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Sunday, May 15, 2011

I talked to my husband about turning one of the rooms in our house into a space for me to work out in, that way I wouldn't have to be out of the house for more than 10 hours a day going to and from the gym. It wouldn't be expensive, I don't need cardio equipment, I could use a jump rope, or go for a run, I just want to have some weights and bands, maybe a bench, and a full length mirror. I already have an exercise ball, yoga mat, and some weights, so it wouldn't be too hard to set a little something up. My husband told me, why should we take time to move stuff around for you to keep working out maybe for another month, at the most. It was like he smacked me in the face, yes it's true I have yo-yo'd in the past, but it hurts to know that my husband has absolutely ZERO faith in me, I don't want to eat a ton, and I already did my workout for today, but I do want to cry. I really wish that I could take his lack of faith and turn it into motivation, but I don't know if I can do that, it's not something that I've ever done before, usually when people lack faith in me, I live up to their lack of faith. My feelings are so hurt right now, just taking it one second at a time, and I'm not going to let it discourage my workout tomorrow...heck, maybe I'll even go for another run tonight after I get off work, maybe I just have to let myself be motivated, I am going to prove him wrong!!


This time it's harder, but this time I'm not giving up

Saturday, May 07, 2011

I've had a cycle of ups and downs with my weight for as long as I can remember. I love food, and I hate exercise so weight is definitely a struggle. Let me rephrase, I don't hate exercise, because I love the feeling of accomplishment when I've finished as well as the euphoria that comes with a good sweat, but I dread going to the gym, or outside, or doing anything physically taxing. I love it when it's over, but hate it before it begins, while I'm doing it, it's not so bad.

For the past month I've been pushing myself harder than I've ever pushed myself before, limiting calories, lifting weights, and doing cardio. I've never seen such a minimal return for my efforts before nor have I ever worked so hard. I have to admit that it's frustrating, but I know I'm doing the right things for my body, my health, and my future. It's discouraging to see such minimal results, but it's encouraging to know that I'm not in this for a week or a month, but for life. I want to be stronger, have more energy, and be healthier. I want to hold my grandchildren's children, I want to live a long happy and loving life, and beat all of these challenges that extra weight has presented. I can do it and I will. Everyday is an opportunity for success, and I will be successful.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

JENMC14 5/7/2011 5:16AM

    Great attitidue! You can do this! Keep itup! DOn't let the slow weight loss discourage you! I suggest taking measurements and seeing if you've lost any inches. That's great motivation, too!

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SWEETPEACH84 5/7/2011 2:30AM

    I feel the same way about exercise. I dread going to the gym for various reasons and I make up hundreds of excuses not to just go for a walk or do a work out video. But when I'm doing and once it's over I feel amazing. I feel strong and happy. I actually like the soreness I feel in my body and I believe that exercise really is the best anti depressant. Keep working hard and I'm sure you will start seeing the results you want.

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MZZMELISSA 5/7/2011 2:27AM

  Thanks for the positive comments!! I will def let you know if I find a super fun cardio routine, some of my friends have suggested Zumba, I'm a terrible dancer so I don't know yet, anyone have any info on Zumba?

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LAMOURA 5/7/2011 2:12AM

    AWESOME!! Girl you belong in torture chambers!! Come join us!! Your AWESOME!! emoticon One of our motto's in the chambers is...push push push until you can't push no more and then push a great workout as well.

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AGASSIFAN 5/7/2011 1:25AM

    If you find the key to LIKING doing your cardio....please let me would be nice to LIKE putting myself through this...but I am committed to doing my cardio EVERY DAY....just would be nice to enjoy it...

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NEWSOMEP55 5/7/2011 1:01AM

  I like this ,this time I am not giving up because I feel the same way ,tired of the up and down with weight , but this time I am not giving up I want to reach my goal and keep the weight off.

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