Just another day

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Okay, so I have been at this dieting thing now for about 5 mons. I know, I know that is a long time to keep starting and stopping something that is so beneficial to life. Well I think I had an ampiphony after taking some pictures of myself the other day that really disgust me. I can't do this eat a little here, workout there, and then think I am suppose to see some results. Don't get me wrong, I have learned so much from being on SP and I love the people. But it is only so much one can be taught before you have to step up and do it on your own.

So I took the pics, cried a little, felt sorry for myself, got comfort and compliments from my fiancé, and told myself to suck it up and just get it done. I changed my goal weight and goal date to something a little more realistic; and I also changed my daily cardio minutes. I have all the knowledge you can think of when it comes to weight loss and you would think this stuff should be a breeze. Nope, um um it isn't happening. So my new thing is to take it one day and one step at a time. Also, I'm learning to just do it, get it over with, and then forget about it. There are so many other things that I SHOULD be doing than worrying about "dieting". I learning how to sew-my sister calls me the "Black Martha Stewart", I am still putting together my model cars and the ones we drive, and most importantly I have my babies to teach everything I know and then some.

I know I am an awesome person and sometimes I still wonder what GOD has planned for me. But then I stop and think that maybe THIS is his plan, just live my life according to him and get prepared for when he wants me at my REAL home. I can and I will do this for me first, my babies and my soul mate, for a healthy life, and strength.

  

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CURVATIOUS 3/14/2008 12:13PM

1st off I want to say that you are a phenomenal woman!! You can do all things through christ who strengthens us!!! have you truly taken this problem to him and laid it at his feet and said here it is God I can't do it NE more and I need you to fix this?? Girl I had too!! Since then I have been able to find my motivation and determination. A month ago I was just like you working out here and there eating right today, but tomorrow eating what I wanted. Then I just got discouraged and like you said have all the knowledge of what i need to be doing to lose weight but NO! NO motivation! I have 3 babies and I want to be around for them but i have had high B/P since 4ever and even knowing all of this you would think that this would light some fire under my butt. It did but 2 a certain extent!! It was after I prayed, cried, complained, felt sorry for myself and then just let God be who is and let him take me on this journey! Since getting to the point you are at, I found my determination!! Since March 1st I have been working out daily and eating right and I give all thanks to himb/c it wasn't til I gave it to him truly with no hesitations or but, and ifs in the mix did I see results!!! I am praying 4 you and I know that this is just a mountain for you climb and on the other side is your victory!! In a way you had to get 2 this point 2 really get your mind where it need s to be to see the results that you need. Keep your head up and stay encouraged! We got 2 be here 2 see our children grow!! Stay encouraged, Maria Report Inappropriate Comment

One More Day

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Okay it is November 17, 2007. This isn't my first time trying to lose weight and from visiting other sp member pages, I am not alone. This is also not my first time wanting to give up either, but I think I am going to give it one more day. For some odd reason or two or three, my life is a little too hectic to actually dedicate myself to perseverance- Steady persistence in adhering to a course of action, a belief, or a purpose; steadfastness. I cannot give %110 or even %50 half of the time and it is so frustrating. I have a goal, a plan, I'm on a mission. So what seems to be the hold up, what is the problem, why can't I do this? These are all the things that I ask myself all during the day when I feel as if I am falling off the edge with nothing and no one around to grab a hold of me.

There is a lack of communication between me and my other half that constantly keeps my mind twirling to figure out things on my own. Deep down inside I want to feel as if everything will be okay. My solution for that is to sleep on it and when I wake up the situation will be different! Funny huh, totally wrong. Nothing goes away by sleeping on it except for maybe a headache. I have learned from so many others here on this site that persistence is the key. So each day; I may not follow my calorie intake exactly or I may not get that much needed cardio or strength training in, but I have trained my body to do small steps that I have learned from reading or other people. That is a start, right? But why does it seem like everday is a start and not a contiuance of the next day and the next until I reach my goal?

Well I'm going to give it another try. I really want to do this for so many reasons and of course for myself as well. It use to be for everyone else, but I can't do that anymore. I have to put myself first and come up with successful ways of getting it done. Where there is a will, there is a way and I will definitely find one somehow.

  

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SHADOWPUP 11/17/2007 7:30PM

What you are describing truly *is* perseverence and courage. People with the courage to change do not have it easy. They often want to quit - to take the familiar route - to stop trying so very hard. Ironically, perseverence and focus aren't about having the time: they are about having the attitude. Reading your post, you HAVE what you need! You've got the attitude, and the will. Going forward 'just one more day" is all it takes. Perfection is not required :) Hope you don't mind my saying all this; you sound like me, when I started on this lifestyle change, and I wanted to tell you why I'm confident you really have what it takes to accomplish your goals. Report Inappropriate Comment