Wednesday, September 12, 2012
So its Wednesday on week 3 for me!!
While I am working on my weight, I am also working on my mental health since I battle depression quite a bit. My counselor says that I am way too hard on myself. Everything that comes out of my mouth and brain is negative. I have to start using more positive thoughts and words. I told my counselor I was trying to workout and lose weight and get to the gym... He was like you're not TRYING, you are DOING it. Stop saying trying because you are doing it. This positive self talk is new to me. I don't want people to think I'm snobbish or full of myself if I start writing and "praising" myself for little things. I guess that's my big issue, what others think of me and my thoughts... But not worrying about it any more. They don't live my life for me. They don't go through what I go through. So little accomplishment or big accomplishment I'm gonna celebrate it if I have to keep writing here or my other online journal!
I've decided that I am going to refuse the temptation to step on the scale every day. In order for me to avoid it, I may have to move the scale out of the bathroom. Its there and I'm always tempted to get on and see what the numbers look like. But that wouldn't be good because of how much our weight fluctuates throughout the week. I am also keeping up with the inches, as well as my weight. This way if my weight doesn't move I might have lost inches!
Today I did the upper body workout. I managed to do all the reps and sets I had planned. Some were harder than others, but I did get them ALL done. No cheating, no stopping, no shrinking the numbers. I even increased the weight on some! WOOHOO!!! GO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now its time to find a snack.. I'm HUNGRY!!!!!!!! Speaking of food, I gotta figure out what we're having for dinner tonight! Last night I made the broccoli and cheese soup from the SparkPeople Cook book.It was really good! Even my husband liked it!!!!!!!!!! Now to see what I can make tonight!
I'm on a roll! I can do this. I will do this. I will NOT be this weight next year or next month!!!!
Friday, September 07, 2012
I was in a comfort zone for so long and now that I am in a new area, it HARD!!!!!! Oh my goodness, there are some muscles I don't work or haven't worked in a long time and there are others that I don't have such a difficult time with. I managed to complete the workout routines, even though I didn't quite do ALL the reps as planned but I did what I could and let me tell you, my arms are sore and my legs are sore. My arms more than my legs right now.
AND.... I signed up today to start playing volleyball at the YMCA. So first game is tomorrow at 11 am! Hmmm Do I go in early and workout before the game, or just let the game be my workout?! I'm not sure what to do there. This makes the second week that I've been active! I want to turn this into a habit... So I have what two or three more weeks to go!? I know I will reach a plateau at some point but hopefully I'll be in a routine that with no weight loss, I won't get discouraged. I know its not all about the weight. I could be losing inches and not weight!
Another thing, I've decided to keep track of weight and inches during the time that I am doing BFL. I even took a picture of myself in the full length mirror front and side with my phone. I know cheesy but until I can get my husband to take the picture for me, I don't have a choice. I want to attempt a picture every week so I can see the progression over time in the pictures... Wouldn't that be cool to put them in a power point and watch the weight melt away in pictures? Its a thought any way! Maybe I can sweet talk him in to taking the pictures for me.
How long before I start having more energy? I am soooo very sleepy every day around this time or earlier. I have got to figure out how to sleep better or something. I'm just way too tired to do much of anything else right now...
Tuesday, September 04, 2012
Typically when I go to the YMCA, I spend about 20-30 minutes on the treadmill walking. I walk for a mile. Trying to beat my time each day. Then I go and do the machines. I do arms, legs and abs all in one day after walking. I've been doing all that off and on for about 2 years now. I've never done it enough to need to change anything. But I decided that I will change things up. I used to do Body for Life many years ago. It seemed to work for me, although I never completed the whole programs.
So... since this is a new month, I've decided to start BFL again. Which meant today was just cardio, for me is walking, and increasing my speed as I go. I think I will start adding incline at some point but for now its just increasing the speed. Tomorrow will be lower body and then Thursday will be cardio again and Friday will be upper body. The three circuits (upper, lower and cardio) alternate every day for six days, then my 7th day is a free day to eat what I want and not exercise. Which is a nice idea because then I don't feel like I'm "cheating" on my changes!
After my workout, I went to get the groceries for the next two weeks. I freak out when it comes to spending so much money on food! I'm one of those remorseful buyers before I even buy anything! If I think I'm going over my budget, I'll start putting things back that I know I can do without. With buying fresh fruits and vegetables, I was getting scared... very scared!!! But I think that I did pretty good because I only spent $124 and some change. So not too bad when you consider its for two weeks! (or as close to 2 weeks as I can get!)
I'm on my second week and with losing 3.6 lbs in my first week, I decided to set up my goals. I've decided not to reward myself with food or anything to terribly expensive.... But still having trouble coming up with rewards for the smaller goals. My ultimate reward is going to be Disney when I have reached 199! LOL I want to be under 200 lbs. I know I have a LONG way to go, but that's the end goal. This time next year I want to be able to sit in the seats at Heinz Field in Pittsburgh. I don't want to be tired and exhausted any more. I want to be able to shop in the non plus size areas of the stores. I would love to be able to get some "matching" under clothes like from Frederick's of Hollywood or Victoria's Secret.. At least one time to say I did. I want to be able to ride in roller coasters again. I want to go to the water park with my son and be able to ride the rides with him. I felt so bad that my weight was a problem for certain rides. I had to explain it to my 13 year old one time and from then on he was like mom you can't ride this one it says x amount of weight. I know he was looking out for me but it hurts my heart for him to be saying that. He nor I should have to worry about weight requirements when we're trying to have fun! I also want to go on a zip line tour and white water rafting... can you tell I'm an adventurous soul?
So you can see some of the things I want to do... And I will do them. Just give me a year to two years and I will be able to do them. I just have to keep myself pumped up and reminded about it. EVERY DAY!!!!!!!
I GOT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WILL ACCOMPLISH THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(Ugh, thunder, lightening, rain... booming so hard shaking the house, guess its time to log off for a while!!!)
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