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The first day of the rest of your life.

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

I always thought that saying was cheesy. And I believe each day is a new day and part of the rest of my life no matter how long that life lasts. But today with it's sunshine and warm weather, my first day without internet in my home, does feel like the first day - not necessarily of the rest of my life - but perhaps of the beginning of something good. That's not to say it's an easy 'something', but a more responsible something. (And I didn't think I could ever be more responsible-perhaps I will learn how to be reponsible in a new way.) I got a card for my birthday with a quote by e.e. cummings that said (and I'm paraphrasing) 'It takes courage to grow up and become the person you were meant to be'. Then I got a fortune cookie that said the same thing. I think the Universe is trying to tell me something. :) So...let's see what the Universe means by becoming the person I was meant to be. I have the feeling it will be an adventure.

  
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LINWASH23 1/9/2013 2:18PM

    You can do it . Enjoy this blog post Spit the seeds out
“Don’t let the seeds keep you from enjoying the watermelon”(Lillie in the movie Made for Each Other) Friends, we are on a journey to have a better quality of life by eating healthier and exercising. There will be days that we will want to eat over our calorie limit. There will be days that we will not want to exercise. These are seeds that we have to spit out. So today, spit out the seeds and do what you need to do to have a better life. Spit the seeds out. ‘The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart’ (Lk 6:45 NIV).
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Making a more focused and greater effort

Sunday, January 06, 2013

I'm going to try something that's radical but has worked for me in the past. I am getting rid of my internet hookup. And I may get rid of my computer completely. I need to have more of a life than I do. It would be great if I could use the computer appropriately, but I behave very addictively with it. So I am going to use the computer at my local library branch because it limits the user to one hour at a time. This will help me to be focused when I go there to use it and not just be on there all day 'surfing'. I did some editing of my sparkpage and my list of friends so that I am mostly keeping only the friends who are currently active. I doubt people would even remember who I am anyway since I have been gone so long. But there are definite people whose journey I want to be part of even if it's only in the sense of observing and being inspired. Good luck to you all in 2013 with your life and health goals. I will do my best to check in with sparkpeople daily or at least weekly.

  
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NDORRIS 1/6/2013 5:42PM

    I'm in the process of copying my home address book into my webmail address book. And I have (an old fashioned) paper address book. I'm not worried about losing touch or missing out on things since I can go to the library everyday. It also has the imortant side benefit of getting me out of the house. Otherwise I'm kind of a recluse which is not healthy for me. Also I do have a phone and I do plan to make and receive calls. I hope people WILL call me if something important happens. Thank you for being so concerned about me. And I do have printed materials, but I also plan to use Sparkpeople as I need it (on the library computer). I will probably be back on line at home when I get a new computer (this one breaks down too much). I'd like to get a lap top, so it will take me a while to afford it. See you soon - probably Wednesday this week.

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PICKIE98 1/6/2013 12:59PM

    Wow, that is radical, but you need to do what is best for you. I hope you print out references and such that you may need later on,,, get home addys for people that may be sick or die,etc..
I have only had a pc for about 5 years, so I used the library for about two years,,

best of luck in your new lifestyle,, and yes, we WILL miss you, you Sparker you!! emoticon Good luck!

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Back and motivated

Monday, January 09, 2012

I am happy to be back on SP. I had occassion to read blog posts or check in to see what people were doing, but I didn't commit to using SP fully and consistently. I am doing some new things to help me continue to transition to a healthier lifestyle and I am back to use SP in a balanced way. I plan to track my food and perhaps my exercise, too. I bought a step counter and used it, but when I exercised I learned what it means to be out of touch with your body and how painful it can be to 'overdo it' (based on past exercise behavior, it wasn't overdoing it, but THAT exercise was 50+ lbs ago, and I've had a VERY long stretch of being incapacitated and inactive). Being gentle with myself is not something I've known how to do very well in the past, but I'm better at it now and have plans for continued growth in this and many other areas. Hello to all my sparkpals. I've missed you and thought about you often. I read back through my old blogs just so I could read your loving messages and feel your support right from the beginning of this new start. Yeah freedom! See you on the message boards and in blogs--yours and mine.

  
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RUNNING-LIFE 1/11/2012 11:50AM

    Welcome back! We missed you

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FIREFLUTTERFLY 1/9/2012 2:40PM

    Welcome back!!!

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Progress?

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I've been on Spark People about 2 months. I got excited about finding SP because it is so wonderful. I over-reached it many ways, but I didn't realize that's what I was doing until I started to get frustrated because I couldn't meet the goals I set for myself. I chose too many teams to belong to and then felt guilty because I wasn't contributing the way I felt I should. I felt relieved when someone suggested I cut some of them out and just focus on the ones I wanted to belong to the most. It took a lot of time to fill out the SparkPoints page and I felt overwhelmed sometimes trying to get it all done (it goes a little faster now that I've had some practice). Also someone told me that I don't even have to do it if I don't want to. I didn't know that was an option, there seems to be a big emphasis on SparkPoints from what I can tell. The things I've learned on the message boards have been helpful. Then I noticed I wasn't following the 10% suggestion. The 10% suggestion says that you are more likely to stick to and be successful with small changes to about 10% of your life, or is it making 10% worth of changes (vs. the 50-90% I was shooting for). I was too eager to change too fast and got ahead of what I was really capable of accomplishing. I am nearly 50 years old. I'm not 20, 30 or 40. And I'm not sure I even know what it means to be 50, but I know that my body is wrecked from the mistreatment I've put it through in the last 10 years. Before that I took pretty good care of it, so I'm hoping that once I get going it will remember those good times. I hope that I will cooperate with it's desire to improve. I have been reading some very helpful blogs and articles that have begun to change my outlook. I've read how other Sparkers are struggling. I took a survey that told me what weight loss thought processes have weakened my resolve. The article is 'Is weight loss stressing you out?' I recommend it. So...I was thinking about giving up, withdrawing from SP totally because I wasn't doing what I said I was going to and I felt that made me a failure. Then I read blogs of other Sparkers who left SP 1,2,&3 times and came back. And I thought, why leave, just stick around, look honestly at what is going on, tell the truth and do the next right thing. Don't hide and feel ashamed. So...I'm hanging it all out there and it feels pretty good to get it off my chest. Now I can start anew and be more reasonable and more loving to myself. And isn't that the way to go. Thanks for listenin'.

  
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CAROLYN0107 2/6/2011 10:35PM

    I have only joined SP once but I have joined teams that I have left. I realized that I can not participate in everything and also, I can't "fix" teams that are struggling. I either do not subscribe to "reply" messages or I delete them all and go to "My Recent Messages" to see what threads I'm on and what is active. That way I can go through my emails quickly and I can eliminate all the clicking and opening tabs.
Thanks for choosing our team for activity!
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WUBBIWUWU 1/20/2011 2:36PM

  I think a lot of people can relate to your post. This is my third time on SP. I finally got it by reading the book. Don't overwhelm. Pick one small thing you can do and do it for long enough to make it a habbit. It's tempting to pick the big things that make a big difference. But sometimes those are the hardest to add to your life. So, this year I decided to start with something that I'm sure I can succeed at. Each month I am concentrating on one thing that I want to make a habbit. I dabble in the others, but don't beat myself up if I am not perfect at those. This month is smaller portions. Next month is better sleep. Eventually, no binge eating, but I know that I'm not ready for that yet.

I don't read blogs and teams every day, but when I do, I'm often surprised at how timely the subjects are for my own journey.

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FIREFLUTTERFLY 1/20/2011 1:46PM

    I have gotten overwhelmed and left Spark 3 times already over the last almost 6 years I've been on this site. I always come back because I know it does work when I use it in moderation, this time I have taken several months to build up to all the activity I doing now and if there is a week that I don't feel like dong much I won't.

All that to say, don't give up on the site, you may need to take a step back occasionally for your own sanity but don't completely step away.

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FRACTALMYTH 1/20/2011 1:39PM

    I belong to a whole pile of teams that I don't participate in... I just jump in with the ones who suit where I am at right now... in a few weeks I might need to be somewhere else, but that's ok... Nobody minds if they don't hear from you, unless you join a team which has a specific participation requirement (very rare - like the Biggest Loser Challenge I am doing). I scan the new posts on the other posts, but only when I think of it or have free time :P Sparkpoints are just an added bonus that I hardly ever think about. My main reason for being here is the tools - nutrition and fitness tracker - and the community - blogs and friends - that's who I learn the most from, both by watching their successes and mistakes, and by commenting - which connects me with my own ideas, which I would not otherwise have thought of (if that makes sense) (some people go around thanking every commenter - I rarely have time for that, though I would love to - I really appreciate comments! I try to show my gratitude by commenting in turn.) :D It's my social network of choice and I just take what I need from it when I need it :D Hope you can find your way to doing the same HUGS

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FREES1 1/20/2011 9:58AM

    Hang in there NDorris - the best is yet to come!!! It is easy to get overwhelmed and try to do too much.. I belong to several teams that I rarely, if ever, participate with.. and several with which I am more active.. Some I post to one thread that catches my attention and hit the huddle board.. and you'll find the teams change over time too - join and quit them as they meet your needs and don't over emphasize a need to contribute - just do as you can..
It is good to realize too that you can't change everything at once - and we are more apt to stick to our goals if we set a few small ones and then add to or increase those goals..
The points add up and you get trophies.. you can use the points to give goodies to people you want to motivate or thank or welcome or just for doing something nice.. they show how active you are - but don't let this site take over - do what you can and want to do .. however it seems that the more active you can be with a few teams or message boards the more you're apt to stick with it because of what you get back in support!
Keep the faith - and remember, step by step, inch by inch!

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ADALAI 1/20/2011 8:36AM

    Your eyes, were bigger then your sparkstomach! (Ok, I thought that was funny) But I totally relate. When I joined that first time, and even part of the second, I was all "I must do each of these things." And soon each of these things, became overwhelming and suffocating.


Then I said, let's pick two teams, I can actually get in and feel welcomed/wanted/give and take support from. Let's set those small goals. Getting all my water for two weeks, then I started with knowing Breakfast and Lunch were good, and I was still getting my water, then Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner and snack where good, while still getting water. At the same time like 10 minutes of exercise, and each week adding a bit more, and a bit more.


The Sparkpoints thing is there so you can reward yourself and others with those goodies. Keeps some folks motivated, to think of it, as a video game in some ways.

I am so happy (you have like NO idea how much I love you, and look forwards to reading your blogs, and or comments.) that you decided not to leave, and instead are going to be looking around, and being honest with yourself about what you need from the site, and what you don't.

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Interupted Sleep

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Here I am, awake at 3:30 a.m. again. This sucks. One day, before I die, the Universe may grant me a normal sleep cycle. I'd like to blame it on menopause, or stress. But the truth is that I have never had a normal sleep cycle and it doesn't seem to be related to anything. I've eaten better and gotten better exercise and still been awake in the middle of the night, not with any pressing life issues on my mind. Just awake. Nothing to write about in a journal. No ability to concentrate so I could read a book. I used to think that it was a sacred time for me to do spiritual work. Now I think that it is just a pain in the a**. So at least now I have the computer. It's a little more focused and productive that watching tv or staring out the window. Sorry I'm so whiny, but you know, sleep is a beautiful thing when you can get it.

  
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FRACTALMYTH 1/13/2011 5:59PM

    For me it usully happens about 1am, if I want to get up early to do something fun (like go for my run). I find eating a square of dark chocolate and turning on the kids lullaby cd often works... or I count my blessings or lie there and do pelvic floor exercises until I conk out... if I get up and on the computer, I know I'll stay there until dawn :P

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RUNNING-LIFE 1/12/2011 7:22AM

    Same s***, different day eh? While it's nice to know I'm not alone, I hope all our problems go away (sooner rather than later) emoticon

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EAGLE101 1/12/2011 7:10AM

    Sleep needs and cycles vary for different individuals. If you feel rested you are getting enough. Otherwise there are sleep professionals that may help.

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LILACANDLILY 1/12/2011 6:42AM

    I have woken up at 3:30 the last three mornings!!!! I guess I should jump on the computer too!!!
I normally get up at 4:45 and the dogs get me up if I don't wake up! One cold morning last week, the dogs let me sleep and my husband woke me up to make sure I was OK.....

Sleep is nice....

Hope you have a great day!

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SOPKAMANJU 1/12/2011 6:11AM

    I have a screwed up sleep cycle also an there no one culpirt to blame it on emoticon

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MYBULLDOGS 1/12/2011 6:06AM

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just like kids or puppies we can train our bodies for negative schedules. look at what time your going to bed. what you eating before bed. are you taking a nap? all these items can impact your sleep routine. good luck

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ROX525 1/12/2011 6:03AM

    I am right there with you. At least once a week I take a Tylenol PM so I can sleep a little better. Sorry.

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RYNXXA 1/12/2011 6:03AM

    I have the same problem with sleep. For the past 9 years I've been wondering what this "good night's sleep" I keep hearing about... lol

Either way, I hope you can find a way to sort through that and not let it bring you down.



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