the Getty Center and loved it very much. I'm so glad he chose this to go to because it turned out to be a beautiful and educational day. We did a culinary garden tour through their herb garden. They had a plant called lemon balm that when you rubbed it, it made your hand smell like lemons. I've never heard of it before, but then again I haven't heard of many things because I'm the anti-green thumb.

We also ate lunch there. I had a beautiful and delicious greek salad with big chunks of feta and kalamata olives. It was so yummy. I wish I would have taken a picture of it because the presentation was wonderful.

It was interesting to see all the architecture and artifacts. My husband is more cultured than I give him credit for.

As always, we took a few pictures:

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FORBANDE 8/7/2012 9:15PM

    Happy Anniversary! What a great way to spend the day!

I love the pics and the Greek Salad sounds yummy!

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GORIANA 8/7/2012 4:42PM

    Awesome. Congratulations.

I'm supposed to go to the museum this weekend, and since I love Greek salad, I'm going to keep it in mind when I get hungry.

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LIZZIECA55 8/5/2012 6:16PM

    The pictures are beautiful; congratulations on 9 years.

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0309COOKIE 8/5/2012 2:58PM

    Congratulations on your anniversary! You guys look great!

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Tuesday, July 31, 2012

So yesterday my husband and I decided to tackle Will Rogers again. It's a state park here in the Los Angeles Area ( more specifically Pacific Palisades). We started at the Temescal Canyon Trail and were told that the trail we were doing was 1.9 miles both ways. However, we took a side trail that took us straight up a mountain side. It definitely tested me. Eventually we weren't sure if this side trip was going to lead us anywhere so we turned around.

It's always an adventure with him. :)
Here are some pictures:

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LIZZIECA55 7/31/2012 3:12PM

    Good for you and hubby! Thanks for sharing the beautiful pics with us.

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0309COOKIE 7/31/2012 9:31AM

    Nice pictures. Good to see you out and about.

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SUSANBEAMON 7/31/2012 2:08AM

  Love the pictures. reminds me of when I lived in California, long time ago.

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JAMER123 7/31/2012 1:12AM

    What a beautiful hike! Glad you could enjoy! Love the pictures!!
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SHARPISTOL 7/31/2012 12:55AM

    So pretty! I love hiking! What a great workout!


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Women, Food, and God- You're not unhappy because you're fat, you're fat because you are unhappy.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

So I've gotten some books from the library about eating, particularly emotional and compulsive eating since I've finally admitted to myself that exercise (while I could do more) is not my problem. My problem is my unhealthy relationship with food. One of the books I checked out from the library is Women, Food, and God by Geneen Roth. I'm only a few chapters in since I just finished another book, but WOW! Every time I read another passage I'm thinking, " I'm not the only one that does this? Is the woman inside my own head?"

Here's a passage I enjoyed and related to:
Like everyone else in this diet-mad culture in which we live, my retreat students all loath to stop the frantic attempts to change themselves. They know that something is not quite right in their lives, and because they are not at their ideal weights, they believe that food is the problem and dieting will fix it. When I suggest that they're trying to fix something that has never been broken, a wave of anxiety courses through the room.
They ask, " How could you say that nothing is broken when I can't fit into any of my clothes?.... Can't you see something is terribly, terribly wrong?"
And I say, " Yes, something is terribly wrong, but it will not be fixed through losing weight." - Geneen Roth

That passage is enlightening because I could just as easily be one of those students saying, " I'm fat and that is the cause of my unhappiness." But truth is, I'm fat because I'm not dealing with my unhappiness and my anxiety. I'm in therapy now and I'm learning to surround myself with a support group, but up until 3 months ago.... I was running on 8 cylinders toward...destruction.
I was not sleeping well, waking up early to go into work, having the stress of intense sales goals ( and lord knows I met my sales goals. I was a travel agent in case you were wondering), stuck in traffic on the infamous 405 here in Los Angeles for an hour each way each day, coming home to chores and dogs and a husband who needed attention. I worked overtime and 6 days a week. When I wasn't working, I was on my computer at home researching destinations and looking up our online competitors just as my clients were so that I could be competitive enough to meet my goals. I was constantly on conference calls with other agents and management to see where the trends were and how to drive business. When I wasn't on a conference call, I was on the phone with travel vendors and clients.
My time was never my own. It belonged to work, my husband, and my dogs. AND... I resented them for it.
Most of you are probably reading this going, " BIG DEAL! Everyone works a lot and dogs demanding attention aren't kids demanding attention, sweetie." But on top of that and striving for perfection I was dealing with an anxiety disorder and an eating disorder. So while keeping it all together, I was trying to keep myself together and these things under wraps.

These days I'm still on STEP ONE- Honesty with yourself, nurturing yourself and self love, and fixing what's really wrong ( because it's not that I'm overweight).
So I encourage all of you to really take a look at this first step with me and make sure that losing weight isn't ultimately in your own mind what is going to solve all your problems and bring you a smile to your face.

Remember you're not unhappy because you are fat, you're fat because you are unhappy.

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LIVENLOVELIFE 8/12/2012 2:48PM

    Wow...this blog really spoke to me. I think I need to check out this book! Great job on taking steps to explore more of the "inside" stuff that's causing the "outside" stuff. :)

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LIZZIECA55 8/1/2012 2:28PM

    Great blog! Thanks for sharing.

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UMUCGRAD 7/29/2012 9:14PM

    Great thought for today!

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MTNGRL 7/29/2012 7:23PM

    Sounds like a very informative book. I will look for it as I can relate. Thank you.

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BRENJET 7/29/2012 7:01PM

    Amen sister! Have the book, but never read it--now I will. Also, stress is stress. It doesn't matter if you have children, live in NH or CA, married or divorced--no one should ever tell you their stress is worse because kids are harder than pets. I Love that you are taking such positive steps to love yourself and put yourself first. An inspiration to all of us. Best of luck on your journey!!

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Emotional Eating---Using eating as a coping mechanism.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

So last night I attended my very first meeting for compulsive overeaters. I had been contemplating going for a few weeks now but couldn't get past the fact that I'd have to be honest with myself and with other people that I just wasn't managing and haven't been for a long time. So finally I got past that roadblock, got into my car and drove my butt to a meeting. Boy was I glad that I did.
We're all at different stages of our weight loss and I've seen many lose weight, only to gain it back. I was one of those people. I lost 50 lbs in 2010. I've gained at least 35 lbs of that back. Why?
Because not only was I not keeping up with my lifestyle changes, but I never dealt with the real problem. My inability to express my feelings, particularly the uncomfortable ones and I was coping by numbing them by shoveling food into my face and binge eating. If I felt anxious, overwhelmed, frustrated, sad.... I wasn't going to cope with them any other way but to eat them away until the act of eating itself became soothing.
I've done many things this summer to help me cope better with life in general. Attending these meetings is just another way for me to better manage my triggers and gain some of the momentum I had before. Only this time, I'm not just going to deal with the weight ( I know that anyone can eat right and exercise), I'm also going to deal with the mental and emotional reasons that I've allowed myself to get to this point.
I think this is a step that many of us forget as we run out to buy new workout clothes, pedometers, and water bottles. You can't fix the outside without fixing the inside.

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KITT52 7/26/2012 3:45PM

    boy can I relate, I'm looking for a place like you did, can I ask how you found it?

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SUPERMOMMYK8E 7/26/2012 3:22PM

    I loved reading this blog very truthful!!! I'm on my to becoming healthier but I've noticed that I'm not the person I once was and I'm working on the inside and outside!!! Keep up all your good work!!! And WAY TO GO!!!!!!

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AKIMBERLYQ1 7/26/2012 1:57PM

    So true. Wish you sucess on your journey! emoticon

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Gathering Inspiration

Monday, September 19, 2011

Ready to get there!

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GORIANA 10/3/2011 10:16PM

    nice. the first picture is particularly motivating.

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OUBACHE 9/21/2011 8:22AM

    So very, very, true!

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LIZZIECA55 9/20/2011 4:22PM

    Wow! That's a great inspirational blog.

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