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Sunday, June 09, 2013

I was supposed to go see the doctor this week for my post-op appt, but the nurse called me on Monday and said the results were back and the doctor wanted to see me sooner then the appt, not a good sign. So I went in on Wednesday and he said that what he took out was cancer. He said it was very early and he's positive he got it all, but to be on the safe side he wants me to see a specialist to either take the uterus out or just take everything. I'm good with taking everything, if any of these cells traveled further in I don't want to have to worry about it. So now I'm waiting to hear from the specialist on when to come in for my consult.

I also lost a pound this week and it was our 23rd anniversary yesterday. And I resisted the doughnuts in the break room Friday, very proud of myself for that.

Hoping for a better week

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AVANDREA_ 6/10/2013 9:59AM

    I got my news post op, after my hysterectomy, and repair surgery to prevent my bladder from dropping out so I know how scary it is to get that kind of news from the doctor, although thankfully in my case it turned out to be benign. The wait though, to hear that the lab work came back benign was very stressful on me as I am sure the wait for your consult is on you right now. I think in your shoes I would insist on the preventative surgery, and have the hysterectomy. Wishing you all the best, no matter which way you chose to go. Way to go in not giving into the cravings for donuts... :)

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JOYCE12356 6/9/2013 4:07PM

    Pam - so sorry to hear about the cancerous cells. I sure hope they can get it all with surgery and you won't need a bunch of chemo or radiation treatments. Congratulations on your 23rd anniversary and the 1 lb loss! Great job skipping the doesn't that feel good! emoticon

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Month of May what an eye opener!

Sunday, June 02, 2013

May was an eye opener for me.....

It started out with a bad pap, not something you want to hear. The doctor did three biopsies and still was not satisfied. He encouraged me that nothing was cancerous but the cells he was finding were potentialy cancer causing. I ended up having a LEEP surgery on Thursday to remove the abnormal cells on my cervix. I feel fine, everything went well and I go in for my follow up appt in 2 weeks.

Also in May, between the biopsies and surgery, we went on a road trip to California (from Michigan) to pick up our daughter from school. We made a vacation out of it, we did LOTS of sightseeing and walking and one day went to Disneyland. I forgot the sunscreen at the hotel so I got fried! We had a wonderful time though.

The eye opener part is when I was looking through the pictures and seeing how big I've gotten, and trying to fit in some of those seats on the rides. I was secretly praying that someone wouldn't tell me I was to big to ride. I was comparing my size with others that were on the ride.

The other more important eye opener is that I have cancer causing cells in my body and it's been proven that obesity can make these cells cancerous!

I must get rid of this weight for my life!! And that's exactly what I'm going to do!


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KRISTIARLINE 6/2/2013 1:36PM

    I hope you use these eye openers to spur you on. A reality check every so often is a health thing, especially as we are with ourselves 24-7 and don't always see the changes before our own eyes. This is doubly true when you make strides in the weight lose. Let the world reflect what you need to see about yourself without letting it judge you.

Enjoy your time with your daughter. Enjoy your life.

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Saturday, December 01, 2012

Here I am again starting over. This time I think will be different.
Yesterday was my yearly docs visit, he was not happy at all with my gain, again, I don't blame him, I'm not happy either!! I'm 5'2" and weigh 206 pounds!!
So we started talking and both agree that I've been depressed, not suicidal, but just need some help. I'm going to try an anti-depressant. I'm hoping it will give me that extra something to get me off my butt!!!!!

I'll check in again

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MOJOSRUTHIE 1/11/2013 2:07PM

I am starting over also. I was at my heaviest weight last week weighing in at 204.0 pounds! I am 5'5" and in my younger years I was skinny! after 4 children I still weighed 135 pounds. But after my youngest son the pounds just kept creeping on! I am determined to lose 50 pounds by DEC 31st! Never give up! I wish you well emoticon The pic of me in the photo was in 2010 when I dropped 30 pounds. Unfortunately they somehow found me again and brought friend pounds with them emoticon

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You would think.........

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

You would think I would try to lose weight...........

When I saw the 200 number for the first time on the scale (I'm 5'2")...... Nope

When doing most anything leaves me breathless...... Nope

When I know my family is VERY concerned for my health..... Nope

When the doctor put me on 3 blood pressure meds....... Nope

When my knees scream going up or down stairs..... Nope

When my hips keep me up at night in pain..... Nope

When I feel sweat in all my rolls, even in air conditioning...... Nope

When I know the first place I lose weight is in my boobs....... Nope

When I know I feel sooooo much better when I exercise...... Nope

When my pants are so tight it hurts, but refuse to buy bigger....... Nope

When knowing I have pre cancerous cells and losing weight will help..... Nope

I just don't get it, all of these things and I keep gaining!! And I've lost weight before so I know how and what works for me!! I just can't get my head in the game.

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NAOLEE 7/18/2012 9:37PM

    I'm sorry you precancerous cells. If the dr told you that if you lose weight; that will work for you. Maybe you have low self esteem. I will tell you what happened with my father in law. He was smoking a lot and he couldn't breath. I was always behind him telling him to go to the dr, but he did not want to go. Once, my son had asthma and had to go to the pediatrician, and I could not walk a lot and my father offered to take us to the dr. I told him that I accepted him to take us to the dr if he went to the dr. He said yes and we when the doctor and after the dr treated him; took me aside and told me that his lungs were functioning only 15%. I tell you that my father in law stopped smoking since that day. He almost died. That happened more than 15 years and now my father is fine. THANK GOD. Try to make the most of yourself and if you can't; get help soon, please. GOD BLESS YOU.

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LEFTHANDLUKE 7/18/2012 9:12PM

    focus girl...the only one that can stop you from reaching a goal, is YOU....focus, you can do this, and you are worth it... emoticon

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Working full time again, BLAH!!

Sunday, April 01, 2012

Well I'm back to work full time and I HATE it!!!
One of the ladies working just left without telling anyone and moved to Virginia so the boss asked me if I wanted to come back full time. I really wanted to say no so bad but I knew this would relieve a lot of pressure off Jim and give us extra play money. I'm just so grumpy now!

I like doing my workouts in the morning but with working I'm getting up at 5 and have a hard time getting up so no getting up earlier. Then when I get home I'm just tired and have other things to do. Oh well, I just need to figure something out, and fast!!

Today I'm going to go through my cookbooks and find fast healthy dinners for the week, go shopping so then I'll be ready for Monday!

Got my Jillian workout system but only did 2 days of it before going back to work, I loved what I did though so I'm going to continue that after work.

Alright off to get a menu done!!

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KAKAKALI4 5/8/2012 4:09PM

    Go girl! I know what you mean .. I am working at trying to find a few free minutes in everyday .. so we have to do it for us! Keep working at it .. you will figure it out .. I know I sure hope I do!

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