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August 13th-16th (Day 11-15)

Friday, August 16, 2013

Well blah. I just am so frustrated. I havent been eating the greatest but I havent been eating terribly either. I have been exercising like crazy and what happens... I GAIN WEIGHT. I can't even believe it. I just feel so frustrated - but I am trying hard not to give up.

Still in the mood to train for a half marathon and that is what is keeping me going.


August 12th - Day 11

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Ooops - labeled my last blog entry wrong - it should have been days 9-11.

Anyways, yesterday I think I fell the entire way off the bandwagon. I have recognized that the past week I have been "emotional eating" like crazy... and the scale shows it.
Yesterday I did have some victories (like skipping the pizza at my school function and skipping going out to eat after the school function) but when I got home - admittedly I still didnt eat the best food that I could have.

Everything seems to be irritating me lately. I buy healthy food (like salad and veggies) and a day later it is moldy and rotting in my fridge (thanks, Wal Mart)... But where else should I buy good healthy food? Nowhere around where I am sells GOOOD produce - except for the farmer's market - and I would LOVE to buy my veggies there - but realistically - who can afford $3/tomato?? Not me... I guess in the end at least I wouldnt be wasting the food because it wouldnt rot like the Wal Mart stuff does... but still cannot really afford it.

So the scale hasnt been my friend - neither has my moods - but today I am trying to force myself back into the right frame of mind. I read something today that I really liked in regards to emotional eating:

"Do you want the food you have been craving for an hour, or the body you have been craving your whole life." What a great way to put it into perspective!!!

I have a work function tonight but I plan to go home and definitely get in some exercise. I need to be getting more sleep too, but I'll have to take that one step at a time - because there just is not enough time in the day to get everything done. More updates tomorrow on how today went... I plan to stick to my calorie ranges from now on (and so far so good for today).

Fingers crossed. I want this bad enough that I really think I can do it if I put my mind to it.

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NAIRAHMAN 8/13/2013 2:42PM

    We do have some frozen veggies - but for salads and stuff I try and buy fresh. Admittedly my fridge probably needs cleaned out and wiped and disinfected... maybe I will try that and see if it helps! It is even unopened packages, though, that are giving me trouble. BUT - it is definitely worth a try :)

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CHUBBYFENCER 8/13/2013 1:21PM

    That sucks that your healthy food purchases have not been lasting long! Out of curiosity, do you routinely clean your refrigerator's shelves and drawers? Sometimes, mold spores can be really stubborn and can hang around even after you've gotten rid of the offending "freggies", especially if they've been stored outside of tupperware or plastic.

Do you have room in your freezer to put frozen vegetables? They're usually pretty economical and all you have to do is stick them in a steamer/boiling water/microwave. Those are what I usually turn to when I have those, "OMG screw cooking but I'm feeling too cheap to eat out either" nights.

I hope you reach your goals for today and start feeling better soon!

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August 9th, 10th, 11th, Days 8-10

Monday, August 12, 2013

Successes and not so successes this weekend.
Friday was terrible - I am an emotional eater and ate myself into a stupor because of my terrible day.
Saturday I woke up with a vengeance and went straight to the gym and ran 7 miles (the longest I have EVER run at one time). I ate pretty well Saturday and Sunday - and Sunday I ran another 3.2 miles (5k) but the scale is not reflecting any hard work. I'm frustrated. So, I decided to switch it up and today I will be starting Insanity with my hubby.

We will see what happens - but something has got to give!


August 7th - Day 7/ August 8th - Day 8

Friday, August 09, 2013

The past few days were so-so.

I think mentally I am really in a bad place... So after my awful eating habits for lunch on 8-7-13 I was skeptical about how my motivation would be after work. I went to the gym right away to work out and was doing really well - 11 minute mile and I was up to 15 minutes and then... my biggest pet peeve at the gym... my hand hits the stupid emergency stop and the treadmill shuts off. Sure, normal people would just start over, right? But me... I leave the gym in tears because starting over makes me feel like I didnt even do the first mile and a half... I get home and I sit on the couch ready to give up - and then I look at my computer and remember you guys and how motivated you all are and how gorgeous and amazing you are going to look... so I got my butt up and kept running, and then did some weight lifting and crunches and butt exercises etc.... a really really good workout THANK YOU for keeping me on target.

Thursday I was sick so I didnt do much as far as exercise - although I did push through some of the dizzyness and do crunches and a bit of running in place while I watched the biggest loser. Even though it was my anniversary (5 years!) and exactly 1 year (and 1 day) before my wedding - I still ate within my calorie ranges even though we ate applebees for dinner. That was for sure a proud moment!

The scale isnt reflecting the changes/good decisions, though - so that is pretty frustrating. I guess just overall I am really frustrated. I'm not sure what I am doing wrong - even eating well and exercising isnt doing the trick right now - perhaps stress is playing a role? Work has been overwhelmingly rough the past few weeks - so I wonder if that could be why the scale is not being friendly?


August 6th - Day 6

Wednesday, August 07, 2013

I keep falling further and further off the bandwagon (maybe even off the cliff). I am definitely a stress eater, and as stress increases, so does my bad eating habits.

Ultimately the day sucked for food but I did get in a bit of exercise (not nearly as intense or as much as I should have though). I did make a really healthy and filling dinner but it was almost "too little too late" after eating like crap the whole day. It was delicious though, and I plan to make these dishes again for sure.

Need to get my head on straight... so frustrated.

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CHUBBYFENCER 8/8/2013 2:20AM

    I'm a stress eater, too! Big time! The most important thing you can do is not let that frustration stop you from seeing your successes throughout the day. You've already laid down a strong foundation for yourself by 1) identifying when you are likely to make poor nutrition decisions, 2) exercising anyway, and 3) stopping the behaviour before the day ends.

I agree with JB7OUT - there is no "too little too late". You would have been much worse off if you had said, "Screw it, I already made the mistake. I'll skip exercise and have ice cream, while I'm at it."

Every "right choice" you make is a practiced bout of self control over a maladaptive coping mechanism. The more you practice, the easier it will be in the future.

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JB7OUT 8/7/2013 5:01PM

    Its never too little too late. Instead of calling that the end of the food day, call it the start of the new way.

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