So the first step is admit that you have a problem so here it is- I am an EMOTIONAL EATER! I am in recovery but I will always struggle with it. I have been doing pretty good for the past 6 months but this week has hit me hard. The thing it is nothing very stressful so I will not bore you with the details but I think that I am scared to be skinny! OMG did I just say that- yep it is true I admit it now time to move on.
I thought it would be a good idea for me to try to identify the signs of when I am emotionally eating. No my emotional eating does not take place while I am crying in my bed or angry with the world. I have learned to deal with those outburst but they are more subtle ways to hide my fears and emotions of uncertainty. So here are the signs for MY emotional eating versus just the enjoyment of some good old fried,salty,sweet foods.
#1 Eating in excess- When I want a burger I eat a burger but I usually don't eat fries. Sometimes I do but then I eat half the bun. These are ways that I use to keep some balance with me meals. I also can not usually eat the whole meal if I don't do this because it is too much food. But don't worry because the Emotional Eating Monster can and WILL eat it ALL . There is no compromise with her- she devours the whole thing and ignores the signal from her tummy. You know the one that says- you are full.
#2 I don't taste my food- Yeah I know this is kind of confusing but let me explain. I am not eating to enjoy the food so I either eat faster or just devour without being able to really enjoy the meal. It is more about eating than tasting.
#3 It goes on and on- So I can't stop with one bad food choice. It must continue. I will give you an example. On Saturday I ate oreo cookies (which are fine to eat) followed by a lemon pie- WHAT?? Yeah that leads to the next one.
#4 Sugar ADDICTION- When I emotional eat all meals MUST end with some type of sugar. Yes all means- this includes breakfast. I don't feel full until this happens. The thing is I am never satisfied because I am not eating to get full, I am eating to stuff my emotions.
I have managed to still remain drinking my 8-10 glasses of water a day
I have stuck to my work out schedule
I am determined to self correct
When I joined SP my major motivation was to not spend another birthday over 200lbs. I was determined that this was the time to make a change. My birthday is February 5th and of today I am 195.5 !!!
Last week I did not lose any weight and I must admit it did have me a little bummed. I really wanted to be 191 by my birthday but that looks like it won't happen but I will get there. So instead of focusing on being frustrated by the scale not moving I decided to just enjoy where I am now.
Nothing brings you perspective like looking back on far you have come, even if you are not where you want to be at that momment. So I looked at some old pics- BIG reality check for me! I cleaned out my closet of old clothes and also donated them. I am a total thrift store addict now so of course I went shopping to replace my too big clothes for some that fit. I took a new profile pic. I did all these things to rejoice in where I am. I kind of to me.
I did not give up on my plan of exercise but I did not beat myself up for not doing all the videos. Total I worked out 4 days this week for 30 min or more.
I did eat what I wanted within reason. A trip to Chickie & Pete's did result in me eating some crab fries (sweet potato and plain w/ those GREAT dipping sauces) . I had never been there and they are famous for the fries. So hey live a little. Yesterday I made homemade hamburgers and they had to be at least 600 calories but so worth fulfilling the craving. YUMMY
So when I stepped on the scale this morning I did not expect to see any loss at all. But I guess maybe the extra day of working out and increase in calories may have broken the plateau. The result was a 1.5 pound loss this week- total loss is 36.5 lbs at 15.7% of my body weight loss.
The plan this week is to try to do 5 days of cardio and keep my meals as balanced as possible- TOM is expected this week so I know I will be extra hungry. I usually stick to whole grains as they keep me fuller longer and maybe a bag of peanut M&M. LOL
I am still here and doing my thing . It has been hard to stay motivated but thankfully with the support of my SP family and others I have been able to stay on task. I did have a run in with some crab fries yesterday but I won . I will not lie to you all and say that I did not eat them- Yeah I did but after 45 min of zumba dance party I am sure that I worked them off- plus I was still within calorie range for the day.
The scale did not move last week. I did a sneak peek this morning and it looks like we may still be at the same place. I am not really sure how I feel about it, but today when I got dressed it all changed. I really like the way my clothes fit and they were even a little big so that must mean I am losing inches. I have lost weight but never really been able to enjoy how my body has changed. So for right now I am just enjoying that. I am going to ride out this plateau because I know it temporary. Soon I will be back to losing and then I will have to go shopping again!
Zumba tonight and cooked a new SP recipe- Honey Mustard Chicken for dinner
I really need to FOCUS!!! For the last few days I have been all over the map not only with food and exercise but just everything. Right now I should be trying to write my paper for class that is due TOMORROW! Get my point.
Let's see for last few months I have tracked my food rain or shine but this week-end I took a break. For me this is a self sabbatoging move that I need to correct. Not tracking my food is way for me to make bad food choices without having to face them. It does not nothing but hurt my progress and hinder my success.
I decided this month to boost my exercise to 5 days a week and so far I have only managed to so than once! Why?? I mean all I need is to get off my booty for 20 min so what is the problem. I have been making excuses and rescheduled my 2 extra days of workouts more times than I can remember. This is another self sabatoge move
I did have some small victories so hope is not totally lost. I can still get it together.
#1 I wanted to eat brownies so bad yesterday. So of course I tried to trick myself into thinking I would make them for my son. Please do not judge- I feel bad enough . So I asked him did he want me to make them for him (of course) and he said NO!! I tried to go another way and get the hubby to buy me some cookies but he said it was too cold to the store. DARN!
#2 Today I really thought I wanted a burger and fries. Not one of those fast food burgers either- you know one of those 1,000 calorie burgers. But then my co-worker said she was going to local sandwich shop so I got turkey on multi grain bread with brie and cranberry sauce!
The thing is that this is not easy. I have my good and bad days like everybody else but I have to be the one who kicks my butt in high gear. I mean I could of made the brownies anyway or went to the store myself. I could of still got a burger but then what would that have accomplished? So this morning I took a new pic of myself to use as motivation. I mean I do look darn good 35lbs lighter- just imagine 30 more.
I am little frustrated this morning because the scale did not move for me this week. I am still at 197 with no weight loss, but then no weight gain either. So I guess I should be happy about that. I did not expect to lose another 3lbs like last week but 1 would have been nice. The thing is that I really did not stick to the same plan that worked for me last week so I should not be suprised about the scale and its nonmovement.
This week I worked out during my normal zumba routine of 3X a week but other than that did nothing. I know that I have to get back on track with my strength training and increasing my cardio. Week 3 of the January Jumpstart challenge starts tomorrow so I know I need to really stick with it and make sure I get all the workouts done.
I had some slips with my food this week but I only went over my calories one day. On Tuesday I went over by a little over 100 calories. I think if I had made bad food choices I would have seen a gain. I am tracking the amount of fruit and veggies I eat and I am averaging about 4-6 servings per day . I also have started to make sure that my protein, fat and carbohydrates are at the recommended percentages to make sure that my meals are balanced. I also sneak in a vegetarian meal this week- Chef Meg's Slow Cooker Chili. It was so good I am going to try to do a vegetarian dinner at least twice a month (baby steps)
This week I also pushed myself to donate some of my clothes that are too big. When I joined SP I wore a size 18-20W but now I am in a 14 regular pants and a XL or 16 shirt. So I finally pushed myself to clean out my closet. I must admit it was scary to get rid of my clothes but I know that as long as they are there I will have an excuse to gain the weight back. I plan a bag twice a week which gives me some time to replace some of my shirts. It is amazing how different I look when I wear clothes that fit
I have zumba this morning and then on to the thrift store to get me some new shirts to match the pants I got last week. Today will be busy for me; working on my paper,cleaning house, food shopping- yeah no rest for the wicked !