Saturday, November 08, 2014
I keep telling myself I'm gonna get a good STREAK going, but when I discovered my streak page, I realized that I'm full of good intentions, but poor follow through. How do I do this? How do I make the time to exercise, to check in, to track?? I believe that you have to start small, and build up steam, or whatever it is to be successful. I think I have to focus on one activity at a time, at the most, two, if I'm to lose 20 lbs by retirement at the end of April. That's almost 6 months - should be doable, right? So how do I choose?
I think I'll start with the most important thing first - visiting Spark People and checking in every day. I always feel like there's a little correction in my head every time I visit the site. Number 2, drink my water! Just read the water article and it reinforced how important H2O is to health. It's Saturday, let's see if I can get these 2 activities accomplished every day this week.
Of course, there are lots of other things I'll have to do to lose those 20 pounds, but I'm not going to list them till I finish a week of checking in and drinking water first. Doesn't mean I'm going to snarf all the leftover Halloween candy at KMart, or pile on the potatoes and gravy. But I, everyone, has to start somewhere, and having been inconsistent with about 12 other goals, many of which I've forgotten about, these are the two I WILL accomplish this week. I won't even ask you to wish me luck
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
I'm home this week, taking advantage of one of the 6 weeks of PTO I had coming. I plan to retire next Spring, and I'm trying to see how I do with no structure, except the one I impose on myself.
One of the issues that's concerned me is eating. How will I manage my food when I have all day to gobble and snarf. Guess what, I don't! At work, I snack on pre-packaged food, like protein bars. I'm careful with fat and carb counts, but still, these snacks aren't very satisfying, and I eat them so I'm not ravenous at meal times. I don't have them currently at home, so I'm eating our home grown apples, or a piece of cheese, or diet soda, or coffee or tea. I made some pumpkin muffins with real pumpkin, too.
Activity is another issue. Will I sit on my butt all day watching TV, or playing video games? Well, not all day . I can run up and down the stairs doing laundry (vs. sitting in front of my work computer with my ear glued to the phone). I can clean my gardens, I can do housework that I don't get to on the weekend, I can go for walks, or even do an exercise video. I am positive I can lose 20 lbs by my retirement in April and I'm positive retirement will be healthy for me.
This week is a test of sorts, to see how much self-control I can exert, vs the external control of being stuck at my desk, with the inability to do anything else.
Wish me luck as I continue to practice, practice, practice!
Sunday, June 15, 2014
I lately discovered that I'm a "weightist". No, that's not a real word, but it'll do for this confession. I am guilty of judging people by their appearance. Here's the story:
I work with an attractive young professional woman who is probably 100 pounds overweight. She's pretty, smart, has great hair, and a BOYFRIEND! I caught myself thinking, when she mentioned she was going out with someone, who would go out with her? She's FAT! OMG! as they say these days. I mentally slapped myself, then did some self-examination.
I think I learned this prejudice from my always skinny, never weighed more than 125 pounds (and she was ashamed of that) mother. She condemned my father's parents for indulging in too much ice cream, she nagged at my dad when he got to 195 pounds, and she'd make snarky little comments when I was in high school ("here, try these pants on, they won't show so much"), and sent me low cal snacks in my 'care packages' when I was in college. I had gained the 'freshman 15' so weighed 140 lbs. I'm trying hard to get back there now. I've got about 60 pounds to go.
And that's ridiculous! Weight has always colored how I feel about myself, and I know that's true for a lot of Sparkers. I just read a SparkPeople article about knowing when you're weighing yourself too much. Weight shouldn't be the be-all, end-all of your self-esteem. I wonder how many people who might read this have been taught by significant people in their lives that skinny is "good" and fat is "bad". If you don't love yourself, no matter what, how can you take care of yourself? If you're lost in self-condemnation, will you really try to be good to yourself, or will you just give up since "you're a bad person, anyway"?
Yuk! Enough! Let's be kind to ourselves, in every way that counts!
Monday, May 26, 2014
I work four days a week, take Thursdays off. So, I decided to ask for this past Friday as well, to give me 5 whole days off in a row with the Memorial Day Holiday. I wasn't sure exactly what I was going to do with my time, but determined I would not waste it. Flash of Brilliance - why not fill my days as I would in retirement (boy am I looking forward to that!)
I hit the ground running with gardening and household projects. For 4 straight days I worked, and my Zip showed well over 5000 steps each day, without 1 formal walk. I should say that our yard is close to 2 acres, so just to walk around with the grass trimmer takes time. I mixed potting soil, planted, trimmed, washed, stacked, tidied, tossed and had a great time doing it. Boy, did I ache at the end of each day, but the next morning I was off and running again. What a great feeling to do some actual physical work, vs. peering at my computer and talking on the phone all day at my job.
And I hardly thought about food, drank gallons of water, did plenty of strength building exercise, and was utterly relaxed. We had beautiful weather for the first time in months which made the whole experience wonderful. Today, Memorial Day, is cool and cloudy, and it looks like it may rain, but we observe Memorial Day for its somber significance, don't we?
Anyway, I've learned at least one thing about myself; I'm capable of staying active and eating healthy when I have free time to fill up. I'd wondered if all I'd be doing in retirement would be to eat and play on the computer. Guess I'm headed in the right direction, after all!
Thursday, May 15, 2014
I've only lost .4 lbs, but that's better than nothing. I'm actually down about 4 pounds from my worst, but that's not what I listed as my starting weight. You only want to reset your starting weight so many times, you know. Anything to trick my brain.
Maybe it's the improving Spring weather, maybe it's encouragement from Sparkfriends, but I feel more positive about the steps necessary to get healthy. Read a good Sparker Blog today about how it's necessary to re-frame being "hard" on yourself into being kinder to yourself. By doing the things you need to get healthy, you're actually nurturing, not disciplining. Wow, what a total 180 from resentment to enthusiasm!
Another interesting thing (at least to me) has happened. My DH seems to be taking notice that I'm eating better. When I turned down cherry pie last night after supper, saying I'd already exceeded my calorie allotment for the day, he inclined his head, gave me a little smile, and returned the plate and pie to the kitchen. Now, mind you, I haven't directly asked for his help; that gets me into trouble, cuz he starts hiding his cookies and chocolate and I get resentful. However, he has never criticized my eating or my weight, either, bless his heart.
I am feeling really positive today.
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