Sunday, January 02, 2011
Wow its January 2011 already!!!! Where did the time go to so fast?? And why didnít time fly this fast when I was little????
I donít normally make New Yearís resolutions, but this year I have decided to make a few!
#1: To get up at 5 AM and go work out, at the very least, 5 days a week. I was doing so well before the holidays. I was getting up and going to the YMCA to work out. I was losing weight. I was feeling good. And when I stopped, I began to gain the weight back. I used to have acid reflux 5 out of 7 days a week. Then when I started losing weight it only hit me 1 or 2 a week or none at all. But now its backÖ ugh I hate it, so I know its past time to go back to the gym. I have realized that I canít just start this and lose weight and then stop because the weight comes right back. Iíve got to continue on to keep the weight off. I canít remain lazy. I have to get up and get going.
#2: To write in some journal at least once a day. I have journals online and paper notebooks at home that I keep journals in. I need to write down what I am thinking, what I am feeling, what I am worrying over. I need to keep track of this for my well-being. I want to see how long it takes me to start feeling better about myself. How long it takes me to get out of the depression type of slumps that I get into.
#3: To write a letter to my boys and mail it out at least once a week. I want them to know that even when they are not here with me I still think about them and miss them so much. I want them to know that they can talk to me no matter what. There are times that I feel like a horrible mother because I donít feel like I spend enough time with them when they are here. So I just want them to know that I love them and that I will concentrate on spending more time with them when they are here.
#4: I will write to my husband like I used to do before we were married. Iím the kind of person that has a hard time speaking my feelings and thoughts and wants and desires. So I write them down. Words flow from my mind through my hands to paper so much easier than it does to flow through my mouth! So I will begin keeping a notebook of letters to him again, at least this way he will know how I am feeling, what I am thinking and what I want.
#5: To become less of a home body. I want to get out and do things. I was thinking that maybe I need to volunteer somewhere. I need to do things that I like to do instead of sitting in seclusion all the time. I need some me time or just time to hang with some friends. (I guess I need to make new friends for that to happen. )
I am going to try to make these things into habits. If they become a habit it will not be so hard to continue doing these things on a daily basis. The hardest part is starting and continuing until they become a habit. I am going to use my SparkPeople as much as I possibly can. I think that if I take the time to really read the information thatís on there, I will find things to help me. I honestly donít remember how I stumbled onto Spark People but Iíve been on there a while but have never really sat and explored everything on the site.
So starting today, it all changes for me. Itís all going to become a habit. Itís going to become my new life. Iím happy in life now and I want to be healthier so I can stick around to enjoy it. I want to be healthier so I can enjoy the simplest of things like walking a nature trail with my family without having to sit down and let them go on without me because I am too tired and too wore out to continue. I want to be able to spend more time outside with the boys. I want them to become more active outside rather than staying in the house all the time like Iíve been doing. So I have to set the example for them to follow!
Well I better wrap this up for now so I can finish getting ready to head to the gym. I found out they are open on Sundays so I am not waiting Ďtil tomorrow to start. Today is just as good as tomorrow to start working out again!