The First Second of the Rest of My Life

Sunday, November 01, 2009

I'm tired. Tired of thinking about my weight. Tired of not feeling well. Tired of being tired. Tired of being obsessive. I obsess about what's wrong. I obsess about what's right. I obsess about what might happen. I obsess about what has happened. The bottom line is I'm tire of THINKING!

Someone once said that when we make a decision we should accept it as the right decision and move forward on that foundation. I don't do that. I immediately second guess myself or purposely sabotage myself. What a weakling I am.

And yet I have been different. I have taken control. I have taken action. I need to do it again; plain and simple. Second guessing is just an excuse for being lazy. And lazy is the way to the my destruction---mind, body, and spirit.

Fall down seven times
Get up eight.
This is not the first DAY of the rest of my life. It is the first SECOND of the rest of my life. Not day by day; not minute by minute but second by second.

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Finally a positive step

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I'm feeling good about my goal chart. It's finally a positive step on my part. I purposely chose 6 goals, 3 food & 3 exercise, that are easily achievable just to prove to myself that I can do it. How these goals change my weight ticker remains to be seen but I feel confident that they will allow me to accomplish lowering my GL for my Dr.'s appointment while proving to myself that I can do it. A few pounds will be the reward.
So with my colorful chart in hand I am moving forward with confidence.
One Day At A Time---step, step, step

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Light Bulb Moments Suspended in Time

Saturday, September 26, 2009

I have noticed that my lightbulb moments are usually very logical discoveries that I should have picked up way before.
My lightbulb moment today was this. My biggest trigger time to graze starts the minute I get home from work and continues throughout the evening. So if sipping a smoothie throughout the morning keeps me from getting hungry, doesn't it stand to reason that if I have a smoothie on hand to sip through the evening I should be deterred from picking at all those carbs?
I sure think its worth a try and will begin to double the size I blend together in the morning and it will be waiting for me when I arrive home. Yep, its a plan.

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Baby Step or Senior Stride?

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Baby Step or Senior Stride?
after all I have less time to get there HAHA!

A Baby Step or a Senior Stride? The term Baby Steps is often advocated as a good way to achieve a goal and keep it. I have no argument with that because it works.

But for me turning 60 officially ushers me into the Senior arena.Everyone has their own interpretation of when a person becomes a Senior. In my mind that has always been the age of 60 and I have decided to think of this as a milestone and enjoy the accomplishment. I will no longer strive to stay young but rather will do what it takes to be someone who is in 'good shape for my age' (as my mother would have said :- ) I will wear my age with pride and share the knowledge of my years with those around me with love, humor and yes a kick in the pants from time to time.

To that end I have stopped coloring my hair and will instead wear my crown of gray as a banner of wisdom.

So while those of you who are younger than I continue to take Baby Steps as you grow in knowledge and move toward your goals; I on the other hand will be taking Senior Strides to live the next few decades as a healthy and contented woman of maturity.

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Commitment versus Pressure

Friday, September 18, 2009

Committment: something pledged to; a trust
Pressure: the burden of physical or mental distress

So where have I gone wrong in the past or better yet where will I go in the future?

My answer today is that in the past I have allowed my committments to become pressures. A self-defeating progression to be sure. But as Maya Angelou says "When we know better; we do better"

What I notice about committment is that it is not something I HAVE to do but something I say I will do of my own freewill----big difference. In the past I have viewed my commitments as written in stone and I would pressure (burden) myself with guilt when I didn't carry out the commitment immediately and perfectly. To coin a phrase---"pressurized commitment". It doesn't even sound pleasant; let alone be something I want to do or stay with. Then when I failed I would just throw up my hands and say 'what's the use? where are those cookies?'

So today I pledge to put movement back in my life and find pleasure not pressure in choosing to eat in quantities that will restore my health sensibly and not tax my body with foods that only bring momentary pleasure or short term relief from distress and have no long term benefits. And I will not pressurize this commitment with mental distress but will pause often to be aware of my thoughts and actions and the reasons behind them and yes, once again EnJOY the Journey.

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