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Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Still doing good. Losing weight. Not eating too much but still somehow managed to make my nice healthy wheat toast more fattening. lol. Its okay though I wont let that damage my good feelings about what I have been doing. I have been home alone a lot lately and usually that is like the death of me when it comes to eating. I get that damn boredom munchies but lately I haven't really had that but when I do get it I try to satisfy it with the first thing I wanted. That helps so much because then it just disappears. emoticon


Life and What not.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

I been losing weight thank god. Not from actually trying though. Just from being to poor to actually be able to buy any food. lol. Also from living with 2 guys which I don't care if they see what I eat because one is my cousin and the other I can't stand as a person anyways lol. But really because our/their friends are over here constantly and I can't bare for them to see me eat anything. I have also been trying to work out a little bit more in the privacy of my own room because I have nothing to do during the day while everyone is in class. All in all it is going really good and I am proud of myself. If I keep it up I will be looking damn good in no time. Even though I am already cute =). (Gotta stay confident in myself)

On another note. I have decided to go to that guys place on my own on Friday to pick up my glasses (not like I give a crap about the glasses. Just a nice excuse to see him). I will finally tell him how I feel and see how that goes. I may pass out or puke but at least I will have finally told somebody I like that I like them lol. And It's not like I'm telling him I like him for my own benefit. It is also for his. He feels like nobody likes him like that. Maybe by me saying something he will finally realize that people do like him and he is worth a lot. I just hope he believes me lol =)

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MYSCALETIPS 8/30/2011 10:31PM

    Thank you =)

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ESOLLING 8/30/2011 10:02PM

    Good luck on Friday! :)

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PLEASE READ!!!! HELP ME! I know it is long but I need advice.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Yeah I know this isn't a weight loss blog or anything like that. But I really need help with a guy thing. I know I sound weird and stupid for asking this question but I never believe people I actually know so maybe strangers will help me out.

So here it goes.

I live in a college town and was a janitor for the summer. I am 22 and while working there I met an older shy guy that I started to have massive feelings for. He doesn't like people but he liked hanging around me and one other girl that I met there. One day I told her how I felt about him and she told me "Oh my god you need to tell him. I think he likes you too. I always catch him staring at you." The next day at work she texts me while we were all in the room just to tell me that he was staring at me and he looked up and saw her looking at him and he was like "what?” I also always caught him many, many times too.

He also always hated to be touched by anybody and when they would he would squirm and run away yet every time I did it he wouldn’t move at all. One day I said “uhh I touched you and you didn’t move” he was like “I gave you a look”. That is another weird thing.

We had a BBQ at another workers house and we got him to ride there with us and another guy. When we got there he wouldn't sit down. I told him to sit down and that I wouldn't bite him lol. Then he sat down on the couch next to me but he looked super stiff and so I was like you know you can spread out a bit more. He finally got comfortable and for some reason pulled my keys out of my purse. For some reason he always liked to play with anything I had lying around like my keys or my phone or my ipod.

Me and my friend like to make him kind of uncomfortable to make him come out of his shell so after the BBQ when we dropped him off we told him that we will be coming over to hang out. We ended up buying some mikes hard. When we got to his place he was super uncomfortable but we all got to talking and it was ok. My friend kept asking him questions and he hates it because we get so much out of him lol. So then she told me to tell him my "secret.” I told her no. And she was like please we don’t know to much about you. He just turns his whole body to me, smiles and says "yes let’s hear about you." (Another thing is he hates is hearing about people. Except one time at work, the 3 of us were talking about drunken awkward moments. He really wanted know mine but I never ended up telling him about it.) "I don't know anything about you except that you are an animal lover and I like that." I thought that was an odd thing to say. Then he started asking me questions like "do you play any instruments? Do you play any sports?" which I answered no to both. So then he tells me "you should play hockey! I love hockey and used to play." My friend then asks "are hockey girls hot?" And he replies with "oh yeah".

When I told him that it was my last day of work he got all shocked and was like “what today is your last day?” and I was just like yeah. He was like “well a little bit of warning would have been nice.” He looked kind of upset and made a little moan. At the end of the day our boss and a lady we worked with were in our boss’s office having a really heated argument. I saw the guy I liked coming down the hall so I stretched out to look at him and he did the same thing. Somebody saw him do it and he was like “she peeped at me so I peeped back at her.” When he noticed that our co-worker and boss were fighting he looked at me and I was like “what?” He was like “I’m scared” “can I hide behind you?” I was standing in front of a wall with a tiny garbage can behind me so I was like “uh I guess if you want to stand in the garbage can.” So he came up right next to me and stood there cowering.” He was like super close and he hates being that close to people. When we were leaving I had planned on telling him how I felt. But he like took off in one direction and I went in the other direction. All I could do was yell “bye….” but all he said back was “yeah”. I had a friend that still worked there and before I left I found some glasses and I left them there so my friend ended up putting them in his backpack and telling him I would be by his place to pick them up. All he said was “now I can’t roam around my house naked all the time” lol.

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MYSCALETIPS 8/27/2011 2:49PM

    Yes he really is very introverted but so am I. That is a huge problem. I am extremely shy when it comes to people I like so I'm not sure how it is going to work out but I have to give it a shot I guess. Can't live my life with a million regrets. I need to take chances whether I end up hurt or happy right?

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LIKANGRUI 8/27/2011 11:16AM

    Good luck when you pick up your glasses ^_^

this is one of those things that asking someone else might not help, we can all advise you this way or that, but i think you really just needed someone to hear what you had to say and say go for it, no?

he sounds like a very introverted kind of guy, and being a very shy girl myself, its hard for me to talk to people face to face but its easier if someone else makes that first move. so maybe making that first move to try to further a more solid friendship will help?

try asking him to hang out and what not and see how that goes, try to make it just the 2 of you in a semi public semi private kinda area.

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MYSCALETIPS 8/26/2011 1:46PM

    By older I mean by 9 years. I am 22. Maybe you are right but the thing is that my summer job is over now so I wont see him again. Plus there is a lot more that has happened just I felt that it was already way to long to add another like 80 paragraphs. So that is why she was pushing. I have never told a guy that I have liked him before and I feel like maybe when I do go pick up the glasses it is a good time. And also the thing is he doesn't care to get to know anybody. I am the only person that he outright asks questions like that too. Thanks you guys have a wonderful day too emoticon

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ESOLLING 8/26/2011 10:50AM

    I agree with the previous poster. Getting to know him better as a person will be better for the both of you.

It seems like your friend is trying to push the relationship a little too quickly. (i.e. asking if "hockey girls are hot" puts the pressure of romance on immediately) It might be best to spend some time with him alone so you don't have to feel that pressure of a romantic relationship. The more "real" time you spend with him with the two of you, the better you both will feel. :)

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DEE0973 8/26/2011 10:42AM

    When you say older shy guy, how much older?

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CRAVINSUCCESS 8/26/2011 10:01AM

  It sounds like this guy was trying to get to know you as a person. It also sounds like he could be interested in you too. However, take it slow and continue when you have an opportunity to build on a foundation of friendship first. When you already have "feelings" for someone in secret those feelings can cloud your judgement and/or perception of the person until you have a chance to spend "real time" with him. Have a wonderful day emoticon

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Just thinking. Guy troubles like always.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

I haven't been on here in so long and I completely regret it now. Just like that quote "A year from now you'll wish you had started today" or wish I had kept going. I was doing so damn good. Now I'm in the slumps again. Although I have been losing weight without even trying due to being completely stressed out from moving also from my summer job as a janitor.

It's not only the weight that is getting and keeping me down. Well I guess in a way it still is. I met a guy at work and I can't stop thinking about him. I don't know what to do. I feel like every day he is flirting with me. He always stares at me and teases me about random little things like me texting and playing games on my ipod and what not. Even a girl I work with has started to notice things like that. I'm too shy to tell him how I feel and I feel like I'm waiting for him to say something to me to make it obvious. He does do things with me differently than he does with any of the other women at work. Like I know it sounds weird but he hates to be touched and hugged so of course we like to make it awkward for him and do things like that and when other people touch him he moves really quickly but when I do it he doesn't move or moves really slow away from me. I refuse to hug him because that is just going to far but the other day I told him when he was leaving that before this job ends I was expecting a hug from him and he just turned around and had a little smirk on his face. I don't know if I am just so into him that I'm reading into everything he does or what but I just cant stop thinking about the "what if?" I don't know maybe it is just him but I don't think so. Me and the girl always tell him how cute he is but he thinks that we just like to say that to make work more entertaining.

After I tell people what he does they are all convinced that he likes me too. The problem is that I cant believe it. I never do. Even if they straight up tell me "hey I like you" I still don't believe them because I wonder why in the world would you? Do you not see that I'm huge? Uhh It is just plain annoying and everybody I talk to gets insanely annoyed with me because I Just wont listen to anything they say to me.

Well that was me venting. If anybody has any advice whatsoever please please let me know and tell me what you think. I'm like a 22 year old school girl. lol I don't know this all may be very confusing to you guys too because my mind is so jumbled that I am sure my words are too. haha but any help would do.

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MYSCALETIPS 8/26/2011 5:04AM

    Thank you for your comment. I have gotten to the point now that I don't care that I am fat because I am almost convinced that he likes me too. =)

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    When you meet the right guy, your size is not going to matter. I met my husband when I was maybe 30 lbs less than my heaviest (I gained it after we started dating). He never made me feel like he was into me because I was fat or that he was the best I could do because I was fat. He was just into me.

In my experience, relationships or crushes that started based on my fear of being accepted/rejected/hurt never worked. It was only when I stopped obsessing and just owned that I am who I am right now that things went better.

And it does get better!

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