Thursday, March 13, 2008
Okay, so I have been at this dieting thing now for about 5 mons. I know, I know that is a long time to keep starting and stopping something that is so beneficial to life. Well I think I had an ampiphony after taking some pictures of myself the other day that really disgust me. I can't do this eat a little here, workout there, and then think I am suppose to see some results. Don't get me wrong, I have learned so much from being on SP and I love the people. But it is only so much one can be taught before you have to step up and do it on your own.
So I took the pics, cried a little, felt sorry for myself, got comfort and compliments from my fiancÚ, and told myself to suck it up and just get it done. I changed my goal weight and goal date to something a little more realistic; and I also changed my daily cardio minutes. I have all the knowledge you can think of when it comes to weight loss and you would think this stuff should be a breeze. Nope, um um it isn't happening. So my new thing is to take it one day and one step at a time. Also, I'm learning to just do it, get it over with, and then forget about it. There are so many other things that I SHOULD be doing than worrying about "dieting". I learning how to sew-my sister calls me the "Black Martha Stewart", I am still putting together my model cars and the ones we drive, and most importantly I have my babies to teach everything I know and then some.
I know I am an awesome person and sometimes I still wonder what GOD has planned for me. But then I stop and think that maybe THIS is his plan, just live my life according to him and get prepared for when he wants me at my REAL home. I can and I will do this for me first, my babies and my soul mate, for a healthy life, and strength.