OK- so i died through the first of the week on this p90x. like heaving on the floor- i am VERY out of shape i have come to find. I couldn't finish almost all of my workouts this week. I am going at this alone. I need a motivator to keep pushing myself. My diet is going ok. Unfortunately I have only been having like 1000 calories a day. I need at least 2000 to sustain these workouts. Any advice? I am not eating any sugar, carb, starch...... but I'm already sick of fruit. i don't know what to do..... i need a fire lit under me again. my mind is already saying screw it this is too tough.... but then i remind myself how bad i need and want this to work.
So I am 22 years old. I have the most precious little boy. However, I have been so down and out on myself because I am not "hot" like all my friends anymore. I have been in denial thinking that i should just accept my weight and accept my body and just be satisfied with what I have. These past few months I've really come to notice how insecure I am when I am getting dressed, and how much I try to hide away my body when another girl walks in the room. I am tired of feeling like crap. And honestly, I am tired of being lazy. These past two years I've chalked it up to the fact that my son hates the carseat and how much of a pain in the butt it is to even go to the grocery store- so we haven't done much but sit in the house. I've used it as an excuse. I want to change that. I want to quit my excuses. I would rather tire of a workout that could land me in a size down than tire after a climb up the stairs in my house. I am planning on blogging throughout my journey. I am a super organized OCD machine- so I have calendared my food plan and exercise regiment. Both of which are going to be a HUGE adjustment for me physically and mentally, but I will just need to keep in mind what I will have in the end. Sorry if my pictures aren't easy on the eyes, but that's the point of this right? To have an ugly beginning and a beautiful end. I appreciate any tips or support! But I am ready and overexcited to start the beginning of a new me! Thanks :)