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What A Great Experience

Saturday, December 21, 2013

I got my hair cut today, into the beautiful pixie I wanted. I was scared and worried to ask for it. Here is the review I just posted:

went into Sage today having never been there. I recently moved to Bozeman from Albuquerque, New Mexico and hadn't braved finding a new salon. First, I walked in and was immediately assisted, offered water or tea and informed of the status of my appointment, which I had conveniently booked online. I am not a slim girl and medical problems have not helped that. I mention this because I wanted a pixie cut. I was armed with my tablet, where I saved the picture I wanted. I was ready to hear "are you sure" and "that cut won't fit your face", things fat girls often hear when asking for a pixie. What I actually heard was "What a gorgeous cut" and "it's going to look great!". Amanda was my hair artist and her words meant the world to me. I love my haircut and I had the most amazing experience. Thank you so much! I will be going to Sage for all my spa needs from now on.

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ENDUROVET 12/27/2013 4:06PM

    Wow! I wish I could find a great hairstylist for myself, it makes all the diff


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FLAMENM 12/21/2013 9:44PM

    Love the new cut!

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EVIE4NOW 12/21/2013 8:48PM

  She was right. It is a gorgeous cut and looks fabulous on you. Stick with her!

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FITFAIRYQUEEN 12/21/2013 8:47PM

    What a great haircut! You really look beautiful!

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Should I....

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

I have to admit right now, at the start of this blog, that I have been one of "those people". You know the ones, the ones that think fat girls shouldn't do something. But wait, don't I get offended when people say those things to me or about me? I do. So why do I do it? I guess because it's the normal. I've heard such things so much, they must be true. Right? Wrong.

I'm thinking about cutting my hair. I had it dyed and high lighted before my wedding, but the color is really doing some weird things and I'm just over it. I want a more natural look and I may even want my grays to be allowed to come in. The easiest way to do this is to cut my hair. But, I don't think that fat girls, like myself, should have pixie cuts. And it probably wasn't until I wrote this blog that I realized I am such a hypocrite. I think it's time I, and any other person out there who thinks they're too big to do something, stop thinking like that.

I don't think I want to continue to be a hypocrite, so I'm going to get my hair cut and see about getting it evened out color wise. Now, I just have to wait until we have the money...hopefully in a week or two. :-)

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GARDENCHRIS 12/19/2013 7:41AM

    my hair is shorter than some mens haircuts..... it suits me and It is all gray and proud of it! I've earned every one of those grey hairs! emoticon

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NATTY0488 12/18/2013 6:15PM

    I had hair that was halfway down my back a year ago and I cut it into a short bob last year and it's just started to go just past my shoulders. But, I really think that this is the best time for me to do it. I work at a job where I can wear sweatpants to work and my boss is super laid back and I won't feel judged.

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CHRIAMARIA1983 12/18/2013 6:07PM

    I've seen a lot of heavier girls with short hair. I myself have short hair and although I'd felt like you for awhile decided that I didn't care what people thought. I love my hair short. Do I want it short forever? Probably not, but we have choices. Don't take that freedom from yourself. If you hate it you can grow it out.

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NATTY0488 12/18/2013 5:49PM

    I never realized that I was putting myself down like that. I always looked at it like I was somehow helping myself. But, the truth of the matter is that I really LOVE the look of a pixie cut and I don't care if people think my face is too fat for one.

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SHERREE66 12/18/2013 5:07PM

    You have a great face. I'm sure you could pull off any length. Make sure you post pictures if you do.

It sounds like you not only want to make a change on the outside. Now that you realize the mistake you have making take this time to make a change inside. Treat others the way you would want to be treated.


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Things I Remind Myself

Friday, December 13, 2013

We all need to remind ourselves of things to keep us going.

For me it's where I was about 58 weeks ago. I weighed 187 pounds. I was in a size 9/11 or 10/12. It was great. I felt amazing. I was confident. I was happy.

Then my back went out.

I was put on oral steroids, an extremely high dose.
My testosterone shot through the roof, creating a false "pre-diabetic" condition in my body.
I received 4 steroid shots.
I was taken off my birth control, something that actually helped me lose weight because my body needs the estrogen.
I got depressed from my rapid weight gain. By March I weighed 240ish pounds.
I gained weight from my depression.

By my wedding in September I weighed 267, the most I've ever weighed in my life.

I quit smoking.

So why do I remind myself these things?

So I don't let them give me shots or steroids again, ever. I will get surgery before I get those shots again.

So I don't let the depression win. Being depressed over something I can't change is a waste of my time. I will tell myself that whenever I feel the darkness creeping in.

So I remember that a hormonal imbalance can be treated. I will be getting back on birth control shortly.

So that I don't pick a cigarette up again. I've already won that battle. Why take a win away from myself?

And so that I remember I was 80 pounds lighter just over a year ago. I can do it again.

And most importantly, so that I remember that even if things happen that I can't control, I control how I react to them. I could have started losing weight a couple months ago and I didn't because I chose to let the depression win.

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CHRIAMARIA1983 12/16/2013 1:43PM

    Well, you are on the right track now. I know how it is to gain weight after you were smaller. Its frustrating, but all we can do is push forward and keep trying.

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NATTY0488 12/14/2013 6:07PM

    I don't know why, but I never even considered the shots would have near the same effect as the oral steroids, until after talking to my primary care doctor AFTER the four shots. She had been working with me over the summer, prior to my back going out, on my weight loss and was one of the main reasons I was doing so well, actually. She got me on medications that worked with the fact that I couldn't be on hormones to fix my imbalance, since I was pre-cancerous the year before for cervical cancer and it was too risky. She wasn't just focused on writing prescriptions though. She got me involved with yoga, hot yoga and even some natural supplements to help. When I went in after the 4th shot, she told me not to be discouraged, that she wasn't surprised by the drastic gain. I was surprised and I was discouraged. For months. I'm so glad I've got my motivation back. I just wish I hadn't moved away from such a great primary care doctor! Lol.

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CONFUSEDBIRD 12/14/2013 8:39AM

    Steroids are awful I am sorry they are causing you trouble. They are good and bad that's for sure. Try to focus on the future and leave the past behind, today is a new day to do the best you can.

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CAROLINAKIWI 12/13/2013 4:40PM

    You hit the nail on the head. Sounds like me talking to myself. Hang in there!

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2 Months In

Monday, December 09, 2013

My wedding pictures were probably the biggest motivation for me to get moving again. It was hard seeing myself. I avoid pictures, and normally do even when I feel good about myself. I weighed 265 the day I got married, two months ago. I moved a month later and ended up living with my in-laws for a month. They, and my husband, are snackers. At my apartment, I control the groceries, so my husband doesn't get a lot of unhealthy snacks. And, if he wants them, he gets ones I don't like. That way I don't eat them. My biggest vice is soda. I love Coca-Cola and I know it's bad for me. But, I used to drink at least 3 or 4 a day, now I'm down to 1, maybe 2, if we go out or if I am really craving soda and have some in the house. My weight loss is slower than most people's, simply because I have a lot of medical issues. That being said, I am consistently showing about a 10 pound loss from my wedding and couldn't be prouder of it. It may have taken me 2 months to get there. But, I did it and even when I would mess up with my eating or not working out, I wouldn't let one bad day stop me. I have been consistently trying since my wedding and that 10 pounds shows it.

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NATTY0488 12/9/2013 3:17PM


Anonsi, I'm in LOVE with my rowing machine. It's one of the best workouts for my back condition and if I miss more than a couple days, my back actually feels worse! So, I have GREAT motivation for wanting to do it.


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ANONSI 12/9/2013 2:57PM

    Way to go! I'm especially impressed with your new rowing machine habit. Rowing machines are HARD work! I need to take a page from your book and start moving more. Thanks for the inspiration.

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SHELL1400_85 12/9/2013 12:59PM

    Good for you! Keep that positive attitude!

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Habit Building Challenge

Monday, December 09, 2013

It can take a few weeks for something to become habit, something we do without thinking.

My goal is to build a habit where I simply move more. So, for every 30 minutes of television I watch, I do 5 minutes of rowing. I moved my rowing machine in front of my tv and have been going strong for just over a week now.

I've lost a decent amount of weight, which I'm counting as a nifty bonus. The purpose is to get to the point where every time I sit down to watch tv, I do a quick workout, so that I'm not sedentary and just wasting time.

Next month I'll probably switch to my stepper instead of a rowing machine, but I will keep this up. I haven't been doing any other exercising at this point, because I do have a really bad back, but next month the goal will be to throw in some HIIT, which I've discovered I love. It's fast paced and by mixing it up, I find my back hurts less.

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!!


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