The Beginning

Friday, February 19, 2010

So, this is the beginning to a life long change. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being morbidly obese. I'm tired of being depressed when I go to buy clothes for whatever reason. I'm tired of not being able to play in the yard with my boys or chase my step-grandson around the house when he wants to play. I'm tired of being embarrassed. I'm tired of having to have my seats changed at concerts and conferences because my hips are too wide to fit in the seats. I will not be tired of this any more. I'm changing... One day at a time. I lost weight once before without actually trying. I know I can do it now. I went from 314 down to 265! Now I am back up to 324 (my highest weight EVER). With me being this overweight I can't even get insurance if I tried! How insane is that?

My husband got a job in Charlotte on 12/20/09. Then I moved with him to Charlotte on January 17th. We're living with some amazing friends, and our bedroom is on the second floor. I'm so over weight that climbing those 15 steps tires me and makes me breathe very heavy.

Well "E" and I have been working out. She helps me a lot. Any way, we started working out last week. But I only worked out for three days. Well this week, I have to say so far I am quite proud of myself. I have worked out for four days so far. I've noticed that now I don't get as winded and tired when I climb the stairs. Although, when I go up the stairs I hear my left knee crackle!

Last night we did 20 minutes of cardio to something called Zumba. Which is a dancing exercise video. That was tough b/c the people on there are already skinny and in shape and they were moving so fast. I had a very hard time keeping up. I'm very large and I can't move that fast right now. But I kept moving. I have to work through the pain because I am so out of shape. My hips (well where my leg connects to the rest of my body) bother me so bad when I do exercises resembling skating. If I do what some people say and don't push it to pain, then I would not get anything done period! So I push myself through the pain to the point that I can't really take any more at all. And I do have a high threshold for pain!

So I begin this journey one large and tired person. But I will never end my journey, but just take a few different routes and become a smaller, energetic, life loving, happy person!